Why

does Tim Burton seem to point out the negative things?

What makes you think I'm wrong and you're right?

Sounds like someone's mad.

She really doesn't get

I AM that old I can do as I like.  I know right from wrong.

High school should not be short for the older kids.

Soapbox Recognition

She knows that Middle Easterners keep the benefits of their culture when going to the states, but he Chinese lose it.

I never get to do anything.  All the shit goes to me from her.  She thinks it protects me.

I think I'm over what I said a little earlier.

But I can see her lauging in the shadows..

Someone is getting at me.

Saying look I did something, it meant something.

See

I let you do it.

Actually I don't

conform with the outcasts.

Like

If I were properly called 1 of the greats o the world, I wouldn't be willing to bow to a social outcast nor talk to them for publicity.

Wow, there's nothing to do here.

Is hurting me what makes you feel better?

I know why you all did what you did.  Anything wrong with saying that?  I think I know who's to call it on.

I feel I am not accepted anywhere

for various things that I've done.

Edit

I added to that post with the video that it's overrated to me.

Immature

Is it like I'm an Ellen who's 1/2 Chinese, very mysterious yet still white?

What's up with the picking at me

like I did something?

Confused?

If it happened|happens, then it did.  You make up stuff for me.  You have nothing to say, whoever does this.  You just stop the action and your responsibilities.

Sooner or later you'll pop admitting everything born after 1990.

You can't be to me like, "Wellprettymuchthtasit" "Christina is shit, she didn't do nothing, she just posed like she's the only attractive 1, which I know is a mistake all the time."

A pity I had to post this topic.. Is that's what you wanna talk about?  I guess it's what I posted to whoever's listening, cuz that's the kinda stuff we exchange in secret.

Is Frozen the new Beauty and the Beast?

last night

the 2 songs @ 3:09 - lost some of my voice, tho, not that great.. only if you're out there and wanna hear what I sang last night..  :/

wasn't that great - oh well, maybe it's overrated

Why do people think brunettes "did something?"

Important

1-Piano
2-Singing
3-Acing
4-Ballet

I told my dad

I'd do piano, not sure they got organ anyway.  I don't know if I wanna do just opera.

Organ?

I talked to that guy a little more

to be nice.  He's not online.

Why did my brother need the satisfaction

that my dad not send me a nice message, like he's helping my parents discipline me when he's a young teen and I'm an adult?

Problem

How can I go through life without thinking I deserve nothing cuz Ellen is watching or because of what I did, cursed about what she did?

Problem

So, no offense to him personally, but since Tim Burton you're trying to say I'm a lower category of person.  You think I'm just shit.  Well, I'm about to get outta the house more.

That guy

said he even read about me on IMDb.  He's trying to suck up my attention.  What if I don't like him like that?

What if someone in the experiment got him to do that?  What if it was a real person?

Problem

I got a little upset at this 1 guy and he started talking to me more..  He doesn't get that he's off.  I told him to post whatever the hell he wants on my forum or join IMDb but quit tailing me like he likes me.  Sounds dangerous.  Sometimes, I get dark outcasts who are trying to like "play" with me and what I feel about other people.  People think there are castes, or levels, of people, and I used to be considered more top.  I'm like an old has-been, like an old Spanish or Italian lady who is faintly attractive but older than they were before.  You know, once attractive, but more in high school than junior high like me.  Before I was as "attractive" I was considered differently, not as shit for someone like him.  People made my life hard, and I have no wish to be in their crowd like on a leash.  I'm worried I'm being made fun of like that's really me!  They won't leave me the hell alone!

What about all those other people who get it all?  Is this some racial joke for me?  All these dark male outcasts?  But no one else??

Change of Mind

(not up for all the reading as much..)

Want to do singing

Theory - 3+4
Piano 3+4?
2 Ensembles
2 Applied Lessons

Could go college courses before it or put it off for later.

I would love to study music..

College

I will go to the new college, need a note to get back in the 1st.  I think I will do theater and singing, but the singing is classical.  I could go for musical theater.

Theater
-Theater Survey - talking about acting in general
-Survey Dramatic Lit - studying plays
-Acting 1
-Directing

I think the music would just be too much and honestly don't think I need it as much?

6 - 9 general studies classes left

Some people think we must have so much money.

I probably signed up for something online and quit my prescription..

Not much to the talent sites.  $70/3 months earlier.  I coulda got some dresses.

I need to consider a college major or double major.

Message

Josh Groban, I wonder when you'll sing with a CURLY|WAVY haired brunette.  All will be over for me, then!  Who knows what's next.  I don't know many fluffy-haired dark brunettes.  Seriously, mine has tinted to like all colors of the rainbow in my life.  As for practicing. I do need to, but my throwing up hurt my voice again now.  I'm also tired still from yesterday's disappointing supper or just not expecting it.  I used to sing better, maybe will find a sample someday.  Maybe, I could sell it.

Fighting on the Soapbox on IMDb

about telling people off.

Ever since Tim Burton, no one accepts anyone, anymore.  No offense to Tim Burton himself.

Split Generations

I have to live with people 5 and 10 years younger.

Think of the Christmas spirit and a Christmas song.  It's the people 5-10 years younger that get everything, that get to enjoy anything.  We just stand there or always feel in trouble.  For them, it's all about them.  It's like never been about our success.

Problem

I feel tired again.

Posting This For Lion Country Safari (the big Southeastern Florida Safari Zoo)

Apology

Sorry if I ever was nasty to you about something that bothered me, just gotta be good, things don't seem right.

I woke up in the middle of my sleep.

And I had to sit up or otherwise I felt I'd get cancer.  I felt like little places stringed off and like it would pop if I breathed normally.

Everyone thinks I'm bad now.

I'm not here to live under my dad's inklings as my point in life.

Up

I just had some cereal for breakfast.

I was worried that when I do something my dad wants to be involved when I don't want him to be, like if something big happened, my dad also wouldn't "be there" for me.  I just feel like he's harassing me.  It's very possible.

What else?  I was sorry about some things I've done or said on my blog.

I did clean the beta bowl last night.  My dad sprayed for the spider this morning.

You know, my dad used to respect me.  I think it's when I cursed on my blog that he felt he had something.  That's too bad.  I mean, I was being hurt, and cursing came to mind.  I still would curse for fun.  I feel a bit disrespected, like, "Ooh, Christina stopped cursing so much."  Well, I don't want to.  If I did ever, I would.  I was mainly cursing about he noises, I thought.  You're welcome to copy and paste your argument onto my forum rather than swinging around making a mess like a monkey throughout my life.  Is that your goal, to always make me feel guilty, as a very good person, when trouble comes my way?

What else?  Wish I had some good music to listen to, tired of my singing now, which is still hurt from throwing up.

Also, I already was aware of what people were doing wrong to me, and I see they realize it like it's smart, later.  I know people just don't think much about some things.

Maybe, I'll make a breakfast muffin now?  Like with eggs|cheese|sausage, frozen.

So, why doesn't anyone realize I'm here to talk to so we don't have problems?  Lotta people out there I meet never find me online.  :(  I don't think you can network like that on Facebook, anymore.  It's like people wanna keep hurting me an never admitting I'm willing to talk it out.  Why would I be punished somewhat initially for doing bad in school when my life was an experiment which was supposed to end?  Also, why get mad at me for weird things very little?  I never felt that good about myself.  There are other things..

I'm also not happy with what made me think of this.  It's not a good thing to think.  There are some things about the topic that are good, of course.  It just doesn't relate well.  It's something I've been wondering.

It was easy when I was just with mom..

..but my life became Hell the bigger my brother grew.  Never got the right sleep and probably not the best choice of food..

Pest Control

There's a 2 inch gray brown spider next to my bathtub..

Yes

We all wore dresses for special occasions, but it was more like a T shirt.

Apology

I did get this image I am still wondering about, but I thought of the 2 curse words again.

Little Grobanite

me @ age 1 or 2

Happy

My mom's finally getting treated and only needs pills.

On Full House

they harshly grounded an older girl but next ep not the younger 1.  They were like they are to kids in school, telling them to forget the past.  Me, they keep bringing it up!  And there IS an explanation!!

Why should I be punished?

I think it's a mistake to.  I simply didn't do anything.  1 thing was college, but for some reason my dad didn't accept that I thought my life was a fake experiment that was horrid that I would escape.  What else is big?  Me cursing about the noises Ellen put in my room?  You think, oh but she did so much for you.  I just wanted some help!  So..  My dad thinks he's onto me for something after I did something a 2nd time, but it wasn't really bad..  I said "oh no" a few times when I was 11 when he came home cuz my homework wasn't done etc.  Then I thought I was supposed to call someone the n word according to them sorta.  This was online, and he found out through the experiment.  I think people are just trusting old ways and being picky about things I do I don't remember exactly.  The rest of the sound that I think will come out of me is that this practice is animalistic and merely thoughtless, like you go by a formula you don't understand for making people feel guilty for their age.

Do I seem old? Is that a compliment?

I notice all the generations above mine are made to be comfortable feeling on top.

Edit on Singing Post

So no bother listening unless..?

My voice is totally out.

I cannot sing.


Online recording software >>

So no bother listening unless..?

It's never been that bad.

Watching a girl harrassed on Full House, I mean cuddled, and I think the people in the audience want a better relationship when they finally have kids, like they want at a very young age even to get it down.  You see those mothers always with their daughters.

Did you know

I adamantly watch commercials?

I don't get it.

Why would I sit here and let you mimic Ellen and make fun of me?