Friday, September 26, 2014

You just don't get it.

I'm not the one who's a nigger.  Imagine if we were all black.  This is all Tim Burton's fault.

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FOR THOSE OF YOU *BEEP* OF CENTRAL FLORIDA

WHO SAY O YOU WERE BAD LIKE I WAS SO YOU PAY HERE



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If someone does something nice to you

someone else is bound to call you selfish and forever love that who was nice to you in the first place.

and if it's even wrong, mean, selfish and pleasurable .. it's still right!

Putting Blacks in My Face

Well, I guess I do like them, tho, can you say that I'm not racist?


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Did you notice

stars today are threatening and demanding of you that you worship them in a certain way when they have all they need, like it "came up?"  Like, I got a chance and now you think I'm outta your life well I'm not.  And it's like yea I keep up with you and would love a Tweet but see you are far too popular.  And your fans are wild but loving, like to see nice people interacting with fans.

Watching My Behavior


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I think..

..I've been spoofed to miss The Ellen DeGeneres Show.  I happen not to be busy but should be.  If I were in college, I could watch random clips online.  The fact is Ellen didn't decide to want me off.  Someone else.  And she listened.  I don't like that.

What if she doesn't really want me to watch any of it and me watching it became her "burden?"

I know

Everyone wants Ellen..  Fine!  You can't all have her, anyway.  What about Portia??

So

Is it worth it to keep up with any program?

I feel chased off them all.  Seriously.  This is so ***.

TV

I watch The Ellen DeGeneres Show T-Th.. maybe M and maybe F.  :|  I dunno?  I am getting weird messages that make no sense about when to watch.

Really

Does the secret formula work for anyone in between their age and "their mama's?"

A teenager today

can be ugly as shit but will still shine through with the magic formula of age prejudice.
I feel totally attacked.

Another Thing

People don't like fake hair, maybe unless they like the cut.  I'm trying to be an actress.

I feel like I'm falling for a trap.

Like I am hated for having course, black hair and I'm gonna dye it and not like it and not know why until after.

Like that's the only reason I am hated.  My looks.  I didn't "do" anything!

Problems

They should not make me close to my dad and make him important like that in my life.  Like, they're always wondering about what it was like around him.  I mean in the bad way.

I don't know that I want to be "close" to anyone.

Let's try getting this through.

You don't care about me and what I'm saying, and my dad is very mean on the inside.

My dad admits he is mean, but at the same time he thinks he is just being strict and open to everyone in general in the same way.

In the end, my dad is messed up and not someone you want to get close to most of the time.  Why?  He is messed up.  He looks at me "with love" that I'm disgusting like him, like I'm him, and I'm not!  Orlando is super annoying.  They did this.  I'm gonna have to undo it, somehow.  We never lived like this.  Now, he's just an evil man like all the other evil men out there.  My mom can't get enough.  It's not that she knows I'm skinnier than him but that she and others actually believe I am my dad.  Even if other girls are their moms, too.

How many of you out there

follow Ellen DeGeneres M-F?

Does your job keep you happy?

Why? Cuz everyone else has one?
What a Pointless Life

All This Shit Is Based off Of

Is the shit my x best friends think they got off me worrying and e-mailing them and they wouldn't e-mail BACK!

Come on.

You can't do this.

What Happens

People are paid to torture me, basically.  They just sorta leave me hanging and won't leave me alone, somehow at the same time.

If you make up a point of reference

You'll think something else made me think of what to say.  But no, I just post what's interesting.

#1

See, I want to style myself to be a daring, attractive woman.  It should be my family..

My #1

I cannot say 1 thing.  It would seem inappropriate.  Yet, may I ask, is everyone's #1 after their self Ellen?

Question

How can Ellen claim to have been nice to me?  I think that was some thing she can't claim.  She is partly very mean, and I don't want to get her to show off that.  I did want to follow her, and I knew it wouldn't be it for me because of Tim Burton and what he done.  She already is intimidated by my dad.  She's made to be that way.  It's no use.  Ellen, I give up.  How can any person in this world be a #1 for me.  Etc.  I need some thing in this world I can trust, and it's not who it used to be but probably has to be a thing, like for some it's the beach.

Did anyone interested out there happen to notice

how much nicer Ellen is to Portia.  I am me.  If someone is amazed it's because I'm also amazing, like all the amazing people are, like we all are.

Why would the board, I mean world, bet its hide on the care of someone as accomplished as Ellen?

No offense, I guess it should make sense, of you read more than one of the sentences.

Well, yes, in the other way of looking at it we can appreciate Ellen for who she is, but why would she care about what people think as a group?  She doesn't have to.  She likes to admit what we already know.  She doesn't know it's because people think we're shit if we're not someone famous.

So so so

I am not here to hurt anyone.  If you wanted attention before is your fault.  If you want it now figure a way to get it cuz it looks like unfortunately right now is your turn, whether or not you are ready, the world loves you for your race.

I don't need parents.

I don't need parents.  Parents don't need me.

It's just the family that's important.  Not the being in charge of me, which has become messed up..I haven't really lived with people being in charge of anything I did as though it were bad.  I wasn't bad.  I was not cared about.

There is some thing in everyone where you feel a little that they are in charge of you but nothing hugely tangible in sight for sore eye.

You wanted care and perfection

someone to give a shit, and you got it.  Isn't it totally ridiculous everyone finds fault in me?  I don't care.