Tuesday, September 30, 2014
TV
On ET, a guy wants to pick up a smaller guy who is too mature to like it but he picks up the girl who is played by an actress a lot older than me.
Why are blondes
so inadequate? They're just against all brunettes as a way to say they're the best 1.
Life
was supposed to be open, not making fun of someone who's nice. I don't like how the world is all against me, like some big force.
I only called someone the n word because I thought they wanted me to.
Then, I got noises in my room and almost cursed out Ellen so was upset when my dad upset me instead.
I only called someone the n word because I thought they wanted me to.
Then, I got noises in my room and almost cursed out Ellen so was upset when my dad upset me instead.
We need more..
I'm watching ET and there's now only 1 ET, not 2 ETs, 1. We want more 80s movies and 90s music. So, encourage people who are talented or interested.
There's no "we have enough." We have nothing.
There's no "we have enough." We have nothing.
Question
Sorry, I was bottled up, but it seemed weird that people would mar themselves because of something I did.
I was going to check my mail on Yahoo! and found this..
..https://screen.yahoo.com/cute-and-inspiring/inland-empire-mother-makes-ultimate-012500439.html
It was so sad, and I'm always a bit teary.
It was so sad, and I'm always a bit teary.
What's all this?
My dad can't tell me what's going on socially. I didn't "not do" something because my dad or Ellen says so, like telling me I don't fit in socially a certain way.
Closing off nice people
is not nice.
I can see all the men in their 60s vying for Ellen, like she is their own. Who are they to do that? They didn't listen. They are rash. Deciding what's popular.
I can see all the men in their 60s vying for Ellen, like she is their own. Who are they to do that? They didn't listen. They are rash. Deciding what's popular.
So
I just did a core and upper workout for about 4 minutes. It makes a difference and tires me out.
I was wondering about my own hair. It was light at 1st yesterday but then was mostly dark with some red highlights.
I don't know if I should join up and dye it blonde and have it cut short. It seems like you can't get famous and then do it later. It's like you have to do it earlier on or say I'm too young to do that. I don't mean anyone cares who's reading this maybe, but I don't really know what to do. I'm thinking I'll do it and get blue contacts because I see it doesn't work if you wait after everyone who knows you sees you differently. It did look good yesterday when it was curly/wavy/or like in wavy curls. I don't know if I should straighten it and wonder how much it costs. I asked the salon last time, and they didn't really answer. I am wondering if I should use over the counter products. Also, redying each month at a place is $60 at Dillards. From the shelf, you can now dye black hair light. It's just not as good and I'd rather not. In the end I will have $60 a month for clothes if I do this.
Some things are not for everyone, but if you do it early it may work. Like, I was gonna go for short and a sort or blonde. I'll have to think of something creative as an option for if I do this.
I was wondering about my own hair. It was light at 1st yesterday but then was mostly dark with some red highlights.
I don't know if I should join up and dye it blonde and have it cut short. It seems like you can't get famous and then do it later. It's like you have to do it earlier on or say I'm too young to do that. I don't mean anyone cares who's reading this maybe, but I don't really know what to do. I'm thinking I'll do it and get blue contacts because I see it doesn't work if you wait after everyone who knows you sees you differently. It did look good yesterday when it was curly/wavy/or like in wavy curls. I don't know if I should straighten it and wonder how much it costs. I asked the salon last time, and they didn't really answer. I am wondering if I should use over the counter products. Also, redying each month at a place is $60 at Dillards. From the shelf, you can now dye black hair light. It's just not as good and I'd rather not. In the end I will have $60 a month for clothes if I do this.
Some things are not for everyone, but if you do it early it may work. Like, I was gonna go for short and a sort or blonde. I'll have to think of something creative as an option for if I do this.
Is it in your vision of glory
to see me in my seat writhing over that which you think is right?
Like while you're onto something else? Something to keep me busy?? Don't I need that time to eventually have a career/job?
Is what I say degrading..or important? I'll tell you one thing, me and people on the streets think it cuz we are reacting to what startles us.
So, am I blasphemous or just personally degrading to you or is this post just a normal, innocent, regular exploring of feelings..which could prevent getting mad but make someone else do something to make us more mad?
I know successful people in this way can live a rung below or up but not on what I think.
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Like while you're onto something else? Something to keep me busy?? Don't I need that time to eventually have a career/job?
Is what I say degrading..or important? I'll tell you one thing, me and people on the streets think it cuz we are reacting to what startles us.
So, am I blasphemous or just personally degrading to you or is this post just a normal, innocent, regular exploring of feelings..which could prevent getting mad but make someone else do something to make us more mad?
I know successful people in this way can live a rung below or up but not on what I think.
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You don't act like
other people are a threat and that I get undeserved attention and it disgusts you and I deserve nothing. You want to hurt anyone who is nice to me, but you gotta let go.
Seriously
I know Lindsey Stirling believes she should be Josh Groban's wife. Maybe, she doesn't care about Johnny Depp.
A Person in the Crowd
A person in the crowd like Ellen saw me and wouldn't stop the feeling like she had her hands on my shoulders and I was quickly happy and dodged and tried to present her with others, but she didn't stop holding onto me. It was a good feeling, too. I did something right still for them, reminds me of the mothers that were my dad's age in school.
So, yes, in person, I would make sure you got your fill of attention. It's not like it'd drain my relationship or anything, anyway, I mean.
Later, I was outside, and girls were thinking we were all setting up our rooms to talk and meet. :}
So, yes, in person, I would make sure you got your fill of attention. It's not like it'd drain my relationship or anything, anyway, I mean.
Later, I was outside, and girls were thinking we were all setting up our rooms to talk and meet. :}
If anything happened tonight
I mean, I don't need to matter to everyone or anyone.. When I said creepy messages, I only meant what was implied to be important.
So
How does it feel to have people going around making fools of themselves only to topple 1 person, me, over, for fun, a display?
Actually
a guy I know I accepted said to find a boyfriend and have kids.. he said he was gonna. I at least wanted to talk to him.
I'm just worried
more than one person wants to marry me. We can work on it, but I'm not giving up everything for 1 person.
In fact, I am not ^giving up^ anything. }:] Meaning, a feeling that's unexplored. In ways, I always give up things, so why is this any different?
In fact, I am not ^giving up^ anything. }:] Meaning, a feeling that's unexplored. In ways, I always give up things, so why is this any different?
Talking About Kids
No one has officially told me they wanted to ^create^ with me, and I don't like ***.
Jealous
You're taking anything good people think about me but don't do to me and taking what little I had away.
You don't even come with proof and don't care if you're right.
And why do you say oh I know who you're really talking to?
You're questioning that I'm spoiled because of being bad. You just had to say it.
You don't even come with proof and don't care if you're right.
And why do you say oh I know who you're really talking to?
You're questioning that I'm spoiled because of being bad. You just had to say it.
What's your point?
Why are you sending me creepy secret messages?
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I hope what I typed at the top isn't the sign to go, but if it is then so I believe it is. You can interpret my raw thoughts however you wish.
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I hope what I typed at the top isn't the sign to go, but if it is then so I believe it is. You can interpret my raw thoughts however you wish.
I love a guy who can talk.
Josh Groban
Who else does? That's okay if you don't, too. I don't talk about everything.
Who else does? That's okay if you don't, too. I don't talk about everything.
Monday, September 29, 2014
Did you know
your parents can make up stuff about you and you go to a poorly kept facility for people with mental issues, a downgrade from jail! And your parents would have to be physically or really outwardly abusing you in order for you to get a court order away maybe of outside support .. not like if you say they have an attitude, but you know maybe, but who wants to move out?
Sometimes
People think things aren't okay that are necessary. But if they bother someone, I stop.
I thought Ellen didn't care about some things. Some things are big, and some things are little and we can't seem to control, like our subconscious actions. We need to address them as that rather than saying we literally meant it. Maybe, we soaked in some disagreeable things growing up and everyone does it. We get older, and people are in a contest to see how much they were able to be accepted as a person racially spreading their undying goodness.
I thought Ellen didn't care about some things. Some things are big, and some things are little and we can't seem to control, like our subconscious actions. We need to address them as that rather than saying we literally meant it. Maybe, we soaked in some disagreeable things growing up and everyone does it. We get older, and people are in a contest to see how much they were able to be accepted as a person racially spreading their undying goodness.
WRONG
Why should we support Ellen DeGeneres's popularity if she does bad things to be popular to keep people at bay?
Also
Wouldn't I be in trouble if I said it was okay? I am not gonna do it in any creative way if that's the case.
Something That's Honestly Not Okay
It's okay if you really like something, but I don't want to hear Robin Williams committed suicide because I did something to Ellen DeGeneres. I didn't, she did. I see some people wearing glasses, even all the time, now. The guy on Ghost Adventures doesn't do many new episodes now but made his chin stick out. He could put it back, but that's what he did. I thought of how a girl she and the girl's mom rudely insinuated "replaced me" because "I failed" in getting upset at the noises she put in my room had was acting tacky with a protruding chin cuz she did it herself.. acting weird about being over me along with Ellen. I think that's mean, but I mean I just was thinking about it. Ellen is acting like she is more important than other people. That seems to be why he did it, at least, not that I meant to "bring it up.." I'm just as nice as her, and I don't want that to happen for me. You all are just racist and jealous at the same time. If someone thinks all this is okay, I'd like to hear them say it. Why is it okay for people to do that? Did it settle some inner debt? I don't think so.. I realize Ellen is rather queer. She would think I'm being mean, but it's just hard to say stuff and I say stuff. Like me saying "I don't think so.." about settling an inner debt. It goes against what she seemed. That's not really a good thing to get stuck on. I thought Ellen was happy and liked everyone. If there is a problem, she can't talk about it exactly. What if I didn't mean anything and it was all defense. That's what it was. I don't mean for this to affect my life, my telling problems on my blog using curse words but not AT anyone or her usually. Not sure how to finish this thought except that I think it's mean to the other people and that they should be able to like who and whatever they want. What do you do about people like this? I wanna tell the cops, but they'd say I'm crazy, people like this. A lawyer.. A prominent health professional. No one should feel threatened by someone who should be on good terms with them. So, here, I talked about it. I didn't call for some professional to do it for me. And I didn't attack Ellen DeGeneres.
Sunday, September 28, 2014
My Phone
I got mad with it. I've seen people drop theirs on purpose.. :( I just squeezed it, can still call and everything, is a cheap 1.
You're all
sitting there imagining I am bemused at your instructions or decisions playing around with me.
You all are just a big group of clowns
and I have to pop all the balloons to get you to stop and me be in peace.
Problem
I just got another negative message and am being told I do something bad. They're clowning around at me, and people are mean to me. You can't get mad at me. I didn't do anything bad. I'm not even allowed to have thoughts.
Upset
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You just do something I don't like and say if I get upset at something else I get punished or say "I said something" else.
Why
were you messing around like that? I don't believe the reasoning behind it.
All you all do is make sure I'm not like everyone else.
I didn't say it was wrong.
All you all do is make sure I'm not like everyone else.
I didn't say it was wrong.
In fact
no one is "better" than me.
I've seen people I admire.
I feel I don't know myself but I don't want to not like myself and turn into an ogre and convince myself it's okay.
I've seen people I admire.
I feel I don't know myself but I don't want to not like myself and turn into an ogre and convince myself it's okay.
Like
if your dad embarrasses you, would you want him to touch you and act like he's Ellen DeGeneres? I'm trying to argue I do have a relationship. Obviously not the same.
People are who they are.
I don't want to be tricked into thinking my dad is some things he never was for me. That's like saying it doesn't matter who a person is, you can get the same feeling from them all. You don't like that, yourself. What if I am too old mostly?
Do you know anyone
who thinks they're the best in the world and don't have to listen to anyone? And if they do, they make themselves ^feel good^ ?
Problem
The Josh Groban fans are bothering me on Twitter, along with someone else..the things people do for Ellen when I'm trying to have fun on my own.
Well, the ones I see the faces of a lot.
Well, the ones I see the faces of a lot.
Last Night
Slept with TV on then turned it off 1/2 way.
Started with Stonehenge and battles in England.
Started with Stonehenge and battles in England.
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Upset
I had some good things going. I really don't know what to do when people think they can walk over me like that. I feel bad about myself. Maybe, I just won't care but walk away and hope someone doesn't get upset about walking away and each person starting to get at me.
Lots of Problems
I went with my dad to the store, and he put me in a bad mood. All the people were looking at me like there was something wrong with me for gritting my teeth. They acted like older parents were my parents. It was in a suggestive manner. I gritted my way through the trip alone.
I was gritting in the car, and my dad noticed. I was squeezing my cell and put it somewhere finally.
I wasn't too weird, only asked a few questions. I asked about making me feel something in a place. All I did was grit my teeth and squeel stop it. Why would I be in trouble? People were afraid to admit it was for anything other than my stomping. I did stomp some but only when I was out of control. I'm not submitting to anyone that I'm like a dead chicken.
What's up with people telling me I have to think badly of myself?
My dad was a bit sad more mad. Someone told him or he told himself that I was no fun to go with, but I learned something about shopping there. No reason not to go. Next time, I don't think I will.
I was gritting in the car, and my dad noticed. I was squeezing my cell and put it somewhere finally.
I wasn't too weird, only asked a few questions. I asked about making me feel something in a place. All I did was grit my teeth and squeel stop it. Why would I be in trouble? People were afraid to admit it was for anything other than my stomping. I did stomp some but only when I was out of control. I'm not submitting to anyone that I'm like a dead chicken.
What's up with people telling me I have to think badly of myself?
My dad was a bit sad more mad. Someone told him or he told himself that I was no fun to go with, but I learned something about shopping there. No reason not to go. Next time, I don't think I will.
So
I am ready to act.
Maybe I need more sleep. At home, I am relaxed on the computer.
Think and don't act.
Problem
My parents won't stop bothering me. I cut my fingers. People in public are randomly popping up overcoming me. My dad is like bemusing those who did things for him like he is always good. I was helping with the dishes and my dad started acting out as he handed them to me. I felt uncontrollably upset. I don't submit to anyone. He has entered my life cuza Tim Burton and gotten involved in and chased people from me.
Saturday, September 27, 2014
What do you think of this?
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So, what's your story?
Admitting things you have no control over?
Why are you mad about feeling pain when a Late Boomer feels pleasure..like a Late Boomer?
What?
Is someone gonna **** you?
What excuse is that?
Don't mind this post, I'm holding a conversation and figured something out.
It might not even matter, but now I "know.."
A Simple Answer
Deserves a simple question.
If you have 1 simple goal.. the answer is bound to be simple.
If you have 1 simple goal.. the answer is bound to be simple.
I don't wanna play this pointless game.
I do it in another way.
Anyway, a younger person doesn't get to be casual around someone born as a Late Boomer more than an older person. You're just living it up.
Anyway, a younger person doesn't get to be casual around someone born as a Late Boomer more than an older person. You're just living it up.
Hate It Hate It
What's in it? How can a girl with older parents outdo a lady who's younger? They're still that much younger, yea?
I wonder if they listen to their own parents, then. Yes.. It's true.
I wonder if they listen to their own parents, then. Yes.. It's true.
My friends are so giddy
they don't even know what happened. Smiling in my face like they could have it all.
I don't like the way my dad's acting.
I bet he told my mom no one wants to see her. Like she's not someone special waiting to be met.
More
I will add he put his hand over in inappropriate part like when something went on that caught our attention. He was giving me all these annoying signs. It just isn't right. It doesn't happen to anyone else. People thought I shouldn't live in Central Florida, but I live with my parents.
You be the judge.
I sit in the front at movies, and this time someone decides to sit by me but only because I had a naughty thought this morning and he knew by watching me all confident and happy. I blew it by squirming in my seat because I didn't want to move, but I did 2 or 3 times. I ended up stomping my foot outside and going insane at home alone, just like trembling.
I learned I can't always take the front seat, and I was ready, but this was just stupid and pathetic. I bought 2 books for this film.
I learned I can't always take the front seat, and I was ready, but this was just stupid and pathetic. I bought 2 books for this film.
It's been proven.
I should be in college. Nothing is happening. I want to spend my youth going to Disney. The funny thing is .. yes I wanna act and therefore would have money and time .. but I'm a feeble and poor girl now.
Anyway, it's funny when an adult compared to you says well I did everything right in my life, and if you did yours wouldn't you be happy? No.
Anyway, it's funny when an adult compared to you says well I did everything right in my life, and if you did yours wouldn't you be happy? No.
Is it right?
Maybe, it's not. I can feel someone squeaming away from me. Hurting me like saying no. But that person isn't supposed to be squeaming. Perhaps, they like other people, though, not just me. I've often thought of this and perhaps have indicated it aloud. I don't know if I'm behind other people with older dads, but my life isn't full of emotion now. Where can I escape to? Being alone and independent is 1 way to get things going.
All I Know Is This
No matter how good you are, you won't get what you want until you've messed up in others's eyes.
How do you tell the difference between people?
You think they are the same as their parents, but their origins are both different, and parents have different kids than who they are. Plus, there is indeed some mixing going on between having 2 parents. The mixing is due to the fact that if the parents are different races it has already meant something to someone that that spark isn't there that would be if both parents were white.
Mah Weh (My Way)
I don't like to submit to Late Boomers, but at the same time I don't submit to parental units who are even older.
Friday, September 26, 2014
You just don't get it.
I'm not the one who's a nigger. Imagine if we were all black. This is all Tim Burton's fault.
If someone does something nice to you
someone else is bound to call you selfish and forever love that who was nice to you in the first place.
and if it's even wrong, mean, selfish and pleasurable .. it's still right!
and if it's even wrong, mean, selfish and pleasurable .. it's still right!
Did you notice
stars today are threatening and demanding of you that you worship them in a certain way when they have all they need, like it "came up?" Like, I got a chance and now you think I'm outta your life well I'm not. And it's like yea I keep up with you and would love a Tweet but see you are far too popular. And your fans are wild but loving, like to see nice people interacting with fans.
I think..
..I've been spoofed to miss The Ellen DeGeneres Show. I happen not to be busy but should be. If I were in college, I could watch random clips online. The fact is Ellen didn't decide to want me off. Someone else. And she listened. I don't like that.
What if she doesn't really want me to watch any of it and me watching it became her "burden?"
What if she doesn't really want me to watch any of it and me watching it became her "burden?"
So
Is it worth it to keep up with any program?
I feel chased off them all. Seriously. This is so ***.
I feel chased off them all. Seriously. This is so ***.
TV
I watch The Ellen DeGeneres Show T-Th.. maybe M and maybe F. :| I dunno? I am getting weird messages that make no sense about when to watch.
A teenager today
can be ugly as shit but will still shine through with the magic formula of age prejudice.
Another Thing
People don't like fake hair, maybe unless they like the cut. I'm trying to be an actress.
I feel like I'm falling for a trap.
Like I am hated for having course, black hair and I'm gonna dye it and not like it and not know why until after.
Like that's the only reason I am hated. My looks. I didn't "do" anything!
Like that's the only reason I am hated. My looks. I didn't "do" anything!
Problems
They should not make me close to my dad and make him important like that in my life. Like, they're always wondering about what it was like around him. I mean in the bad way.
I don't know that I want to be "close" to anyone.
I don't know that I want to be "close" to anyone.
Let's try getting this through.
You don't care about me and what I'm saying, and my dad is very mean on the inside.
My dad admits he is mean, but at the same time he thinks he is just being strict and open to everyone in general in the same way.
In the end, my dad is messed up and not someone you want to get close to most of the time. Why? He is messed up. He looks at me "with love" that I'm disgusting like him, like I'm him, and I'm not! Orlando is super annoying. They did this. I'm gonna have to undo it, somehow. We never lived like this. Now, he's just an evil man like all the other evil men out there. My mom can't get enough. It's not that she knows I'm skinnier than him but that she and others actually believe I am my dad. Even if other girls are their moms, too.
My dad admits he is mean, but at the same time he thinks he is just being strict and open to everyone in general in the same way.
In the end, my dad is messed up and not someone you want to get close to most of the time. Why? He is messed up. He looks at me "with love" that I'm disgusting like him, like I'm him, and I'm not! Orlando is super annoying. They did this. I'm gonna have to undo it, somehow. We never lived like this. Now, he's just an evil man like all the other evil men out there. My mom can't get enough. It's not that she knows I'm skinnier than him but that she and others actually believe I am my dad. Even if other girls are their moms, too.
All This Shit Is Based off Of
Is the shit my x best friends think they got off me worrying and e-mailing them and they wouldn't e-mail BACK!
What Happens
People are paid to torture me, basically. They just sorta leave me hanging and won't leave me alone, somehow at the same time.
If you make up a point of reference
You'll think something else made me think of what to say. But no, I just post what's interesting.
My #1
I cannot say 1 thing. It would seem inappropriate. Yet, may I ask, is everyone's #1 after their self Ellen?
Question
How can Ellen claim to have been nice to me? I think that was some thing she can't claim. She is partly very mean, and I don't want to get her to show off that. I did want to follow her, and I knew it wouldn't be it for me because of Tim Burton and what he done. She already is intimidated by my dad. She's made to be that way. It's no use. Ellen, I give up. How can any person in this world be a #1 for me. Etc. I need some thing in this world I can trust, and it's not who it used to be but probably has to be a thing, like for some it's the beach.
Did anyone interested out there happen to notice
how much nicer Ellen is to Portia. I am me. If someone is amazed it's because I'm also amazing, like all the amazing people are, like we all are.
Why would the board, I mean world, bet its hide on the care of someone as accomplished as Ellen?
No offense, I guess it should make sense, of you read more than one of the sentences.
Well, yes, in the other way of looking at it we can appreciate Ellen for who she is, but why would she care about what people think as a group? She doesn't have to. She likes to admit what we already know. She doesn't know it's because people think we're shit if we're not someone famous.
Why would the board, I mean world, bet its hide on the care of someone as accomplished as Ellen?
No offense, I guess it should make sense, of you read more than one of the sentences.
Well, yes, in the other way of looking at it we can appreciate Ellen for who she is, but why would she care about what people think as a group? She doesn't have to. She likes to admit what we already know. She doesn't know it's because people think we're shit if we're not someone famous.
So so so
I am not here to hurt anyone. If you wanted attention before is your fault. If you want it now figure a way to get it cuz it looks like unfortunately right now is your turn, whether or not you are ready, the world loves you for your race.
I don't need parents.
I don't need parents. Parents don't need me.
It's just the family that's important. Not the being in charge of me, which has become messed up..I haven't really lived with people being in charge of anything I did as though it were bad. I wasn't bad. I was not cared about.
There is some thing in everyone where you feel a little that they are in charge of you but nothing hugely tangible in sight for sore eye.
It's just the family that's important. Not the being in charge of me, which has become messed up..I haven't really lived with people being in charge of anything I did as though it were bad. I wasn't bad. I was not cared about.
There is some thing in everyone where you feel a little that they are in charge of you but nothing hugely tangible in sight for sore eye.
You wanted care and perfection
someone to give a shit, and you got it. Isn't it totally ridiculous everyone finds fault in me? I don't care.
Thursday, September 25, 2014
This is hilarious
As your bright and tiny spark,
Lights the traveler in the dark.
Though I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
Lights the traveler in the dark.
Though I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
RED ALERT
People are dissing me thinking I'm like the best person anyone in the world could be. They are waiting for some little curl with fluffy white hair and sparkling blue eyes. I don't think everyone likes that. Sure, it's okay. It's just not better. Or is it? We can't all be that way. Like, old men, out.
My Love of English
I have an old best friend who was an English major. I encouraged her in Politics. That was her dream goal. Why do English for Pre-Law? Isn't Politics reading? Reading about naked people thousands of years before Christ? That was my experience in HONORS English. See, I wanted a well-rounded education, too, and I got one for a year. All it is is exposure. I don't remember it. I encouraged my old best friends to come to Loyola in New Orleans with me, but I guess it wasn't special enough with me. I respect her high intelligence, don't think I'm joking.
Early on, I feel I made the decision to do English more than History and so stayed in the Catholic school. Religion was so easy and made so much sense. I was barely conscious of what was going on. The teacher was from Pennsylvania, so pretty astute.
I liked reading fantasy and fiction by myself. I don't know what you'd call things like Alice in Wonderland and A Little Princess. Children's novels. I still haven't read a lot of things, like Little Women, Pride and Prejudice, Great Expectations. I may have owned a small version of Great Expectations. I remember looking through it. Now what? I'm at a loss? It's not special anymore?
Why would people who can read but didn't express early respect for it be dodging the darts as an English and Psychology major?
Early on, I feel I made the decision to do English more than History and so stayed in the Catholic school. Religion was so easy and made so much sense. I was barely conscious of what was going on. The teacher was from Pennsylvania, so pretty astute.
I liked reading fantasy and fiction by myself. I don't know what you'd call things like Alice in Wonderland and A Little Princess. Children's novels. I still haven't read a lot of things, like Little Women, Pride and Prejudice, Great Expectations. I may have owned a small version of Great Expectations. I remember looking through it. Now what? I'm at a loss? It's not special anymore?
Why would people who can read but didn't express early respect for it be dodging the darts as an English and Psychology major?
I think they bribed
the schools in Slidell to each have a certain problem, and mine was history as everyone complained. I did bring home my book to read for fun but never had the energy by a landslide. If I left, I wouldn't be in accelerated English. I got all the highest grades averaged in the end, but I lost so much sleep. I think I should have done something to keep my blood flow. I just didn't want to ruin my figure (shape.)
Stupid School
None of it is really building the soul, like history who cares? But we need to learn to read things that are worth it were it to exist.
We need to learn other things, too.
We need to learn other things, too.
TV
I also watched Lindsey Stirling on The Meredith Show. I waited the whole show just to see her as soon as it came on. She is so lovely.
Soaked In
Josh Groban on the Meredith Show
He talked about his life, the fact he is learning to fly. They played a game with paper planes where they both got bullseye in the 2 or 3 times they went, as they got closer.
He talked about how there's a Twitter for all his body parts, and I found it very funny!
He seems like a good guy to have around and seems to live a pretty good life. I wonder how he's taking society.
He talked about his life, the fact he is learning to fly. They played a game with paper planes where they both got bullseye in the 2 or 3 times they went, as they got closer.
He talked about how there's a Twitter for all his body parts, and I found it very funny!
He seems like a good guy to have around and seems to live a pretty good life. I wonder how he's taking society.
Interesting and Currently Popular Question
This is a part of my personal life, and for some people this post is not meant for their eyes.
Why would there suddenly be a girl in your class with a big nose when everyone's dream is to have a big nose? It seems as though some parents think their kids are not ready for a big nose or the parents didn't have a big nose and they think it should be the same. I just feel labeled the bad guy. I know, it sounds like we're complaining and being unfair to those with a big nose who are well-liked.
Sometimes, it was the shape of the nose. Mine went from smooth to with such visible holes.
Why would there suddenly be a girl in your class with a big nose when everyone's dream is to have a big nose? It seems as though some parents think their kids are not ready for a big nose or the parents didn't have a big nose and they think it should be the same. I just feel labeled the bad guy. I know, it sounds like we're complaining and being unfair to those with a big nose who are well-liked.
Sometimes, it was the shape of the nose. Mine went from smooth to with such visible holes.
Look-Alikes
JonBenet Ramsy looks like Charlotte Church. I saw a picture of her with her mom. I like her mom.
*jumps up naked from under the bushes*
I know very young people gave up on Ellen DeGeneres because her mom's last name is Askenazi Jewish.
*they still are waiting to catch you and see if you do it and have ways of making that not happen*
*they still are waiting to catch you and see if you do it and have ways of making that not happen*
Doesn't it seem like
there'd be more Portias for Ellen? Is Portia a locked up case? Not offensively speaking.
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
Update
I had to take out my ballet video from one of my Tumblrs cuz I realized I didn't have the rights to the song.
A Great Deed Doer
I think what Ellen does is great, airs a program hoping to infuse the current population with an hour of "laughing." You know, like "the people" she shows, poor black kids usually who feel stuck in the dirt.
I'll put this one up to my blog.
as opposed to up on the IMDb Soapbox message board.
I am very careful not to have any issues with anyone and to fix if anything's wrong.
What do you think about how I am always treated like something's wrong and there's nothing else for them to do?
Something wrong is something you fix, not something you try to keep on about. Things don't just keep popping up, like the same thing over and over until something else happens.
I realize that there's now always something wrong in the world. It isn't me, though, if anyone can figure.
It's a very sensitive and highly important thing to me, so me dealing with this is none but strange. It's strange because I care and I fear even with me realizing new things to fix that something will always happen.
Isn't it natural to feel pain when someone hurts you? When you talk about it without insulting anyone, why the problem? I am not really talking about anything, but I still feel something waiting pervading over me. I even sometimes detach myself from some things in order not to weigh the issue with it but not totally I mean.
One argument is others's insecurities allowed to be taken out on me as a precaution. I am told I can ignore it, but that doesn't seem like it's rolled out nicely. I would think something negative, and I feel I've been declawed of my natural thoughts and that now only words can provoke those feelings in me.
Lot of things went bad for me, and I can't seem to fix them, like it's someone else's game and they're winning, which is always how stories go when you hear them told. What's important? Because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, suddenly people are all attacking me and I'm outwardly and blatantly wrong, when I just told you I was like the only one who seems to care about being polite and let be?
I am very careful not to have any issues with anyone and to fix if anything's wrong.
What do you think about how I am always treated like something's wrong and there's nothing else for them to do?
Something wrong is something you fix, not something you try to keep on about. Things don't just keep popping up, like the same thing over and over until something else happens.
I realize that there's now always something wrong in the world. It isn't me, though, if anyone can figure.
It's a very sensitive and highly important thing to me, so me dealing with this is none but strange. It's strange because I care and I fear even with me realizing new things to fix that something will always happen.
Isn't it natural to feel pain when someone hurts you? When you talk about it without insulting anyone, why the problem? I am not really talking about anything, but I still feel something waiting pervading over me. I even sometimes detach myself from some things in order not to weigh the issue with it but not totally I mean.
One argument is others's insecurities allowed to be taken out on me as a precaution. I am told I can ignore it, but that doesn't seem like it's rolled out nicely. I would think something negative, and I feel I've been declawed of my natural thoughts and that now only words can provoke those feelings in me.
Lot of things went bad for me, and I can't seem to fix them, like it's someone else's game and they're winning, which is always how stories go when you hear them told. What's important? Because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, suddenly people are all attacking me and I'm outwardly and blatantly wrong, when I just told you I was like the only one who seems to care about being polite and let be?
Possessive of Their Kids
I saw a man who looked born in the 1960s and I saw Chloe Grace Moretz's profile and it looked like a baby.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
No matter how much anyone would try
Ellen would be closer to people with parents from the South even if your family is from Florida.
I just noticed she seemed to really like Dakota Fanning, for example. Not to get snotty, but it seems that the world is changing, and people from the South only if having blood prior from there get attention..
I just noticed she seemed to really like Dakota Fanning, for example. Not to get snotty, but it seems that the world is changing, and people from the South only if having blood prior from there get attention..
Question
If someone "brings it," how does that happen to them .. just to make them happy?
Then, to show off, others manipulate them? Like when to be nice to who and do what.
I mean, so people bring it if they are sweet, shy, and get lots of attention, with probably more simulating private lives than the rest of us, to what they know? Someone just said this happens. So, I started to wonder. I apparently am not finished..or am I? xp People have a big deal with me when I feel stimulated, like some think I'm not supposed to do it, usually it seems that people one's own age would think that or in my case.
Then, to show off, others manipulate them? Like when to be nice to who and do what.
I mean, so people bring it if they are sweet, shy, and get lots of attention, with probably more simulating private lives than the rest of us, to what they know? Someone just said this happens. So, I started to wonder. I apparently am not finished..or am I? xp People have a big deal with me when I feel stimulated, like some think I'm not supposed to do it, usually it seems that people one's own age would think that or in my case.
I dunno
If I call my Gramma outside
there'll be cars and some people
I need to ask my dad for the #
Dunno if it's sleep time or something, for her and otherwise me
there'll be cars and some people
I need to ask my dad for the #
Dunno if it's sleep time or something, for her and otherwise me
Did you ever notice
they treat people born in the late 1950s and early 1960s like they are so special?
Gramma can you hear me?
I need to call her sometime when I'm out walking. I feel so sluggish when on the phone at home.
I thought the English
wanted straight for New York or something. You know, it's great, and they're a pure and original heritage.
What will my dad do when he finds out
he likes Ellen and not me because of him?
Of course, I support his getting better as a person and might have solidified this desire in magnification. Something did happen, I felt cornered that he'd be whining in an attractive way.
Of course, I support his getting better as a person and might have solidified this desire in magnification. Something did happen, I felt cornered that he'd be whining in an attractive way.
TV
The Voice needs to be proclaimed its specialization in POP music and not like it could be classical. It was like that on Rising Star, though.
You think you're here to wait around
and take over my life? Prolong it until I'm too old to establish one?
IMDb - The Soapbox
I might take voice lessons.
It costs $300/month. That's $75/week. I took from a theater and speech specialist for $200/month as a deal.I was wondering if I should try and land on Broadway or just keep trying to be an actor through an agency.
I need to add power to my voice, again, and a voice teacher can infuse that capability.
Otherwise, I go to Disney World each week, would have to give it up.
He is saying he's like a temporary influence. He has a Masters, I dunno.
Then, I can't dye my hair. I think I could make a good actor as is. I have experience in high school, which seems most important.
Startled
There is no romantic generation of people finish off their silly mood like a teenager while in their 20s making babies born then unable to survive in the wild.
Treating people my age like Late Boomers were teenagers when I was born at the late ages of 25-30..
I don't want to "get 'something' started."
Like they're a baby and the center of attention in some global movement.
Will all Late Boomers end up in trouble?
Disregard my dad's or others's insecurities. I won't end up without anyone as a parental unit to me. Even people less than a year older do what that is.
What about my dad's generation?
Treating people my age like Late Boomers were teenagers when I was born at the late ages of 25-30..
I don't want to "get 'something' started."
Like they're a baby and the center of attention in some global movement.
Will all Late Boomers end up in trouble?
Disregard my dad's or others's insecurities. I won't end up without anyone as a parental unit to me. Even people less than a year older do what that is.
What about my dad's generation?
Monday, September 22, 2014
Problems
How is it helping me if someone is ordering my mom to do mean things and my dad won't stop. If I lived alone, my dad would "send out messages" via other people.
Maybe, these things should be my mom's decision and not based on the forces of others.
Maybe, these things should be my mom's decision and not based on the forces of others.
What About the Sentiment and Mood
Of oh let's just totally forget about the sentiments and feelings of people and just go out and have the most fun and forget about the feelings of that which is most sensitive, like let's celebrate with fun stuff and not what mattered? I don't mean anyone in particular but know who does what.
It seems
to be contrary to who they are and their beliefs. Why not everyone be like that? Why just compare her to me like that?
Problem
Now, they're saying someone else is just all that jazz even with babies, like I won't know what to do.
See
You all keep bothering me and wasting my time. So, I don't have time to call my Gramma.
She popped out all a sudden sounding like someone is suddenly all this calculated better than me. Telling me I can't be what I want!
She popped out all a sudden sounding like someone is suddenly all this calculated better than me. Telling me I can't be what I want!
I am worried.
Ellen must be tired of me, like she was able to get it over with with me. Why would she need to do that? I can't be in on the show? It's all dirt in that sense, my interest?
Well, my mom just made me mad.
I was putting dishes in the sink and in the process didn't stop pushing the dishes and it made a loud noise, didn't initially intend for it. She's sick! Stop it!
A car just drove by and for some reason messed up my head, my ear placement.
A car just drove by and for some reason messed up my head, my ear placement.
It's funny..
..you don't have to waste time worrying about half Asians cuza me cuz I used to be treated with respect in certain ways at some points in school. It was a normal thing for me to be well-accepted and happy. However, people did base the fact on they knew me when I was skinnier but not as pretty.
Problem
Now, I'm getting messages, whether she's real or not, that like she's crying and doesn't want to be strong for other people like me. Then, what are we supposed to make of her show? I did sit through it last time, but I don't feel it was a good time for me. I mean last season that's how it was. I hope she herself was okay or is now and doesn't feel in danger of it happening again.
Good Side
Before this becomes an Ellen taco, I wanted to say that she has a lot of good things going. I just am feeling funny about this not supposed to watch her. I might, anyway, so she don't feel her being obliged to tell people they can watch her show.
You know, ever since I took class from a certain lady, things seemed like they had to mean something other than what they said, but it seems too much to where I'm not listening to anything I don't like.
You know, ever since I took class from a certain lady, things seemed like they had to mean something other than what they said, but it seems too much to where I'm not listening to anything I don't like.
Not Fun
Ellen was practicing exerting self-pity after seeing Johnny Depp that I watch her show each day.. I had thought or said people should watch her show sometimes assuming too busy for all the time. Think that's what it was? Like, she was acting outwardly like she was crying or something swinging around shaking her head and stuff at that time. Does anyone feel sorry for her?
So
All Ellen had to say for me was the annoying noises in my room? I can't even watch the show? What is she claiming to have done that was nice without all these stuff? She also seemed nervous about whether or not I call my Gramma each day. I do need to call her, but I feel outspoken sometimes.
Does
Ellen have the right to be mad at me for cursing about the noises in my room? She's chasing me from watching her show and putting other people's faces in my life like I did that to people watching her show, which is what she did.
But then she wishes I watched the show supposedly like it matters then? Does she even care about people who are younger than her?
I said I'd watch T-Th now, and I thought she was violent in secret code and acting like a mangy cat looking for pity that I go away on Fridays and not watch the afternoon show. Then, she could possibly know I go to Disneys, but I slept in today. What do I do? Assume it's her fault she's mad at me, at least? I never wanted to attack her initially. She attacked me and keeps acting like she said it was pretend or something, but it hurt.
But then she wishes I watched the show supposedly like it matters then? Does she even care about people who are younger than her?
I said I'd watch T-Th now, and I thought she was violent in secret code and acting like a mangy cat looking for pity that I go away on Fridays and not watch the afternoon show. Then, she could possibly know I go to Disneys, but I slept in today. What do I do? Assume it's her fault she's mad at me, at least? I never wanted to attack her initially. She attacked me and keeps acting like she said it was pretend or something, but it hurt.
What?
Supposedly, I can watch TV but not her show as often as I had? Is she getting older "kids" or young adults from watching her too much?
Just Wondering
Does any girl want to profile their dad like I have cuz no one actually treats me like I'm a girl it feels.
I mean, what could it hurt? How does a biracial girl have a relationship with her dad?
White girls are different, but I find when multi-ethnics comes in it's sorta similar.
I mean, what could it hurt? How does a biracial girl have a relationship with her dad?
White girls are different, but I find when multi-ethnics comes in it's sorta similar.
You older people cannot be trusted.
You're acting like an old best friend.
You say you are your parents cuz you're the ones who're modern shit and the earlier the generation the more like the flower age Late Boom sentiment being natural.
You say you are your parents cuz you're the ones who're modern shit and the earlier the generation the more like the flower age Late Boom sentiment being natural.
Why do you test me further
on if I'm so jealous I wouldn't let others have good things happen to them like me, but partly I get a lotta bad things?
Is someone severely autistic?
What's the buzz that maybe you should make someone else exactly me and me not me anymore? That would hurt. You don't make anyone worse. You make people better, and you don't bother someone else about it.
Sunday, September 21, 2014
I'm in trouble.
I stopped calling my Gramma a couple years ago. I feel I'm being pushed to talk to my family and never get to know anyone successful like myself. I do like being with my parents. I like talking to my aunt. I should start. I spend my time upset posting what it is on my blog a lot, tho. I wanna call my Gramma when I'm outside taking a walk, hopefully this week will happen. I'd like to call once a week, again, or so. At one point, it was every day.
What do you think
of my old best friends knowing the world partly is there to charm them, while the rest of us wait, just because I spammed them out of a fury. It was all advice and stuff, tho. I was worried about them, but I shouldn't have.
OK
So, think of actors. What keeps them going is more big projects. What does that say for the rest of us?
Also, watching Ellen can be very difficult. She tries to help people feel better.
Also, watching Ellen can be very difficult. She tries to help people feel better.
Again
Why are people pretending to be more withheld than someone such as .. myself? I am considered shy and sweet. I don't need someone to pretend to be there for me.
It seems
unsupported to have nice and organized activity. It's a private place where people just use it to go to Disney. There's no "feeling" about it.
If I were somebody
it'd be different. Instead, you all attack me for things I did when I was attacked then, too, and lost all my friends. They just stopped. Won't talk to me now.
I'm a nobody. My college and high school records are crap. I am not going back to put more on it right now, neither.
I'm a nobody. My college and high school records are crap. I am not going back to put more on it right now, neither.
You know..
..it's really lonely and frustrating, having a sick mom and only going out alone once a week to Disney.
I did realize there was nothing special about how I looked and maybe getting more physically fit again would help. So would doing something, but I'm too old for all that's provided to kids by high school and if they aren't "kicked out of their major" and uncounseled about things and forced to get help, like your plans they want to know to match what you do and when you do what or whatever.
I did realize there was nothing special about how I looked and maybe getting more physically fit again would help. So would doing something, but I'm too old for all that's provided to kids by high school and if they aren't "kicked out of their major" and uncounseled about things and forced to get help, like your plans they want to know to match what you do and when you do what or whatever.
Think about it.
The people born in 1991 have it so much better than in 1990. Everything is about them. So, they have something we don't that they fall back on. They're the age that shines.
La. is 1st class.
I am in a 3rd world culture.
Like, there was a murder of a couple with an attractive, sweet Spanish lady and a white guy who's obese and older some. The case was big over the gulf course. I know that what hits right away in that modern culture, La., they would be talking about how the wife would take advantage of the money and whether or not it was good for her, like if she's spoiled or deserves it. Here, they'd be wondering about killing the accused.
Like, there was a murder of a couple with an attractive, sweet Spanish lady and a white guy who's obese and older some. The case was big over the gulf course. I know that what hits right away in that modern culture, La., they would be talking about how the wife would take advantage of the money and whether or not it was good for her, like if she's spoiled or deserves it. Here, they'd be wondering about killing the accused.
Ya
Pretty foolish. Only a smart person would notice. I am treated haphazardly because it's through a screen and technology and not out in the world yet.. that's what I'm concerned about, that it's like this at all, even if just because I'm behind a screen and not active in some thing in the media.
Now
I'm debating going to bed.. dunno if I should restart this machine. Some browsers don't work. TV?
The thing is..
..I'm not exactly over it. It's kinda like m********ing to think about, which isn't too easy to slip the handle of.
I'm NOT gonna
make you wait and not find me and wonder if I'm out hiding waiting to make fun of you and take all you have.
So
I have a blog, I show I'm a real person, I'm there for you as far as being a real person who talks normally~
I was feeling bad a Florida zoo kicked me off their Twitter. I said they were being racist to me. I honestly can't get over it cuz Ellen did it partly seriously and partly in fun.
I was feeling bad a Florida zoo kicked me off their Twitter. I said they were being racist to me. I honestly can't get over it cuz Ellen did it partly seriously and partly in fun.
A Bottle of Fun
She's stopped up alcohol waiting to happen (instead of saying whiskey or beer - and she does drink.) Sorry if you don't like the alcohol part, but it's a compliment.
I'm taking a quiz online and I chose art over love.
I'm taking a quiz online and I chose art over love.
I know she's making a joke.
When she inconveniently hurts me and mars my life, it's not to teach me but to hurt me. Then, she acts all silly to make fun of people. She's not there for anyone herself, always so stand-offish, why go in and influence others's lives like that? Telling them they can't be there for anyone cuz they put them in trauma?
Apology
No matter how much anyone cares didn't make the situation better.
Also, I was told not to touch anyone's children, supposedly by some.
Also, I was told not to touch anyone's children, supposedly by some.
Well
Ellen wasn't like this before. What got into her? If I'm hurt, I might get upset. Maybe, it's unhealthy for her.
I just don't like
babying Ellen. Why do people who are younger than her do it? Maybe, it's a trick for her to be more advanced and less stamped.
Say
Would it be easier on someone else how Ellen is to them? Same with other interesting issues I'm waiting for a reaction from.
So
What about the relationship of hair color. It really is hard to get strawberry hair, but I had it, sometimes. People wanted us to produce strawberry hair. So, that's not white. I'm gonna dye it.
Question
How did Ellen get light hair? Her brother has dark hair! My brother's hair was lighter at one point. His eyes weren't. My parents have darker hair overall. Mine can turn different colors. I don't like being shown I'm like everyone else. Does that mean their parents are inadequate? Stop telling me mine are, then. I don't wanna be tested. I don't want Orlando to happen. My parents don't feel safe about me on my own but told me to get out lots of times. When I finally was, they said no. I was probably gonna be a secretary in Miami.
Her mom wouldn't like how she boasts about her white hair. She's just a baby. I can look up to her mom. Then, why watch her? She just teases us about how much better her life was and is. I could be soaking my time into a college spying out for mentors. I was gonna call a counselor to ask about what to do with my life. I do have a therapist. I'm supposed to mingle with other people at a mental place. I'm not really supposed to work nor be in school now. But the mental place is dreary and there ain't no Ellen DeGeneres there. Who's there? No one!
Ellen gets frustrated, I'm guessing. Again, I feel bad about that walk. I was trying to reach a certain feeling. I did't bump into thinking of her like that on purpose. I was also upset about something. I need to fix it and be nice. It's too late. During, I said it wasn't hurting for someone. No one seemed to react around me as usual. What is it? Her weakness? Like, everyone has a weakness..
Is it easier to have white hair if you're not Chinese? Black people sometimes have lighter hair. I don't wanna be Chinese. I know Middle Easterners are superior. No offense. I think my hair got darker in school. It was fixed in pigtails. EVERYONE wanted white hair.
xp
Her mom wouldn't like how she boasts about her white hair. She's just a baby. I can look up to her mom. Then, why watch her? She just teases us about how much better her life was and is. I could be soaking my time into a college spying out for mentors. I was gonna call a counselor to ask about what to do with my life. I do have a therapist. I'm supposed to mingle with other people at a mental place. I'm not really supposed to work nor be in school now. But the mental place is dreary and there ain't no Ellen DeGeneres there. Who's there? No one!
Ellen gets frustrated, I'm guessing. Again, I feel bad about that walk. I was trying to reach a certain feeling. I did't bump into thinking of her like that on purpose. I was also upset about something. I need to fix it and be nice. It's too late. During, I said it wasn't hurting for someone. No one seemed to react around me as usual. What is it? Her weakness? Like, everyone has a weakness..
Is it easier to have white hair if you're not Chinese? Black people sometimes have lighter hair. I don't wanna be Chinese. I know Middle Easterners are superior. No offense. I think my hair got darker in school. It was fixed in pigtails. EVERYONE wanted white hair.
xp
See
I was shy around saying I'm an Ellen girl, and in the end I'm shown before the whole world I'm not. I'm not! I just like her show. I don't know about her needs. Everyone thinks she's the new Christina Barrett it feels like. People used to care about me in certain ways, but it wasn't about being *** about things like being touched or made to feel affection thus and thereby. I don't have that weakness and soft spot. I am strong.
Why
is it all about how skinny I am? I'm a decent size, in a way, compared to a lot of the population! I'm getting there, too, and almost look like a normal person. I can't be beaten around the bush until. I am not rich. Even making 1 recipe takes like half a month's worth of money.
You know, they're waiting for younger kids and want to make sure they are on top and told they did it right. That's what people want over me. I'm a tortured soul. I had something in life, but everyone farted away. I had no good guidance but commands on what life is. Like, about how much homework I do and stress over which college.
You know, they're waiting for younger kids and want to make sure they are on top and told they did it right. That's what people want over me. I'm a tortured soul. I had something in life, but everyone farted away. I had no good guidance but commands on what life is. Like, about how much homework I do and stress over which college.
I just want
a nice life given to me where people aren't telling me to spazz out all the time and say I'm shit like Ana in Frozen.
I mean, I want to feel good as a person. That's what I need. I'm already complaining about no fame and no game.
I mean, I want to feel good as a person. That's what I need. I'm already complaining about no fame and no game.
Where are the people you want?
What about me? Why did my parents make it hard for me because of Tim Burton? I'm pretty perfect. You guys messed up my life. My stuff got messy at home. We lost home videos in Hurricane Katrina it so happens. See, and you all believe I am famous that I did 1 thing wrong and should get sent to prison or freaked out I might do something. Well, things were getting hopeless and I asked for exercise I did not get! I didn't mean any harm. Fine, believe I did, if you must. How is it apparent it is that bad? I felt bad I got no reaction I guess and continued because of it. No idea? Seemed obvious at the time. Wasn't the way it seemed. I said, "Oh, no!" when my dad came home. It was just a friendly joke for fun! Other kids say they hate their parents and yell and bawl complaining. Why aren't they treated like that? I was considered very good. I saw a little kid say when people were joking about the word "kill" "I'll kill you." Everyone thought it was cute. She ended up straightening her hair. It was super curly. And Tim Burton, that was the issue with the N word. I didn't want to use it, but no one believes I thought I was told to by him.
So, yes, I took off so I could be an actor, but it didn't work, and now my parents are at my back and I don't need them there. I can't seem to get anything straight. I don't like bussing to the therapist, hoping I will "make it" in Hollywood.
Did you notice something weird, that people don't want to entertain us but want to be extreme in how much attention they give me? It's crap, it's nothing. Not to anyone in particular. Some people have real problems, and some people don't. I mean that the world is soon to blame someone or some thing. It's just not great in a lot of ways. Pretty people will have their say and chance. I just saw. What about me? They will complain about fame. I thought I was at a certain par. Did Tim Burton lower it? I hope not. They were vicious about people being afraid of fame. What, so now I'm just no one? I don't have feelings? I can't talk to people cuz they aren't Tim Burton?? I thought he even said no to me cuz I was a late Johnny Depp fan, which I am not considered cool to for some reason. He has certain ways of being. He's cool, but he gets frustrated I must admit to be truthful.
What about me? Don't fight with me about me getting public attention.
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So, yes, I took off so I could be an actor, but it didn't work, and now my parents are at my back and I don't need them there. I can't seem to get anything straight. I don't like bussing to the therapist, hoping I will "make it" in Hollywood.
Did you notice something weird, that people don't want to entertain us but want to be extreme in how much attention they give me? It's crap, it's nothing. Not to anyone in particular. Some people have real problems, and some people don't. I mean that the world is soon to blame someone or some thing. It's just not great in a lot of ways. Pretty people will have their say and chance. I just saw. What about me? They will complain about fame. I thought I was at a certain par. Did Tim Burton lower it? I hope not. They were vicious about people being afraid of fame. What, so now I'm just no one? I don't have feelings? I can't talk to people cuz they aren't Tim Burton?? I thought he even said no to me cuz I was a late Johnny Depp fan, which I am not considered cool to for some reason. He has certain ways of being. He's cool, but he gets frustrated I must admit to be truthful.
What about me? Don't fight with me about me getting public attention.
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Yer gonna have to
bow to me like you bow to Ellen. Are you okay with that? You know who I'm talking to. I mean, if you don't even go online where we can see with a blog, what can anyone do?? Is it okay if other people don't have problems?
If no one can find me online..
..we have problems.
We can't go around all wanting the same thing. We need to talk and accept what we have and do what we can. In relationships, we can practice consensus's, like that we agree a certain person will benefit pretty much best or safely or will be able to feel good about a certain experience. Like, someone has to talk to someone. Some people were luckier than others, I think. But I don't like the way all of a sudden everyone is supposedly on top of me. I found they weren't. Maybe, before, all that hard work was shit. Maybe. When will we finally get this over with? You'll be too old to be happy about it soon. I decided to do the performing arts at 18. I mean get it over with as in we don't have that much time and things lie ahead. I feel this has been put as a burden over me. I can't seem to get out and do what people wish I was "doing." Serving others as a slave. I did what I was supposed to, though. There's no, it's okay to be bad before but only for some. There might be a reason for everything, some things just accidents, whatever that means to you. It's time to fix things now. I think that it's not a matter of casting agents for the younger people but that they kinda wanna hold on the world while they end up not doing it. I feel I can't do anything because of it for some reason. I just want out. But I watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and feel pressure from it and like I did something wrong in the way I've been describing. I wasn't talking about other facts, like they could beat me. Good, that's the goal. I just feel frustrated I'm left alone online like it's not okay.
We can't go around all wanting the same thing. We need to talk and accept what we have and do what we can. In relationships, we can practice consensus's, like that we agree a certain person will benefit pretty much best or safely or will be able to feel good about a certain experience. Like, someone has to talk to someone. Some people were luckier than others, I think. But I don't like the way all of a sudden everyone is supposedly on top of me. I found they weren't. Maybe, before, all that hard work was shit. Maybe. When will we finally get this over with? You'll be too old to be happy about it soon. I decided to do the performing arts at 18. I mean get it over with as in we don't have that much time and things lie ahead. I feel this has been put as a burden over me. I can't seem to get out and do what people wish I was "doing." Serving others as a slave. I did what I was supposed to, though. There's no, it's okay to be bad before but only for some. There might be a reason for everything, some things just accidents, whatever that means to you. It's time to fix things now. I think that it's not a matter of casting agents for the younger people but that they kinda wanna hold on the world while they end up not doing it. I feel I can't do anything because of it for some reason. I just want out. But I watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and feel pressure from it and like I did something wrong in the way I've been describing. I wasn't talking about other facts, like they could beat me. Good, that's the goal. I just feel frustrated I'm left alone online like it's not okay.
Sign of Danger
How does Ellen take care of herself? Does anyone else care?
Because I noticed that she doesn't care what other people are like, she wants to get close. She uses the excuse that Asians "want" "her."
I would like to be able to say who I don't talk to in what way. I don't do well under the pressure after someone has made a statement I detest concerning this. I will go by and say it's just words, words don't hurt, but then I find it's, like, a big deal. I can't interpret "what it is" how I like, and no one will listen to what I say. I know there are nice people out there in the world.
Because I noticed that she doesn't care what other people are like, she wants to get close. She uses the excuse that Asians "want" "her."
I would like to be able to say who I don't talk to in what way. I don't do well under the pressure after someone has made a statement I detest concerning this. I will go by and say it's just words, words don't hurt, but then I find it's, like, a big deal. I can't interpret "what it is" how I like, and no one will listen to what I say. I know there are nice people out there in the world.
Just Need Sleep?
Why isn't there anyone in my life who's over and above my head and knows the next step to leading a horror-free life? The way people treat me like i'm bad or had it too easy?
Kids have parents telling them what others know they need to do, like it's important but you know since no one else says anything they think not really.
My life was put into jeopardy by others. They told us to study hard, but it was too hard. We didn't roll along merrily in school. It was also a stupid social scene.
My health is not Humpty Dumpty. I was freaked out when I moved to Orlando, back in Florida. My dad, since I am not perfect supposedly, made it sound like I was Asian or a nigger or some such at the table. He just said, "What?" all mad at me. I had to leave the table. I started off with pasta and hot chicken tenders. They don't sell those no more. When we moved, I found frozen hamburgers. I was tired of the Chinese. I was in my room all day. I just wanted to live. I didn't want to run into my parents much. When I did, there was trouble. My dad likes to put on an act, like he's on autopilot and means no harm. But we do back from his viciousness, like we have to admit his life is not ideal, which would make him mad to hear. My mom now has cancer and had surgery for her eye. That leaves me in dread, for I almost would rather go untreated, take a pill and no surgery. In fact, I did get a small turor under my brain that went away or stopped growing.
So, let's measure.. 2008 we moved to Orlando and by 2009 I was trying to eat healthier again, reasonable after being on a diet of lots of healthy food. I also had homemade pizzas. I enjoyed fast food, finally, more. Something got in the way, don't know what. I didn't make it to a fully healthy schedule. I just did some. Sometimes, I had canned soup. Things like that. So, I got on pills mid-2010. Something happened online, and I know my dad is there waiting for something bad to happen so he can laugh, like I deserve it and others don't. I thought no one was supposed to call me Asian. No one said I had to want to be, too scary to say. My dad got me Hot Pockets pizza, too. I don't like them much. This all went into 2012. We ate out sometimes that year. I ended up in college and took a PE course. I got kicked out, manipulated for no real reason. I've been struggling. We don't always have burgers. I had hot dogs sometimes more recently but not now. So, it's been a bit humpty dumpty. I had a practice of having vegetables by like 2013. I dunno, before I had spices. I could not eat like that now. My body says no. I have diabetes and probably still high cholesterol, need the pills back, which probably caused the diabetes.
I have stuff to make a sandwich, breakfast things, apples, bananas.
I started walking and jogging outside concerning living in Orlando in 2009, maybe midway or possibly early on. Dunno. It was freaky. I was independent of my parents then. Ever since the N word thing online with Tim Burton, I think my parents have filled some gap and been at my tail. They never do this. They started blaming me for things in the past. They didn't say it. Now, I've gotten healthier exercise-wise and do it more. It's not always soothing.
I don't wanna go around with my fingers crossed that I wanted to eat unhealthy.
Kids have parents telling them what others know they need to do, like it's important but you know since no one else says anything they think not really.
My life was put into jeopardy by others. They told us to study hard, but it was too hard. We didn't roll along merrily in school. It was also a stupid social scene.
My health is not Humpty Dumpty. I was freaked out when I moved to Orlando, back in Florida. My dad, since I am not perfect supposedly, made it sound like I was Asian or a nigger or some such at the table. He just said, "What?" all mad at me. I had to leave the table. I started off with pasta and hot chicken tenders. They don't sell those no more. When we moved, I found frozen hamburgers. I was tired of the Chinese. I was in my room all day. I just wanted to live. I didn't want to run into my parents much. When I did, there was trouble. My dad likes to put on an act, like he's on autopilot and means no harm. But we do back from his viciousness, like we have to admit his life is not ideal, which would make him mad to hear. My mom now has cancer and had surgery for her eye. That leaves me in dread, for I almost would rather go untreated, take a pill and no surgery. In fact, I did get a small turor under my brain that went away or stopped growing.
So, let's measure.. 2008 we moved to Orlando and by 2009 I was trying to eat healthier again, reasonable after being on a diet of lots of healthy food. I also had homemade pizzas. I enjoyed fast food, finally, more. Something got in the way, don't know what. I didn't make it to a fully healthy schedule. I just did some. Sometimes, I had canned soup. Things like that. So, I got on pills mid-2010. Something happened online, and I know my dad is there waiting for something bad to happen so he can laugh, like I deserve it and others don't. I thought no one was supposed to call me Asian. No one said I had to want to be, too scary to say. My dad got me Hot Pockets pizza, too. I don't like them much. This all went into 2012. We ate out sometimes that year. I ended up in college and took a PE course. I got kicked out, manipulated for no real reason. I've been struggling. We don't always have burgers. I had hot dogs sometimes more recently but not now. So, it's been a bit humpty dumpty. I had a practice of having vegetables by like 2013. I dunno, before I had spices. I could not eat like that now. My body says no. I have diabetes and probably still high cholesterol, need the pills back, which probably caused the diabetes.
I have stuff to make a sandwich, breakfast things, apples, bananas.
I started walking and jogging outside concerning living in Orlando in 2009, maybe midway or possibly early on. Dunno. It was freaky. I was independent of my parents then. Ever since the N word thing online with Tim Burton, I think my parents have filled some gap and been at my tail. They never do this. They started blaming me for things in the past. They didn't say it. Now, I've gotten healthier exercise-wise and do it more. It's not always soothing.
I don't wanna go around with my fingers crossed that I wanted to eat unhealthy.
Saturday, September 20, 2014
My Daily Command
(1) I don't know which is worse, I felt threatened to death, sorry. I really don't mean it. Better keep your distance. This is not the way. You can't seem to win for some reason. I wish it'd be over with. It looks like a sad joke of no point in existence.
(2) I let stream through me feelings of what it's like to be a mom I mean a daughter of a mom born in the earlier 1950s and maybe 1940s, probably. I was fed up with the prejudice that existed that just made things difficult for me. I didn't at all mean any harm and felt sorta tied up. Something that happened was people acted like I could not act like an adult to children because I was mad about the zoo in Florida blocking me on Twitter. I don't think I did the stupid things people said not to do. I mean after and "about" it. No one ever punishes me in real life, and I find all this very suggestive and bratty. Maybe, I should stop there.
(3) I was not born flawed like you think, in the way you think. I don't need brats from the late 1950s telling me I did something stupid all the time when I didn't. You can't just keep coming at me with nothing like that. It just can't be. What about all those other kids hanging over me with older parents?
(4) With the experiment and Ellen .. are you trying to chase me away from ever meeting anyone in the world? or just her? Is she more focused on this than doing the right thing? Don't even bother, I know it's hard to get anyone to do the right thing. It would be something corny where it's insinuated jokes against me. Why would anyone nestle themselves into me and make a thing of insulting me? Is it the only way to have fun in this world, to hurt someone else? I guess a lot or most people are like this. Maybe, I'm in a bubble.
(5) I'm like any Generation X person. I come up being nice only to be told I am shit. Why do you even bother knowing me? 1 reason I don't move out, other than to be with my parents, is so the experiment doesn't do something fatal. How do I know I won't be affected somehow by people in my past life then, anyway? Wouldn't it procure lasting effects?
(6) Oh, and I'm concerned.. I didn't want to hurt anyone. I guess I was feeling sick and shoulda stayed home and slept. I dunno, tho, this long walk had to happen sometime. I walked and jogged with music for about 4 hours and 15 minutes. I was thinking to organ music. I was able to channel feelings through the music, but I was sad and said I wasn't trying to hurt anyone as I clonked through my thoughts of living with kids with parents born in the early 50s or 1940s. I was probably upset about the zoo in Florida blocking me. I told my dad when I got home, cuz I was said maybe what I did did matter. I wasn't out there to hurt anyone, but like these bumps kept coming up. I had to break free from the restraints of DeGeneres thinking in order to feel cool. She doesn't seem responsive of my being late 1950s and early 1960's style. Something seems the matter, hope no one is really feeling that way that they'd be hurt. Why didn't whatever it was go away? It seems like a real entity or like "thing." Like, I had to think like I was popping bumps in order to think of something else cuz it was such an evil force in my life. I was feeling uptight and like this question keeps coming. I dunno if it'd get worse. I think the cars driving by affected me. Maybe, I was talking back, but there was nothing I could do. I thought and was out there to get away from all this so I don't mess up but can enjoy myself and maybe get some exercise. Not even then? Alone with my music, with cars going by to make me feel like I'm getting quick attention? Maybe, I need to be careful when I go by cars.
(7) The people around me are supposed to be the best they can be. Sometimes, they are. I guess today I found that in the cars they are more vicious. But seriously, as I went, I was like no I am not hurtin anyone. Nothing happened. I guess it's my problem and I should solve it. I'm probably in trouble for not controlling my inner thoughts. That doesn't seem to happen to other adults. Do you think that makes it harder on me? To do things that really hurt me each and every day? When I got home I thought of death when I was bugged for being normal in Orlando, but I don't mean these things. I guess something should be done. Why arouse me like that? Do you think that helps? Shouldn't I be learning to counter these things? How does throwing them at me psychically help?
(8) Anyway, my intent is to not tell people with parents born in the 1940s that they aren't worth anything. You saw what happened. We lived differently than Late Boomers. People with older parents seem to bug me and not you, tho, you people with even younger parents and kids with more than what I have in regards to a family with younger parents. People just find some way to pick on me for no reason.
(9) I have bigger problems.
(2) I let stream through me feelings of what it's like to be a mom I mean a daughter of a mom born in the earlier 1950s and maybe 1940s, probably. I was fed up with the prejudice that existed that just made things difficult for me. I didn't at all mean any harm and felt sorta tied up. Something that happened was people acted like I could not act like an adult to children because I was mad about the zoo in Florida blocking me on Twitter. I don't think I did the stupid things people said not to do. I mean after and "about" it. No one ever punishes me in real life, and I find all this very suggestive and bratty. Maybe, I should stop there.
(3) I was not born flawed like you think, in the way you think. I don't need brats from the late 1950s telling me I did something stupid all the time when I didn't. You can't just keep coming at me with nothing like that. It just can't be. What about all those other kids hanging over me with older parents?
(4) With the experiment and Ellen .. are you trying to chase me away from ever meeting anyone in the world? or just her? Is she more focused on this than doing the right thing? Don't even bother, I know it's hard to get anyone to do the right thing. It would be something corny where it's insinuated jokes against me. Why would anyone nestle themselves into me and make a thing of insulting me? Is it the only way to have fun in this world, to hurt someone else? I guess a lot or most people are like this. Maybe, I'm in a bubble.
(5) I'm like any Generation X person. I come up being nice only to be told I am shit. Why do you even bother knowing me? 1 reason I don't move out, other than to be with my parents, is so the experiment doesn't do something fatal. How do I know I won't be affected somehow by people in my past life then, anyway? Wouldn't it procure lasting effects?
(6) Oh, and I'm concerned.. I didn't want to hurt anyone. I guess I was feeling sick and shoulda stayed home and slept. I dunno, tho, this long walk had to happen sometime. I walked and jogged with music for about 4 hours and 15 minutes. I was thinking to organ music. I was able to channel feelings through the music, but I was sad and said I wasn't trying to hurt anyone as I clonked through my thoughts of living with kids with parents born in the early 50s or 1940s. I was probably upset about the zoo in Florida blocking me. I told my dad when I got home, cuz I was said maybe what I did did matter. I wasn't out there to hurt anyone, but like these bumps kept coming up. I had to break free from the restraints of DeGeneres thinking in order to feel cool. She doesn't seem responsive of my being late 1950s and early 1960's style. Something seems the matter, hope no one is really feeling that way that they'd be hurt. Why didn't whatever it was go away? It seems like a real entity or like "thing." Like, I had to think like I was popping bumps in order to think of something else cuz it was such an evil force in my life. I was feeling uptight and like this question keeps coming. I dunno if it'd get worse. I think the cars driving by affected me. Maybe, I was talking back, but there was nothing I could do. I thought and was out there to get away from all this so I don't mess up but can enjoy myself and maybe get some exercise. Not even then? Alone with my music, with cars going by to make me feel like I'm getting quick attention? Maybe, I need to be careful when I go by cars.
(7) The people around me are supposed to be the best they can be. Sometimes, they are. I guess today I found that in the cars they are more vicious. But seriously, as I went, I was like no I am not hurtin anyone. Nothing happened. I guess it's my problem and I should solve it. I'm probably in trouble for not controlling my inner thoughts. That doesn't seem to happen to other adults. Do you think that makes it harder on me? To do things that really hurt me each and every day? When I got home I thought of death when I was bugged for being normal in Orlando, but I don't mean these things. I guess something should be done. Why arouse me like that? Do you think that helps? Shouldn't I be learning to counter these things? How does throwing them at me psychically help?
(8) Anyway, my intent is to not tell people with parents born in the 1940s that they aren't worth anything. You saw what happened. We lived differently than Late Boomers. People with older parents seem to bug me and not you, tho, you people with even younger parents and kids with more than what I have in regards to a family with younger parents. People just find some way to pick on me for no reason.
(9) I have bigger problems.
Friday, September 19, 2014
A Bit Weird, but It Happens
I don't want my freedom to be completely restricted in the end because I'm in an experiment.
IMDb - The Soapbox
Do you like the sentiment of non-Soapboxers better?
Like, compared to whatever you've seen available on here however long you've been?Even the Tim Burton and Johnny Depp boards weren't up to snuff.
I've been informed
it's not the way to treat that cat
guess they pulled out a message and passed judgement
guess they pulled out a message and passed judgement
Apology
For being so vicious when I got up last night and judgmental. I tried to balance of the crime with a punishment.
Imagine the rub
that those girls with white hair are getting, the ones who are like 7 years old. The ones with a bob.
Mad?
How would you even know my brother said don't post his pix online? He said it in a mean way, and Tim Burton and Johnny Depp made the world crazy and it hard to think and encouraged me to do it. I didn't know, or else.. I took them down! What do you know anymore? You're mean to me. You think you can say whatever you want to me and make me feel like I get too much physical attention if I ever got any!
I bet it's a lie.
I said that people were talking funny to me in the experiment for someone's satisfaction. I bet you're hurting me surrounding me with that stereotype. You can't control my life. Someone can control yours.
I remember I was forceful when they kicked me outta the class for their own amusement. So what? Something don't float your boat?
I remember I was forceful when they kicked me outta the class for their own amusement. So what? Something don't float your boat?
My Thoughts
(1) Why do we watch every day? How do we have time? I haven't happened to meet anyone online who seemed like they watched as often as they probably do. Part of the point is to meet other watchers. I try to be out there and link to my blog. There's a forum where you can talk to me, even about the show. You could get your own blog and talk about it. It seems Ellen has different opinions on her show. Maybe, she thinks the parents appreciate it.
(2) I forget now. Should I be watching the show? I dunno. What should I be doing instead? I can't get a good job that I know of. Maybe at Disney, but no car.
(2) I forget now. Should I be watching the show? I dunno. What should I be doing instead? I can't get a good job that I know of. Maybe at Disney, but no car.
Thursday, September 18, 2014
Problem
They put the red warning up when I post on IMDb.
I said I don't wanna think @ him like that, don't rub it in!
I said I don't wanna think @ him like that, don't rub it in!
Apology
for being upset, will try not to be
but how will we fix it? better than losing a tooth
Why are you playing around it's my dad!? I said not to!
but how will we fix it? better than losing a tooth
Why are you playing around it's my dad!? I said not to!
QUIT IT
STOP PLAYING WITH MY FINGERS - I SAID STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT
WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY LIFE
I'M TRYING TO SLEEP
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO START SHITTING STUFF
WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY LIFE
I'M TRYING TO SLEEP
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO START SHITTING STUFF
STOP
You're just being picky. I went to write this and they tried to communicate. You all did something to me.
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Wow, so I lose my Ellen connection? I am not my parents. I didn't do shit. What the *beep* IS THIS HORSING AROUND! Wow, then I would go and do something else and get back at whatever ailed me. What is done to me.. like this is okay? Are you trying to mess me up? I ain't bad. You all mess with me! Suggestions on my life! Not okay! Your fault. You lose. You rot in Hell. And at this point do not mean Ell'.
AHHH
AHHH
More Nastiness
I have some nasty messages to do with my parents. What? Are you kidding? I don't do anything to you.
My mom suggested I'd still need help even when I'm an actor, and I don't.
I heard that my dad can't "know Ellen."
How crazy is it that I receive this? I gotta post it.
I was upset when I checked Twitter, but I am!
My mom suggested I'd still need help even when I'm an actor, and I don't.
I heard that my dad can't "know Ellen."
How crazy is it that I receive this? I gotta post it.
I was upset when I checked Twitter, but I am!
Can't be mad at
what can be fixed, like all the trash I own being put in place. That's what I wanna do if I get money as an extra in a movie. I wanna fix up my room.
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