Wednesday, October 7, 2015
Help
Is Ellen DeGeneres.. nah, she's so good I also should not be even thinking about her and that she needs help. Anyway, it's awkward.
Okay
I just said I know what you thought. I said, you think I'm in trouble.
Why do I sound testy to you here?
And, remember, I don't care simply if Ellen DeGeneres wants to/feels suggestive pleasure, if "suggestive" is suggested as something good to like.
Why do I sound testy to you here?
And, remember, I don't care simply if Ellen DeGeneres wants to/feels suggestive pleasure, if "suggestive" is suggested as something good to like.
Small Blog
Mixed Race = Beautiful Girls
This would be a popular suggestion "back in the day," like the 2000s.
I think they are calling any mixed Asian a "Eurasian" or "hapa." "Hapa" is the correct term. Eurasians are considered a type of superrace. It was prestigious around 1990.
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It says Eurasian:
Looks like me, the best I've seen of Eurasians.
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Not sure who this is..
half Asian in China and Japan
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must be
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Wow!
I think this is a full Asian.
"Would you want to look Eurasian? - beauty & fashion"
This would be a popular suggestion "back in the day," like the 2000s.
I think they are calling any mixed Asian a "Eurasian" or "hapa." "Hapa" is the correct term. Eurasians are considered a type of superrace. It was prestigious around 1990.
link
It says Eurasian:
Looks like me, the best I've seen of Eurasians.
link
Not sure who this is..
half Asian in China and Japan
link
link
must be
link
Wow!
I think this is a full Asian.
Let's close this up for the day..
I already said I don't mind if Ellen DeGeneres wants to feel something cuz she was so giving I thought of when I said this. Now, it's like it's suggested people my age are too old to be the age of what age her kids would be, but she kinda thinks people who seem like her kids are cool.
If I don't even care if she feels whatever she feels for herself, why would I be presented as a problem?
I feel like people are telling me I'm doing all these things I'm not/didn't in certain ways. I might just be out with people. They forget how hard it is for me with some people.
I can tell older adults are just mean cuz I know a lot of them are wrong cuz they seem mean to hide insecurities. Like, when I do something I don't know is wrong and someone else does, then they do something wrong back they know. I think we were raised to think whatever, the world raised us that way.
People reserve themselves for certain kinds of people, and I feel they don't see the clock of life ticking for other things to happen to other people.
I notice Tim Burton is more casual than Ellen DeGeneres. I'm more like Ellen DeGeneres in that way but give it to the people, tho I don't say Tim Burton being casual is "better" than Ellen. That sounds dyslexic.
Seems I'm just going thru things and have wrote what I could. I could just sit here and say sorry in different ways, too. I wonder if people like me cuz there's something to criticize.
About Ellen's feelings, I said whatever she wants. I just feel that other people were involved telling me I'm in trouble. I think it was more than Ellen's feelings and doings. She could have been influenced. I mean, she can do whatever she wants, not what I nor others tell her necessarily.
Am I sad? I'm devastated about being cursed. I don't "need" certain things. I don't "deserve" certain things now. I might deserve a shot at life like others procrastinate about. Sad.. just like my record of flawlessness is gone. I used to deserve what I finally don't get.
Did you know they are starting to take away something big from me every time they want to play easy street and say I messed up just to have something to make them look powerful? I don't know if they're mad at something I did in this case. It seems due its cause.
I 1st kinda went crazy when they kicked me out of my college major for being shy or secretly doing bad at something.. or maybe cuz I was in the gym for 1/2 hour, tho I don't know how cuz I didn't see them there. I just felt suggestively hurt. I failed to function in my given environment. They were failures to me. I ended up like this in the end, too, more obese. I can't be young at all in college. I am having a hard time feeling I deserve to be an actress and can't seem to host a show.
I do feel framed and set up for failure. Even what I said yesterday in an emotional crisis was purposely taken the wrong way. Maybe, they don't want me to win and they just go from there but like that just for me. Well, it's over, but life isn't. Sure, I went thru something and could have been nicer. I did freak, like I did when I was dysfunctional over being kicked outta my college major.
It's like I didn't belong anywhere, neither down lo nor up high, suggestive about my intelligence and how I wished to use it. They'd see me a janitor before my college major, no offense to that wonderful position. People here in the end, no offense, see me as okay driving a dump truck. They're delusional. I realize it's okay, but there is a reason that won't happen, probably.
I'm just really sorry if I'm inadequate, but I feel some people are overly picky. Why am I set to say yes I accept that compliment if it's, "Christina you're in trouble." Aren't I supposed to be or possibly later/now get out of thinking about when I was in trouble? Other people are not followed like this to be Mr. or Ms. Perfect. I am taking pills to not feel cute and dainty. They want me not to be "paranoid." The world sure has lost a lot of concerned individuals. I'm not sure what the problem is in a more sane explanation. Don't take this in a bad way cuz that's not what I was thinking. I dunno if I can get any help. I just saw my therapist today. We talked about Disney World for, like, 1/2 hour. She won't talk about these things, I think. She won't believe it.
Why isn't there some thing for me to work on to be a good citizen? I don't belong in prison, literally. I'm staying off the streets.
Well, you must be sick of sorry, I said it once here.
Well.. I do need to figure myself out myself. Hm.. I should think. I cannot change the past but can be sorry for what I did by accident and change the future. Basic things like not cursing in my head are good. Not being mean, etc. I feel I know this stuff, yes. I just forget upset. I feel I'm on overload with this that I need to stop talking about it. Strange. I should do something good for my blog.
Well, okay at that for now as it's time to hit the hay or fall into sleep.
If I don't even care if she feels whatever she feels for herself, why would I be presented as a problem?
I feel like people are telling me I'm doing all these things I'm not/didn't in certain ways. I might just be out with people. They forget how hard it is for me with some people.
I can tell older adults are just mean cuz I know a lot of them are wrong cuz they seem mean to hide insecurities. Like, when I do something I don't know is wrong and someone else does, then they do something wrong back they know. I think we were raised to think whatever, the world raised us that way.
People reserve themselves for certain kinds of people, and I feel they don't see the clock of life ticking for other things to happen to other people.
I notice Tim Burton is more casual than Ellen DeGeneres. I'm more like Ellen DeGeneres in that way but give it to the people, tho I don't say Tim Burton being casual is "better" than Ellen. That sounds dyslexic.
Seems I'm just going thru things and have wrote what I could. I could just sit here and say sorry in different ways, too. I wonder if people like me cuz there's something to criticize.
About Ellen's feelings, I said whatever she wants. I just feel that other people were involved telling me I'm in trouble. I think it was more than Ellen's feelings and doings. She could have been influenced. I mean, she can do whatever she wants, not what I nor others tell her necessarily.
Am I sad? I'm devastated about being cursed. I don't "need" certain things. I don't "deserve" certain things now. I might deserve a shot at life like others procrastinate about. Sad.. just like my record of flawlessness is gone. I used to deserve what I finally don't get.
Did you know they are starting to take away something big from me every time they want to play easy street and say I messed up just to have something to make them look powerful? I don't know if they're mad at something I did in this case. It seems due its cause.
I 1st kinda went crazy when they kicked me out of my college major for being shy or secretly doing bad at something.. or maybe cuz I was in the gym for 1/2 hour, tho I don't know how cuz I didn't see them there. I just felt suggestively hurt. I failed to function in my given environment. They were failures to me. I ended up like this in the end, too, more obese. I can't be young at all in college. I am having a hard time feeling I deserve to be an actress and can't seem to host a show.
I do feel framed and set up for failure. Even what I said yesterday in an emotional crisis was purposely taken the wrong way. Maybe, they don't want me to win and they just go from there but like that just for me. Well, it's over, but life isn't. Sure, I went thru something and could have been nicer. I did freak, like I did when I was dysfunctional over being kicked outta my college major.
It's like I didn't belong anywhere, neither down lo nor up high, suggestive about my intelligence and how I wished to use it. They'd see me a janitor before my college major, no offense to that wonderful position. People here in the end, no offense, see me as okay driving a dump truck. They're delusional. I realize it's okay, but there is a reason that won't happen, probably.
I'm just really sorry if I'm inadequate, but I feel some people are overly picky. Why am I set to say yes I accept that compliment if it's, "Christina you're in trouble." Aren't I supposed to be or possibly later/now get out of thinking about when I was in trouble? Other people are not followed like this to be Mr. or Ms. Perfect. I am taking pills to not feel cute and dainty. They want me not to be "paranoid." The world sure has lost a lot of concerned individuals. I'm not sure what the problem is in a more sane explanation. Don't take this in a bad way cuz that's not what I was thinking. I dunno if I can get any help. I just saw my therapist today. We talked about Disney World for, like, 1/2 hour. She won't talk about these things, I think. She won't believe it.
Why isn't there some thing for me to work on to be a good citizen? I don't belong in prison, literally. I'm staying off the streets.
Well, you must be sick of sorry, I said it once here.
Well.. I do need to figure myself out myself. Hm.. I should think. I cannot change the past but can be sorry for what I did by accident and change the future. Basic things like not cursing in my head are good. Not being mean, etc. I feel I know this stuff, yes. I just forget upset. I feel I'm on overload with this that I need to stop talking about it. Strange. I should do something good for my blog.
Well, okay at that for now as it's time to hit the hay or fall into sleep.
Females of the Day
I see women look me down like I don't have the stuff cuz I wasn't alive in the day. They accept my mom right away, like being alive is doing someone a favor. I am good and fit their description of it, but I must keep these things a secret. There seems to be the love for girls with dads born around the late 1950s. You were lucky to be alive before and are older now. I wonder what these females feel like. Is it their fault if it's ruin? Ruin for all but those born in the late 1990s and after. A way to say it for the kids today, group people who possibly got somethin' in their group.
Ellen DeGeneres in General
I didn't mean she could not feel any suggestive pleasure. I just mean this one proves inappropriate, that Ellen DeGeneres "is not God." I don't mean to suggest that question, but I mean something important if you'll not be the word monster.
What strikes a chord in me is it has to do with when people all make me mad, which = there is no one to turn to and the world knows I'm trapped with people harming me, by tapping into me and me physically like a voodoo doll.
Yes, I can tell myself I am good, God loves me, and a little thing overall does not matter. I know people don't approve of what Ellen DeGeneres did, step down from her title in a certain way. It's sad to see us fighting like this. Why isn't it, "I had to feel something inappropriate, but I know it's just 1 of many little things. You're not in trouble. It will/won't happen to you, too."
What strikes a chord in me is it has to do with when people all make me mad, which = there is no one to turn to and the world knows I'm trapped with people harming me, by tapping into me and me physically like a voodoo doll.
Yes, I can tell myself I am good, God loves me, and a little thing overall does not matter. I know people don't approve of what Ellen DeGeneres did, step down from her title in a certain way. It's sad to see us fighting like this. Why isn't it, "I had to feel something inappropriate, but I know it's just 1 of many little things. You're not in trouble. It will/won't happen to you, too."
Trying to Stay Positive and More Down-to-Earth/Normal
Well, I got one message from Ellen DeGeneres that says she knows what I really do.
I don't know what's wrong, maybe I wrote too little. I don't have any Ellen DeGeneres fans to turn to nor can trust to know something I need to know that I don't. My old friends decided I was worse than them now/at some point.
I don't know what's wrong, maybe I wrote too little. I don't have any Ellen DeGeneres fans to turn to nor can trust to know something I need to know that I don't. My old friends decided I was worse than them now/at some point.
For Ellen
What is for Ellen? My soul being sucked out because lazy older males want an easy way of feeling like they're grown up or independent? Something she has to muse at when she posts on Twitter?
A Little 1-Way Conversation, for Tonight
Let's have a conversation.
I think Ellen's mom raised her very nicely. I think she openly cares immensely about her daughter.
I'm interested in how they have a lightening bolt with "Moments" sketched at the top of Twitter. It has little newsies. Maybe, I seem jealous in some facet. No.. It reminds me of Ellen and things to do with me being in trouble.
Why does it feel like it's making Ellen more withdrawn? Is she famous for the world to be there for her or for her to be there for the world? In what ways is it each? I mean, who stumbles and falls? Or needs a "helping" hand, celebrities or fans? And then there's the rest of the world, the "real" world, that thinks i't psychic and self-sufficient who aren't crazy fans of anything nor anyone.
I think Ellen's mom raised her very nicely. I think she openly cares immensely about her daughter.
I'm interested in how they have a lightening bolt with "Moments" sketched at the top of Twitter. It has little newsies. Maybe, I seem jealous in some facet. No.. It reminds me of Ellen and things to do with me being in trouble.
Why does it feel like it's making Ellen more withdrawn? Is she famous for the world to be there for her or for her to be there for the world? In what ways is it each? I mean, who stumbles and falls? Or needs a "helping" hand, celebrities or fans? And then there's the rest of the world, the "real" world, that thinks i't psychic and self-sufficient who aren't crazy fans of anything nor anyone.
@bellathorne I feel like Ellen DeGeneres cuz she wishes famous people happy birthdays. I stopped and dropped a Happy B-Day! 🌺— Christina Barrett (@ChristinaAnnJB) October 8, 2015
Possible Facts
I believe it was done but that you shouldn't worry about it, like worrying too much.
It was something about being mad to be sad. There's no offense to you, unless you worry about me.
Disclaimer: I wasn't being sarcastic nor intentionally offensive in this post.
I guess someone found and supposedly needed another home.
The supposed "inappropriateness" is like the weather.
You should feel a surge/rush of happiness for the sadness not being for some of you.
"Anything's possible." Tho, some things are to never come back.
If you need someone there for you, tho, I don't know why there would be a problem in this case.
Disclaimer: I wasn't being sarcastic nor intentionally offensive in this post.
It was something about being mad to be sad. There's no offense to you, unless you worry about me.
Disclaimer: I wasn't being sarcastic nor intentionally offensive in this post.
I guess someone found and supposedly needed another home.
The supposed "inappropriateness" is like the weather.
You should feel a surge/rush of happiness for the sadness not being for some of you.
"Anything's possible." Tho, some things are to never come back.
If you need someone there for you, tho, I don't know why there would be a problem in this case.
Disclaimer: I wasn't being sarcastic nor intentionally offensive in this post.
Opinions and Concerns
You can be forward with me in your opinion, but.. I forget exactly.. but anyway I find people with all different kinds of opinions on little things..
I feel that I've been taken out of the game of emotions in life. I thought at 1st it has to hurt, but I guess I find other ways of sustenance.
I might have concerns for people who don't have to be concerned about themselves. That's a way of supporting others to give them a feeling of stimulation. Like, some people might be concerned about me, but I may be concerned about others.
Sometimes, I feel all that was just said is to let go, but I let go that things matter that didn't. I still talk about facts/figures and feelings, friendliness and ferocity-no offense to any people.
Did anyone read this and think, "Boy, Christina 'needs help.'" Of course, I mean the joke people always say when they say this meaning mental help, like a psychiatrist and therapist, which both I already have. I don't know why someone would say this. I'd think they'd need help for saying this without any possible explanation.
I feel that I've been taken out of the game of emotions in life. I thought at 1st it has to hurt, but I guess I find other ways of sustenance.
I might have concerns for people who don't have to be concerned about themselves. That's a way of supporting others to give them a feeling of stimulation. Like, some people might be concerned about me, but I may be concerned about others.
Sometimes, I feel all that was just said is to let go, but I let go that things matter that didn't. I still talk about facts/figures and feelings, friendliness and ferocity-no offense to any people.
Did anyone read this and think, "Boy, Christina 'needs help.'" Of course, I mean the joke people always say when they say this meaning mental help, like a psychiatrist and therapist, which both I already have. I don't know why someone would say this. I'd think they'd need help for saying this without any possible explanation.
Have you heard of this-
-my next problem.. It should be something I just wrote down because I see that's my level of problem now?
"'Words can hurt..'"
..Did you get the part where I'm worthless regardless of the things I did wrong or because I've done something wrong before?
Aha ha ha!
I grew up in bad person city!
Aha ha ha!
I grew up in bad person city!
Ghost #2: Talking About Negative Things
Should we be like some people who live in California and just proceed to smile at everything, with the only problem being if someone could die or be physically or mentally, not emotionally, harmed?
E! News
Taylor Swift's fans are turning on her. She seems like an assertive person to talk to, which isn't bad in and of itself to most people. She got to sing with Ellen, at least.
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