Maybe, it's not. I can feel someone squeaming away from me. Hurting me like saying no. But that person isn't supposed to be squeaming. Perhaps, they like other people, though, not just me. I've often thought of this and perhaps have indicated it aloud. I don't know if I'm behind other people with older dads, but my life isn't full of emotion now. Where can I escape to? Being alone and independent is 1 way to get things going.