Like..

..if I had a cute bf and he liked yellow flowers, you'd freak out if I saw something yellow or a flower.

Let's rule this out.

You all freaking out that Bella gets everything good.  I'm not here to freak.  I'm living my life pursued for a pretended situation without explanation.

There, that's sarcastic.  I didn't mean it literally.  You know if you have mental stamina that "gets everything good" can't mean the literal term and therefore is an overstatement.

Let me see if I can think of some distractions.

If what I said was hurtful, tho, I do want to take it down.  You'd have to at least come up with something better in interesting ways.  Isn't it funny in general but not to poke at this girl?  I didn't start saying anything to suggest I had anything against her, that is easy to tell in many posts, like.

Anyway

Are you all just worried about what Ellen would think if you were that nice to me?

Also..

..some people don't have that problem.  They seem better, in this or in ways in general.

Well, what is it?

I'm trying to make a point and said it was, like, just descriptive words that describe the nature of the situation impersonally.  What are you holding me up to?  You've been rude to what I deserve.  You all can't think it's right to treat me like *beep*.  See, you don't have any ideas, this is pointless.  Again, why are you watching to ruin my blog?  It was okay before.  You didn't say anything.  You haven't come up with ideas since.  I said I am not sarcastic.  I would never be able to make a point.  I'm not some stupid sensitive person.

LOL

They keep critiquing my blog cuz it's not theirs.  What I said could pass if it weren't for them.  Of course, this wouldn't have actually happened, neither.  Shouldn't you feel all good inside with all you've got?  This is such *beep*.  They are negative about what I say.  You're just phobic and need to get over it.  I'll take another look and see if it can improve..

Modeling

At least  you don't have to memorize lines if you take modeling before you eventually act.  I'd like to be a model and act.  I like posing for pictures.  I wanted to get my portrait done.  The other thing is I have acted in school.  I heard since I took a voice for actors class I don't have to take voiceover because I already took it.  It's not like I need a whole lot more experience.  I used to take 3 acting classes a week back to back, 2 days with 3 classes.  I didn't know what was so hard that I was learning.  It just made me feel less awkward.  I've also majored in music and the singing is closely related to the acting.  Ballet, too.  I'm not sure exactly what they'd do to me in an adult acting class.  I dunno, the modeling just seems exciting.  I'll also probably lose weight by then.  With NutriBullet, Try Food Lovers, and weight training Body Beast from Beach Body.  Well, I'm all set.  I can die happy, but I'd like to stick around and see the results if I can.

Spreading That Negative Energy

Why does that happen to Ellen fans?

Why do you bring up

uninteresting topics of concern?

Am I

a handicapped singer?

It might seem like a joke.

But it's not funny.

Hm..

My dad needs to "get his act together."

"Look, do you want a fight?"

Why are you popping in here like some loon saying someone respectable I like just talked this trash to me?

"Gimme a Break!"

What do you think of this?  Sure, I can't sing straight, but I can express myself.  I don't know what the *beep* happened to my old voice when I took a break.

What the *beep*?

You can't come in here and edit my writing style I like so much.  You're so negative.  You have no right to be mad at me unless you're "simply mad."  I used to write without interruption or would if I already had a blog.  BTW, does Ellen believe in cursing at all?  Does she believe in letting people be happy who are over 18 today?  That must be a technical opinion.  It seems like she gives people a tough but arousing time, but now comes a new generation.  What did she admit to doing about that?  Why did I even have to explain myself?  It's so obvious what I meant.  This is a problem.  It's my blog.

They won't stop.

What they say is so worthless.  "Worthless" is just a word.  It's not a curse word, and I didn't use it inappropriately, like your mind wants to tell you.

I feel they keep recycling ideas, like why I'm even at home able to post on the internet.  I've only been talking about my plans ardently in the past few days.

I wonder what happened to my good singing voice when I got kicked out of voice lessons in college.  I wasn't in choir.

Healthy Relationship

Why do you all make it so hard for me to maintain a relationship which is at least just healthy with my dad?

They just admit they didn't do it and will admit they did it later.

You're probably gonna throw in my face that you know what I really said, but you don't.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Where did you go this summer?

Nowhere. I've been online and watching TV, sleeping like 12 hours a day. I got a NutriBullet which fixed my Diabetes. It dropped over 100 points in 4 days, 254-135, which is from Poor to Good! I also am ordering Try Food Lovers and Body Beast from Beach Body, which seems like a lot of weight training. I've been jogging many times recently twice a day for 1/2 hour or so. A lotta people found success with this 21 day workout with a lady named Autumn. It's more along the lines of a dance than weights. Last night, my waist went from 37 to 35. I just realized again that people who are attractive have no success without commitment to something like hosting a talk show like Ellen, Fallon, etc. Actresses have a cool job, but they seem so immature. Anyway, I was gonna take acting at a film school but decided maybe, after my Disney pass runs out in December, that I will do modeling, which i a lot of hours of class. I think you usually train to model in some cases for a month. You get training and then jobs and in some cases they infiltrate you to acting. This is just an example of an offer I got from Miami I should have taken at 21. This might not always be true, but modeling is like step one in Hollywood. I like it. I did it a little for fun a few times as a teenager for JCPenney I Think. It was my tennis teacher's wife who did it. She was a glamorous older lady. It was very open, friendly, down-to-earth, and honest. So, I remember doing the about face, like in JROTC Army.