Evil

My brother thinks good things are bad because it means I get it and he doesn't.  It seems I've gotten into a lotta trouble unfairly.

Convenience

They don't want people treating me like their sweetheart.  It's because they think I deserve to be punished.  They are coocoo.

What a Laughing Stock!

I worry about certain people but who cares in another way.  A ha ha ha.  One of them gets mad if one "does something sacrificial" for me.  They don't realize that they'd do something like that anyway.  They don't care if others sacrifice for them.  They would never hurt themselves.  Those other people are the ones that hurt them.  Also, while you're at it, forget the saints and cancel all religions.

TV

I just watched The Ellen DeGeneres Show.  It was mostly rerun clips.

I mostly liked the African American lady and her daughter who danced.  It's people like her mom who seem to be above me racially, a beautiful lady from back in the day with an adorable daughter.

The little boy from Pennsylvania who hates L.A. pizza was cute.  The girl who knew about Presidents was also darling.  The little ethnic boy who liked Bruno Mars was very nice.

cont.

Late Boomers's kids are comfortable with Dad.  I've seen it.  It's their time to shine.  They're also not too late to make it.

I didn't see it justified.

..that you can act like a brat and get all the welcome attention you want while we just sit here and suffer, Late Boomers and their comfortable kids, not my fault if they resemble the Leaning Tower of Piza.  It looks like the crime has been enforced..

With Immature People

Why?

You go straight for what you shouldn't be thinking, "rub it in," and make it so I will never have a chance at something others do and for what reason do only others?

1 Chance

I feel I am too old to make it online, like I got one shot and it was g**.  I was 21.  I am 29.

I just came online to talk and forgot about getting a blog for some reason.  I was on message boards where hardly anyone liked me.  I didn't have a thing going.  Maybe, it just took what it took.  I had problems eating with family and got on psychotic meds, too.  I slept more and am not myself.  My mom won't let me stop, but I am not required to take them.  I told my parents that they send me mean secret messages, but they ended up threatening to throw me out!  I'm not the one who wanted to quit school!  I did sorta to be with my parents, tho, is all.  If independence is another issue, then I guess it is now.  Maybe, I was too young before.

School is cool.

If you have school, you have been loved..

What..

What would have happened to me if I was on dance team?  Would someone ruin it?

A "Case"

I am just a "case" to most people because I can't do anything I want to do.  I want to dance AND sing.  I have no car and can't drive much here!

"Tis tis tis"

Just always in a stupor over girls who either have dark hair older or who had darker hair younger.

"Kids Today"

These days, they will feature kids doing more acrobatic dance like of course, but with me, my parents or I would be stared down.  I wanted to sing, too.

Do you know people..

..who don't tell you when you have to stop doing something or else they won't be your friend?

Do you know people..

Do you know people look for every little thing you do to make up a politically popular excuse for you being wrong/bad?

"Now, you're telling me!"

Did anyone ever tell you that you won't have friends only if your hair is black/dark brown..?

Prejudices

Full House, Olsen twins.

People will make fun of any white person who has that slick look if they are born our time, which is 1986.   They think we're little bugs.  They are just wild and crazy period about being obnoxious or highty tighty, ugh!  We should all just look as European as possible.  They just don't care.

Age-ism

I'm not saying you gotta be weird, but isn't it age-ist to say I'm waiting for the girl born in 1997-1998?  Sometimes, it doesn't work that way.

What now?

How violently in private do people think L.A. has it over people who are very European from other places in the US?  Maybe in L.A. they made it, but they still seem to have made it thru time.

Racists

People who only find something to waste their time talking about with other people just want to waste their breath telling me I’m not white because they are ashamed they themselves have problems racially, like they’re hair is brown or something.  I was watching it on Full House, and I just felt I was being pushed to “not even try” to look white if I listened to her intently at all.  What can you do to avoid a fight?  Is this what divides us all to make a select group content?  The ones who don't need to fight stay happy.  We can't seem to fix anything for the people in the middle, the ones who are ethnically not Caucasoid but look whiter than others who are not Caucasoid.  They hold up the racial "middle class" just to make the lower class happy, while the upper class stays as it is lazily or gets better naturally.  When I go out, I'm not gonna accept anyone pushing me away from anyone for race.  I don't hurt anyone racially, tho, I mean, if you wanna try and do that to me.  I can say what I want, too, and know what I mean and not have someone fight me, not debate, fight.  Fighting sometimes has no reason.  Debate should.  I'm just saying!  I was kinda joking around.  But yea something like that.