Sunday, December 16, 2012

Down by the Station

I had to go back to the station and poo some, and my pants were smeared in the back and sorta middle. I got a big sub with pickles and a Reeses bar that was chewy, not very satisfying, with cookie, at the bottom. I had my peach water energy drink, and it made me feel like it was still September. Do I smell something strong like Asian food? A party? I did remember to jog, passing some people. Might take off my sweater and stay out longer. Laundry. Veggies. Too bad I forgot more Italian ice.
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Veto

2 Points
* my mom "shouldn't" get glasses, and, if she does, she should probably be some age over 60, maybe 70s, unless I find out lots of other people, at that age, without glasses.
* I forget the "other point," but the reason is bad, and I might figure out what the "reasons" are.
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See you all, a little later...

Facebook Answer!

Ginny Kopf, the diction teacher of Disney and other theme parks here I think etc., answered me!

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Problem

So, Ellen DeGeneres will deny that she thinks that all these little things I do say that I want attention from somebody and some people in the world and that I have to pay by my mom getting glasses.

Also, if I put clicks in your room that were torturous, don't you think it's okay if a curse word comes to your mind?  Also, I feel she's mad at me for thinking I'm too good to curse, to an extent.

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I tagged Family to my Problem post.

1 Last Word B4 iGo

So, I think back at the memories with my mom when she was younger..

I want to recollect now the weather in Christmas, 2010..

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I edited 6|700 to 6-700.

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I tagged Ellen DeGeneres in my last post.

Hanging Their Heads Low

You know, people are really devastated about my mom wearing glasses.  She was rather acclaimed as a person, quite fit and like Middle Eastern, not sure if she'd technically pass, but you know.  Maybe, she's not the most nourished person, doesn't eat breakfast, which I'd blame my grandma for.  My grandma so much as to put herself forward as to say my mom didn't take care of my dad, suggested it.  My mom thinks my dad doesn't take care of us, and my brother also feels the same.  My dad is always drooling for money in front of us, foaming at the mouth, like wild and mad dog.  We've lived in 2 apartments, however, when my brother was young.  So, my brother must be my problem.  Sometimes, my parents expect me to like care about him more, all of a sudden, like I'm no longer an individual and no longer even wish to be a girl.  Like, he's said something about my race and it's my fault.  Like, he's so much better, though I enjoy some aspects of that sort of statement.

I'm not really sure how my mom affected my life in college.  I didn't speak to my dad.  I know my aunt bothers me.  I know my dad's family are incompetent and do away with things, but his mom doesn't wear glasses all the time and got them at about the same age as my mom.  Well, they stopped going up north at the same time as me, the year after we went with my dad's sister and the daughter.  The daughter is really bad, and you want to think she's pretending, like everyone else, to make me feel good, and that I'm ungrateful and guilty, somehow.  That doesn't really say anything for me.  Same with the cousins up north, mostly.  There's this one with curly white hair, but she's not like that, now.. never talked to her much.

So, I'm kinda worried because supposedly Ellen DeGeneres is about events like this, people making my mom wear glasses.  I just feel like hurting people.  I guess the point would be well no I don't want my mom in glasses, and I mean I guess I can't do anything.  I kinda don't like people who are mean.  I mean, I'll talk to them, for awhile.  So, why is she in glasses?  I kinda want to help out because I already thought of the reason and don't think it's right.  I mean, I just don't accept it.  What other answer would come up?  What's the answer?  I think that people think I have to accept it.  That I have to accept that like it's not something I have a right to like you know get mad about.  I already blame someone.  I think we should lasso the likes of Tim Burton's effects, as though he cares not.  He's gonna continue to try to be genial, but I mean why?  Why?  Look, I'm white.  Ellen DeGeneres and Tim Burton are telling me I don't act white and also that I don't like being white.  Now, they'll deny it.  See, if this is true, they're, they'd be worthless.  You shouldn't say that, but I dunno.  I can't take these slams like I'm nothing, that I find things like my mom wearing glasses, the clicks in my room, the negative messages online.  Maybe, I need to learn to talk, but I've been online all day every day mostly for 5½ years.  I mean, my life must be really messed up.  I don't believe that I needed that long.  The problems were my parents wre mean to me and made me feel guilty for not succeeding in college, for not going to class all the time, though I was hearing clicks at that point that made me approach feelings that brought to mind the idea of being maybe suicidal.  They stopped, for some reason, next semester, when I picked a major.  I know it was a free semester.  That shouldn't matter.  See, Ellen DeGeneres is from that area and would approve of this and then get mad at me for not going to class.  How could I have gone to class?  I know I came in, and the kids turned around and looked at me like I shouldn't be there.  It feels like I might have skipped most of the classes, but I didn't have to.  Also, my life was an experiment, and people stopped communicating with me.  I couldn't focus.  I had a lot of physical inconveniences, in my life.  I was being treated like I wasn't white just because I wasn't perfect and being picked at for being a perfectionist.  So, anyway, that pretty much made me not feel good.  My life was what it was, benefited.  I came home, and I couldn't focus.  I don't know, that might be all.  I was in an experiment, and anyway I don't think that means you can torture me.  I mean, I wasn't being bad.  Also, you'd know I was a good student already before.  My parents never were onto me about school because I was good.

Problem

So, I don't believe in catering to mean people.

So, that said, and me being in the majority anywhere... if Ellen DeGeneres, or my dad, gave my mom glasses... why is that okay, if they probably were mean to me 1st?

My Mom in Glasses 3)

Well, my dad was nasty because he's something related to the word worthless or said I was being stupid for I think the 1st time, which makes sense, though he's not keeping up with me, online..  3p

He only cared about his own feelings and threatened to pretend that wasn't the case and that I was worthless, that I was just privileged and that I didn't deserve my dignity and morals I've learned and acquired.

I got to the idea that it was related to "what" Tim Burton was.  Someone needs to do something about people hurting others to test them because of Helena Bonham Carter, him thinking she's like so precious and innocent and mistreated and like making the world think about her as though she's Johnny Depp or even him OR EVEN ELLEN DEGENERES and that no one else has anything in common with her, technically, hear that, huh, huh, gonna bother you later??

I keep getting weird treatments since watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" this season.  I Tweet with her because I'm online.  Nothing wrong with trying to get personal with her, but I don't need her "help."  Like, all of a sudden, I'll get really insulted and I don't remember why.  It's not bad.  It's not like you can attack me for it.  See, she's gonna read this and attack me for it on her show or post annoying stuff on her Twitter and Facebook.  Then, something bad will happen via the decision of my dad.  Why not just lock my dad up?  Then, we can see what she really is.  Because I'm kinda mad at her for ruining my family.  I don't care about her family, I mean she's like making us think they're important when ours aren't.  Now, that's a laugh.  Yea, I guess she doesn't really care, neither.  She might just act like it like to her mom.  Yea, she does have a niece.  Like, Tim Burton has a daughter.  I am not gonna hurt them for it, but I am gonna talk about it, especially Nell Burton.  Yea, it does make me feel like fighting, when these things happen, like I know I'm mad about like even my brother.  I don't do anything.  I get mad about other little kids getting attention for being naive.. for being considered the kids of a more pristine generation who's younger or for being racist and active racists as white Americans or even abroad America.

So, she acts like she cares, but I think that in some abstract way she must have caused it.  I'm worried because I liked her and think she's trying to get me to not like her and I feel made fun of for doing something other than sitting in my room like a rubber duck rubber duck rubber duck duck duck.  Does that bother you?  I hope not because if it does you do not at all deserve any attention.  I mean, in some ways it's bothersome.

So, Nell Burton has brown eyes.  My mom was tending to my brother..  Tim Burton has a violent eye problem.

Back From the Grocery

There was only 1 French bread pepperoni pizza left.  I got so mad and thought that Ellen DeGeneres was "involved."  I'm in an experiment, and I'm getting 0 respect from her.  It's like it's my fault, BUT IT'S NOT!!!  Answer that?  Just wanna play a game with no point because you're nothing or not something???  SLAM!  Take that, "wimp!"

The French bread pizza isn't incredibly good, here, though, I know, and 711 doesn't have anything good.  I didn't even bother getting the sliced pizza.  Also, I got mad Ellen DeGeneres may have planted a worker next to me who slammed the door.  I asked him|reprimanded him about it, didn't hear me at 1st and then I came over.  He just kinda looked at me like maybe I had a problem...

So, I got like maybe 3 packs of pepperoni deep dish pan pizza.

I got a chocolate cake, chocolate Breyer's ice cream.

I got 2 packs of cracker sticks to dip in cheese.  I got the variety pack of crackers with spread on it.  =}

I got a pack of a certain type of leaves and asparagus.

I got a can of the new kind of food of Chef Boyardee, mac and cheese, came out maybe 3 months ago.

I got butter and cheese grits and breakfast biscuits, 1 bacon and 1 sausage.

I got grain Italian bread from the bakery section and a nice pack of honey ham.

I got 2 packs of beef, 1 with lots of small boneless ones and a pretty large pack of 2.

I don't remember what else.

Less Success Confessed

Would you say Ellen DeGeneres is less successful than me morally, like, in a nutshell?

She thinks it matters bad people and that she "cares" about the flaws side that others who are good "will have."  Like, she thinks people who live to hurt others are the 1st priority.  Too bad, they're not hurting her.  She's Jewish and not Catholic and not really Protestant.  What a show off.  Well, that's the internet.  :|  Hm, I hope I don't need to pee, but I probably do, soon..  I thought all religions believed in being good.  I'm not sure what clashed.  Maybe something to do with suffering as a rich person or those who are well-to-do.  That's rather funny, though, that those people would be rich and not be happy.  Well, people who have a voice, who care, not that it's interesting that she "does that."  I just don't contend to it and I think in private most don't.  She doesn't even approve of modern culture.

Like, she really tips the boat.  So do people like Tim Burton.  Think of "what's" there for people who need someone to look up to.  I kinda would like to see, like, what I'm expected to see.  I mean, it makes sense.  It's just that everyone is like that, anyone who's anyone.  So, who do I really care about?  Poor people?  Isn't that just about being against people like Ellen DeGeneres, Tim Burton, and Johnny Depp?

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I tagged Nell Burton in my last post.

Problem

I never gave you permission to tell my mom to wear glasses.  So, did Tim Burton do it?  It didn't just happen.  Otherwise, it might seem natural, like, maybe, she was going to wear glasses, anyway.

Also, why should her eyes get more fair?  Don't mutter Nell Burton, or you're stupid!  Did you hear that!  You're worthless.  You're shit.  That doesn't mean anything against poor little Nell, of whom you don't give any cares for.  Well, I mean, I guess you'd hope in the spirit of things that it would mean something.  Then, you'd realize no one should do that for her.  She probably thoroughly enjoys but is uselessly reprimanded.  I don't see that as the new forced protocol.  That's a niggerish idea, really, a rushed, forced idea.  If you are of ill intent, don't control anything.  Don't ask me if I want to feel good or not.  What are you gonna do, make someone else feel good?  Just because you're ticked off?  Who do you think you are?  The police took me to the mental hospital for letting my anger out like anyone else, not in a way people might mostly do every day.  Try to get by my dad because he won't admit anything and acts like it's my fault and he's copying me.  I'm not mean like that, and I'm always willing to learn.  That also just reminds me of certain aspects of my personality and it is the result of racism and his flaws.  See, I'm right.  I didn't do anything wrong.  This happened to me for doing poorly in school.  Too bad I am not the daughter of nice, rich parents..  :|  Why is Tim Burton encouraging more tweens?  He shouldn't do that!  He's already ransacked me around.  How?  I get insulting messages, and then supposedly it's just my dad's fault.

What is Ellen DeGeneres's problem?  Look, I'm not a mean person, and I'm not low like Helena Bonham Carter.  Leave us alone.  I don't care about your show.  I already did the right thing, and I don't actually dis it.  So, quit acting like I do just by saying I am someone.  Your show does not state it's against public access to some.  It's unfriendly.  I don't want to go on like no tomorrow that my mom gets glasses because I started to watch your show when I was 25.  I also don't want constant insulting clicks in my room because of calling Nell Burton a nigger.  I mean, what's the big idea?  What ticks?  I thought her mom wanted me to do it, and then I thought I was in an experiment and was told to do it.  So, you think calling someone a nigger means you should be tortured?  Aren't you Jewish?  I'm not anti-Jewish, so you're just being suggestive and trying to tell me I do things I don't actually do nor think to do.  Can you even get that?  Or are you just copying Tim Burton's portrayal of Helena Bonham Carter?  Because I don't need to do it.

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I added 2 tags to my last post.

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Why are people so mad at me, recently?

You're expected to not hurt me.  Pretty much, you've ruined my life, though.  Also, you say I can't even get mad.  You said all I've said was worthless, and now I can't even remember who I am, unless I see evidence, which brings to light more than I knew before.  I can come to the conclusion that you will always get mad.  I wonder how big each punishment is.  I have a story to tell.  If you think it's funny, I have another "story" to tell.  If you planned it, I have another story to tell.  Hm, what did I do?  Not accept something?  What did you do?  Take away what was mine?  Hm.  I didn't give my mom glasses.

Why did my mom agree to wear glasses?  1st, arrest my dad, or, if not, note this.  Maybe, she was threatened, like I was.  Well, my threat came through the mist, so-to-speak, dawned on me, sorta, when I think of it.  All I get is "Helena Bonham Carter."  That is illegal.  I am interested in Tim Burton.  I am not interested in the selfish caterings toward Helena Bonham Carter!  I am not anti-Jewish, in the least, understand?  Are you laughing at me?  8|  Good, then don't try to be assertive.

Why do you automatically grapple the idea that someone that draws too much attention is worthless?

"If you asked me to" call Nell Burton a nigger and I didn't directly do it, anyway, why are you comforting her, you worthless devil?

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Problem

I'd rather hurt you more than learn from your hurting me for me being hurt and getting bad thoughts.  "What" did I do?  Also, it's my blog.  I tell you to leave me alone.

I don't want you to just live in the moment and complain about me getting attention when I want it.

Problem

Well, my eyes sometimes get fuzzy, and my lifestyle has problems that don't need to be there.   It's always because of some other problem.

Problem

So, I called my grandma for nearly a year each night reading the Bible, and she's been mean to me.  I think it had made Ellen DeGeneres uncomfortable.  I can't seem to escape my dad, though.  I mean, I think she gave my mom glasses.  That's what's important to her.  She doesn't think.  She thinks she's cool.  She might even think she supports being modern.

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I'm posting @ "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

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Oh, I know I should have felt better.  I'm sure it happened because of something I did and that Ellen DeGeneres is involved.

Problem

I'm not okay with my mom being hurt.  Especially because of me.

Problem

So, I settled down, and suddenly my mom gets glasses?

Problem

It's Ellen DeGeneres's fault she's on Twitter.  I don't want the message to be my mom getting glasses.  What should we do to Ellen DeGeneres?  She doesn't seem to deny it.  I wonder how else she could have caused it..

Problem

I don't care about Ellen DeGeneres, anymore, but not in every sense of the "word," and I don't think her partner is, in a sense, a person, as in over others.  Supposedly, that's why my mom got glasses.  Ellen DeGeneres shouldn't listen to Portia in a gay way.  Maybe, gay people are bad.  Why is she popular?

Problem

Why do you keep sending me negative messages?  See, you're wasting all my time.

Stop saying I'm my dad all of a sudden.  I don't want to be my dad.  There are some things about each person that anyone would like, but I shouldn't have to say that.

Look, I don't care about this.  Admit Ellen DeGeneres is a symbol or part of relaying negative messages to me.  She made my mom wear glasses.  The world is about being positive.  That's what, and it's about thinking and solving problems.  Why only you get treated well?  Just mad you don't get attention?  I thought we supposedly dealt with this issue, already.

Nitey Soon

Don't kill someone I care about.. nor hurt anyone... g'nite.  Don't be bad.

Problem

If my mom's age makes her worthless, then what about Ellen DeGeneres?  I mean, it's true.  Everyone's different.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres won't admit she's gayly leaving me torturous things that anyone can see, the clicks in my room, the no food out, my mom getting glasses, all laced or whatever the word is with different other messages.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres isn't treating me like I'm young.  I feel I have to not like pretend to think something.  *BEEP*  Come on.  Do something.  !

Problem

People are making my life a big deal for others, like sending messages through hurting me and probably doing things to me.  Then, they say that things aren't possible for me, though they are.  I didn't do anything.  They're just judging me for what I am.

Do you see Ellen DeGeneres falling over in pain, m********ing in her sleep?  I bet it's pretty suggestive that she's worthless to people for her hidden motives, if it's true, she's involved.

Look, if you want to say that you slave over the attention I get, that's your fault.  You can't send me such suggestive, insulting, crafted messages.  That's a waste of the world's time.  You wouldn't know that.  You don't know how to do anything like that.  If you're not interested in me, get interested in someone who deserves it.

Problem

Can you see Ellen DeGeneres m*********ing falling over in her sleep that it happened, like because other people don't want to take my suggestions?  Make her wear glasses and like I'd dare say it's suggested that she go blind for causing this chain reaction or rather deliberately causing some agreement, I suppose, not sure why she seems involved.

Problem

Why won't Ellen DeGeneres just behave?

Last Name

Do you identify with your last name?  I don't know.  Also, my mom is all 1 race.  I don't know where the Irish Barrett name used to come from, but it was probably around 500 years ago.  :/

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres has an attitude problem.  She won't just enjoy things.  I'm mad because I said Tim Burton was negative.  That means she's following this.  Help!  She's nuts.  She has something to do with my mom getting glasses.

Problem

I don't know why people keep arguing my points.  Everyone learns from people.

Problem

So, why am I the only one getting threats and being made fun of for what I managed to accomplish?  Why are you making fun of me for getting glasses at 9?

Problem

I don't like Ellen DeGeneres's attitude and would probably really h*** her.

She won't admit as a person to the world that she doesn't care if someone "didn't watch her show."  Why would everyone watch her show?  Some people "can't."  It's about making more people watch it.  I mean, I don't know why most people wouldn't.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres thinks she's cool to be suggestive when you plead for something in life.

Look, how do I know that someone's not gonna come in and injure me for not being a movie actor now so I can get better?  Anyway, I was gonna, but I was too fat, I guess.  Not like supple enough.

I think she is just pretending.  She's just being bad, in your face, saying certain reactions mean truth, which they don't.

I'm tired of the games of Tim Burton.  He just accuses you if you don't have an answer.  He thinks that the world has a final answer.  He says, but you did that pattern, and this pattern means I made a statement to you.

Look, I keep hearing noises, and I don't like them.  What am I gonna do?..

Better make a change?  I mean, you have to..  You could get glasses, too.

Problem

Why do I see hints from Ellen DeGeneres that she knew my mom would get glasses?

Also, if we know it's because something bad just happened, then we know that it was wrong.

I don't know if my mom's mom wears glasses, but I think her sister does.

Problem

WHY DO YOU PEOPLE EXPECT FAMOUS PEOPLE TO DIS ME IT'S YOUR FAULT YOU'RE NOT ALL BETTER THAN ME

Problem

Helena Bonham Carter takes advantage of my kindness and my race and thinks I'm crap.

Problem

Why has my life been so crazy with my dad's thoughts on Johnny Depp, and Tim Burton.  Just *beep* him.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres is a violent nigger who predicts the future.

Worthwhile Things...

I bet Tim Burton is waiting to see someone from Europe show that I'm not worth it.

Problem

*BEEP* Ellen DeGeneres (and Helena Bonham Carter and Tim Burton and my dad and my mom) They (Helena Bonham Carter, which is worthless,) is m********ing in pleasure.

My mom had glasses because of an accident.  She got in 2 car accidents.  Someone might know, but this is important, I guess.  Well, she will just wear them to read and drive.

Really, Ellen DeGeneres is worth nothing.  My mom thinks it's because I have this lava thing from 711 that shoots up air as an air purifier.

It might have been my dad, though, doing this to me.  Who knows why.  Make sure it wasn't Ellen DeGeneres because if it wasn't someone else they don't deserve to be hurt.  This shouldn't have happened.  What if my dad dies?  Then, I'll be mad at the world.  I don't see what the problem is with me.

Anyway, Ellen DeGeneres won't care.  I don't care about her.

OH MY GOSH GIVE THAT WORTHLESS BITCH A *BEEP* OR SOMETHING I KNOW WHAT SHE'S UP TO GET HER AWAY COME ON DO SOMETHING ATTACK I WILL NOT HAVE THIS SHE CAN'T GET AWAY WITH SAYING SHE'S OKAY TO BE MEAN BECAUSE SHE'S "ATTRACTIVE"

Also, I'm mad at the intrusions of Kate Bush supposed messages and got violent thoughts because they're super annoying since watching her show this season.  Not sure what's eating her weak ass.

Getting Mad

Would you say Ellen DeGeneres gets mad?

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I reformatted a post on Facebook.

Who You're Born to Be

Do you believe people are born not to be who they want to be, like they have to be like a parent's race or personal qualities, which are unideal, like they won't be the 1 who stands out in the way they truly desire?  Like, you just want it to be there and you also want the real experience.  Things are not as they seem.  A lot of problems come up because of it, and no one cares.

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Also, I had Liked some of my posts, too tired to post..

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Problem

I already said I don't want my life to be molded after others who get in trouble a lot.  I bet it's wrong.  You can't just say everyone doesn't have the answer of world peace.  I don't believe that if something seems true that it has to be.  However, some things "are," like things that bother you.

Ate

A Full Piece of Beef, easy to complete
5, I think, Brussels sprouts, easy to devour

Oreo cookies with thick chocolate cream, maybe 5, and milk
Just had a Philly push up pop, like the Italian ice better, very good in Philly Swirl xD

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I added a new Special Tag, one I'd used, Psychiatric Pain.

Problem

So, everything that ticks you the wrong way results in you getting mad.  I was told to remember things, more than once, and I have a feeling that "doesn't go."  It had been a problem.  I wish my life were more set, but people make fun of me for not achieving that.  Well, they seem to treat me badly.  I tried to make my life more set.  It's like I have to get rid of all the stuff I own.  In late times, I've gotten rid of a lot.

My Color

People seem to test me for my color.  Like, I'm afraid to tan.  Like, my face isn't tanning, anymore.

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I changed my profile pic: Facebook.

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I added links to the major and job section.

Different Strokes

So, is my family right?

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I tagged my last post.

Problem

So, I wanted to get some natural fat (fiber) pills I saw @ 1 of the local CVSs.  I ended up wanting to spend $200 but only spent $130.  I got a set of cleaning stuff for my face, which must have been $20.  I got about 7 things for around $10.  At Wal-Mart, for some reason, I have the receipt.  I got a windbreaker, lighter than my other sweaters sweater, and a shirt they finally sold, just because it was special.  I got a myriad of other things for like bathroom and stuff for around $3 and it added up to $140 with tax, though I think my dad got some things.  Also in it is vitamins, 2 kinds..  1 thing at CVS I needed was colored pill boxes for my vitamins when I eat out.  I have a feeling I could have bought most of it with my money at Wal-Mart.

Problem

So, Ellen DeGeneres, supposedly if an idea comes it means something.  Why am I getting the idea you plotted with my dad that I just get fast food out and not fancy food taken to me?  Also, what's wrong with thinking things are funny, then?

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I fixed the spelling of "Pacific" from "Paficic."

Problem

Why are people racist to me?  I already said I don't agree with the bad messages my dad gives me and don't want to be the technical like perceived notion of my mom's race, Asian|Chinese.

Problem

Isn't it funny what famous people are onto today?  I thought they helped kids.

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I want people to stop communicating perverted things to stimulate me.

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I changed "Restaurant" to "Diner."

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Why are people getting mad at me for losing sleep over homework in high school and junior high?

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Problem

What are you trying to figure out with me getting mad and thinking of attacking people I try to concoct?  Do you want your food taken away from you, your time taken away from you, your life taken away from you, and be insulted intensely but I don't mean like totally onslaughted?

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Tearing Things Down

Did you ever wonder about tearing people down rather than building them up, like in society by a large?

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@ the private school in the area

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What's your problem?

Why do people keep telling me I have problems?

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What if we just not listen to my dad because I find myself going in circles.