News

Even if something is happening, people are there and still thinking highly of themselves.

People

Supposedly, cool, nice people have power and they all were hypnotized to abuse it.

I don't respect Baby Boomers as being honest, fair, and authentic.

Another Story

I used to go to a couple malls.  I wanted to go back to this one that had a hanging display of Jingle All the Way back in 2006 soon after relocating here in mid-2005 and I came back from college and started posting online.  That's where I'm applying to work at Macy's + Sears for the holidays.

Sears

Applied for Sears non-cashier, part time.

Unhappy

I know people get ahead by being European as opposed to Asian.  I know they rushed to make it impossible for some to be happy.  Older later middle aged adults aren't worth it.  These people all like the kids who were bad, unless they find someone very attractive, possibly.

Problem

Why are once sweet people being bad and totally ruining things?

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by Me:

Do people ever hurt you behind your back or by how they act? And it affects you possibly physically?

Like magic? Like, do you find yourself feeling punished by the time of your own parents after living 18 and out?

Mis-Identification

I'm not a minority as a person and I am not someone who is whiny about their race as a minority being more important than being white.

I found something fake about me.

When others deal with others, they earnestly believe in them.  Me, I have to say it's just a way to be positive.  Sometimes, it gets complex, tho.

Idea

Why am I judged compared to others when I've done nothing wrong and you are mean to me all the time but not others but just because they are already complainers mostly/partly?

New Audio of Me Singing

So..

..people are just waiting to replace my success with themselves to a fine point like playing with a Russian doll?

"I'm wide awake.."

I feel at work people will be more awake than I am.  I already believe I've been in contact with aliens and ghosts.  I'm probably like my personality test for careers said, "fairies and magic."  No, tho, I do like to be awake when I'm not shy.

The Finer Point

I would wonder if Bella acted mean to me for Ellen even on the show Shake It Up, but in ways I know it's something else.  I dunno about Ellen.  I like her, but it seems a bit abnormal compared to others.  It's hard for me to separate the creme of the crop.

Hopefully

I can shape up when I get out of the house to a finer point.  I am trying to get a Christmas job.  I'm already jogging every day and eating numerous small "meals.."  I just wanna enjoy my blog and other people online.

It's just too much for me.  I am having a hard time feeling like a normal person.  Like, I shouldn't be bowing down to people who are bad and being addicted to stimulating myself.

What I Found

I was not liked for being with my cousin who for reasons got in trouble a lot.  I feel the same way about submitting to other people I like.

Feeling..

..I don't feel as #1 because of being trapped in noisy environments in Central Florida.

Also, I was turned off by Tim Burton being stimulated in a coo coo way when others summon it.  My parents tried to do the same to me.  I just wanted to still look up to him.

So, shamed by "spreading" myself for Johnny Depp, I closed up to the world.

Edit

I added to my last post, it posted early for some reason.

My Reason

The only reason I find myself caring to be upset for others about things to do with Bella Thorne is because Ellen told her to be bad to me.  However, even from watching her in the early days on Shake It Up, I felt the same way!

True, I'd have something to say.  Not saying I know what it'd be and hope it wouldn't be considered bad nor be unfriendly.

Ambiguous Identity

Why does this experiment want the opposite for me that people do in real life?  They think I don't deserve any attention.  If I talk about anything negative, they flip.

I don't force people to talk to me, but I notice people are telling people to be mean to me, like "or else."

Question

They wanted me to talk about this, but I keep getting the feeling I'm not me and I'm treated as I'm Bella Thorne.  It's like people born in 1960 want everything to be for her and nothing for me as they somehow know of me.

I guess they were just mistaken cuz I know I don't wanna be like other people mostly, like Bella for example.

What's In and Out

OK so the feeling anyone is "better" than everyone is out.

We're talking about things like skills and having a romantic personality, instead.

Ellen & Bella

Ellen knows Bella wants to be treated like she's better than everyone else.  Bella seems obsessed about it, which is a sad experience I also feel sorry for.  She seems very concerned about her position in the world.  I don't really think of myself as better than others.  People do wonder why I seem so happy and celebratory about myself.

Something I Saw People Notice

Yes, people would feel Bella Thorne thinks too highly of herself, but I think she is also sweet.  She may be especially different, too.

Well, I already recommended California out, but all the *beep* acting comes from there.  Bella doesn't seem to act naturally, like I saw on Jimmy Fallon.  She had to create the feel of being somewhere like Florida.  She is from Southeastern Florida close to Miami.  I lost my feeling from Florida partly/critically when we moved out for my dad's job when I was 12, right away.  I was a bit bemused and rather saddened when I saw Bella had to create the feeling that she was #1 rather than just listen to the details of what people think of her.

I only wrote this cuz people have a bone to pick with her, and I wanted it settled and spoken of in my world.  I admit we all have faults, tho, not just Bella or something in this case.  You have a right to notice people are trying to take advantage of you, in general, too.  I get upset often each day.

I am not suggesting we just make fun of her fabricating her environment because I know something about her life.  She used to on her show create the feeling she was #1 while people acted like she was just high strung and didn't wanna "have a good time."

Issue

Bella Thorne isn't supposed to be a detriment to my life by acting like I deserve nothing I have and getting it taken from me.