..we have problems.
We can't go around all wanting the same thing. We need to talk and accept what we have and do what we can. In relationships, we can practice consensus's, like that we agree a certain person will benefit pretty much best or safely or will be able to feel good about a certain experience. Like, someone has to talk to someone. Some people were luckier than others, I think. But I don't like the way all of a sudden everyone is supposedly on top of me. I found they weren't. Maybe, before, all that hard work was shit. Maybe. When will we finally get this over with? You'll be too old to be happy about it soon. I decided to do the performing arts at 18. I mean get it over with as in we don't have that much time and things lie ahead. I feel this has been put as a burden over me. I can't seem to get out and do what people wish I was "doing." Serving others as a slave. I did what I was supposed to, though. There's no, it's okay to be bad before but only for some. There might be a reason for everything, some things just accidents, whatever that means to you. It's time to fix things now. I think that it's not a matter of casting agents for the younger people but that they kinda wanna hold on the world while they end up not doing it. I feel I can't do anything because of it for some reason. I just want out. But I watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and feel pressure from it and like I did something wrong in the way I've been describing. I wasn't talking about other facts, like they could beat me. Good, that's the goal. I just feel frustrated I'm left alone online like it's not okay.