Tuesday, December 23, 2014

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I saw it in Orlando. I got to go twice. If I knew about Chris in advance, I'd like to have seen it more.. I was younger when I saw it in New Orleans. Christine seemed like the star, then, but now the Phantom himself is, as well. For some reason, the stairs are my favorite part.

Regular Ol' Apology

They keep saying things weird, but I'm sorry whoever I may have hurt.  They have no right to pick at me like that.  It's just so returning and closed-eared, like I'm defined as a robot racially.  I don't know what it means to stand it or if I should.  They still think they didn't do anything wrong.  People keep attacking me.  I will not accept my dad saying I'm in trouble.  That's what made my Gramma hurt my mom.

Tonight!

Lord,

Take me up into your arms!
And return me 'fore I wake!
I am in love with your charms!
Which are sometimes mine to take!
Nite soon

Story

There was a 14-year-old girl named Tragedy.  She had a sister named Comedy who was 24.  Tragedy had gld hair, and Comedy had white hair.  They both had blue eyes.

Tragedy was in a dress with indent with blue and white checkered stripes, small squares.  She had on a white bonnet with a matching blue band.

There was a boy who was 20 named Rupert.  He was like a father to Tragedy and a best friend for Comedy.

Tragedy ran through the outdoors and lay in the grass and rolled around a little.  She looked serious and sighed.  Comedy said, "You forgot something, tie your shoe in the big race."  Tragedy was bitter but paid no attention.

Tragedy sat with the other girls on the bank by the dock/harbor.  They were waiting for a ship to come.  Tragedy dressed in a shiny, soft red material.  Her hat was white.  Comedy came and put her arm around Tragedy when the other girls were away from her.  She looked at her lovingly, and Tragedy felt a surge of guilt for her stupidity.

Rupert was off with the boys.  Tragedy ran off to find him.  He ran and gave Tragedy a hug.  They were all going on board.  The men helped with getting the girls in the boat.

They sailed off across the ocean.  They were sure the liner would not sink as it was plastered with great material.  It looked tasty enough to eat.  Tragedy was honestly sad to see other girls getting their way while she felt guilty from the start and did some things she regretted, like speaking hoarsely.

Finally they were there.  Some of the other girls were unspeakably weary for some reason.. such young things.

They ran off to great expectations.  They were in the mountains of Spain and France.  There were houses and a place to stay.  They learned many secrets visiting such a place.  There was great nutrition.  Then they walked off and went to another place to sail from in Spain.  They landed in Greenland, a place they honestly knew not much of.  It was cold.  They set up a place to stay and they lived their lives there.  Next, they went to Africa, and that was so romantic.  Some remained there, some eventually left.

Problem

Someone told my mom to give up something if I started ignoring their insults.

Weird Messages

?

Problem

I am listening to my music, and they keep playing with the internet connection amount.  I'm singing.

Imagine

working at the office on Christmas day.  I do not know what goes on in business that gives us more money.

Noises

your "pathetic" noises

They keep telling me I'm doing something I'm not.  Well, I'm gonna be famous.

Do you need me?

I have people down on their knees for me.  They want to change what I think.

GO AWAY

I'M NOT GOING THRU YOUR SILLY PROCESS OF PAYING FROM SOMEONE SUFFERING FROM PSYCHOSIS IN OLD AGE

I don't know what to say.

They keep bothering me now.  My dad made me think of like a little cannon thingy shooting at him.  They are so stupid.  They think if something happens, I "lose a person" I am currently obsessed with.  They push me to think things in uncomfortable situations.  Sometimes, I lose control of my thought because I'm wondering.  They deserve it if they pick on me like that.  Supposedly, my aunt and Gramma did this, how absurd-  They keep talking to me like I'm gonna put up with this.  I called it stupid cuz it was, it's like Hell, and they'd make fun of me for "admitting" that.  HEY I SAID STOP YOU *BEEP*  Now, someone wants someone to mess with my body, has people do that.

Did you ever consider..

..that's actually why she's *** and that's.. and the rest is probably her scared side?

If she is, then the poor thing needs it.  Not just condescending Mama.  We love Mama.

Apology

I didn't know how to be civil with everyone in the room.  I should have just said it right away.  If I asked if someone had a problem earlier say sorry is something wrong..  I could have asked my mom if she was okay somehow.

We've come to a Twitter conclusion.

Ellen is selfish and wants to be touched inappropriately by other women.

Music




Performance Artist

Andrew Lloyd Webber - Cats in the West End

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Harsh

Sorry bout that.  I wasn't really doing anything wrong/mean.  I was talking about something else.  I feel like someone is looking at me like I can't sing a lot so I mess up.

Attitude

It seems all the people my age and older have jumped onto the boat of narcissism.

Can I just say I am better?  I don't get any of what other people do.  I saw the marines accept Toys for Tots.  I live for art, tho, and in a way it is suffering trying to make it.  The only suffering I'd have in the military is not doing art.

What is so precious to these older selfish people?  I am not saying it's anyone in particular in whatever ways I understand things like it but to include a feeling of the whole movement of trust in this narcissistic way of thinking.  It is hard to find someone who doesn't follow this offbeat way of viewing the world.  People around my age and older do it, I guess.  I don't listen.

I watched a video of the Phantom of the Opera and was immediately reminded inside of Josh Groban.  I read a quote by him saying you are either a rock star or an opera diva, the only other thing not being anything as "half singing" in the shower.  I guess he is not much older than me.  He has much to learn.  I watched Chris Mann on YouTube, and he didn't say why this production of Phantom was massive cuz I think they are all equally significant to someone.  Was he trying to make it cute and give a sorta multiply interested message?  Most people would flip out that they aren't even a singer.  People who sing would feel their talents meant nothing or maybe these other singers to me also seem lazy, too lazy to record ALW songs.  They think they're better in opera.  Just how "massive" is this one production that the rest don't matter?  I'm getting some vocal training soon, and I could be Christine.  That's the only role in this massive musical! for girls who sing.  The only explored character, with hopefully well-paid supporting dancers, who all leave the theater door with an attitude like they did something better than you and should have been Christine.  Well, that's how un-massive things are behind this, in ways.. like people not caring as much about it.  Everyone thinks they care more in the audience, but they never figured out that they should take voice lessons.  They probably aren't even in soccer! and have all that money and can sing on their own and in choir.  I just didn't know to go to the auditions when I had Ellen to go to.  It was good cuz I don't see how I could have made it yet.  Maybe in a few weeks.  I'd rather group up with people I like, but no, I'm not good enough, LOL not massive enough of a person..

About who deserves what.. if you don't show, you don't go.  The kinds of people who show don't seem like experienced singers.  What about real music?  Doesn't it sound like how singing should sound like?  People don't sing and they come surprised.  Not me.  No one cares how much I sing.  How can anyone make fun of my singing when others don' t even match?  You just want it better and better and can't even appreciate what's in front of  you.  I've sung, yes, I have, and I've wanted to.  I just felt mixed up in things, like what's school for?  By 28 and before, I figured it was unimportant.  School for your work, just say it.  So, about people who don't sing classically.  They might still have a knack of beginner's luck.  Maybe, they should figure out life or watch and figure themselves out of that life.  They are so insulting, those people who don't sing telling me because I didn't have private training that maybe I cannot do it.  That's not really true.  You should have given me more time as a kid to sing.  I don't think we had money.  I did ballet, like everyone else, and gymnastics and baton twirling.  Then, too much hw.  hw hw.  I didn't know school wasn't worth a shit.  I feel I'm being picked on as I write about something that doesn't matter.  You think it's just the fact I didn't take lessons as a kid.  Did these other people?  I don't know people like that who started before 15/18.  Maybe, some teachers.  You know, I learned from ballet and things to be a kid.

Point is people who don't sing think like I don't deserve to sing  These people are controlling the level of connection as I write and insulting me about not singing in private lessons as a kid.  I didn't know about them.  I stayed in choir!  I sang!  You didn't.  That's who I'm comparing myself with.  I wanted to sing since 5 when I was in school.  I sang for my dad and mom, but they didn't do anything like if I said I like ballet.  Actually, I was in gymnastics, and it gave me the strength to sing!  I did piano!  What the *beep*!  Chris Mann did piano since a little boy, and Josh Groban does know, too.  It's like everyone's in piano, but that's not performing!  Theater is acting.  Dance is like music.  And no I can't do gymnastics.  I was good as it, and  I like others carry my childhood with me.

I'm sorry, but I can't get these people to stop interfering when I talk about singing.  They keep thinking I'm cheap and can't do it.  I learned on my own and in choir.  I had a lotta hw, true, but it gave me insight in life.  You don't just robot and open your throat and let it pour out like water from a hose.  In fact, people worry about singing teachers teaching like this.  What do you think about that?  And dance?  And siblings?  A long time ago, singers educated themselves.  I was told to stop college singing.  You think I don't know if I can sing?  It could be better, but it is good compared to others!  It's just fun.  Too bad if no one fulfilled your dreams and you have nothing to listen to but yourself.  What about a singer with no upbringing, no piano, no dance/ballet??  A dancer could beat them at it!!  Like a musician dancing!  Then, you have safe talents.  Not the ones people produce in dreams.

Gotta run!

Hard

I want ballet and classical/Broadway singing, but it's so much money.  It's like I have to pick 1.  Both are hard work, and I intend to change teachers for fun.. Maybe next year ballet and this year work on selling a CD.  Sell a CD, quit and do ballet?  I am trying to get in something like The Phantom of the Opera, but I don't know that I want to work with just any people..  I wrote on Chris Mann's wall saying I wanted to and it was neat to pick yourself who you work with..  I was wanting to support him and see if there were any further opportunities.  I know there is nothing planned, so you gotta get with the going.

Can't Get a Hold of an Opportunity

Bound for Broadway, I'd need to sign up, and it isn't worth it.  If it were Cats the movie, I'd say hey Dad pay ya back latas (later.)

I heard

you need ballet to do jazz..

Well

People really are and already were monkeying around about my race when I look good as a white person in reality if I'm dressed and all.. I'm not the only "fat" person..

How You Get In

Well, people are talking to me.

Is it okay to get in Hollywood in a bad way?  Like, I could have been a fat actress as a kid?  My body is just too big and there are just not that many great workouts?  I think that's wrong.  You know, my speakers stopped on my old computer.  I have one I use that uses batteries that I use for singing, and my dad may fix the speakers on my computer if he can.  The small one takes batteries often.

If I got in Cats

I'd wanna be the white cat.  I wanna make money and get private lessons I need now!  I even danced til 21.

Movie

Thinking of watching Cats.  I wanted to be in it, someday.

Whose fault?

for being too lazy to talk to other people who post a lot to Chris Mann?  You don't want those people to meet him nor be his friends cuz you didn't know.  Ha ha ha ha, not at your misfortune, just the funny parts otherwise.

Apology

That Vocaroo was a little rude.  I didn't apologize in the last quarter for my blasphemous speech.

Are you coming out as just against

popular people getting married while they're still popular?  I cannot say I have not encountered any big, long-winded "issues," recently.  I do care about everyone..

Think of nuns and the mere priest of the parish.  What if Ellen were married with kids?  I'm not married with kids.  I could have been.  So, am I Ellen?  Or am I the opposite??  When does this kind of thinking not work out?

Who's Still Standing

Ellen DeGeneres

When things aren't there for you, she's still there.

People are all on

the most important things

Pirates of the Caribbean - ***
Cats and TPoTO - music and dance

I need to eat something.

Hot Dogs..

Apology

Sorry I was making fun of someone.  I should have come out with that differently.

Why

do you get so mad if you feel I twitch in discomfort to messages that if I gave would be in trouble?

Why?

Why?  Why don't other people need to skedaddle?

So

All of you are telling me to skedaddle?

So

See if you like me enough to talk to me.  I am not interested in "what" I said, but I can sing.  I dunno, I keep listening, tho.  Why you always onto my race when it's like you can't tell, anyone?  That's pathetic.  I have fun if I get to see people.  I blog and am used to it.

Singing

5:46


Record music with Vocaroo >>

I just

recorded a long thing for Chris Mann.  I am trying to be Christine in The Phantom of the Opera, and he was interested when someone said Seirra Bodges, who played Christine.  So, I am wondering if there will be a 30th edition recording, thinking not, not even another recording, been 10 years, tho.  It's loaded!  I talk about copyright and ethnic race!  15 minutes!

Then

How will you hurt people I like if what they say is always right????

Upset

It doesn't matter what other people say, just what I say, "I'm in trouble," but not really..

Apology

Something came over me again, pushed too much to think about things when I'm thinking of something else.  :(

Actress

Looks like Anna Kendrick is better than me.  She's more radiant.

Regret

I should not get mad at anything.

I should not get mad at anyone!

TV

Jimmy Fallon!

He's interviewing a cute guy from Into the Woods!