Why do some people think I have a superiority complex for thinking I'm worth it as a human being if I cursed about noises in my room that hurt me? I'm a good person.. I was sorry, even tho I would think someone in my position would be entitled to protect themselves. I could have used earplugs maybe. I put up with it now, not as bad as before too. I could have tried to ignore it. It was also indicated the noises weren't an accident nor a part of nature.
Why tell me I did all these things when I didn't know about it at the time, as tho I did? I already know what to do and changed my mind, like my physical lifestyle. I don't need to be yelled at like others are the one back in the day pretending they'd know what to do in my situation exactly with my disposition.
I feel my life was trapped in a bubble and manipulated. I don't have anything funny about thinking I have to be better than everyone else and considered so. I just wanna be a good citizen. I live a normal life with my family and enjoy having friends.
People seem to find my dad crude but sometimes very nice. He's pretty nice to people. You guys wanna judge him in his own privacy. I think some people made me not get a blog sooner so now I'm kinda stupid and can't seem to get by without being judged for the fine points that might be disagreeable to bad people. I do kinda talk like this, as of 6th grade, because bad people are tired of being called bad. So, they just make me feel unaccepted and go against me for not being perfect but meaning no harm much. They pretend they believe I am perfect. Then, I find they said that to get by and it was a lie. I have no friends in scope like before. I admit, it's important, people know about me, even famous people.. sad as it is. I tried to avoid this.. I just want my blog! I don't know, I do wanna meet nice people, but I'm not *** tho believe in being friends with more than one person. I don't have to be associated with someone for their fame. I mean normal people.
Friday, October 2, 2015
I regret to inform you..
I know what happened, whether/you think I should or not.
So, you might do a lotta work more than someone else. You realize it wasn't worth it. Still, you're on top, and then the other person, me..has been put down!
So, you might do a lotta work more than someone else. You realize it wasn't worth it. Still, you're on top, and then the other person, me..has been put down!
Late Boom
Other than having a nice dad/mom what's it worth living if your parents aren't Late Boomers? Late Boomers, even not their kids, get anything.
I'm like a dog salivating..
..at a whistle in Operand Conditioning. To hear the last song in Grease. We sang it in choir when I was only 11.
— Christina Barrett (@ChristinaAnnJB) October 3, 2015 @jennilly24 @TheEllenShow because she's cute and sweet, but she was also supposed to be an adult.— Christina Barrett (@ChristinaAnnJB) October 3, 2015 @55Renea @TheEllenShow LOL she's like going on memory of what it was to be human and claiming to leave the past behind.— Christina Barrett (@ChristinaAnnJB) October 3, 2015
So..
..they are ruining my life by judging me, also in private, but others are free to live it. That's something that's in my subconscious, I guess. They are treating me very badly, and they get mad if I live a little.
Another thing is I'm 29 and grew up cool with everyone, well-behaved. As an adult, I feel attacked for my mixed race, sheltered in a bubble but watched and poked at.
What can I do when I see people just trash me?.. *brain sleep*
I don't know what people want but see it's bad. Should I avoid them? The thing is they are kinda getting in my life with this experiment. Should I wonder what they want from me? Why can't I be like everyone else and just be good now? I know I lost my temper in a way with all the mean secret messages. It was more of an accident. It's sad, I can't visit my grandma, if I avoid her because things "happen" tho I didn't expect it. No one is helping me deal with how mean people are to me. Don't tell me to get a good cry, cuz they'd snap at me in the experiment or have already. You know, that probably makes it so I'd cry in a way I don't like.. I already have a therapist!
It's like it's confirmed if I think I matter I'm worthless. I don't need "Ellen DeGeneres," but I can talk to people! if it's not my family, too! That's what I'm doing right now. I talk to them about what I talk to them about.
This has gone on way too long. At least one stage started at 21, when I went online, or 20.
Just giving the 411. No offense to anyone. Hoping to contrapt a solution. In advance.
Another thing is I'm 29 and grew up cool with everyone, well-behaved. As an adult, I feel attacked for my mixed race, sheltered in a bubble but watched and poked at.
What can I do when I see people just trash me?.. *brain sleep*
I don't know what people want but see it's bad. Should I avoid them? The thing is they are kinda getting in my life with this experiment. Should I wonder what they want from me? Why can't I be like everyone else and just be good now? I know I lost my temper in a way with all the mean secret messages. It was more of an accident. It's sad, I can't visit my grandma, if I avoid her because things "happen" tho I didn't expect it. No one is helping me deal with how mean people are to me. Don't tell me to get a good cry, cuz they'd snap at me in the experiment or have already. You know, that probably makes it so I'd cry in a way I don't like.. I already have a therapist!
It's like it's confirmed if I think I matter I'm worthless. I don't need "Ellen DeGeneres," but I can talk to people! if it's not my family, too! That's what I'm doing right now. I talk to them about what I talk to them about.
This has gone on way too long. At least one stage started at 21, when I went online, or 20.
Just giving the 411. No offense to anyone. Hoping to contrapt a solution. In advance.
Latinos and Italians
Tell Latinos and Italians that we like being cute and fuzzy. They go all out like we miss out yet still think we are superior. Again, no offense, just concerned.
Question
Why do Italian people bop around, like look down and shake their heads and stuff, like the guys I know? Hey, I'm not all coldest climate ancestry, and I don't do that like that. No offense to anyone, but I've seen it. I'm just concerned is all.
Getting Back Up
If someone gets upset at you, do you just "forget about it" and improve your life otherwise? You know.. not saying anything bad.. If they really find fault do you just cuddle up and cry? Oh wait, people would be stupid enough to say that doesn't make sense. I'm not a kid.
Do you know about being "used?" I'm not saying I am by someone. I might be or have been by people you're not thinking of.. Anyway, like you're greedy and you're using someone, even tho you're not the one who did the activities. People do get tired of others. Do you know tho about wearing out a relationship? It just makes me sad to think my existence wasted someone's time. At least, they got something done/finished with, something.
No offense.. I just can't seem to figure out my thoughts. Hope this was an interesting read for someone or myself.
Do you know about being "used?" I'm not saying I am by someone. I might be or have been by people you're not thinking of.. Anyway, like you're greedy and you're using someone, even tho you're not the one who did the activities. People do get tired of others. Do you know tho about wearing out a relationship? It just makes me sad to think my existence wasted someone's time. At least, they got something done/finished with, something.
No offense.. I just can't seem to figure out my thoughts. Hope this was an interesting read for someone or myself.
Grease is on.
I can see people that age with people my age thinking we're tickled like we're 2-year-olds, reciting the names and saying which is your favorite, you know feeling all "done" and shy, like they have something over you, but younger kids and older kids get it better.
So..
Who's worth following the fans of online without swatting flies? Ellen DeGeneres.
Johnny Depp? Tim Burton..
I mean on Twitter.
Johnny Depp? Tim Burton..
I mean on Twitter.
Latinos
I don't like how Latinos many seem to tell people what to do, how they do it. They tell us how to feel and what to think, even when they claim to find us superior. I feel I'm judged as inferior, too. I used to listen to them, but I don't need them, anymore. It's like being watched by a picky Asian or black woman.
Inconvenience
How convenient would it be if I was still considered as good as Ellen? More people to meet people, etc.. it's a domino effect.
It's really inconvenient and worthless..
..that my reputation from like Ellen to below dirt just "works" for so many people.
I don't consider myself a pain to hang out with.
I know when I was little, it was popular to be fat and clumsy. In Pre-School, they were lanky and bony, some of them. In elementary school, they were all in on some secret, like they knew more about pop culture.
You didn't say anyone else was boring. Isn't it rude to just say I'm boring and nothing else? Supposedly, it's because you want to be bad that you'd say someone like me is boring. I said I could be "bad" in a cool way that's not mean.
So, I need to know if I am boring. I guess other people are more sensitive than they let out to which crowd label they are.
I am perturbed.. I forget.
So, my relatives are suggestive around me. I was cute sometimes. I don't understand the hating on me times. My mom didn't seem like she thought I was as good as her and wanted to beat that down to me. My dad did, too, of course, since he's white, even tho he's my dad. He didn't do much with me. He used to be more proper, tho I sat in his lap when he read maybe until I was bigger and my little brother was born, but he wasn't in his lap. Weird, huh?
It's funny when people collectively like you but leave you alone, like life for you must be ballet or something, when I'm not even in ballet, like it or not. That's not healthy. Life is about being the best at the best things. I sorta had ballet as an exercise post-gymnastics.
If you don't like my race, you could try to explain why you don't want me around. What if I said that to someone cool? You don't have to be rude all of a sudden like I did something. You don't have to apparently have a big nose to be considered cool. I'm embarrassed to say what I wished, but I had a nice shaped nose as I got a little older and quit gymnastics.. It was smooth and pointed up tho was probably not as skinny as I'd like. I just had to live with the racial prejudice. I didn't ever want a wide nose nor small nose. Who would? Some people do certain parts of their development earlier because they have better lives, supposedly.
I can't help but feel being my friend would be considered a help to some. I think the world grew uncomfortable and all live for their job in communications and such..aha! Like, you could go to Disney with someone but not visit as long in the home, maybe a messy house.
You didn't say anyone else was boring. Isn't it rude to just say I'm boring and nothing else? Supposedly, it's because you want to be bad that you'd say someone like me is boring. I said I could be "bad" in a cool way that's not mean.
So, I need to know if I am boring. I guess other people are more sensitive than they let out to which crowd label they are.
I am perturbed.. I forget.
So, my relatives are suggestive around me. I was cute sometimes. I don't understand the hating on me times. My mom didn't seem like she thought I was as good as her and wanted to beat that down to me. My dad did, too, of course, since he's white, even tho he's my dad. He didn't do much with me. He used to be more proper, tho I sat in his lap when he read maybe until I was bigger and my little brother was born, but he wasn't in his lap. Weird, huh?
It's funny when people collectively like you but leave you alone, like life for you must be ballet or something, when I'm not even in ballet, like it or not. That's not healthy. Life is about being the best at the best things. I sorta had ballet as an exercise post-gymnastics.
If you don't like my race, you could try to explain why you don't want me around. What if I said that to someone cool? You don't have to be rude all of a sudden like I did something. You don't have to apparently have a big nose to be considered cool. I'm embarrassed to say what I wished, but I had a nice shaped nose as I got a little older and quit gymnastics.. It was smooth and pointed up tho was probably not as skinny as I'd like. I just had to live with the racial prejudice. I didn't ever want a wide nose nor small nose. Who would? Some people do certain parts of their development earlier because they have better lives, supposedly.
I can't help but feel being my friend would be considered a help to some. I think the world grew uncomfortable and all live for their job in communications and such..aha! Like, you could go to Disney with someone but not visit as long in the home, maybe a messy house.
Small Blog
Breaking Up
link
It's not always a person you break up with but more of a situation. True, you break up with people or in the other way they break up with you.
..
If it's you and not me, and I'm still fine with you, then why are you breaking up with me?
There's always the other option, and people will encourage you to break up with things to do other things that aren't as good to you.
link
It's not always a person you break up with but more of a situation. True, you break up with people or in the other way they break up with you.
One Of These Is Your Breakup, Because This Is Every Breakup Ever
Don't ask questions, just run.
..
If it's you and not me, and I'm still fine with you, then why are you breaking up with me?
There's always the other option, and people will encourage you to break up with things to do other things that aren't as good to you.
When someone wants to break up with you, it's best not to ask questions. You should instead grab everything you can -- your dignity included -- and SPRINT in the opposite direction.
Don't stop running until you see different stars in the sky.
I just didn't understand. I found it rude.
Popularity Factor
People used to like me as much as Ellen. Thanks a lot, Dad, for just throwing me out when I jokingly said, "Oh, no," when he came home cuz my homework was not done after working all afternoon about. I could've been somebody, you racists. I magneted compliments Ellen enjoys.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
Lena Dunham talked quite a lot and was super generous. I'd love to be her friend. Unfortunately, I don't know what she was talking about or don't remember some of it. She had a dog that needed something on its neck so it wouldn't chew on its fur/skin. They put one on her. She said Ellen did it so she couldn't hug her again, aha ha ha. Often, in movies, I don't pay attention to the story, tho lately I've seen some easier to understand ones. As s person, tho, I feel she was cute but maybe oblivious to where she was and what she was doing. She said she lived to be on Ellen. It's funny, the colored Spanish teacher Ellen called down from the audience you could tell was relaying that Ellen was all she wanted. I guess that's what we accomplished today.
Being Young or Getting a Lot of Exercise
That's when you can read and write, but I'm old and don't have much in it. I just kinda sit there and eventually not paying attention, with books. I'm good with online, Twitter, articles on Autism..
I didn't really have a good education nor..
..exposure to the entertainment world, unless you count the animations.
We were learning words and not writing in younger elementary school. We never did much writing, except essays in high school. Someone is actually signing up for a writing course in college, which includes writing fiction and short stories, as well as poems.
And lectures, not exactly. We read the textbook in class where I was in 4th grade and 5th grade.
We were learning words and not writing in younger elementary school. We never did much writing, except essays in high school. Someone is actually signing up for a writing course in college, which includes writing fiction and short stories, as well as poems.
And lectures, not exactly. We read the textbook in class where I was in 4th grade and 5th grade.
Singer?
Did you know I was only 5 when we started singing in school and I told and showed my dad I liked it. He was probably looking for me to say, "I want to take singing lessons." I didn't know about that until I was 9 in choir. I didn't take them until 18 but stayed in choir until 18 or 20.
I know..
..Bella Thorne wants to live in Florida. She should really move to Miami.
Watch out for Floridians who pretend not to care they left Florida.
Watch out for Floridians who pretend not to care they left Florida.
Problem
People are still fighting me about when I was upset at people who fight me secretly, like I'm "not perfect anymore." Then, they go on to get mad at people if they are nice to me.
Who are you?
Are you having "identity crisis?"
It seems the world has "closed shop" since I was young.
It seems the world has "closed shop" since I was young.
Me Blog
What a Husband and Baby Are Good For
Does the fact I'm not married make me connected to my dad ***ually?
Does the fact I don't have kids mean any guy can wanna r*** me?
If I had a husband, I wouldn't be as "bothered" by my dad and his "playing" with me ***ually.
If I had a baby, it would show my life is case closed and ward off any offense of another guy trying to "handle" me like there's no tomorrow.
Does the fact I'm not married make me connected to my dad ***ually?
Does the fact I don't have kids mean any guy can wanna r*** me?
If I had a husband, I wouldn't be as "bothered" by my dad and his "playing" with me ***ually.
If I had a baby, it would show my life is case closed and ward off any offense of another guy trying to "handle" me like there's no tomorrow.
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If you want to be cool, Half as cool as me,
How you look at me,
If not, you'll pay a price
Far beyond your means
You don't want the trouble that I bring
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