Tuesday, September 29, 2015

Well..

..I guess you read into my thoughts and I feel I'm considered in a controversial way. I can't turn on the TV and feel at peace.

So.. how should I avoid talking about what I said?

without my thoughts being twisted, like you know what I really think because of what I said?

Help!

I have some posts over on my Problems blog.

I feel every resource is cut from me and people read into my thoughts and get mad just to feel important, while they don't do anything.

Suddenly, my parents are mean to me, and I have to dig and think that in a bad situation in college knowing I'm being experimented on.. thinking I'm guilty at the same time, like they don't want to matter to me? yet I'm being told to stay home?? Been like 10 years tho.

This is probably why I got into "trouble" in Orlando.

I guess..

..It's a disappointment to you when I'm right.

Problem

I just have a lot being thrust at me by people who you can tell don't know what they're doing and younger people who know at least they're safe.

A Joke

Where can I turn?

cont.

You people would never sneer like that at some people.

My Dreams..

Sometimes, it seems you have to be famous to get the attention of Ellen. I'd hate to think I missed a chance. I was being quiet, but the world won't shut up on anything about this. I don't want to be called a bad person because of Ellen.

No one listens to me.

They need explanation in foreign cultural tongues, when a simple yes or no does.

Entertainment

So, do people need the world against me because they are insecure?

Ooh, Baby, Baby!

Is Bella Thorne a baby angel?

Being Sarcastic

How does it feel if I say someone who thinks I'm bad must be so good?

Some of yer's bad??

I'm not badder than most other people. I just have to think once and I know. It's this silly post-Charlie and the Chocolate Factory mean to good people scramble so Johnny Depp and Tim Burton are the only people in the world to be treated right. If someone is mean to you, you get upset.

Being Forward..

I don't like it when people are forward with me saying I don't try to be good when it matters.

Feeling Good

So, I don't do/"think" good things? But Baby Boomers always get to feel pleasure??

What Is Said

People are always fighting like someone did say something and it matters, but sometimes it's the opposite.

iPhone 6S

I bet that's for mostly white people who are meeting up with other people who never moved growing up.. the smart ones, who are approved of, being genius inventing new things we need and like.

I saw this commercial

for diapers and they were being sarcastic with all the black babies dancing in the better diapers and then one baby with flat, light hair.

They said the 1st baby, which was white, was like a cowboy walking in poo.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Are you a Soapbox Ancient?

I feel I am surrounded by yunguns and that I'm over the hill.

Small Blog

Facebook Decline

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But if that is where you go for your daily ego boost, that’s not healthy either.

It's funny how they went out and said this. It just makes so much tense in modern context.

People live to have me removed as a person's friend who I knew.

You're only hurting yourself..

..people who move to California and become famous, to make up weird things you find important just to wrench someone's feelings. Like going crazy with a mental disability. Going out on a limb.

Job

I applied to be a holiday part-time cashier at Sears. I'll have to take the bus if I get a job.

Best to Watch

Entertainment + when that's not on War

Don't forget to catch The Voice and Dancing With the Stars.

Response

I got an e-mail response from Seeing Stars. He said this has gone on 100 years. They parade around stars, he says. (Wow, if I said that, people would get mad. They must not want me to be cool, even when I explain how it's a no offense.) They go in and will watch the cartoon.

The Interviewer

White but with a dark secret.. she thinks she discovered on screen the audience is s***.

How I Was Raised

I was raised not only to like outcast things but to not be *beep* because tho my dad is white he's obese etc. I have to be outcast cuza my mom's race.

cont.

..it could be the biggest flop, but it's still epic.

TV: Epix

I feel like a minority, but they sure show a lotta respect for people in Hollywood these days, like they're safely respected. I have different reasons people disrespect me, like rumors spread. I used to be considered a good, normal person

Freee!

to go to the Finding Dory (and most) premieres to stand on the side and take pics, maybe get shown online.. Now, I'm asking about the rest..

Well, there's the plane ride. I'm trying to get in the audience of Ellen again. They have great service and it's a great time. So, that's 2 big things to strive for. I've been in the audience before.

I noticed..

I noticed people encourage me towards things people don't like about having a dad born in 1950. I noticed they don't do it to the teenagers today. They are supposedly living the life. My dad is already born in 1950. What do I need to learn to appreciate?

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Matt Damon seemed like a cool guy. He was able to give a good, big smile at the end.

The 10-year-old dancer was amazing. He danced since 6. He's gonna meet Britney backstage.

The lady from American Pie was also a cool type of person. Whoah, that was a long time ago.

The babies not liking the lemons was cute. I can tell the teenagers can live just saying the rest of the show was good cuz it's Ellen, the guests and some things not for them, but they're about that "Aha!" moment with the cute babies simply making their take of a face on the icky lemon! I recently licked lemon and LOVED it.

Elsie Fisher

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with Jane Lynch
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Small Blog

Accepting Yourself Racially..

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Stages of Racial Identity Development

Many white adults have given little consideration to the meaning of their own racial group membership.

Whites do less for their own race yet need the most reassurance.

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Celebrate multicultural heritages. Due to interracial marriages, blended families and international/transracial adoptions, the number of mixed-race families is increasing. Encourage multiculturalism by embracing the language, traditions and customs of every family member. If your child is multiracial, encourage him or her to celebrate and recognize all parts of his or her heritage. Support your child by helping him or her develop coping skills to handle questions and comments about his or her racial background.

Multiracials need to be accepted as a racial group rather than no group.

I got a Yay!

All I need to know.

Even if I don't get what I want.

Except Ellen dug into my private life mechanically.

TV

used to watch horror and made up/undiscovered living things, ghost.. food.. sales

now entertainment!

HA HA HA HA HA >:)

Ellen watches stuff for younger folks! She must feel very popular. Kids go up to her, but what about the adults?

Mental Disorders

a sign of weakness

Funny

A lotta Late Boomers and Early Generation X with their kids are happy sitting at a Taylor Swift concert while I'm messing around like I'm over the hill.

How do you feel..

..when you see Ellen, not just anyone, get treated so well by Hollywood, like special treatment separated from the crowd at a premiere. (Not just anyone cuz we all see ourselves as like Ellen in some essence.)