Wednesday, November 23, 2016
Not Fair
None of my grade schools had orchestras that I know of and my parents didn't let me take violin.
"Happiness"
Why would my happiness be taken from me and given to someone else, whom I do not want to name. Imagine, someone in the family, someone popular, ex-best friends, etc.
So
Do Late Boomers give off dizzy feelings about kids born around 1997/1998? They just expect more, like older generations did with mine.
I noticed.
Ever since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) became popular with Tim Burton as director and mostly Johnny Depp in the role of Willy Wonka.. Adults have turned off to making young people feel good.
Misery, Agony!
My life is very miserable save for things like materialism and the things I do to make up for it and being good at building myself up in certain ways.. etc.
Someday?
They are acting like someday this pain inflicted on me will stop and life could be glorious and young.
They keep saying I'm in trouble for nothing.
They keep saying I'm in trouble for nothing.
I'd already decided..
..my parents deserve to be free from my wrath.
Why, tho, when we go out do they act like I'm scum dragging behind with a thin, raspy voice?
Why, tho, when we go out do they act like I'm scum dragging behind with a thin, raspy voice?
Tricks
I ended up flunking college and being mentally ill because they pressured us to do too much work. They acted like that's what gets you ahead in life, and like that's the only way maybe to be the best you can be.
What They Went For
Orlando, America. They went for too much sexually. Now, there's nothing left to say or do, except when I get in trouble again for my private thoughts, to report that it happened.
I never said I did.
It's not time for me to feel bad all the time and play around with other things concerning this, inappropriate things to suggest. Is this some jungle gym for others to play in?
not really
but I feel a lotta regret.. that people think I am an outspoken figment of existence. When I'm just in my room with it together.
Getting a Little Attention
Isn't it crazy how people think only young people who prostrate themselves as an actor in a movie are deserving? No, that's their own problem if they are famous and don't like something about it.
I don't believe in England and Germany :( because/in that
nor any replacement country
because/in that they are watching our thoughts to monitor them and make sure it's all microscopically "judged" or we're out. How rude. I was around foreign exchange students.
😊
For Real
Why was 10 years of my life wasted because I thought Tim Burton and Johnny Depp had big plans for the world? I'm serious. I'm straggling trying to take on the violin so I can get back into real music, something I feel I know the feel of or something well.
While we're at it, what's so mean about what I said? It's just the truth. How else should I say it??
While we're at it, what's so mean about what I said? It's just the truth. How else should I say it??
My Generation!
Why only my generation they say is like a thinking robot that cannot feel any emotion/pleasures? Like, everyone else pretends to be stupid but have all the fun.
cont.
That quote is not intended to offend and is sung by a German boy in Pitch Perfect 2, so I just thought of it cuz it was about "a girl" or whatsoever.
AH! Caught this!
I'm not supposed to look too good next to someone Ellen DeGeneres's age but people younger than me to and they can. It was supposed to be an age issue!
I knew it! They blew it!
Other people are getting respect like I used to before I flunked college.
Like, they are being moved up to the right people when they do. It's a certain thing and I have a feeling for it. Like, they are going thru the motions and then they get special treatment. Me, people are all mean to me, and no one gives a care. They know special things are going on, and they get to do big things and people love them.
Like, they are being moved up to the right people when they do. It's a certain thing and I have a feeling for it. Like, they are going thru the motions and then they get special treatment. Me, people are all mean to me, and no one gives a care. They know special things are going on, and they get to do big things and people love them.
Feeling Badly
I always have to be thrown to the floor in reverence to when I talk about teenagers etc.
While I'm Here
I'm probably the biggest fan.
I collected stuff and drew them and always thought about them, like in bed.
I collected stuff and drew them and always thought about them, like in bed.
The Original 101 Dalmatians (1961) Cover
Did you know I had the books? I flipped thru all my favorite parts, but the characters are different.
About the Virtual Holocaust Here
I was a nice, behaved, good-working person.
Now, "Oh, Christina, we have to k*** you, you're a n*****." "You aren't what you wish you were personality-wise or as a soul." "We're the good ones who do and want good things cuz we're 'white.'"
Now, "Oh, Christina, we have to k*** you, you're a n*****." "You aren't what you wish you were personality-wise or as a soul." "We're the good ones who do and want good things cuz we're 'white.'"
Oh, wow.
"How do you get?"
You behave yourself and act nicely towards other people .. whatever they do.
You behave yourself and act nicely towards other people .. whatever they do.
This is it.
It was a trick. I got kicked outta college numerous times but not as a criminal. They are preventing me and others like my generation from succeeding. We aren't happy without school.
"Tell me, baby girl, what I need to know."
People in Orlando are shit racistly.
You know, you can't look into a soul. They are dull. They have nothing in them in that way. They have nothing to say to me. Nothing has happened. I'm surprised they know what 1 + 1 is.
They think nonwhites are shit, meaning blacks and Asians. They ignore them if they know they are black or Asian. They act like they are in the Holocaust, for real, and it's been this way. They don't deserve that. I'm serious, they acted like they are ^innocently^ recreating it here in America for greatness.
cont.
and this whole experiment. I was supposed to see my real mother and know my real age and have siblings and fun.
Failed Attempts at Talking to People
I liked my group singing teacher in college, and supposedly she was secretly watching me and to be my new mother and I'd sing and dance. My life became an experiment where people watched in private, her and random folks.
I liked a singer in an Irish group and started learning harp, but she was closed off for some strange reason, very popular and well-liked.
I liked my organ teacher and played organ, but now we don't talk and I live with my family somewhere else.
I liked my piano teacher in college, but unfortunately I had to leave.
My music teachers still are where I used to live in a strange city, but now at recent have fled.
I liked my theater teacher, but I moved schools.
I liked a singer in an Irish group and started learning harp, but she was closed off for some strange reason, very popular and well-liked.
I liked my organ teacher and played organ, but now we don't talk and I live with my family somewhere else.
I liked my piano teacher in college, but unfortunately I had to leave.
My music teachers still are where I used to live in a strange city, but now at recent have fled.
I liked my theater teacher, but I moved schools.
Is that insanity?
I didn't do bad things on purpose as a child. No one would ever get at me like that. I was very well-behaved as much as I could. I remember I got in trouble in kindergarten by mistake and it was considered bad to me.
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