I was gonna say something interesting, but I forgot what it was. I was mad at Ellen DeGeneres for being mad when she's a mean person. Why does she allude to our parents in ways we hate? I don't. That means I'm better than her, cooler, more popular.
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Something That Doesn't Matter
The bare truth is, when you refer to Asians mattering you want it to be real Asian shit you've known. Also, you can't hope for everything just because you're all white. Gotta make the statement at some point, or nothing will happen.
Substantiality
Why do people with fair features act like nothing matters but seem kinda like not very substantial?
Ate
I had liverwurst, 2 packs of cracker sticks you dunk in cheese, and 2 more of the cream cheese and crives crackers with spread. I'm not sure what I'll have later, maybe a hot dog? Probably cook some veggies, greens..need to leave a note for groceries and a trip to school to rehearse tomorrow. Too bad my cell doesn't work, didn't receive an e-mail..were supposed to Skype possibly, not sure how, don't have a mic.
Facebook Post
Orla, I just gave my friend who's expecting, your CD tonight. She was so happy to get it, and when we listened for a little while, she started to cry. Thanks for all you do.
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Ate
I had dipping cracker sticks in cheese and some of the Cream Cheese & Chives crackers with spread, pretty good stuff. You know they're sold in vending machines, I know at my community college. I made canned Chef Boyardee Macaroni & Cheese. It's pretty hot, for some reason. Maybe, I should leave an order for Panera Bread. I also want to get the $85 dress at Sears or 1 dress and sweater that's funky at JCPenney. So, I'm not going tonight, slept all day. Probably will go back to bed or watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" on my computer, practice for theater, possibly shower possibly not.. maybe go on IMDb. I feel kinda worked out, like even when I did ballet. I'm 5'2", though. Gymnastics has a similar effect if you're new. I don't understand why everyone seems so much taller than me if I'm like now 5'2". I hope to get 5'3", next. I thought I was 5' before. I'm trying to get my spine more condense, which seemed dirty but happened from the side flops. I'm not lifting my throat. My head could be bigger. You know, it seems that I just have to think of leaving after being stuck in Orlando pretty much, though I do like to appreciate it comfortably.
No Care
Why can't some people be hurt? Next time I see a presumptuous teen or rather adult on Ellen why can't we like **** them? No one cares about their "ad-vice."
My parents didn't leave me $20. My credit card didn't work at a gas station! And the guy was being a nigger. Also, their "ATM" stopped.
My parents didn't leave me $20. My credit card didn't work at a gas station! And the guy was being a nigger. Also, their "ATM" stopped.
Dream
It's hard to remember the 2nd clearly, but the 1st I was like forlorn and wanted to meet someone, like it was Ginny. So, I guess I wanted affection or something, so the person picked me up for a long, long time, and I didn't feel too big, for some reason. I felt pretty good but not totally, a bit like Kate Bush and Helena Bonham Carter. So, she was sitting on a stool in the front corner away from the door, and it was kinda faded and orangy, and like every once in awhile or every like other second or moment it felt she'd jerk me like she always was aware of how I was feeling. Anyway, I awoke feeling good and cozy, like in the dream.
The 2nd dream was kinda creepy. I know I was looking for a bathroom but couldn't go, even was sitting there where others could see me and it was normal for us. There were like fancy, dainty sorta elongated covers plastered in rectangles that were like dark gray in a big dark grey sorta cozy room that seemed kinda wet and not like smelly. It was kinda a dangerous dream I don't remember. :{ I keep waking up to bossy-sounding clicks that erase more insignificant dreams. Oh, put a sock in it. WTF you think you are? Hey, what was that? Look, I want my life, you.
The 2nd dream was kinda creepy. I know I was looking for a bathroom but couldn't go, even was sitting there where others could see me and it was normal for us. There were like fancy, dainty sorta elongated covers plastered in rectangles that were like dark gray in a big dark grey sorta cozy room that seemed kinda wet and not like smelly. It was kinda a dangerous dream I don't remember. :{ I keep waking up to bossy-sounding clicks that erase more insignificant dreams. Oh, put a sock in it. WTF you think you are? Hey, what was that? Look, I want my life, you.
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http://www.facebook.com/ginny.kopf
>:o Good, so you know about learning singing and having a good base athletically to put on a dance, though I'm not sure what happens in dance technique? Make it attractive, rigid, evocative?
(cont.)
I don't remember if my parents went to open house alone in high school but probably. We went, too, at my schools when I was younger, in Florida, and it was definitely and excellent experience, which I didn't think too much on. I did do ballet and choir, but it wasn't quite the same show. I never heard of private voice but found out my mom did. I think we couldn't afford it, and I did gymnastics + ballet.. I kinda regret gymnastics, but I regretted not taking ballet since we couldn't find a good school and when we moved couldn't find any school, at all. (The nearest was on the highway for maybe an hour, or 45 min.) The thing with gymnastics is you take it when you're a toddler and then you do ballet or you quit when you are like 5 possibly and learn to dance. All I can say was I was young. It was hard because all the other girls did ballet before.. I could not remember a sequence of moves.. never thought it was ordinary, since I'd never heard of it being okay and I knew I was okay. I did want my dad to meet you because ... I thought you were from San Fransisco. My mom wants to take class from her, and she gave me a USB to put your 22 minute critique on. She was nagging at me years ago on taking..accent reduction. She kept saying, "accent reduction.." She also went to Jillian Michaels's workshop @ RDV for vets, for some reason, 2 weeks ago. I went to a debate with her at Valencia on Wednesday. I might have gone if I knew, but I probably wouldn't want to since I mean I don't always go to that kind of thing and I mean would hope to 1 day encounter her in some other fashion. The funny thing is lots of people start dance older than I did. They are not as athletic. I just always felt insulted for having a dad born in 1950, as opposed to having a dad maybe 30 years older or having a family based with an attractive woman born in 1920. The girl in the picture below looks really sporty, thought maybe Jillian Michaels would like her athletically.. I don't know why I wasn't athletic unless I was in gymnastics, knew I could do lots of pullups and made it in the 1 mile run. I mean, I thought Britney Spears is an athlete. She looked skinny when she was busy and energized. I know ballet programs where you don't dance much aren't great. I'd rather go to your class than ballet. I don't want to do modern dance, as of right now. I heard it was better than jazz. I heard ballet was safe and a base dance. All I know is someone who doesn't do gymnastics as their sport and ballet as a dance would be fun in theater. Their voice would be athletic, maybe untoned.. maybe not very resonant. I just am worried, am lucky I couldn't do ballet as a kid because I lived in an interesting place. What would happen if I was pumped up as a ballerina? My mom is better off having done ballet and gymnastics. I think my parents had more time. I liked having a break from choir, too, which meant no music class. I just wish I had time to practice piano, kinda wanted to dance instead but kinda am glad I didn't, had fun at the modern dance studio but told my mom if I knew I wouldn't get in the class with my age wouldn't have. I was there 2½ years. How was I supposed to know to leave, was too late? I really wanted to get in that class.. Left because my mom wouldn't let me take it at 2 schools.. I had this nice friend in it with at least 2 other girls from my class. D': I did take a break and did adult ballet but went back and added adult gymnastics at arts school in New Orleans. It was a big thing to learn things outside of your main thing, like I know girls in dance would do piano. I had a friend who did voice and tennis young who I played with. She didn't do much voice and didn't seem to "like theater." I think people who are more interested in in the performing voice are shy about their body, unless they are athletic or healthy.. Not really sure where I'm going, I think, just kinda upset at things, my relationships, my unpredictable life, my whole past, some thing or another, like some really stringent school even in my age of glory.. I guess I was sometimes cranky when I did gymnastics, just wanted it as a side activity but could only afford 1 activity. Never even heard of theater for kids but know about being a prodigy or young success|avid recipient. I was constantly told that it was bad to want to do what you're supposed to in school and that you need to not live your life possibly if you want to go to college, unless you go as an athlete. I wanted to do soccer, when I was 17 and did a camp at 18. I did organ then, too. There were some sucky youth groups in Slidell, La., where it was based on, mostly, volleyball and had changing directors- I'm not sure why..but I don't know what my point is! D'; I was so busy, had gotten a bad grade in a sudden history lecture + heavy reading course where I retained nothing important.. at the time, I had opened my schedule and lived such a holistic life, ate a big breakfast of lots of healthy, very good-tasting cereal, with a big smörgåsbord of things. Anyway, so, now, I jog with weights and do floor exercises. The ballet training affected me greatest, and gymnastics gave me muscular strength, though I'm not great at pushups. Cross country, which I regretted, actually put me in shape, in the long run. I did it from the very beginning, at a public high school. I dropped a weight training flex start course, thought it started in January. It just seems like the gymnastics helped, doing it a lot, and then when I quit it was okay. However, I had this friend who did ballet, swimming, then quit. I'm sure the gymnastics helped, and doing it at 7 and more at 8 gave me the professional experience, though it became too complex, the flipping in the air off the slippery vault the catapulting into the foam pit around nervous children. I had this other friend in choir when I was there, too. Anyway, why do the college students seem so immature and young, like junior high or even elementary kids? You should advertise for gifted young high schoolers and 8th graders to come to your classes at night.. Orlando should start an arts center, but I really don't know how exactly it would work, guess that they would need a base public high school, definitely not at the arts school! I went to a play at my brother's high school..Bishop Mooore. I would go to the public, sportiest, grittiest high school or wherever I'm allowed. :) Anyway, I think there was a short, dorky girl, the whole play was 50's based on something I knew or heard of or liked even, probably had music inserts but probably not singing. I learned that there is no thing because when I was in Talented Music and Theater in my 3rd year I got credited for vocals because I was in those 2 programs. I wanted to sing in Talented Music but got in for piano. Some people joined my class, and I moved schools and changed hours (just realized about that) and didn't want to do it anymore. 1st was an older Korean girl. I still remember the song..normal? Filomel with meloday, sing in our sweet lullaby-y, never harm nor *ell nor charm, come our lovely lady nigh, so good-night, with lullaby. Funny they did it at Orlando Ballet twice. Why do you hear these singers have such angelic operatic voices like for a cinematic show? I know you have to seek out these things. I went to probably the best music college in the world, but the theory was uncomplicated and same with any course at all here.. It was so simple, but the singing was awful. It was just exciting. It or ballet, guess I needed both, was kicked out.. Orlando Ballet is strict and uncomfortable and didn't let me take classes with the kids|teens.. I went to ballet schools in the New Orleans area, guess they were slutty. Did a Nia class, which I don't regret, though. I mean, you have a college degree, but you don't seem to work with smart kids. So, I wonder like though they'd probably prefer you over Valencia professors to teach high schoolers. I mean, it makes sense that you'd work with talent at a community college. It's still a college, but I mean that's where older young adults go, I mean.. I know, though, I mean as a kid I didn't have a very long nor short nose, but people treated me like I wasn't white and threatened me for maybe not being that girl the Ramsy case. They thought my dad wasn't cool and my mom wasn't like stimulating|e********. Well, when I was 7, there was a popular girl from NYC and kinda a subtle group. Then, there was a girl from like the top of the southern jut of Louisiana or around there. I guess I'm having a hard time because like it seems that people think maybe my mom could have found a sweet man. My dad is cool but not very compact since he is born in 1950. Too bad because I need a place to live where food is brought to me and I don't have to work since I'm young and feeble from school still and prefer to see my parents.. I really don't know why you don't just go out and advertise to have high schoolers from the area come to your classes on Tuesday and Thursday nights. I mean, you could have like 10-15 different high schoolers each night who pass an audition or make it in time. It sounds like a Protestant Youth Group. You could just go there, too. Except, I don't think singing is very involved in that. You should also definitely had advertised to certain people in Disney College, like maybe 1s..dunno, maybe all of them, some have more time. Like, I dunno, the janitors would be more funny. They told me we couldn't perform, so you could have advertised to young dancers and singers and actors. You know, if you taught young kids who are like age 6 in a separate class your pride would go there. It feels like you're teaching people who are very fresh and who need lots of attention and some more receptive than others and simply supported by the world to the best of their will. Guess you need a class where only people who are a grown age can attend, imagine the kids would be startled. If you did a play, though, you should use real kids.. Solves that! :-D You should hang out with the community, at large. I sure like your classes that go into 10 P.M. You know, I leave around 11 P.M. on Thursdays. I don't know about other people, but my dad gets home at exactly 5 P.M. I imagine most people in Orlando who drive would get home at 6 P.M. I used to go to choir at 7 P.M., once a week. Saturdays are a good day for class. That's when ballerinas practice, not sure about competition team. You could offer classes at 6:30 P.M. or 8:00 P.M. You know, some organists for some reason are rich or something. I know when I was little I was allowed to be sorta a lose goose since my dad was born in 1950, don't know girls with dads who are less than 30 years older with a mom my mom's age. My aunts just like the reek of my dad. I could direct a community performance featuring kids. That way, there would be someone younger than you as a sub hub for youth. You know, I'm an experienced accompanist. I feel I was directing the older kids in your acting class. You might consider going back to where you came from, just it might not be as snappy nor snazzy as Orlando. It's very lonely to move. I needed a NiQuil, hungry and tired, had 2 sandwiches and dessert out today. I'll think about what I wrote to you this week|end. Have a good rest of the weekend, plan to wear my new dress outfit to both classes this week. Have some exciting things but spent $50 at Bath & Body Works, don't see why I wouldn't again later. Asked my parents for $20 since my credit card didn't work at a store.
>:o Good, so you know about learning singing and having a good base athletically to put on a dance, though I'm not sure what happens in dance technique? Make it attractive, rigid, evocative?
(cont.)
I don't remember if my parents went to open house alone in high school but probably. We went, too, at my schools when I was younger, in Florida, and it was definitely and excellent experience, which I didn't think too much on. I did do ballet and choir, but it wasn't quite the same show. I never heard of private voice but found out my mom did. I think we couldn't afford it, and I did gymnastics + ballet.. I kinda regret gymnastics, but I regretted not taking ballet since we couldn't find a good school and when we moved couldn't find any school, at all. (The nearest was on the highway for maybe an hour, or 45 min.) The thing with gymnastics is you take it when you're a toddler and then you do ballet or you quit when you are like 5 possibly and learn to dance. All I can say was I was young. It was hard because all the other girls did ballet before.. I could not remember a sequence of moves.. never thought it was ordinary, since I'd never heard of it being okay and I knew I was okay. I did want my dad to meet you because ... I thought you were from San Fransisco. My mom wants to take class from her, and she gave me a USB to put your 22 minute critique on. She was nagging at me years ago on taking..accent reduction. She kept saying, "accent reduction.." She also went to Jillian Michaels's workshop @ RDV for vets, for some reason, 2 weeks ago. I went to a debate with her at Valencia on Wednesday. I might have gone if I knew, but I probably wouldn't want to since I mean I don't always go to that kind of thing and I mean would hope to 1 day encounter her in some other fashion. The funny thing is lots of people start dance older than I did. They are not as athletic. I just always felt insulted for having a dad born in 1950, as opposed to having a dad maybe 30 years older or having a family based with an attractive woman born in 1920. The girl in the picture below looks really sporty, thought maybe Jillian Michaels would like her athletically.. I don't know why I wasn't athletic unless I was in gymnastics, knew I could do lots of pullups and made it in the 1 mile run. I mean, I thought Britney Spears is an athlete. She looked skinny when she was busy and energized. I know ballet programs where you don't dance much aren't great. I'd rather go to your class than ballet. I don't want to do modern dance, as of right now. I heard it was better than jazz. I heard ballet was safe and a base dance. All I know is someone who doesn't do gymnastics as their sport and ballet as a dance would be fun in theater. Their voice would be athletic, maybe untoned.. maybe not very resonant. I just am worried, am lucky I couldn't do ballet as a kid because I lived in an interesting place. What would happen if I was pumped up as a ballerina? My mom is better off having done ballet and gymnastics. I think my parents had more time. I liked having a break from choir, too, which meant no music class. I just wish I had time to practice piano, kinda wanted to dance instead but kinda am glad I didn't, had fun at the modern dance studio but told my mom if I knew I wouldn't get in the class with my age wouldn't have. I was there 2½ years. How was I supposed to know to leave, was too late? I really wanted to get in that class.. Left because my mom wouldn't let me take it at 2 schools.. I had this nice friend in it with at least 2 other girls from my class. D': I did take a break and did adult ballet but went back and added adult gymnastics at arts school in New Orleans. It was a big thing to learn things outside of your main thing, like I know girls in dance would do piano. I had a friend who did voice and tennis young who I played with. She didn't do much voice and didn't seem to "like theater." I think people who are more interested in in the performing voice are shy about their body, unless they are athletic or healthy.. Not really sure where I'm going, I think, just kinda upset at things, my relationships, my unpredictable life, my whole past, some thing or another, like some really stringent school even in my age of glory.. I guess I was sometimes cranky when I did gymnastics, just wanted it as a side activity but could only afford 1 activity. Never even heard of theater for kids but know about being a prodigy or young success|avid recipient. I was constantly told that it was bad to want to do what you're supposed to in school and that you need to not live your life possibly if you want to go to college, unless you go as an athlete. I wanted to do soccer, when I was 17 and did a camp at 18. I did organ then, too. There were some sucky youth groups in Slidell, La., where it was based on, mostly, volleyball and had changing directors- I'm not sure why..but I don't know what my point is! D'; I was so busy, had gotten a bad grade in a sudden history lecture + heavy reading course where I retained nothing important.. at the time, I had opened my schedule and lived such a holistic life, ate a big breakfast of lots of healthy, very good-tasting cereal, with a big smörgåsbord of things. Anyway, so, now, I jog with weights and do floor exercises. The ballet training affected me greatest, and gymnastics gave me muscular strength, though I'm not great at pushups. Cross country, which I regretted, actually put me in shape, in the long run. I did it from the very beginning, at a public high school. I dropped a weight training flex start course, thought it started in January. It just seems like the gymnastics helped, doing it a lot, and then when I quit it was okay. However, I had this friend who did ballet, swimming, then quit. I'm sure the gymnastics helped, and doing it at 7 and more at 8 gave me the professional experience, though it became too complex, the flipping in the air off the slippery vault the catapulting into the foam pit around nervous children. I had this other friend in choir when I was there, too. Anyway, why do the college students seem so immature and young, like junior high or even elementary kids? You should advertise for gifted young high schoolers and 8th graders to come to your classes at night.. Orlando should start an arts center, but I really don't know how exactly it would work, guess that they would need a base public high school, definitely not at the arts school! I went to a play at my brother's high school..Bishop Mooore. I would go to the public, sportiest, grittiest high school or wherever I'm allowed. :) Anyway, I think there was a short, dorky girl, the whole play was 50's based on something I knew or heard of or liked even, probably had music inserts but probably not singing. I learned that there is no thing because when I was in Talented Music and Theater in my 3rd year I got credited for vocals because I was in those 2 programs. I wanted to sing in Talented Music but got in for piano. Some people joined my class, and I moved schools and changed hours (just realized about that) and didn't want to do it anymore. 1st was an older Korean girl. I still remember the song..normal? Filomel with meloday, sing in our sweet lullaby-y, never harm nor *ell nor charm, come our lovely lady nigh, so good-night, with lullaby. Funny they did it at Orlando Ballet twice. Why do you hear these singers have such angelic operatic voices like for a cinematic show? I know you have to seek out these things. I went to probably the best music college in the world, but the theory was uncomplicated and same with any course at all here.. It was so simple, but the singing was awful. It was just exciting. It or ballet, guess I needed both, was kicked out.. Orlando Ballet is strict and uncomfortable and didn't let me take classes with the kids|teens.. I went to ballet schools in the New Orleans area, guess they were slutty. Did a Nia class, which I don't regret, though. I mean, you have a college degree, but you don't seem to work with smart kids. So, I wonder like though they'd probably prefer you over Valencia professors to teach high schoolers. I mean, it makes sense that you'd work with talent at a community college. It's still a college, but I mean that's where older young adults go, I mean.. I know, though, I mean as a kid I didn't have a very long nor short nose, but people treated me like I wasn't white and threatened me for maybe not being that girl the Ramsy case. They thought my dad wasn't cool and my mom wasn't like stimulating|e********. Well, when I was 7, there was a popular girl from NYC and kinda a subtle group. Then, there was a girl from like the top of the southern jut of Louisiana or around there. I guess I'm having a hard time because like it seems that people think maybe my mom could have found a sweet man. My dad is cool but not very compact since he is born in 1950. Too bad because I need a place to live where food is brought to me and I don't have to work since I'm young and feeble from school still and prefer to see my parents.. I really don't know why you don't just go out and advertise to have high schoolers from the area come to your classes on Tuesday and Thursday nights. I mean, you could have like 10-15 different high schoolers each night who pass an audition or make it in time. It sounds like a Protestant Youth Group. You could just go there, too. Except, I don't think singing is very involved in that. You should also definitely had advertised to certain people in Disney College, like maybe 1s..dunno, maybe all of them, some have more time. Like, I dunno, the janitors would be more funny. They told me we couldn't perform, so you could have advertised to young dancers and singers and actors. You know, if you taught young kids who are like age 6 in a separate class your pride would go there. It feels like you're teaching people who are very fresh and who need lots of attention and some more receptive than others and simply supported by the world to the best of their will. Guess you need a class where only people who are a grown age can attend, imagine the kids would be startled. If you did a play, though, you should use real kids.. Solves that! :-D You should hang out with the community, at large. I sure like your classes that go into 10 P.M. You know, I leave around 11 P.M. on Thursdays. I don't know about other people, but my dad gets home at exactly 5 P.M. I imagine most people in Orlando who drive would get home at 6 P.M. I used to go to choir at 7 P.M., once a week. Saturdays are a good day for class. That's when ballerinas practice, not sure about competition team. You could offer classes at 6:30 P.M. or 8:00 P.M. You know, some organists for some reason are rich or something. I know when I was little I was allowed to be sorta a lose goose since my dad was born in 1950, don't know girls with dads who are less than 30 years older with a mom my mom's age. My aunts just like the reek of my dad. I could direct a community performance featuring kids. That way, there would be someone younger than you as a sub hub for youth. You know, I'm an experienced accompanist. I feel I was directing the older kids in your acting class. You might consider going back to where you came from, just it might not be as snappy nor snazzy as Orlando. It's very lonely to move. I needed a NiQuil, hungry and tired, had 2 sandwiches and dessert out today. I'll think about what I wrote to you this week|end. Have a good rest of the weekend, plan to wear my new dress outfit to both classes this week. Have some exciting things but spent $50 at Bath & Body Works, don't see why I wouldn't again later. Asked my parents for $20 since my credit card didn't work at a store.
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