Monday, November 1, 2010
Fall 2011
Gym
I like to work out on my own, too, so I can still go to the gym with my dad if I do theater. I'm good at staying awake, as well.
I see no reason for me to do ballet like that. It is easy for me to go back, but I am really just excited about theater and need to do what I really want. I hope I can still have these other things in my life that I like so much. I'm bred more for doing something bigger than only ballet.
Theater
Ballet
So, I wanna do ballet because I know it helps with anything in life putting you in shape. It's just true. So what it is is I take ballet at the community college and at the ballet school the adult classes. The community college can be one night a week.
I still feel a little like theater, but think about Audrey Hepburn having done ballet. I like acting in general, just don't know what's more worth it. I would miss majoring in something in the real world. The gym is getting me in shape, too. It's just that it's not like I have friends in theater these days. I think I could become a very good actor or dancer. I feel safer in ballet so I don't get jealous of new talent. I will go by that plan a few nights a week. If I feel like I can do theater and still feel okay then I'd do it, but ballet is such a basic thing, like more than anything for girls to do ballet. I do miss high school and majoring in arts education.
Theater Versus Dance
http://www.seminolestate.edu/arts/theatre/the-atre.php
Theater seems like it'd be good and safer to do. It would help my with dance if I change my mind after a semester. I miss theater and was considering it secondary to music. The thing is I also took ballet then. Now I want to pick one thing and am not sure which. I am thinking theater though I prefer not to have to read thru plays and also prefer not to I dunno. I am thinking that ballet is more talent based and will do that. So what I do is take ballet once a week at the other community theater and the rest of the times I take adult classes at Orlando Ballet. Absence is another issue, but now I always feel like getting out. Dance is just so magical. I also heard that theater is a high school thing. It's too serious any other way. I just don't know which one I like better. I'm in better shape, so the classes might be more pleasant for ballet. I need work on ballet so think I will just do ballet. I do miss high school theater. I am not sure. I could have done theater if I gave up piano, but now high school is over and so is cheerleading. So, now my one thing will be ballet. I am resting up to get better and feel like going out more now. I just study Tim Burton movies now, too. There is some chance of me doing theater, though, since I also wanna be an actress. It seems if you wanna be a film actor that you should have other options. Also theater acting isn't film acting. I did it all thru high school so-to-speak. It was good though could have been a lot better.
Halloween
I had a good Halloween this year. Halloween is always good.
The best part was a Haunted Mansion where you go in the front porch covered in black and stuff and then this statue reaches out and gives you a bowl of candy. Then I go outside and the statue there like says boo or comes out to get me. I said ahh! I was trying to make for an escape for whatever was happening.
It was cute the ones in a bag, too. It seems like I mostly got some good chocolate, like Twix and a little 1 inch Milky Way in the bag with some other of chocolate.
I lost weight upon going to Halloween in my costume, so that made me happy, that I'm really seriously losing weight. My dad told me to eat all the candy slowly over time.
Well, my weight went back up to 150|151. I placed the candy outside my room in the dining area. I also just had a big bowl of cheddar pasta shells.
I was considering wearing this same costume next year, like usual. Or, I could get something scary in advance. Some of it was sold out, and I had money issues. I'm glad my credit card is working again. I used it to get Planet of the Apes again to study Tim Burton, the director of The Nightmare Before Christmas and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Also, can you believe they made a $500 music box of the music by Danny Elfman in his movies? I used to have the Nightmare Before Christmas music box but never got it to work. I wish I never spent my money. I'm glad getting the DVDs back to study at some leisure. I really use these. I get $50 twice a month, and the DVDs are pretty cheap.
So, I just hope my weight stays down. I see my mom got some of those foam containers with food, 3, probably one each my dad, mom, and I. My brother stays in the dorm even though we live here. That's like me 45 minutes away. I had some problems there when they told me not to be in Music Education. I was thinking of switching anyway. I just wish I could have gotten a degree because I'm 24 now. I'm just happy I have my computer to post on the internet and privately in my room. My dad got me a good one since I'm always on it. Have you ever heard of acer? I just realized that's the kind my parents got. My keyboards stopped working, too. The last one water spilled and it even makes the mouse stop working. My dad said this was a really good computer, like he really liked it. I almost wanted to get the Apple, but they got me this in the mail instead. I was gonna get it, but I wasn't sure at first.
So, I have to wash my costume and put it away in a box or up in my closet for now back in my old room. Now, I am in the garage. I wonder what else I could wear the costume for, too. It's fun to dress up. I could use it to take pictures of myself. I wanted to set up my garage for that. I better start cleaning and putting out the small shelves. I also have a mini table and bar stool to eat on. I have a DVD shelf and a bookshelf that's not big horizontally.
Before, I was Elizabeth Swann in the Oriental looking outfit, and before that a glo skeleton but didn't go trick or treating or don't remember it then. My parents or dad said they saved the Pirates of the Caribbean Oriental one, but I guess I don't see it. I tried to get rid of it, but my dad said he thought they saved it. I was just trying to make more room at the time. I'm glad I already ordered Planet of the Apes. It was only $7.99. Yet, I couldn't get 2 at this time.
My dad said how good my computer is, so I guess that's why I have Acer. It annoys me though it sounds like, "Asian." I hate anything that's not European racially other than to enjoy the benefits and beat. From the library I just got some music from islands and Mid East and Celtic 3 CDs that go together. I gave up on reading Shakespeare and am not sure maybe I should just go ahead and take dance instead of theater. Or, I could take theater before it's too late I think. I'm not sure because I aspire to dance. I really like posting on the computer. I could just take General Studies, as well.
So, we watched Hereafter the day before Halloween, my dad and I. He though Paranormal Activity 2 was too scary, so we didn't see it.
I think I will take dance at Valencia. I'm not sure about the theater. Part of it is I think it will get me in shape and don't think I can do both at the same time. My other plan was just to take ballet though. Then I would take ballet somewhere else when they do modern dance or when I can. My dad used to pay for it, so maybe he still can. Actually I get in shape more from the gym, so maybe I will just do theater, then. Dance is easy and for if you're very comfortable and in good shape. Okay, now I'm excited about theater. I dunno though.
So today is a holy day and so is tomorrow. We don't go to church because my mom works on Sundays. I stopped going before because I felt sick. Now I am a lot better and could go out if I wanted, though I am still taking care of my blackheads, though they had been getting better. I think I will put on a pore strip now. Okay, I did.
I just need to clean up my room soon and then things'll be good. I had a good Halloween. I am so happy I can see the difference before in the picture and on Halloween in the new picture.
Also in January my dad said I am going to see a skin doctor for my blackheads. Maybe they can do laser work. Usually, these strips work well. I was so happy how I got in shape from the gym, though.
Another thing to do is to also do Jazz and Tap or just to go to Orlando Ballet at nights. I wonder if my dad and I will make money from the music. Already I was called and given some gift money, like food stamps. So, I can use the money for more ballet, as well. I think I will just take ballet or do theater, though it seems ballet is more important. I was thinking of being a theater teacher, but now I wanna do ballet. I wish I could still do both, but I can't. I dunno, though. I can get famous either way and theater is a lot of fun usually.
http://www.seminolestate.edu/arts/theatre/the-atre.php
Maybe I can just skip general studies for now. That is my plan. I wonder if I should start with one course. That's what I think.
Okay, I'm gonna go start cleaning up my hair dye mess.
I don't want it to be because I am mixed.
I don't want things to happen because I have Native American or something. I don't like that when others get their way and assume I'm special just to make me feel weird, when they sit on their bums and have time to ruin my life. I blame them too and think it was a bad example.
I do feel awkward. I just find I am not my parents and less like I would be indian. It's always that way. Plus, I don't have the paper to find exactly what could be up. It burned in the building's fire a long time ago. Like, what if it was something else? In China in the center there are tribes with blonde hair and blue eyes I used to have saved or could find on Wiki. It's like indians living in China like they do in the rest of Asia and parts of Europe. They may be considered as nomads.
I sorta don't believe I have indian because it's way less than 1%, which is what's most popular.
Blast for the Past
All I want back is the past all the time.
It would have been killer cool to do my hair differently.
I think though my biggest problem was not blackheads but people knowing I was half Chinese(-Indonesian.) They seemed interested in me like anyone else otherwise. Even in kindergarten they asked so I came home and asked. I remember how happy I was I wasn't Japanese because I hear it's not as Asian though it's in the far east, Japan and Korea. China rounds up so that the Filipins are the south far east. Taiwan is about it. Vietnam is just like Chinese, though they also come from a less rocky terrain. I just know that because Chinese are some so smart and beautiful and European looking that the kids could turn out to be as desirable as an islander if one parent is European I just think.
I've felt uncomfortable because I know that my mom is a champion in her world and I am nobody. I used to be somebody for all the hard things I did growing up keeping in schedule, though the homework went quickly when I was active physically. Having piano made me feel special. My other regret is not getting on the internet just like this when it was getting out as we were moving to Greater New Orleans.
I think I could be a good cheerleader. I lost a lot of weight looking at my Halloween costume shots and comparing the one before and after. I got some 3 flavor ice cream because I told my dad I wanted real ice cream. I guess next time I'll get the sandwiches. We have frozen yogurt too to use for smoothies. I blend the 3 flavor ice cream for a shake.
I can round up to terms.
Well, I should have used a pore strip sooner, period. I think as early as possible I should have asked for something or rinsed my face at least more. I know I could have fixed it in 4th grade though. It seemed a little early still. Like, by the end when I was 10.
I wouldn't want to be on the dance team if I have that many problems. I did wanna do the plays for drama and when I was in Talented Theater just handed out programs and helped backstage. It's about being able to deliver. I went to some smaller schools so ended up performing there. I felt I had a well seasoned personality by that time and can't help to this day the damaged cells in my body from taking on too much.
A Life Full of Regrets
I lost my next chance when I decided not to do it in 6th grade. We moved, and there cheerleading began in 7th grade. I made my next big mistake then. Then not actually going to the dance team tryouts for high school. I made flag team, but this friend didn't make it too who was older and things were never the same at that school after the beginning. I would had been doing this 2nd year, flag team, if I stayed. It's just too much if there's no one there to watch me on Fridays and look for me. Dance and cheer are no easier. I wish now I just wanted to have fun.
I may look forward to doing theater as a major at a community college, but dance just isn't the same. I know it will be okay with me because I'm from Florida. Looking at teams today, I think I have to make it if I have nothing big wrong.
My priority is to get better so I feel more like I did before I moved to the New Orleans area. I still wish I did what I still wish I did. I know I can make it on all these teams. I feel somewhat blessed to have experience with baton. I was Twirler of the Year my 2nd year and was leading younger kids my 2nd year.
Like I can catch those moments where I'm more awake and ready to figure things out. My safe bet is to take one theater course, Acting I, at a community college. I could go to the other one and take dance, though, dance and modern. I have to wait until the beginning of the 2010-2011 year. So my big debate is just on if I should do theater or dance because I'm not starting with both.