Sunday, August 16, 2015

Teen Choice Awards

Why didn't Dr. Phil get to take some time in the Teen Choice Awards?  Ellen just did her thing.

Problem

I'm upset and wish supper went better.

Oh..

..I'm "half" Asian

As someone who could be like 1% Italian..

..from my dad's side, I probably am not looking at the world thru rose colored glasses.  Yea, why my long face?

I believe in/venerate around 2 things.

The Spanish and Jacksonville, FL

So..

Why should I respect, for example, Tim Burton for having a lofty position and Bella Thorne being supported by minimum wage workers.. when you just beat me up all the time about the ethics of if I work or not?

New Video of Me Singing

Problem

How is it possible I'm badder than everyone else for things you just think I did wrong altogether in the end?  No one else puts up with this.  (People I know especially are mean and hard on me all the time and they contacted people and got them to be mean to me, too, famous people anyone would want to meet.)  Anyway, their baseline is 1 thing I did.  This is rougher than a prison and takes years of life.  So, all these bad people don't suffer this.  They're on their big break.  My calculations calculate they did some pretty bad stuff if their actions follow the same graph line shape as mine.  The memory is a bit fuzzy, but I always tried to be good like all the time.  Recently, my dad seemed to test me if I would do something wrong, and he was right but too late.  It was noisy here and I had thought my life was an experiment and people were kidding with me.  I think it was the distracting environment that did it.  I shouldn't have even gone on MySpace and Facebook.  Straight to Blogger.

New Videos Added to a List on YouTube

Question

What would people of European countries look like if the Chinese did not mix with them - Germanic people, Norse people, probably English people.  And sometimes the Eastern countries are considered Germanic?  Why do Southern Europeans or Italians have such big noses?  Do Jews have big noses?  Yes, so do Middle Easterners.  I know this is a touchy topic. I think people should discuss it sometime.  Think of Italians all sunken in, no Asian blood for the most part.. I guess we're all Chinese and Jewish.  I bet I have a little Italian, in case you've wondered.  Throw me in.

My Own Business

I thought I was safe staying home more, but people catch up.

Rules

Do you make up rules of what you can't post?  I just had to edit a post and it was like this big confusing deal.

IMDb

Alice Through the Looking Glass (2016)

Re: This is a practical joke right?

I thought I found myself on the Beauty and the Beast board.

Good Times

Actually was in high school.  I wish I was even more social.

Why do people come around and then go, probably set up.  Of course, we expect to have superstars.  They just never wanna meet people.  So, all the wrong people will meet up now or will never open up.

Problems

I am not the loser in life with you getting everything above me.

IMDb - The Soapbox

What is Anti-Racism and Diversity?

Does it mean we let any race experience the same thing as another without questioning that they might not want it when they say they do?? Why can't whites get that? Someone asks a question, it's not as hard as chosing a stance on abortion. 

What is anti-racism?

Does it mean you have to treat me like I'm shaped like a European?

Again, No

You can't have a war with America.

Weird

Those kids from Europe seem to trash me.

Well..

..I didn't mean I'd call everyone that really.  I guess some of you know my race or are racist detectives of a strange kind.  I dunno, but if you call me the n word, I don't really get mad.  I do get mad if it's to prove a point..

I just meant, well what I said kinda, but I forget now.  What can I say back, you're racial scum?  You're bad?  Black people actually use the word because they are Negro.

Asking

I want to get the Nutri Ninja small blender and possibly skip Disney for 1 or 2 weeks if I have to cuza money for food cuz I'm craving it and my eyes are getting blurry again like before for diabetes, and I need more candy.  I know sleep prevents diabetes..

cont.

I wasn't actually referring to nor thinking of anyone I know/about.  Good?

Race

You say I'm not white, I spell out you're a n*****.  You'll try to fight and find you're not a winner.

Forward

Why do you think you can step into my life to supposedly deform it?

Funny

how teens can act snotty to me

Feeling Bad

You know, I don't feel I meant to do anything bad in life.  I feel I'm being punished for playing baseball by a house and having the ball go thru a window, except I wouldn't play baseball unless I was in a baseball field.

Why are you testing me when I say even if someone was bad don't deserve to be mistreated cuz bad people have an explanation, they can blame other people?  It's like my earnestly saying I'm not bad as a reason means I'm mean to people who aren't good.

Looks like I'm stuck being hurt all the time and for no reason.  Didn't you ever have anything in life you respected?  Like earning things others are jealous of?  They think good people shouldn't need anything, like bad people don't get anything.  That's not true!  When you're good, you get things, and bad people can make fun of you for it.

They are saying that they already decided without being hypnotized that I have to suffer their meanness for no reason and that my trying not to is not okay.  I can't have you thinking you know what someone thinks every other second and telling me what to do to a crazy minute point.  It's just not so!  You don't have the right values, anyway.  You talk bad to me, yourself, if anyone thinks this is bad.  It's my blog and my problems blog and here anything goes.  Get your own blog.

You seem to think I just want/need to be stimulated.

I didn't really say what you acted like I did.  You just know you're always as nice as needbe and then you "lie" or change truth about that later.  No, I don't do that, that's not an excuse. You keep acting like I'm just "mean to 'my father.'"  I'm not mean to my racist dad!  He's Simon Legree.

No, I don't care how long you've been watching me.  I've had to "secretly" suffer as "punishment" for no apparent reason.  You use me like a toy and make me suffer without reward and am without money.

"People who 'meet' people.."

People get mad at me for being energetic but not my cousin.

Don't go with the flow in every way all the time!

Do you ever see people having funny feelings about making decisions they can't explain and saying going with the feel is right and in the end they mess up life for themselves?

Speaking of messing up life, my parents didn't give me singing when I wanted it at 5 nor the flute maybe a little later.  I was still interested and did music at school.  I was already in gymnastics since I was 1 3/4.. and ballet at 5-7, which I couldn't do well.

Weird

These people all say out of bounds conclusions and assume their moment to shine is against me being "energetic" and "aware" and "awake."  The thing is I'm not gonna make people popular by being seen in the shadows in some false shame.

From What I Gather

I see you've resorted to calling my emotional life tacky.

Problems

Everyone thinks my friends I spammed don't need to be bothered but I do, as a person, and I was stuck with nothing to do and felt insane alone and they didn't care, didn't tell them that tho..

They think the person that replaced me with Ellen is Norse, my friends are German, and I'm Italian.

So..

..if I get happy, they just insult me again, someone I like they say then sometimes they think they can not say.

Like waking up.  Oh, wow, is someone trying to stay safe? Just be safe, be meant to me Christina the "n*****."  "Ooh, someone won't like me if I'm not mean to her."  Hmph.  Well, I don't take being hurt, of course, who would?  Jesus already died and rose for our sins and he's God.  I fight these people every day, and I do suffer, but I am not mean to anyone.

For what it's worth..

..I seem more convincing as a person because people believe me when I say it.

Problem

They are suggesting me and someone else to be belittled to one another.

Issue

I don't care you people think that you can be mean to me to get ahead but I am not anyway pretending I'm bad.  What liars.

Am I wrong to like

that cute slender fair Italian organist boy?

Some are repulsive in attitude towards just me.

Don't you feel some attraction to boys in America who seem German or the attractive English ones?

Another Weirdo

A guy from another country plays I represent the specimen of my dad dinkily.  I'm already good.  I'm not supposed to taste that medicine!

Weirdo on TV

An English person pretended my dad was considered more European but I was still a *beep* cuz my mom is Asian, but they forget too they want my mom, too.

You know, it's funny..

..how those people who rushed to beat other races aren't competent with kids, like a lot of females.

Race

There isn't "some thing I didn't do."  You all just made like a dash to overdevelop early and not in the right way so you can seem to beat people like me.

Upset

I can't seem to enjoy the dog I posted on the side of my blog cuz they made it get a tacky owner that looked black and after the credits started looked white.  That does prove something is up.  Seriously, I wonder what was up with that.  Is the answer negative?  I feel pursued, too, if anyone can see into that happening.  It makes sense, but it's not a mistake I would want to/make.  I dunno, why do people keep bringing up black people?  I thought animals had a sense of purity.  That dog looks lonely with that woman.  It was better off in the wild, but I guess it eats trash cuz it can't hunt like a wild dog.  I guess it's just a "story" for kids.  They don't know what's going in their heads, tho.

Worried

What people do when they know I've gotten mad and forget people were being mean to me.

For instance, there will be another Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, in the style of the Glass Elevator.  Tim Burton the old director and Johnny Depp the old Willy Wonka didn't say they'd do it again, yet, but I know they said in the bonus features of Sweeney Todd if they wanna meet someone from a/their movie/s it wouldn't be Willy Wonka.

About people being mean, they pretend to be other people and it seems to have fueled a revolution against me because sometimes I find myself mad at the idea of who I like that they portrayed in some way.

Essential Elements

It has such great songs, I must get an oboe!  Little melodies!  I need a Broadway oboe book?

Southern Europeans

Why would you make any Americans like me assimilate in an "issue" of like being Italian but not people in Northern Europe?

I'm ready for a normal life.

I don't have quite enough money for college.

Raw talent - film acting.

What I Could Do

things like rythem

Skype

christinaa.barrett

Saving Up

I want to play an instrument.  The oboe is expensive.  So, I'm getting it.  I can get it on eBay for $150 or $200.

Performing/Arts

No one set an age for us to do it, when it's easier to start young.  We need to do it good by the time we're in high school.

They just wanna see who'd see thru this all, suck up to adults with art love, and then get encouraged to go for it rather than finding it's too late even for that.  There's no individual planning.  It's all about being encouraged when sucking up tackily to adults and getting mushy and stuff and losing your dignity to them by acting submissive about it.

Whatever

They are suggesting Florida is their lost home with a sneer towards people like me who like Florida and lived there or maybe it's just me for convenience sake.

The TV

Why is TV filled with such annoying people?