Sunday, February 3, 2013
Dream
I was in a row of people. finally made it to music class, and Renée Fleming was 2 people down, just looked at Órla Karron Fallon online. For some reason, she was really tall, quite big. She was talking to me, forget about what. She had a long peach light tannish dress on, maybe with a slit and like squared top look. She had her arms on me, maybe like Sarah Brightman with Jackie Evancho. So I was like cradling my fingers around her waist to show I was actually holding onto her, not just touching her. This lasted awhile and felt good. Like, it got more intense, and I had to think of holding on. Then, she just held on and I got uncomfortable, as she asked me about singing. So, she picked me up and walked around to set an example. I just felt good, didn't feel stimulated then.. She was sitting next to a girl before who was an opera or singing major.. Ah, I forgot what happened before now. Well, they stood up and demonstrated stuff, and I was like involved. So, my music teacher was a great aunt who has passed. Sad about it, but she smoked a lot. No one like her, neither. Not that I know I'm related to. So, before I saw my 2 music teachers, too, I know. I think it was wicked. So, I felt very comfortable with the person. I just felt like I was being cared for. You know, I felt soft and sweet, somewhat like nectar-milky. My legs just seemed like they fit like I was sitting in a high seat for a baby, you know, not sticking out. We were talking about serious things in music the whole time, was aware of what I was saying I think.
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Shower-Bath
Want to go to bed after. So I am ready for the beginning of the week at school. Wanted to go to the mall, Wal-Mart, maybe somewhere else, but I can have my dad go for me, not to the mall. Nothing too big there to get. There is a dress for $85 not online, 1 left in XL.
Ate
It's hard to remember. I know I had 2 French bread pizzas and lots of asparagus's. I had 2 more little round brownies earlier heated up for 10 seconds. I finished the rest of my pizza just now, seemed like a meatwad left. I think I had more sushi but have to leave some for my mom, have an e-mail due to my dad and to call about transportation for tomorrow and Tuesday.
Ate
California roles sushi my mom got
2 + some of an Oscar Meyer bun length hot dog my dad got beef franks for me with wheat buns and Heinz ketchup
Sea Salt potato chips like at Starbucks at Barnes & Noble I got
Tomato Soup, some sort of Campbell's, Tyson's frozen Buffalo chicken strips with jalapeño Monetary Jack cheese, Dill & Olive Oil Triscuits
2 little round brownies microwaved for 15 seconds, too long, piled on top of each other
I'm tired still, probably watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and later shower.. xp
2 + some of an Oscar Meyer bun length hot dog my dad got beef franks for me with wheat buns and Heinz ketchup
Sea Salt potato chips like at Starbucks at Barnes & Noble I got
Tomato Soup, some sort of Campbell's, Tyson's frozen Buffalo chicken strips with jalapeño Monetary Jack cheese, Dill & Olive Oil Triscuits
2 little round brownies microwaved for 15 seconds, too long, piled on top of each other
I'm tired still, probably watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and later shower.. xp
Problem
My dad acted tacky about just not giving me money and not answering. My mom probably could use that potion. Why do they want me to use my own money and then run out? I didn't ask for much. ':| I believe that's why these things are there. Also, if you didn't know, my financial aid didn't work because of my Withdrawals + my G.P.A., not sure if it's just at this school, though it shouldn't matter, because it was 1 semester here. I had excuses before and wrote them down. Have a feeling this is like before, just won't listen to me. My mom was acting like she was better than me, and I have no idea why because I don't want to be considered lumpy. I kinda think she's definitely a midget, even.
Money
So, these nigger people are thinking I shouldn't have spent $50 at Bath & Body Works. Well, I mean I just got a selection of hand sanitizers. I got like 3 cute things and 2 perfumey things, when most people get more, somehow. My dad even wanted me to buy my own food. Maybe, next month, I'd ask him. I just really wanted it, and my cell phone wouldn't work and I dunno just didn't think of it, mean it was late and he was going back home. I'm hoping he'll buy me something else, but we'll see. It probably won't all run out, so I can get it next weekend, though I don't know if he's paid this weekend. I can get a dress and sweater for like $50 or a fancy dress for $85. I got a lot the beginning of last month, want to get 2 big trash cans this month. Also want toilet drops. I know last month I got things like hampers or whatnot. Maybe, tomorrow, I'll at least get hand sanitizers at Wal-Mart, have him buy them, like before, so I can save the others for school and supplied and not be so addicted to getting them the beginning of next month unless my dad wants me to buy them next time because it's the beginning of the month. Thing is now they have sanitizer in a dispenser and I wanted the shimmer gel, reminds me to find a wallet. Also, the van came late last week, and my dad didn't e-mail about the cell phone just yet, doesn't mean anything. :|
Verdict
A friend didn't talk to me, seemed to think either I was shit because she had ethnic issues or I deserved more and better, like another friend suggested. Now, my life is like ... in front of Tim Burton all the time or Ellen DeGeneres rather in sorta saving graces it's "about" her, when I tracked her thru e-mail and she just maybe doesn't type. She used to slide away from me and say not to talk to her but seemed like she could be kidding and there was no reason, probably just found out something about me I wasn't really, accepting. When the classes split in junior high, another girl would just look away from me as we waited for our mom's cars. I got mad at her. Like each time. I'm not saying oh there is no more Tim Burton, no more Ellen DeGeneres right now. So, I met a nice person, probably have been in similar situations, and in Florida, and they are here immune to this disease, for some reason. Same up north. Well, not around my relatives, which I haven't been since ' 15 '
Dream
I remember lots of things. At 1 point, I was asleep sorta and listening to the phone of kids supposedly in a theater class, wondering about Martin Luther King, Jr., Day, since it was Groundhog Day. I picked up some machine and played with it and put it back. I found Ginny was sitting on a couch in the room rather fresh, looked like my old apartment in Altamonte Springs. Supposedly, I slept through the alarm. It was dark like night but supposedly 9:30 A.M. or almost. So, anyway, I didn't know if she was still there, was on a couch ... oh, I ventured to answer a 2nd knock. 1st, the person looked Asian, again, dark and with like an angled face, then it was a black lady like come to take me home. I didn't see through the peephole. Anyway, on the sofa, I noticed 2 TV shows, 1st was Sampson & Sally based and 2nd was like a cute version with like a huge elephant with a small trunk, rather sketchy, from The Jungle Book, and I said I liked the snakes as I left. Before, I noticed it looked kinda, not su - explicit like me. So, on the sofa, my legs felt kinda like pins and needles like someone was gonna take me to my room.
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