Friday, June 26, 2015

Why do you keep

acting like I'm ugly?  I am intellectual, sometimes.

What did I do wrong?

You think I want something special? in whatever way..  I don't mind not getting something in sensible situations, but I don't want to be wrong.  I don't "want want" in a way especially, but what did I do that everyone can tell me I always "blew it?"  Like, if I wanted a friend, but something kept it from happening.. not sure what that'd be these days.. I just can't think of any reason not to have a friend and people in people's lives, like a competition or horse race.
Wow, I may be younger than some of the people in this room, but it don't look like it.

TWitter

I'm whiter than anyone because I like it.
I don't do what I don't like.

Being Okay

I'm okay if other people get attention!  They just have graces that were restrained from me.  If I'm outta this world, you don't need to go outta your way to insult me for being at that stage of happiness.

What?  How am I supposed to respond?  The messages are snapped at me.  I get a bit upset, a word might find it's way to me or some liking, and then it's over.

i don't think most people spend time doing these things.

If..

..someone was being mean to you, would you have a right to get mad, too?  Even if they tried to do it in secret??
OK I said it.

I don't need to be constantly outwardly upsized to a Negro.
They keep inflicting stupidity in me.  Now, they are pathetically threatening me.  I had something to say..

Presented

I make myself presentable, and no one cares because I'm 1/2 Asian.  You all just go cascading onto the scene living up to prejudices.

Talking

See, no one can really talk to me right, but they'll like to talk to others.

I can't find the hole in the ground.

I'm ready for life more than many.  I'm living right now in my home/room.
Why do you compare me as bad?

New Audio of Me Singing

What..

What, did you do it til it hurts, say Christina is not what she does?
People like Europe, no out of the US.. they listen to others NO ONE LISTENS TO ME I'M AMEARICAN TOO
Just ignore that lady behind the curtains.
People are in tune to unfairness, why they react to it.  I am not.

Twitter

Why doe celebs Tweet?

Fantasies

You think my mom did everything for me and that I don't think or discover things.

haha

blondes and redheads

Wow, just like that..

..a fun 1 thing to practice for..
Are dancers today who don't know music "good?"

cont.

It's not safe to insult me in case someone else does cuz no one ever did and if they did I'd have a logical counter-fight.

Looking Good

You can look good being lucky but I wasn't.

Excuses

You just make them up to be mad and mean to me.  If something seems weird and you wanna say something, you make a reason.

Wha?

Why is part of your excuse false?  That you need to look cool presenting yourself to real Americans?  By saying I'm not that good.  You were just insulting me.  I am not afraid of communication or talking.

Facebook

People are "there" for me all the time, but they're not there for me.

Weird

I don't like the likes of ya'll getting personal in my family and going on parade saying I can't be.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Do you know why people seem trained to ignore my comments?..

Like on their blogs? They might get interested and then find I'm a 1/2 Asian. 

But what about you all?

How is your life worth it if you talk to people just because they only knew someone else?  It doesn't seem like a coincidence.  I know some things are to get me in trouble punished.  I'll just assume it is and it won't be admitted nor possibly noticed.

People are sure investing in this.  Let's just sit back and laugh and not let them change who they are to us, tho.

How Dare You

You can't tell everyone to present themselves as stupid trash and then it's cool.

I find this problem in different places.

Like, get a grip on the world and life.

I'm not gonna come on and have a good time whilst conferring I am just not really that good and need to be sorted out.  It's not right!  I'm not here to be an animal following along nakedly in the steps to life.

I think it's an issue of this issue I'm thinking.  Why do you care so much all of a sudden who your parents are?  Why do you think I'm just a copy of a human?  Everyone has copied.  I'm not up for the tale of a lie because Charlie and the Chocolate Factory nipped your hinny.

How-

How did everyone else get all dressed up for the occasion?  I thought I was already popular.  Popular people..learn to gain weight.  Well..

I was just thinking today, the dreams I had are..not really shattered.  It's not in the people.  It's in my Elsa doll from Frozen and this Finnish song and the people everyone likes.

AH!

What would..

..life be like in my 20s in the privacy of a dance studio in a class for adults?

What should we do?

I got a heart shape.

Who is everybody afraid of?

The big bad wolf?

Aha!

The webbing on the face is not an object of fascination but one way of looking at a face that does not exist as a "sole entity" "in and of itself."

Is that your way..

..of getting back at the world, stealing candy from babies, and robbing banks like in storybooks?

Weird Suggestions

How is having a "different" face a positive message to us in that it's to say we don't get attention, instead?  I thought it was to help us, not kiss us goodbye.  What are/were you people's parents like??  They don't approve.  The whole world is not weird or shouldn't be.  I mean, you totally changed the problem/situation that was asked of you.  Also, it's funny how it doesn't seem all that different/popular.  I mean, are you saying we don't need to have webbing on our face?  I know that is just one feature.  I don't usually even notice it.  It's just not fair.. I know some people are pretty convincing and it's gotten the world in trouble.  The answer was not "throw the world out."
..all the nonsense that's going on.

Block of Problem

These things don't just happen.

Weird

It was a sub-fight..
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No

to me as punished and at 29.

That's wasting others's life punishing me.

I TELL YOU I DON'T ACCEPT THIS FIGHT.

That doesn't mathematically figure.

What about bringing someone to our attention for who they are?  "It doesn't mean we have to like them," even, neither.
Did they intend to use me to steal things?

Also

It's for things I did as an inconvenience to me that weren't really intentionally bad.

So, I noticed..

..I just don't get what to think about serving people I know who won't really talk to me just because I know them.

Racism

So much racial hatred out there to get me.   I like being white, what's your problem?   And I respect and connect with Asians.

Now, check this out.

So, I'll get this.  You're really doing the wrong thing being mean.  Trying to make everything all nostalgic with me as the loser.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Will America have a race war?

Yea, no racial freedom of thought. The last message I got from this country was..

"(What?") There are 3 races: White, Black, and Asian."

I do not believe anyone had stupid ancestors. If they made mistakes does not mean their descendants are punished for what they did and do not do.

What does anyone think about that? If you disagree, that's illegal. 

Why

is someone else getting things I didn't get like they're a princess and I'm their servant?

A Big Thing

Colleges have Dance minors.

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Is this some sorta fight

where I can only believe in unpopular people?

This is my kinda thing..

How do you find jobs like this?  I'm all out here and looking.  Do you need an agent?

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I talked to some people and they don't automatically think I am bad.  They want to know what I have to say to them.

cont.

It's that jittery feeling governing my life.

I'm a good person.  Ya'll just put on a show because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
I thought if I was quiet, I'd feel better.  I just really don't like the lingering jittery feeling of guilt.  I wasn't mean to that person.  This person was mean to me.

I am actually "throwing things away."  I do not think you have the right to judge me morally.  You all don't make the rules for others.
Racist.  Do you wanna live with that?
Look, I'm not a problem, even if I  did something else really bad, there would be a logical explanation.