another nite another dream. . . .

nap time

Pretty Weird

Last night, I was bouncing in my chair in anger.  I'm still in anger.  I don't want to think about this person every time I post on my blog.

For some reason

when things get stuck in my blog, I think of what it was done to remind me of and it doesn't stop.  It's not that bad if I get mad because it's actually understandable.

Why

has it been so hard to focus here always?

Problems

I don't like the reminder with the +1 and I am not here to listen to whatever anyone says!  You did this illegally!  You could go to prison.  I thought of it again!

Problem

I don't know what to do about this.  I want to get away from these people.

Problem

When my blog loads, I think of a person because of the +1 sign they put when I was upset, kinda like on my old computer the scroll mark on the topic part going up after I got upset all 1 week after seeing someone I like.  Also, they started out saying birthday with this person.

I gotta go..

You shouldn't make me believe I did something bad.  You did.

Bye!

So, I hope everything is okay.  I am tired.  I hope I don't have to be punished, and I am 28 and I know they are doing it for no reason, even if nothing had happened.  What do you think about what they did?  I had nowhere to turn.  I should have thought thru.  I hit a road block.  I got worried.  I had eaten and was about to sleep, but my mom just came in to talk about tomorrow, like we were supposed to.  I don't really see it as losing a person each time something happens or if something physical does come up, again  I see it as a shadow hanging over me.  I wonder if I lost something for being frantic.  I think I already lost things, too, it seems now.  It felt better before.  My life is trapped and confined to certain things.

2 Weeks

I think they go into the week after, too, until Friday.  So, might not watch then, neither, I think.  Bon voyage!

As of now

I wanna watch Ellen again starting tomorrow.  I plan to skip the week after to keep up with Sarah Brightman's concerts online if they go up.

Problem

I encouraged someone on Twitter, and they threatened I deserved to die but they can't do it..

Problem

Every time I post because of what came up they made it so my blog shows +1 next to each post and posts it to my Google profile, which is not something I like.  I know someone is laughing at me because they do this and treat me like an animal.

So Sorry Stupid Self

I should have thought thru.  I was in bed, almost asleep.  Now, I'll know.

naptime!

Problem

Yer not stopping, you criminal!!

Problem

They made my page take longer to load.

Problem

You're treating me like an animal.  You think I'm a n*****?

Get that feeling away, too.

I have to go somewhere, today.

Problem

What's Ellen doing now?  She can't do that.

STOP

They said, "No, you're going to look at me."  GO AWAY."

I hate to squeam and jump again.

You stop it.

I don't care if it gives me more views per post.  That's shit.

Problem

You take down the reminder right now.  They made all my blog posts go to my Google + page. and it says so when I post!  I don't care what you want.  You're a criminal, and I could send Ellen to jail for this.

Problem

Lat night, I wa sin a lot of pain with them bringing up messages, so I squirmed to myself.  I didn't know what was going on.  I forgot that I wasn't supposed to like do something physical like that or I'd lose a relationship.  It took me awhile to stop.  I'm still upset, tho.  It looks like it might come up.  It's fine in a way, but this didn't make sense  I don't have freedom to think how I like.  I don't feel well, neither.  Like something's been like nailed into me.  I don't think they "take" excuses.  Oh well, I must think things thru even more and learned to ignore things.  I didn't scream loud enough to be heard much and was just moving in my chair, not hitting the table.  I really don't want to lose a relationship because I was in pain and it hurt a lot.  It's unfair.  I don't wanna go along with these superstitious people.  This was special to me.  They were wrong.  I'm not doing this.  Why are they acting like they have dominion over me now?  You should not have done what you've done.  Don't go lying to me.  What was I to do?  I was afraid I'd ruin my computer, too.  So, I channeled that energy another way.  I don't think they can take away a relationship unless the person decides to.  I don't think that will happen.  I don't like how if I do something physical they think that to be "easy."  No one was even in here.  My mom was doing laundry, but I wasn't that loud.  I can't have little things cause me to lose my favorite relationship.  I don't need to be counseled and mad a spectacle of, neither.  What you did was harmful.  You just wouldn't stop, and now I have to pay for you all.  At the time, I forgot because it'd been awhile that you'd do this.  I don't like doing it myself.  I feel provoked more to do it than that I'd wanna.  Sorry!  I just don't see how I'm not allowed to really do this if I got really bad-feeling.