We don't eat supper like before and there are never any mashed/potatos.
I feel so bad for making a loud noise in the microwave in the kitchen with my parents and feel so bad. I was upset. My mind felt small and preoccupied, like I was wallowing in filth.
I also became upset in an experiment I could lose my parents. I can't believe it's right that I have to worry about it, with the experiment. I just can't figure out what I'm supposed to do without feeling like a goody good.
I also feel hypersensitive and cannot calm down. It will take time. I have no one to raise me and keep me in line. My mom ignores me, and my dad ignores me, and the people on IMDb ignore my needs.
Well, I just had 2 pizza bagels and we were eating brownies earlier. I ate out.
My parents keep annoying me, well my dad just seemed to bring a problem up from the day like I can't forget about it. I think my dad is/being a bit ditzy. I hope that he gets better. I hope my mom is doing well, too.
I care about others, who are more like me, as well.
I'm not sure, I guess something came up I didn't like and kept being irritated and didn't learn anything.
I didn't mean to be hurtful. I need more time alone. Maybe, I could sleep soon.
Thursday, July 2, 2015
Next Thought
Why me being good do people think they have to be mean to me lying that it's "just in case" and saying only I am in trouble FOR STUPID LITTLE THINGS and you take someone else and surround them with sin or good feelings and me I get that. I'm one of those people, whatever my ethnicities and race, who made it and smile at life. People who make it who are also approved of racially get treated like they're the top of the bar!!
Always About Punishing Normal People
Why above all things do Baby Boomers and Earlier Generation X focus on people being "punished," like the younger generations? Why is it like the sole fascination? Do you, like, think we, like, did something?? You all have nothing for us, your precious kids. My life could be over today, for example I mean, and it would have been worthless, in a way.
Cradle to College
So, I don't deserve any attention?
Babies don't completely chose how they look. I am sorry to say some can be termed for usage of conversation as blubbery or premature.
You think babies who are born around Late Generation X and Early Generation Y are submissive to adults when they end up "blubbery" or "premature."
I was not like that as a baby and it probably was partly a decision. You think that me looking cute is saying I think I am something. You think my generation is a place holder or a generation in between real generations. I didn't say to chuck the other generations you prize but not to chuck ours.
You accepted Bella Thorne. I will disclaim that she was a cute baby compared to me. You accepted her as a cute baby because she was born when you want cute babies born, when Early Boomers are out of style and Late Boomers are just becoming mature adults.
You think my generation is being sneaky if they wanna be cute. Funny, you think Late Boomers and Early Generation X are mature when my generation are born, yet you despise and loathe me for what I am in regards to this.
You're all waiting for Hollywood for the results to see if kids born of the parents of Late Boom or Early Generation X make it the best. I think the previous generation is intelligent, of Late Boom. I think the later "made it."
So, no, I was not "blubbery" much at all and was not exactly "premature." I was not accepted because I was not submissive in being "blubbery" nor "premature." I was ugly in other ways, tho. Some babies just don't stay infants long. They develop a personality "in the cradle?" They think they are the ones that are on top. You kinda wanted me submissive by being "blubbery" or "premature." Yet, you don't want that of babies born in Generation Z. Why do you except them and not me? My parents probably made me uglier than I would have been. I didn't wanna be like that, but babies will be babies.
Not only are Late Boomers mature when Generation Z are born, but Early Generation X are up and coming in the world! Wow!
I do specifically wonder about people saying I should not be popular and Bella Thorne should. The fact is the fact. She is more popular and cool. Tho, look at this. There is a star who deserves attention, not that no one else does. Do you say, "Naw," and rub it in for someone else? Yes, you do. Do you share and take turns? No, you don't. Sometimes, it's only the people in the room that are involved.
What did I do? I thought my life was an experiment, and my schoolwork was too hard and none of my teachers, my parents, or anyone said to withdraw. You have your opinions of me, but at least I can ability the truth. I just wanted another shot. Why did this have to happen? I mean, my life being an experiment, I wasn't happy never meeting anyone nor feeling comfortable alone to think and stuff.
So, other people beat over me because of this? My having a difficult time switching from high school to college academically? Why can't everyone just make it in life and talk to people and learn to be happy, to change? I've cared about this already.
I know I became dysfunctional and depressed when I was kicked out of my major and singing in college. Isn't that "an excuse" or the reason? Where did my future just bank? Why didn't they just tell me to rest over the summer and take less classes but keep singing?
Babies don't completely chose how they look. I am sorry to say some can be termed for usage of conversation as blubbery or premature.
You think babies who are born around Late Generation X and Early Generation Y are submissive to adults when they end up "blubbery" or "premature."
I was not like that as a baby and it probably was partly a decision. You think that me looking cute is saying I think I am something. You think my generation is a place holder or a generation in between real generations. I didn't say to chuck the other generations you prize but not to chuck ours.
You accepted Bella Thorne. I will disclaim that she was a cute baby compared to me. You accepted her as a cute baby because she was born when you want cute babies born, when Early Boomers are out of style and Late Boomers are just becoming mature adults.
You think my generation is being sneaky if they wanna be cute. Funny, you think Late Boomers and Early Generation X are mature when my generation are born, yet you despise and loathe me for what I am in regards to this.
You're all waiting for Hollywood for the results to see if kids born of the parents of Late Boom or Early Generation X make it the best. I think the previous generation is intelligent, of Late Boom. I think the later "made it."
So, no, I was not "blubbery" much at all and was not exactly "premature." I was not accepted because I was not submissive in being "blubbery" nor "premature." I was ugly in other ways, tho. Some babies just don't stay infants long. They develop a personality "in the cradle?" They think they are the ones that are on top. You kinda wanted me submissive by being "blubbery" or "premature." Yet, you don't want that of babies born in Generation Z. Why do you except them and not me? My parents probably made me uglier than I would have been. I didn't wanna be like that, but babies will be babies.
Not only are Late Boomers mature when Generation Z are born, but Early Generation X are up and coming in the world! Wow!
I do specifically wonder about people saying I should not be popular and Bella Thorne should. The fact is the fact. She is more popular and cool. Tho, look at this. There is a star who deserves attention, not that no one else does. Do you say, "Naw," and rub it in for someone else? Yes, you do. Do you share and take turns? No, you don't. Sometimes, it's only the people in the room that are involved.
What did I do? I thought my life was an experiment, and my schoolwork was too hard and none of my teachers, my parents, or anyone said to withdraw. You have your opinions of me, but at least I can ability the truth. I just wanted another shot. Why did this have to happen? I mean, my life being an experiment, I wasn't happy never meeting anyone nor feeling comfortable alone to think and stuff.
So, other people beat over me because of this? My having a difficult time switching from high school to college academically? Why can't everyone just make it in life and talk to people and learn to be happy, to change? I've cared about this already.
I know I became dysfunctional and depressed when I was kicked out of my major and singing in college. Isn't that "an excuse" or the reason? Where did my future just bank? Why didn't they just tell me to rest over the summer and take less classes but keep singing?
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