Sunday, November 11, 2012

What I Ate as a Kid

Well, yea, sometimes, it was just chicken for supper when I was 2.  I remember the corn, well, as well.  I don't know why, but it was good but seemed like I should be able to have better food.  I know we didn't have much money, so that's probably why.  My mom didn't work when my brother was a toddler but supposedly did somehow when I was.  I thought she stayed home with us.  Sometimes, my grandma was here, but I don't really think she was taking care of us.

Like, I would be at the table with my corn not wanting it because it was both sweet and not tasty.

Yes, I was a bit explosive in a way that was like being put together of like sorta odds and ends, like I guess being mixed racially.  I guess I got over whatever that was.  Well, in some ways, I'm sure I haven't.  I don't know why I can't sit down and like do it the right way.  I'm in a lot of turmoil, in a way, and like half dead though not like damaged as a person.  I'm not sure what all that will suggest...  I mean, some people just like to make a big deal of things.  I ran into a mature girl in the store who seemed Irish, part Irish.  She seemed to see things in a mature, typical or whatever word you'd use way.

I'm confused.  I just saw an ad of coffee being poured from a machine.  What's it like to grow up eating normal food?  I supposedly had normal food, but I don't remember it.  I don't think it was fancy, but it was healthier than most people.

Americans

It seems as though Americans in general are all suffering the same thing.  We get to feel nice but have to suffer certain wild things, for some reason.  I also found out that when I think something that has an attitude, someone will get back at me.  Like, for being so literal but do it behid my back.

HAA LELUIA

The blog roll works!  3D

Harsh

Today, when I closed the car door without thinking, it was harsh, sorta piled up of "what" I did.  Then, when I closed the door by my mom, it seemed that it hurt her after when I went in.

A Nice Guy

I saw a nice guy at the grocery store.  He had a long nose that curved under and seemed strong.  A couple was there and seemed happy in a weird way, and somehow we clicked that they weren't that nice.  He had graying hair, was alone, seemed amiable, probably like age 50 or somewhere around there.

When I went a few weeks ago, there was a guy with his partner I think who looked kinda like a Lion King kid for Ellen, so sweet.  I wanna see these people online.

What I Didn't Get at the Grocery

I had to put back all the starch.

My Eye

My right contact lens has been stinging me, for some reason.

singing

I'm karaokeing to ALW.

Just Finished

Well, I have leftovers.

I cut myself and dropped some of my salad.

Caesar wrap
spicy sandwich
burger
lemonade, large
oreo thing
oh nd frids

Wendy's

Musicians

I woke up this morning a 3rd or 4th time hearing this strong other-worldly Mickey Mouse creek.  I assumed it was the sound of the composer of "O Holy Night."

Also, when I went to the mental hospital a night and couldn't sleep when I woke up I heard an other-worldly sound of Justin Bieber, which seemed very evil, not sounding evil but seeming evil.  I'm so not going back.  My dad said I couldn't come back home if I go back.

Miami

I wonder what someone moving to Miami would be like from Europe in the 80s and 90s.

My Story

Let's see.  I really liked choir and being a piano prodigy.  I took piano from one of the music teachers.  The daughter of the other was just a little younger than me and in my class, but she had dark skin.

I liked my organ teacher and choir director, maybe my 2nd best influence.

Voice in college was definitely an elating adventure, 2004-2005.  I always dressed nicely.  However, 1st semester was new kid dresses.

So, 1st story I was 11.  2nd story, I was 16, 17, coming back in college.  3rd story, college, age 18.  Then, I struck out on my own age 19 for 1|2 semester.  That's 5 years.  I had other special people in my life, too.  I've had lots of great cultural experiences.  The slowest was probably as I got older and moved to the New Orleans area.  I remember going downtown, not sure what for, and parking beside the business offices.  I was foreign, for some reason.  Only once did I go downtown at night with my aunt and ate at T.G.I.F.'s.

Carrying People

I noticed in the New Orleans cultural strata that people pick up kids who aren't their own often and stuff.  However, I believe, in Florida, people are more social but reach out to you in different ways.  You just wait and someone comes along who is really emotional and strong and like pretty interesting and not too clowny and intellectual.

Well, you know it doesn't happen often, but it happens.  More like not in Florida.  It's a big thing when relatives touch you, I think.

I do believe in the New Orleans area people are more open and like pigs and young people talk to adults but don't want to participate in what they're really supposed to be doing in the world.  I don't know why.  It seems that people from the New Orleans area who are adults are nice, but the kids are all so mean and annoying and make you uncomfortable.

I noticed that in certain places, like that area, I guess it can be stimulating.  I was thinking of going to hotels in Texas during Katrina.  My aunt was driving me home during Andrew.

I'm sure they really affect you a lot in the New Orleans area.  I've seen people casually pick up kids around kids they weren't related to!  80

A Success

I just peed and pood substantially enough.  :)  It would be nice to shine up bathrooms in an upstanding place racially.

Stinky

I smell like a gym.  I showered earlier this morning when I woke up but was bitter maybe.  Like my neck has this sweet, sticky smell, like a little apartment gym, kinda.  I left my exercise mat on the floor with the dumbbells.  Also, I keep having to go to the bathroom, but it's not like bad.

My right ear just popped.

That ear plug is usually latched in more.  8|

How My Mom Took Care of Me

Well, I don't know why she kept waking me up and coming in my room.  Maybe, she had a reason.  She seemed to.

I don't know why she wanted me to work and not spend much money.

Well, let's see.  My dad boasted that I had peas as a baby.

I had tea before my brother was born.

When my mom was pregnant with my brother, I had a hot dog and Ramon Noodles, beef.  I wanted more food, more hot dogs, more noodle soup, but I didn't say so.

When I was younger, I had plain chicken my mom cut open with ketchup she told me to have, though I didn't want the ketchup.  It tasted a bit tasty.

I did go to Pizza Hut but wanted it more.  My little girl cousin supposedly had a lot of pizza.  She was stocky and grew to be a strong girl.

I guess I was a good girl, but I guess I didn't feel approved of racially.  I guess my brother latched on and became humble and a bit careless and lackadaisical yet sharp.  I guess he's fit in where he's lived.

I put my hair in a ponytail.

Provisioned :|

I just had some mushrooms and spinach cooked and a bite of fresh pork with a spice.  I also have quelling Florida grocery store (Publix - Where Shopping Is a Pleasure, though they don't use that sign here) tea.  Then, I cleaned the kitchen, put my meat away.  I had New Orleans Spanish rice, earlier.  I also had a chocolate fudge pop before that, after my breakfast, of 2 pices of onion bagels with garden cream cheese.  So, I put the chocolate chip oatmeal cookies I made on a plate and my vitamins and brought them in my room.  Now, I'm having more tea.  :]

I also just did my ab exercise.  :)

I did ask my parents for some furniture and not the coat.  I also asked for some ear protection and a very loud fan.  I think the fan is more helpful.  I found like these plastic things that cover your ears without a headband.  There's something that goes in them, though.

I'm feelin' hot hot hot.

Psycho

Why did teenagers all go psycho and take pills?

Exercise

I rented a good ab workout for $2 at Amazon Instant Video.  It's over an hour long.  I'm doing like a few minutes every few hours, now.

I bought this other one right away, and then I felt good for a long time.  10 minutes.  Then like 10 minutes on an upper body one I bought, too.

Desired School School

Private School

Year 1
1. Religion I
2. English II
3. Geometry
4. Biology
5. History
6. Health | PE I
7. French I

Year 2
1. Religion II
2. English III
3. Algebra II
4. Chemistry
5. History
6. PE II
7. French II

Year 3
1. Religion III
2. English IV
3. Advanced Math
4. Physics
5. History
6. Civics
7. French III

Public School

Year 1
1. English II G
2. Geometry G
3. Biology I H
4. Freshman Orientation | Civics
5. PE I
6. Talented Theater I
7. French I

Year 2
1. English III APG
2. Algebra II G
3. Biology II
4. World History
5. PE II | Health
6. Talented Theater II
7. French II

Year 3
1. English IV APG
2. American History H
3. Free Enterprise |
4. Talented Theater III
5. French III
6.
7.

School - Loyola University New Orleans - French Major + Communications Minor
18 Credits a Semester, 3 Courses in the Summer, Graduate @ 20
Work for Disney Junior in Burbank & Become Famous Blogging Online
Tweet movie stars and become rich one day.

Edit

I just edited another post in an old blog.  ;)

Edit

I edited some of my old posts.

Welcome to my Blogger!

STOP

Leave me alone about what I did and deleting things.  You're already twisting what I really meant and how I really said it.  You'd probably be able to tell I said something like that, even if I deleted it, too, I know.

Back to Rest

I'm going back to bed.  I feel a lot of pressure in my head from the ear plugs.

2 Blogs

Maybe, I need to make a mad blog and a happy blog.  :(

Forsaken

So, I came home from college, unable to read.

My mom kept barging in and telling me to work.  I traveled around with her.

When I came back, again, we moved and after awhile I stopped going out.

It was then hard for me to ever go around the house, and I was in my room without food for a long time.

I tried to get healthy and make meals.  However, things didn't work out.  I was a little risky online but not much, and people were really mean to me.  It's important to note that they're not generally that way.

Now, I just feel kinda drained.

DID YOU GET THIS

My dad keeps acting nasty to me.  I just was asking him questions and didn't feel as good|healthy, hadn't gone to the grocery store much.  Now, he's just mean.  I know he just got upset once, and then things just ended with him.  He's too uptight.  He keeps turning his back and acting dramatic ... see, he keeps being mean.  I'm hearing weird noises in my noisemaker, and my ear plugs aren't working well.  I can barely think now.

SOMEONE STOP THIS

Insulting Messages

I keep getting insulting messages supposedly from Ellen DeGeneres, and they keep getting brushed aside like shit.

SOMEONE STOP HER

I'm getting images of my grandma hurting a boy I know.  Like stimulating him in some way.  Humiliating his dignity.  Just stop, you bloomin' idiots!

STOP

Stop bothering me with sounds of Kate Bush.

Also, now, my noisemaker seems to be warbling.  I keep getting new messages of insult!  Someone stop it!  My life was taken from me and was torturous!

Stuff for My Room

Quantity *2* of $78 5-level bookshelf link

$10 computer stand link

$25 printer stand link

HELP!

I keep hearing noises when I try to relax.

SHUT UP

SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING YOU GOOD FOR N

Europe

I don't need Europe steamlined and ruined for me.

Nell Burton

Would you say Nell Burton has used me?

STOP

Can you stop bothering me and learn to blog!

The Rich

Why are some rich people not very comfortable?  Only their kids?  Only Lily Rose seems like a normal person who is a child celeb.  Also, her hair is all white and her eyes are so dark but were blue as an infant.

Please don't sympathize with me.  I'm 26.  I can handle this.

My Eyes

They're feeling a bit overcome.  Well, not like in an alive way.

Torn

People are trying to tear apart my opportunity.

Creeped Out

Do you get creeped out when people know what you're gonna do way in advance and when you do lots of things?

Proof

I think that there's nothing else you can do is proof things have gone out of hand.  I tried to be nice, and my dad seemed to just say no because I finally seemed better.  I'm gonna *beep * him!

STOP

Stop suggesting I have to do perverted things!

STOP

My aunt keeps treating me like her sister's daughter!  ':0

Also, I know that when you realize a point from someone else you will follow suit.

STOP

I'm getting weird mimicky messages from Ellen that like distort and disgust me for when I feel hurt and for some reason say nigger or k*** on my blog.  Come talk to me on and keep up with my blog.

STOP

I'm getting weird ways that my blog loads and stuff and it's like people are mimicking Ellen.

Also, I forgot to shave and my crotch itches!  ':0  I guess I have to shave there every time I shower...

Why am I so fat?  I just did some workout.  Why am I fatter for doing it?

Poor

I need to rearrange my room, maybe give up the art space, maybe put the keyboard out, too.  Pack away my electric guitar and harp, somehow.  Put together a bigger bookshelf, guess it has to be wood.  What else?  Maybe ask my parents for new furniture???  Other things, too.

STOP SUGGESTING THINGS TO ME

Dead Ahead

I just brushed my teeth but feel winded.

My socks keep getting wet, which reminds me to remember to get a mat.

People are busy making suggestions to me, too, and to suggest to people I know, as though it were needed, but these people should have never got this attention!  ':0

I also figured out something of what was wrong with Ellen DeGeneres, like why she's kinda seeming to agree with some bad messages that have been plaguing me.

Also, Tim Burton does seem to be snide, as well.  Goes behind your back and is dishonest with you, as though that's okay by him, only to get stimulated with his daughter, later.

I see the winter is coming on fast.

Upset

I'm tired of brainless know-it-alls.

I used to complain about my cousin being mean all the time, and it seems people have used it against me.

Uncomfortable

For some reason, I don't feel so comfortable.  I don't know why.  I just did some exercise.  Abs for about 2 minutes.  I got a nice rental for a week.

Like, I want to go to the bathroom, but I have to put on my earplugs so I don't hear my dad wake up and snore all the time.

Back from the bathroom again, haven't brushed my teeth since waking up tonight.

I guess I needed to work out more.

I'm having my female thing, ending, and didn't have the right pads.

Stop

I don't want your little surprises because of the n word thing.

WILL YOU STOP

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT MY GRANDMA.  GET HER TO STOP!  SHE AFFECTED ME ON THE PHONE!  I CAN TALK TO PEOPLE AND NOT HAVE PEOPLE BE MEAN TO THEM.  QUIT BEING MEAN TO ME.  ANSWER.

Stop

Stop being mean to and giving attention to this boy from England who used to IM me.

Boycott

Oh, I forgot...  I didn't follow Ellen DeGeneres on Twitter because she was joking around that she didn't want certain people to follow her over the summer and so I took a break.  Ever since, she's been nasty.  I get weird messages connected to her.  Why don't we just e****** my dad or like stop relaying messages from him?

I'll be upset if you were smart enough to know I would post this and need to get you back ... though I shouldn't say I'm not a mean person.

SHUT UP

Start

Start making fantasies about Ellen DeGeneres or my dad that hurt them.

WILL YOU STOP TALKING TO MY DAD

I Tweeted this "joke" to some people awhile back...  I said I wouldn't talk to them if they talked to my dad.  They wouldn't stop being mean, simply.

Comfort

If my life doesn't become more comfortable, I'm just gonna *beep* you all!

Shut up and leave me alone about what I post!  '}:{

Ellen

Ellen DeGeneres lives in a world of fantasy.

My Dad

I was gonnna post something important about my dad but forgot what it was.  Also, in the garage I'm cooped and uncomfortable, yet, in my room, before the mental hospital, I felt okay.

I'm upset I've been being haunted since I started watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  Nothing happened recently, but people've been mean to me this weekend, too.

I'm not sure what's wrong with my dad, but people are encouraging him.  '}:{  I'm gonna *beep* you all.