I thought we settled this..

..I could punch my couch as much as I want, tho it does not bring satisfaction unless it gets slapped with a random towel that found its way in my room.  I don't -like- punching the couch.

Problem

I'm tired of these snotty people acting like it's obvious I've done something.  What you think it'll escalate?  I won't get life in prison with the way people are honesty treating me.  I done all I could, watched crime shows, to warn myself.. come across a few of a rerun.

People

You think you can just sign off after you've snuck in your point and let mama or whomever make you look good??

Stop

telling me to k*** myself.. you gone too far

Should I just

"chuck it all?"  No way!

This is going way too far.  I don't have to do this/put up with it.

Nasty

I'm following posts concerning Idina Menzel on Twitter, and they're nasty.  They are hinting at what I just posted.  Suddenly, I'm being challenged for no reason.  A simple-minded person would easily argue that.

I don't appreciate it.

People telling me I'm bad cuz I hit things and screamed every weekday one recent week.  I don't like being babied like this.  They were just attacking me again.  It seems like a fascination.  I don't enjoy it.  People are at me for being fat, etc.  What about the other fat people coming!!  Anyway, get the point??

Back

I got my teeth cleaned.

I'm pretty tired.

Being Tired

I'm still wide awake.

Well Wishes

Idina Menzel - Please enjoy yourself at the awards.  I hope they publish it online, too..

OK OK

I took it back, I deleted it.

It seemed fine "when I said it.."

Why are we obsessed with me saying "Chinese?"  I just meant it as an aside for like wanting me to be squeamish cuz I'm 1/2 Chinese.  I didn't mean it, even if you deserve it.

You'll never get it.

No, I'm not talking to Ellen.

I am full proof positive as a white person!

Question

Why do really weird people act like they have to be better than me like it doesn't matter and a lotta people are watching.. and no it's not Ellen.

Think of it like this.

There are sick cartoons on the TV.

Problem

Why are you so insistent on something that's bothering you?

Yes.

I am all alone.  :|

I find some mixed people..

..highly inappropriate.  You think I'm barking away?  I just noticed that they want me to be squeamish.  *deleted*

You picture me

as an animal to talk about emotions rather than to just have them.  I'm not the opposite of calm, cool, and collected.  :|  Who's that mean to you??  OK, you don't like me.  You all hate my black hair, but I don't.  }:]  I'm keeping it blonde, though.

Done in the Shower

Hair done, eye still red..

Do you think..

..one could chose to do bad things to me just because they thought I was bad when they knew I was not?

Like nothing really matters?

If your mind is that preoccupied, go to boot camp?

Some Good Stuff

Now, this was good.. an insider view?

Apology

Guess my blog is being watched.  It's my blog.  I don't know if I would need to apologize, usually.  Feels humiliating.  Where can I express myself freely without being bugged?  Without being abused?  What was it.. oh yea, cursing.. It just seemed too mean I guess, tho it wasn't supposed to be at anyone.

You can sit here and reflect..

..I thought of something funny about someone that wasn't nice, but it just came to me, didn't know what to make of it and still don't.

Apology

Sorry, I was upset in the kitchen, no violence, tho.  No actual violent thoughts but I got upset at a feeling of someone trying to come into my personal space, so-to-speak.  I should forget about it, as anyone, and try not to worry about things like that, which I did.

I wonder if I'm related..

..to Idina Menzel.  She is part Polish Ashkenazi Jewish and not me but her part Russian Ashkenazi Jewish.

She sang Frozen as Elsa.  She is all Ashkenazi Jewish.  I just found out she was married to an African American man and has a son who looks African American but maybe kinda white.

I guess it just wasn't..

..in the spirit of the environment.

No no no

Who the Hell started treating me like a minority?  Dude, I'm 1/2 Chinese and white.  I don't see the black people disrespecting Jimmy and the girl.  I hope they are not making sure that it's shitty people who don't get told the truth or something because that's the kind of thing they think, like they've spotted something, everything changes and they make up stuff and don't bother this and that person.

Edit

Ha ha ha, I ended up deleting that stuff so more people wouldn't see.

Off

jogging!

I don't want this

new fake extended family drama.

num num num

zucchini! cooking a burger

TV

Rachel Maddow

No, I don't like it..

..seeing my extended family caught up having a jolly time figuring out "how I am to be punished" when I'm 28, a good person, and didn't do anything!

D: I don't want to lose my friends.

You didn't think the curse words were funny?  I am careful not to use certain words in certain ways.

As for the facts.  You know they don't make sense.  You have to think them thru over time or come back to it if you wanna.

I've got better things to do.

Disgusted

I see like my dad getting all excited, like thinking young adults today are bad but then just saying that it's supposed to be that I'm bad because it's my turn though I didn't do anything to deserve this treatment.

I can explain.

I thought "bullshit" was funny, and it's really unnecessary.  It's not trying to make a person that.  That's what you do to me.

I might go get something to eat..

x)

So..

..wanna just end your success?

This is not okay.

I'm not subtracting people from life.

No, I didn't

I didn't do anything to anyone.

So, what happened?

I guess people are too embarrassed to socialize, now.

Do you have a lesser ethnicity?

Askenazi Jewish
Polish
Ukrainian
...

Like, how many????

More

Why do black and Chinese people look at me like I have to suck like them?

Look at this.

It looks like she actually got the training..bravo!

5:46

How Trashy

So, make your ugly, messed up, socially abused babies dark-haired if they turn out ugly because of their parents?

What?

Am I excluded?

Just look at who is the "it" girl in the cover.

Sinners!

You all base your ****ed up lives on making fun of what my mom doesn't do to me, like I can't be like everyone else.. how stupid is that?  I did it like everyone else, my mom is a different person!

Lucky

The cast of Frozen are so lucky.

TV

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Bill Clinton, former US President, was on.  He is very smart.  He is very happy with the girls in his family, like Camelot.

The dancing was nice.  It was neat when the audience learned a dance.  That's funny, in Annie, the lead girl said she had to take singing and dancing.  I think someone mentioned Sweeney Todd on the show yesterday!  It's a show where actors learn to be singers and sing for the theater.  I was feeling unwell when it came out so waited for the DVD.

Don't get me wrong.

I won't fight if you wanna do something to someone else you did to me, but I think that I had to suffer a lot in my life.

Problem

Why just because I was frustrated and hit my desk some but not like an animal and ended up resorting to screaming from Disney, and my dad coughed and sent a message that upset me, like that morning.  I was trying to put it in the past, but they kept making little annoying noises at me, and it was just too much to this point and still is.

I know there was tension when I saw my parents, again.

I am watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show, and I saw a lady shake her head from the back with short blonde hair a lot like Ellen.  What, did I get on the show, now?  I was thinking I'd remember to "let Bella" have really attractive people I see but not to worry about every single, little person.

Why am I being made fun of!!  for saying like Bella gets it all.  My dad keeps recycling and acting like I'm bad!  when I hadn't done anything!  It's like I'm selfish.  I mean, why hate me?  You can have what you want, but why get me in trouble in the process??