Tuesday, October 20, 2015
The Real Attention-Getters
People know I got attention and instead they like other people in my life who are mean to me and tell me I think I deserve all this attention I don't when I never said I did.
Tim Burton
Tim Burton acted like I was some silly girl using the internet. Now, that's how I'm sliced bread!!
Johnny Depp convinced the world I was worth being mean to or else..blah.
People on TV act like I'm some joke and think for a second tho they must be all that.
Disclaimer: No offense, but this is what these people did. Don't read into it as an insult.
Johnny Depp convinced the world I was worth being mean to or else..blah.
People on TV act like I'm some joke and think for a second tho they must be all that.
Disclaimer: No offense, but this is what these people did. Don't read into it as an insult.
Worried
I get mad in private but don't want anyone hurt. I guess I'm most worried about my parents.
People, even in public, are mean to me. I don't usually get mad online cuz it's a place where you think things out. Maybe, some people don't have to an they still get accepted for being popular and desirable.
I lost so much in my life. I don't like waking up to this each day. I didn't wanna wake up because of this, as usual. They were going bat s*** crazy at me for what they saw me do in private, get mad in the bathroom while on the toilet.. Like, I'm in bed for, like, 12 hours, too.
I can't seem to solve the tension about me hitting my sofa etc. People weren't this mean to me before. It's unspeakable. They can't expect me to be okay with it. I want to ignore it. I just posted about it.
I don't like making the sacrifices of my identity for others.
I don't think in the heat of the moment this turmoil concerns only their interests.
Do any of you ever feel invaded and upset.. like see friends go stomping off etc.?
People, even in public, are mean to me. I don't usually get mad online cuz it's a place where you think things out. Maybe, some people don't have to an they still get accepted for being popular and desirable.
I lost so much in my life. I don't like waking up to this each day. I didn't wanna wake up because of this, as usual. They were going bat s*** crazy at me for what they saw me do in private, get mad in the bathroom while on the toilet.. Like, I'm in bed for, like, 12 hours, too.
I can't seem to solve the tension about me hitting my sofa etc. People weren't this mean to me before. It's unspeakable. They can't expect me to be okay with it. I want to ignore it. I just posted about it.
I don't like making the sacrifices of my identity for others.
I don't think in the heat of the moment this turmoil concerns only their interests.
Do any of you ever feel invaded and upset.. like see friends go stomping off etc.?
Dying My Hair..
..not plucking my eyebrows, would hurt too much or be too annoying.
I will we wear bangs.
I want it so people don't look at me like a failed Muslim trying to make it. I was kicked outta Music Education, my college major, saying because I was "shy." Not sure why they were dishonest. Maybe, they had no place in doing something like that. Up north, they actually just suggested I take less classes, go home, and return, but I went back to the other college and flunked cuz the general studies were too hard.
I will we wear bangs.
I want it so people don't look at me like a failed Muslim trying to make it. I was kicked outta Music Education, my college major, saying because I was "shy." Not sure why they were dishonest. Maybe, they had no place in doing something like that. Up north, they actually just suggested I take less classes, go home, and return, but I went back to the other college and flunked cuz the general studies were too hard.
Something I Noticed
They keep invading my peace and trying to affect me psychiatrically in inappropriate ways.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
James Corden seemed genuinely interested in making a good impression and be popular.
Florence + the Machine seemed interesting to the audience, a British singer who performed.
The little girl singing for a young adult lady with cancer was so sweet. The little girl sang with another adult. It's interesting to me because I wanted to be a singer around that age when we did music at school for the 1st time. Actually, I remember something on TV. She seemed younger and could probably talk well. I found it interesting, like when people sing and the words aren't clear or simply not "enunciated." It might seem cute with a kid. That's probably why they had the older singer with her. I don't know what I'd sound like as a kid. I find singing fun, as most people do..
Florence + the Machine seemed interesting to the audience, a British singer who performed.
The little girl singing for a young adult lady with cancer was so sweet. The little girl sang with another adult. It's interesting to me because I wanted to be a singer around that age when we did music at school for the 1st time. Actually, I remember something on TV. She seemed younger and could probably talk well. I found it interesting, like when people sing and the words aren't clear or simply not "enunciated." It might seem cute with a kid. That's probably why they had the older singer with her. I don't know what I'd sound like as a kid. I find singing fun, as most people do..
Question
How can someone think I am mean to Ellen? She started it. Technically, she'd say someone else did.
Problem
They, the people experimenting on me watching me in my room and making noises and affecting how thing happen on my computer in ways.., keep saying things that affect me in private that I can't just shrug off. It seems I sit here all day stopping to think about what they've said.
Community College
Well, it's been, like, 10 years.
I think I will try for 4 classes a semester, starting with..
1) English II
2) Speech
3) Math
4) Science
And it's all online.
So, I could graduate this summer.
I think I will try for 4 classes a semester, starting with..
1) English II
2) Speech
3) Math
4) Science
And it's all online.
So, I could graduate this summer.
Stunted Life
I feel like I was beat at for not being as overly developed young, like with as huge a nose. I was a gymnast! I went to classes but not competition. When I stopped, I found my nose was bigger.
Judgement
I always used to check if I was really good. I wasn't full aware of what was expected of my attitude, but people around me were bad themselves. Everyone said I was good.
People used to exaggerate how glorious it was that I was so good throughout my life, until my life became known to me as becoming an experiment. I felt a cut in my connection to others.
So many people are mistaken and waste time hating on me for no good reason. Also, I seem to come in contact with a lot of those people.
Who else "pays" who achieves for others being jealous?
People don't get that, tho I live with my parents to see them if they like for now.., that it's not about saying I can't talk to other people but others can.
...
People used to exaggerate how glorious it was that I was so good throughout my life, until my life became known to me as becoming an experiment. I felt a cut in my connection to others.
So many people are mistaken and waste time hating on me for no good reason. Also, I seem to come in contact with a lot of those people.
Who else "pays" who achieves for others being jealous?
People don't get that, tho I live with my parents to see them if they like for now.., that it's not about saying I can't talk to other people but others can.
...
Halloween 4: The Return of Michael Myers (1988)
Apparently, it is unoriginal to have fluffy short blonde hair with some bangs cut.
Mastering Others
I'm watching Halloween 4: The Return of Michael Myers.
I hate how people born around 1960 think they are the ***ual masters of kid with dads born around 1950 or whatever.
I hate how people born around 1960 think they are the ***ual masters of kid with dads born around 1950 or whatever.
Radar! Alert!
Someone on TV who was a dainty, rather fair teen acted like being around cool people is not for me.
You know, like ladies who seem ***y or born around 1960, for a start.
News. They were talking about someone who was killed. It was people who knew her, tho she was older and Latino and slightly obese.
So, the teen thinks it's about the guys born around 1960, then, tho I get along with them fine it seems. She says about people like me with an older dad that it's "not about that."
I thought people were here under strict discipline. They still get the goods. I'm stuck with Dad and Mom, changed..
You know, like ladies who seem ***y or born around 1960, for a start.
News. They were talking about someone who was killed. It was people who knew her, tho she was older and Latino and slightly obese.
So, the teen thinks it's about the guys born around 1960, then, tho I get along with them fine it seems. She says about people like me with an older dad that it's "not about that."
I thought people were here under strict discipline. They still get the goods. I'm stuck with Dad and Mom, changed..
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