My Old Blog: 12/11/14

Thursday, December 11, 2014

This Whole Imposition

Punishment. I don't agree. I mean, it's abnormal.

I got Chris Mann as the Phantom when I saw it. There are 3 I think alternating. So, when I watch a show, I have to call and ask about it. This and if Cats are the only things that hold my interest. Camelot would be nice, saw it once and thought it was boring, tho. Nice aura.

and

it wasn't supposed to be about any 1 person mostly and in the majority regard

Why did I even write all that?

Anyway, I'll be back Friday I think possibly at night.

Something Else Important?

Are you using my failure as a gain to your success? I mean making me a failure so you can be seen as a successor? I'm talking about going in and like hurting me, tho. I dunno, this thought seems to exist. I mean using me as in like the way you feel good is to make me feel bad? So, using the idea that I'm a failure to say well if that's it I am a success? You don't seem to do much else much. I know how observant young Fort Lauderdalians/Miamians are. Their brains get very large. Do they? Mine is too large, too. I think we need to shrink it. I've done that before.

What is it?

You just want to feel power? What is the matter? I know one thing I should admit is that I posted karaokes online thinking it was legal by word of mouth. I took them down, tho. I didn't post them before and didn't know they were legal. It's hard to think with a Pennsylvanian dad around.

Do you think you're getting a little carried away?

being mean to my parents? I didn't do anything really wrong. Admit my life sucks.

Be civilized

Don't be like an animal to me about my own blog. I didn't really name names.. names came to me. I mean, if you have a problem, present it in a civilized manner and I can react and write about it.

Why did I..

..even write all that.. because it was something to write about? For counseling? To sort out feelings? I know that's true that you need a computer to sort out feelings. You make charts and graphs for some things. You say what you want and on the way change your mind.

So

I managed to talk about what was on my mind without using anything against an innocent bystander! I wish I didn't have to talk about it. It wasn't about a person.

Summation

I am truly sorry what I said is interprete as mean, but it's breaking out of punishment and not mean to anyone, so I don't know where you're coming from.

Shower!

More on the List

You can't say I'm bad because your own life was a failure, like oh Christina just did what she was supposed to but I say so did I.

I don't get it.

People go thru pain, like I should, like they wanna meet someone. They won't try, tho, online much, and they won't speak to you. They just feel like they are in the way and don't do anything but wish and not act upon their desires. Become a singer, actors, whatever, it's not that hard. It's not like you have to be a physician!

Problem

I just said I didn't want something to happen, and then they acted upon it.

Problem

They aren't stopping at any move.

Problem

They are acting like someone and in a way I don't want them to. It's not fair. I won't do it.

Again

Don't look for me until possibly Friday night or Saturday.

You can't tell me

all of a sudden I'm not that good. You treat me like trash, and no one gets to talk to me much.

I see it's nice when other people are around..

..to keep the people I know off of me rubbing in even the fact that something is not about me enough.

Is that all?

You don't even want me to participate? You just want to hurt me? That's not okay. Jail is for when we break the law. We don't be mean in other ways.

Why?

Why do you spoil this person? I don't think the outcome looks altogether ideal, but you tell me what you see. You all dug into my life about people who annoy me, too. I think this person is also too old for that of which you speak.

Important Things

Why is it always that 1 other person? No one is polite to me. I mean, if it's to grow, then why not let it grow? You have a strange reason, and you keep bringing up that 1 reason.

It hasn't gone

in stride, and I'm not taking it in stride. This is perverted. You can do it yourself. But my life is to be active.. }:) No one can control it.

I'm not doing this for that person.

I'm not alleviating her confused feelings.

Not Being English

So, I don't know, I don't get certain opportunities. I have a large cluster made of Anglo/Irish.

Don't you hate it when parents lie..

..you act cool and they secretly get back at you? What if that's why you can't drive??

And

Can this person stop being mean to me?

Problem

You just know I'm not English. Why don't you just figure out already you need to be happy about other people without using it to hurt me in the process? I see you seem to have stopped liking me for no good reason, can like me and not talk to me. Whoops, who was that to? *blushes* I just feel so hurt every day and made fun of like I'm a little fatty. Can anyone help? Like I was just trash. I didn't even complain, but now? I see this is becoming a lifestyle like sliced bread. You just need your suitors. I need to tell myself it's okay.