Question

What, so you believe everyone is a waste to their mom?

Problem

My mom keeps having problems with me.  (It might be because of Ellen DeGeneres, like many things.)

She doesn't tell me unless it's obvious, tho, that I am frustrated.

Marred

They acted like I had a prominent little dot on my face and now it's like that.

Problem

I hate my life.

I'm always with mean parents trapping me and the mean people experimenting on me.

Problem

They keep teasing me that I can't relate to others for my oldest aunt and say, "Well, what about someone else you seemed to like?"

Problem

They make noises interrupting me when I think of people and happy thoughts.  They also did other things.

Supposedly my oldest aunt and grandma did it.  Ellen supposedly feels she needs to support it.

Problem

They are telling me I am bad and don't deserve things I get.  It's about relationships again.  Not sure where this is coming from.  No one talks to me.  No one can tell me what to do.

IMDb - The Soapbox

I kept peeing in my pants today at beginning adult gymnastics. I had an Ultra tampon in.

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At least mostly white, I think.

I really liked her a lot. It was a sub who teaches intermediate/advanced gymnastics.

She whipped me into shape.

She is quite a bit taller than me but not too tall, reddish hair cut short, maybe with some volume yet mostly straight/waved. Not sure what color her eyes are. It was me and 2 other girls mostly. She is probably in her early 50s or 40s.

She helped me flip back with my feet up on a square thing.

I often get there early to watch the kids and I see her then.

Help?

I don't want anything bad to happen, but when I watched my dad take his insulin shots he had upset me and just kept upsetting me.  I know I was very mad and stomped softly telling him to stop.  He brought it up at supper, tho he didn't seem to notice before.

What if something else like this happens somehow?

Oh, and I watch him for support.  I always asked him like if it was okay and counted for him.

It seems others no but pay no mind to that he was being mean.  I didn't know what to think so wanted him to stop.  Why would he be able to be so mean at a time like that?

I told him about my beliefs about diabetes.  I said you can have something from the vitamin extracting blender I got.  The other pills most likely cause it.  You might need to be more fit.  People have gotten off diabetes medicine with vitamin extracting shakes.  He just doesn't care, he takes his shots.

I have diabetes, but I've had like 3 pills added cuz I don't wanna start shots.  I'm trying to figure out how to be healthy.  We all have at least slightly different preferences and taste with food, but we can at least all take vitamin extracting blender shakes/juices if we have a health problem.  It seems to solve anything to some degree.  I have not heard from cancer cases..  I happened to read cholesterol pills double up certain nutrients and so maybe you have to ask your doctor.

I think the biggest danger in Type 2 Diabetes is however you could get Type 1.. it seems incurable and you're born that way.

I don't think he likes a lotta gyms.  Some are more expensive than others.  I used to have fun working out with him.

I dunno what could have caused this terrible experience.  Well, he was talking when I was using the toilet.  It seemed to affect me somewhat negatively, like I know it was to annoy me.  I didn't know, was due to watch him.  They do annoying stuff to me all the time.  I tried a little maybe to feel better but didn't work.  I just felt I needed it to stop.  You know, these weird things did not happen before.

So, dunno.. would be nice to motivate people.

Weightloss Race

People who get thin by not eating enough/enough of the right things seem to be very catty and defensive of who they are meant to be.

Question

How is an Asian not a person but a black person is?

Problem

I don't like constantly being insulted by Ellen DeGeneres with Bella Thorne and other people I like.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres seems to have a problem with my mom supporting me and thinks she was mean to others like she wants to be marketable but is too nice to me.  I am an adult and don't need anyone to start "telling me what to do."

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Epic of Fail was interesting.

Bryan Cranston, a middle aged actor, seemed very astute.

Sophia Grace and Rosie were on.  The blonde has a toddler little brother, and the brunette has a toddler baby sister.

I feel Ellen DeGeneres wants to act bad emotionally because I act good and I cursed about noises in my room.. so that there is no way I can enjoy life, like I did something and deserve to be punished forever.  I think my dad backs up this.  I wish I would get help figuring this out so I don't have to be clueless here.  I told you some people in Orlando are so foolish to believe it's okay to see me driving a dump truck.  My dad and Ellen DeGeneres want me to know I don't matter and so wish to dispose of me ..because they are Baby Boomers and think only they rule the world.  They've gone insane thinking it's time for chance.  Maybe, there's things I can do without.

Also, I felt like Ellen made my chest feel like an African-American.. like I'm not white.  So what if I told you?  You'd never guess.  You give others a chance cuz they don't really beat you.

I just want to say here that there is no reason to discriminate against me as a person for racial lies.  I don't want to stop the party and the dancing and celebrating.

Don't you think Ellen really was mean to hurt my breast?  It was when the English girls were on.  Nuff said.

No one has the right to tell me what to do racially.  I don't get it.  She's just mad at me now.  Not much to say there.

I just know I'm right and it's wrong for people to get back at me by calling me the N word.  I am the one who was nice to begin with and didn't even attack when others did to me, so meanly like they did.

I didn't live with this before and won't stop now.  Who am I, Martin Luther King, Jr.?

I look white.  My life matters as much as others.  Other people are lazy but get jealous at people who are active racially.  They think it just comes to them on a silver platter, and it does.  They probably notice in some ways I seem better at some things.  I've seen adults.. when I realize there's room for everyone, they believe I am right and take back all the racism and say like they're stupid.

Why doesn't anyone wanna talk to me and tell me why they're racist?  I have to wait?  I didn't have this problem before.

Why didn't anyone help me out with Ellen?  I didn't want to hurt her feelings when she was mean to me, supposedly.  Whoever done it.

I don't want to feel like my chest is not how I want it racially.

So?  Anyone have any advice out there?  Guessing not or not to contact me.  I can display your message on my blog or talk in my forum.

You know, people think I'm a sin.  Like I don't have anything worth it to others.  I didn't do anything. So what if your dad is Elvis and your mom is Marilyn Monroe?  Doesn't make me rotting cheese.  You know, it doesn't matter what you say, think, or express.  I'm obviously not talking to Ellen.  Ha, I mean racially it doesn't matter.  I can say that.  You wanna fight that, tho?  Can you even think on that level anti-racistly?  Obviously in a bad way you can.  What point are you trying to prove?  If Africans were white, you'd accept them.  You're not the one being discriminated against.  You're lazy and have problems, like anyone of any race or species!

So, think, you're just extra mean to me cuz I think I'm white and you know I can get attention over you and you just freak out.  I have this problem with thousands or millions of people I see.

Technically, you think I have something wrong racially that I don't see, like some fine details.  I am not racist against Asians, but I don't.  You even get very jealous of Asians.  That's why kids act out unknowingly.

I do get alone with people disinterested in me cuz they know my race already.  Aha!  That's all you wanted to know, and you wanted to create a fight so I can't get ahead.

So..