Thursday, August 27, 2015

And I know..

..the US is very mixed.

I just don't..

..like acting like I have paranoia schizophrenia, cuz I have it!

May I suggest..

..shaping up?

Well, the problem..

..is as an American I tried to be European, and all I can get from that is I have European heritage from my mom.  People all want me not to get it, bu they can.

Late Boomers

Is it just Late Boomers that can be assertive or is it something to do with it's always a person your directing your thoughts towards, which it simply isn't.

Fair and Thin

Being skinny and fair young seems like the thing to do.

Ha Ha

and you're probably glad I was inspired by that Irish singing I just posted.  Why is that the one country we're all tired of here?  Ha ha.

Well

It's time.  You need to accept my mom is not from America and people from Europe are interested in my life experience.  Why are you getting in the way now when yes I was so nice to you??

Ellen's dad I read isn't American.  You all reserve interest in her, whereas before you were respectful to people around my age.

I know people from old America are prestigious, and by now you probably know that's what people support and want of "Europeans."  Americans probably identify themselves as European and their bubble is going to burst and the things they did in vein against their fellow countrymen..

Give it a rest!

I'm watching the juicing commercial show and they keep talking like this is the boy with fungus on his nails with a dad born in 1950.  It won't stop.  They won't "shut up."

I guess they're just on a roll.  I didn't notice this before.

cont.

Need/Can I say more?

Problem

No, I'll just say I'm not bad and you're basically a liar.

Problems

Why am I just seeing my life go?

It's that again.

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp made the world racist and it's affected me a lot.  I also moved to a racist place.

I used to just be a normal person.  I was literally pulled from my world and unhelped.

Dr. Phil

I'm not stupid, but Dr. Phil tried to make me feel how I didn't want to feel from anyone.  Proves what I've been thinking, that he has an issue.  I just feel like he was really mad.  He needs to get out.

Plus, he was just making fun of me.

To get to the point, I think there's some thing going where he wants to unwantingly stimulate people who are just innocent in the crowd or who think they can make it as a true #1, rather than just any popular people.

I don't like what was contagious/caught on about/from him and I dedicated myself to giving his show a chance, but it's just too much time.  I heard he took off his videos online, but I don't believe that.

He needs to take his own advice he adamantly gives on his show to boyfriends.

If people want to know, I'm not that kinda person more than others.

I don't see why people are just blindly pushing me without looking nor thinking.

I feel threatened.

Feelings

If you don't wanna be outsmarted, don't draw the wrong kind of attention and get the right kind.

Wow!

Another Example


Guess folk singers in their prime are better..  Opera singers are in their prime in their 40s.

Girl Singer



Notice, she looks like she's older than me in how she moves and acts, probably copying cool adults who are younger than my parents.

Dark Hair

I figured that with people with very dark hair it's like with race, they want people who accept they're not fair.  They don't care if you're attractive.

Korean Folk Singing - Kid

Bathroom

I was thinking if you don't feel like going to the bathroom, then don't.  That'll be when you hold it.

Dr. Phil

Why would he prevent you from identifying how you want and pursue you and try to surround you with a sensation unwanted?  How do these decisions get made?

I just saw him show up in Entertainment TV and he spread a sensation of feeling off.

I think he's a cool guy with a cool show who needs to focus on it better.. but he seemed to influence my moving on to not work out on the onset, according to plan, with someone I like.  He also seems to have then pursued me like there's something wrong with me, which is what  upset me.

I auditioned..

..didn't know it was a capella.

I coulda submitted online but was convinced not to.

I am so jealous. - Yesterday

Getting Ahead, Some

Are white people bad or knocked out to be bad?  Black people are always there like they were able to follow out of pity.

What?

I see people on TV acting like I'm a monster of badness like they're all refined.

Your Inspiration

What happened along the road that was funny that made you wanna be an attractive talk show host??

I thought of a lot of things that weren't quite it: be popular.. I could be an actor to do that.. in the end it was about being available to people and I guess what led me 1stly was to be competent emotionally and active.  Think of how special you are to each person.  I could really meet people who count in my life, yay!  Internet, make-a no money, so TV!  I realize movies are more carefully crafted.  Like, you practice a long time for one thing.

Bag of Jokes

I don't have a list of things like oh mention something and Christina is in trouble.

Parents

My dad used to hug me with care, but now he's just constantly m*****ing me.

My parents used to act like they prepared me for love in the world, but now they are all that world is.

Important Diet Tip

You could salad your life for a temporary weight loss to keep that at that weight.. but will it be not waking up in the morning with hunger pangs and unhappiness, lack of nutrition and juice, later?

Sacrificing

I'm not here to completely sacrifice my life for babying people who are older than me who "don't like to work."

Education

They're being nonsensical about education and saying it's based on liking any person who has a degree, but it's not it's open to anyone to go beyond in in some way.

Dr. Phil

Dr. Phil thought Tim Burton was below him, and I was shocked he was allowed to be ecstatically mad.  Now, I know he's trying to be like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, which seems weird in a way..

*Beep*

I swear, like everyone is like so mean to me.

Problem

Why does, like, Disney think I need to be disciplined?  I already am.

What's this nonsense?

Someone's "symphony?"

IMDb - The Soapbox

If you had to chose a foreign language to brighten your future..

..of/which one/s would it be?

I think, as am American, any European language would do.

I think it's in it mostly for countries like Germany to learn Norse. I sorta was into English and German things growing up some.. So, I'd say Norwegian/Finnish/Russian/Swedish/Dutch.

I also like having French culture.

I'm learning Finnish and gonna learn Russian for a song, too. I have a little book on all the Scandinavian and Russian etc.

🏩🏩🏩🏩🏩 

Edit

I edited the post about the movies to take out a certain word.

Candy Bar Doll

Cuts

I writhed on my sofa before, yesterday? and have 2 rips in my back, thin wounds.

Quilt

Looks like a baby quilt.

link

Quilt

It makes me think of New Orleans.

link

Yay or Nay

I've seen this before.

Bella Thorne is not on Twitter as much.  She needs a break.  She needs to get on Blogger cuz it's the best!  And, yes, everyone does!

Interesting

Isn't it funny how people don't want me to feel good?  Aha ha ha!

cont.

The black people tried to have a crusty, blatant look about them.  I'm not making it up for fun.

Movies vs. TV

Movies are more carefully planned.

You think it doesn't matter..

..if nothing matters, what's your problem?

I saw in the movies that I was a thin "dry-feeling" older *"black" man concerning my seeing/hearing magical things.

I saw someone I like was a fat jolly old "dry-feeling" old *"black" man for me.

You gave *** to Bella Thorne, tho, like it matters.

I dunno who done what.

That's just what happened.  I hope nothing bad happens to me for giving the 411, and it was mean so what do they deserve to hold me to?  I dunno who is reading this.  This is my blog, and they shouldn't be bothering me.

*I'm not racist, but these people were not okay.  You didn't use it on someone else, I see.  I just need to report it.  I'm not going on and on but need it to talk about the situation.  "Black" is a generic term.  I care about them and their desires, myself.  Why do I have to explain all this to avoid certain punishment?  Anyone can talk about black people if they need to and even if they don't need to.  So, don't have a hissy fit and revelation about calling a person "black" because what else can you??

Anything else?

I'm not saying they could do any better, but I think it's *beep*.  Yup, people are *beep*.  They have an attitude with me.  I'm actually thinking of people in general.

I dunno, to say something that helps the case sensibly.. maybe I dunno what to say yet.

I did see they thought they had some big plan to transform people into a makeover dream and new life, but in the end it was the same that was okay they said.  That doesn't look good, to me.  LOL.  I dunno @ who did it, but that's what I saw.  I don't wanna poke fun at anyone at all, tho, no matter who it was.

To disclaim this, I realize it's the decision of more, other people, not just one, while I live in a bubble unfairly.  I do not wish to attack anyone, like who seems at stake.

OK, then, I'll post this now.  It's black and white, ABC 123, Mickey Mouse.  If I find a problem I will edit.

Problem

They're acting like I have to stick out instead of fit comfortably.  What did I do?

In My Business

Why are you in my business with my parents pulling out private things getting bemused, things I know they aren't ready for that I don't fully understand?

Race at Risque

Isn't anyone at risque, not just certain non-Aryan recognized groups?

Problem

What, suddenly curse my possible future kids, this guy on Cutthroat Camp?

Being Judged

The world should not be about judging me to see if I'm bad cuz I'm not.  It is very revolting how far nothing can go.

Problem

Why is that guy on Cutthroat Camp acting racist saying I will never have my life back and like someone I like told him that?

You know, Asians need to be treated right, too, not just Aryan shaped people.  I see they are telling white people that they are "too good" and must celebrate and fill up on racism and only they rebuild themselves to happiness, like no one else wants to.

Generations

It looks like my dad's family had it easier than me in getting along with Mom and Dad, despite whatever my dad said about that.