Another somewhat random important topic I got wind was the big fame of some people. Should we like stop this? I mean, what will happen to them? What will we imagine. What about something happy?
Why can't you withstand the public? I've withstood growing crowds. It's only fun. I've never been broadcasted where everyone could see me, so I really don't know about world fame and obsession through the years, since way back. I mean, I was only so old at certain times, too. I never thought fame would affect me like that. So, we need to control the thoughts that go on and the ideas that are suggested. I feel it coming, anyway.
Let's just imagine it's happy and fun. The pain has a reason. It's incredible! There are some stimulating things, but these things are to you. Try to uncover the truth, something I'm interested in.
Gotta go at the mo.
Sunday, December 2, 2012
Feelng Pain
I got the message that Ellen DeGeneres is like thinking maybe it's okay if like I get these messages in my room maybe more than other people, which is okay in a way but not really in a way not something I'd teach anyone to do to other living things, like because she's from the New Orleans area. Like, I feel that they just want to hurt you. Like, they are apparently upholding a traditional life like the Amish. I forgot she lived in a different city, a dangerous one. Maybe, I'm closer to the other ones, but I think her city was a big one at first heard. She isn't really down-to-earth, in a way. I mean, I went to college in New Orleans for over a year. Well, I should have just accepted it. I guess she's from closer to New Orleans. Wow, that must make me like nothing, all these people from the city. I remember living in the nation's oldest city. I had lived in the "big" city. Still, we felt slighted by their talentless ways. It's kinda like Orlando. People in the area she is from are really strict but in a way really feeling though not like necessarily in a classical way. At least, this is what I think.
Well, I don't think she really thinks about that, but it might have reached her already, I mean it seems to have reached everyone. I just get these feelings like she wants to like hurt me. Why is that okay? I'm really annoyed at people who act like they're stronger than me and set themselves up around me like a balloon and complain they did it, wasting their time, all the time. Well, I don't mean that feeling has to go to waste altogether, but it's being used to hurt me and it's just not something that should keep happening. It can happen in some ways. I mean, who else suffers like this? I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG ON PURPOSE. ANSWER.
Well, I don't think she really thinks about that, but it might have reached her already, I mean it seems to have reached everyone. I just get these feelings like she wants to like hurt me. Why is that okay? I'm really annoyed at people who act like they're stronger than me and set themselves up around me like a balloon and complain they did it, wasting their time, all the time. Well, I don't mean that feeling has to go to waste altogether, but it's being used to hurt me and it's just not something that should keep happening. It can happen in some ways. I mean, who else suffers like this? I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG ON PURPOSE. ANSWER.
I Am Stronger ... Than I Ever Was Before
I don't know why people are acting like they are stronger than me. I just got the message that there are protocols for me, like I feel like I'm dishonest. Like, they think they have a firm hold on things they think of me, like feelings of romance, are perversion, because I'm not completely satisfied, as "the" excuse.
Agree to Disagree
Look, I just don't agree with you. Really, people aren't pointedly mean to others like me and think they "know" I did something wrong even though they're wrong I feel I'm gonna call them a nigger.
So, on the other hand, I am getting messages dropped in. I got another message, and I posted bad messages over and over and this is bothering me and I need to plaster it on my website when I'm feeling better.
That actually sums it up.
I mean, it's okay, your bribes, but I got a trend. I guess that it just sorta happened, different people caused different things. So, it's hard to type what I'm thinking.
So, on the other hand, I am getting messages dropped in. I got another message, and I posted bad messages over and over and this is bothering me and I need to plaster it on my website when I'm feeling better.
That actually sums it up.
I mean, it's okay, your bribes, but I got a trend. I guess that it just sorta happened, different people caused different things. So, it's hard to type what I'm thinking.
Issues
So, I know I have lots of aches and pains. I'd like to talk about the discomforts I got talking to my grandma.
Also, I actually hear things. I know they could be real, but I think some of them aren't, a lot. I don't want to tell a doctor because I don't think they'd listen, anyway. I mean, I don't want them to do anything to me. I also had the feeling they wouldn't listen to the idea these days seriously because it's like a "solution."
So, I did some upper body workouts in my room and got thinner. It was good to take a break, and I think walking made the fat drain, as well.
So, I got a lot of bad thoughts as the day went on.
I guess something important I found was that minorities are susceptible to hatred. WHITE PEOPLE HAVE FOOLED THEM INTO GETTING REALLY DARK SKIN DOWN HERE, I KNOW IN FLORIDA|ORLANDO. They're absolutely miserable and look kinda injured.
Why does Ellen DeGeneres think she has to like p******* herself to black people? I mean that in the best way possible.
So, white people get their white skin back.
Hm, I still don't think it's good for anyone to have bad associations with black people. What about like friendlying up against someone who's Asian? I just noticed. It shouldn't be a big thing. I mean, I didn't go all out and ruin your life. I don't see why that would happen to anyone. (Maybe, we should figure it out.)
I guess I'm kinda torn because I feel I'm also expected to call my grandma and think about her in unpleasant ways, but no one cares.
I was wondering about everyone's fascination all of a sudden with Helena Bonham Carter.
So, I was so mad today because I was physically uncomfortable. I feel I "got" "the" joke. It's not because I was out walking. I am different now and am not sure if I should be but yes I learned not to think of the n word when someone is suggestive to me.
So, why are some people like always insisting insults on me? When I went to Saint Augustine, I felt really suggested to by a tourist thinking, "But you're Asian, Viet." What's with all the hysterics about my race? It's not something you crash. Is it because of Lily Rose? I mean no ill will, so please don't feel bad- I guess I was supposed to come to a verdict before posting this to the world. Too bad because I want to talk to the world and have them know what I'm put up with. I've already tried talking to my parents, and they're just like suggestive. I talk to all the lowly people and feel pushed.
I think seriously you need to get a blog and start posting all your thoughts and then post to celebs, on Twitter and on their popular fan board|s. Facebook, too, you can Share things on your own page, as wel, if that's what you're doing. You need to work to be #1 for everyone. You need to do exactly what you want to do. Everyone can be a #1.. I mean, I just feel kinda like in pain but like I'm a worthy person. I already complained about what minorities put up with being convinced to have such beat down dark skin. My skin was much lighter moving to the New Orleans area.
Also, I actually hear things. I know they could be real, but I think some of them aren't, a lot. I don't want to tell a doctor because I don't think they'd listen, anyway. I mean, I don't want them to do anything to me. I also had the feeling they wouldn't listen to the idea these days seriously because it's like a "solution."
So, I did some upper body workouts in my room and got thinner. It was good to take a break, and I think walking made the fat drain, as well.
So, I got a lot of bad thoughts as the day went on.
I guess something important I found was that minorities are susceptible to hatred. WHITE PEOPLE HAVE FOOLED THEM INTO GETTING REALLY DARK SKIN DOWN HERE, I KNOW IN FLORIDA|ORLANDO. They're absolutely miserable and look kinda injured.
Why does Ellen DeGeneres think she has to like p******* herself to black people? I mean that in the best way possible.
So, white people get their white skin back.
Hm, I still don't think it's good for anyone to have bad associations with black people. What about like friendlying up against someone who's Asian? I just noticed. It shouldn't be a big thing. I mean, I didn't go all out and ruin your life. I don't see why that would happen to anyone. (Maybe, we should figure it out.)
I guess I'm kinda torn because I feel I'm also expected to call my grandma and think about her in unpleasant ways, but no one cares.
I was wondering about everyone's fascination all of a sudden with Helena Bonham Carter.
So, I was so mad today because I was physically uncomfortable. I feel I "got" "the" joke. It's not because I was out walking. I am different now and am not sure if I should be but yes I learned not to think of the n word when someone is suggestive to me.
So, why are some people like always insisting insults on me? When I went to Saint Augustine, I felt really suggested to by a tourist thinking, "But you're Asian, Viet." What's with all the hysterics about my race? It's not something you crash. Is it because of Lily Rose? I mean no ill will, so please don't feel bad- I guess I was supposed to come to a verdict before posting this to the world. Too bad because I want to talk to the world and have them know what I'm put up with. I've already tried talking to my parents, and they're just like suggestive. I talk to all the lowly people and feel pushed.
I think seriously you need to get a blog and start posting all your thoughts and then post to celebs, on Twitter and on their popular fan board|s. Facebook, too, you can Share things on your own page, as wel, if that's what you're doing. You need to work to be #1 for everyone. You need to do exactly what you want to do. Everyone can be a #1.. I mean, I just feel kinda like in pain but like I'm a worthy person. I already complained about what minorities put up with being convinced to have such beat down dark skin. My skin was much lighter moving to the New Orleans area.
Pressing Matters for Me
So, I associated a bad word in the same area as some thing with some people for taking liberty to be racist to me. I've literally been thinking of a*****ing people.
The problem is I feel that I have to do these things, I find, by surprise, when things happen, like skirting around a bad word or else I won't reach the light at the end of the tunnel.
So, I can ... not really because it would say I want to be let off say sorry, but these things really aren't deliberate.
The problem is I feel that I have to do these things, I find, by surprise, when things happen, like skirting around a bad word or else I won't reach the light at the end of the tunnel.
So, I can ... not really because it would say I want to be let off say sorry, but these things really aren't deliberate.
College Debt
If you go to college from home, don't take as many classes as you can because your parents will get mad at you for college debt.
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No Child Left Behind
I elected to take World Geography my 1st year of high school. I elected to not take World History my 2nd year. I didn't make gifted my 1st year but did at the only other public school I attended, kindergarten. I got in Gifted with a bunch of other kids a year older in my class, even from the same junior high. My 2nd year. I was told upon entering American History APG to leave if it was not to I guess rush to prepare to test for college credit. The class last year was big. I had the same teacher my 1st year, and it was very easy. In my class was a Gifted girl from the public school. The boy was from my school and related to the English teacher. I didn't leave the class when called to the counselor and left 2 other classes. I went to a Baptist school and had a teacher who was 3 feet wide and pretty. I did the 1st semester during the summer. I went to the Catholic high school and took World History and it was easy but a waste of class. I could not succeed in Music History up north, with a pre class the semester before. I could do hardly anything in non-honors courses down south. Online, in Florida, it was easy except for Mathematics. Also, math and Chemistry II were too hard at the Catholic school, though I was 3rd in the state for geometry.
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Don't go looking for trouble.
It's better not to look when you're alone, like just walking around, because, sooner or later, trouble will come.
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Getting Your Hands in the Dirt
Did you wonder if people would poke at Tim Burton for saying other people can't get their hands in the dirt?
Technical Errors
Do you believe that if you do something that is not what you are technically supposed to do that you made a mistake?
Being a Boy
I actually made myself believe I wanted to be a boy and said so maybe numerous times. That's when I was 8 and 7. I still made sure I had all the benefits of a girl.
Physical Features Growing Up
My features growing up were pretty even. I was not really scrawny but considered "small" because I was short.. I don't know if I was ever big as a baby, but I looked fat. So, when I did gymnastics, I found that my shoulders seemed kinda wide. Well, I also had done different things leading up to that point like baton I started maybe around then. I was getting funny feelings, too. So, maybe that's not good. At some point|s, my chest got wide. Well, my waist was always wide. A boy made me stick out my stomach, when I was 8, and it stayed. I had to use the bathroom more after quitting gymnastics. I didn't. However, I don't think my chest is really robust compared to most girls. My shoulders and torso may be big compared to most people. My legs may look short because I'm fat. I always had a small measurement of bust. The area under it was actually bigger.
Pretty much, I don't like how I looked most of the time when I was 5, 6, 7, & 8.
I was a little perverted when I was 6 and kinda braindead at 5. We moved to Northeastern Florida, a major city. I lost my round face look at 6. We moved again and I kinda got it back. I lost it again when we moved. Then, I got it back and lost it again and so on and so forth.
I also don't get why my dad thinks that people in the past are worth more than the future, in a certain way, like opportunity in the afterlife.
I was looking at how Ellen DeGeneres's size changed through the years. I've seen so many different representations of her I can't really believe it. It looks like they got a lot of good shots.
Would you call her when she's older, like a lot of other girls I knew, a tomboy? I never truly fit the definition but tried. Sometimes, I'd be easily stimulated, though. Actually, I was sorta over and above. It's just I didn't look very European then. That's when I was 8 and in a way 7 and in some ways 6. I wanted to look like the girls with white hair and bangs. I've seen really pretty girls with fluffy light blonde hair in media, like Ramsy and the girl in Cry Baby with Johnny Depp. However, that girl looked the opposite when she got older. She still appeared very stimulated, in a way. I feel that girls who are born around 1985 and 1970 are stimulated because people born in wait I mean 1980 and 1975 because people born around 1960 are like not mature to be the parents of kids that age. I'm not really sure the nature of that. I grew up thinking that they were adults to me but that in general at that age they were not old enough to have kids but looked like adults today who are 50 or 45. I don't even know if I look like a teenager yet and assume neither does anyone who knew me. For me, *beep* was a big topic.
I just got a really disturbing idea. 8' Ellen DeGeneres relates highly to Jewish heritage. ^99^ ^66^ I know I was just thinking I like being old, traditional European. I just look kinda stimulated up in a modern way but have all the traits of an old European.
Pretty much, I don't like how I looked most of the time when I was 5, 6, 7, & 8.
I was a little perverted when I was 6 and kinda braindead at 5. We moved to Northeastern Florida, a major city. I lost my round face look at 6. We moved again and I kinda got it back. I lost it again when we moved. Then, I got it back and lost it again and so on and so forth.
I also don't get why my dad thinks that people in the past are worth more than the future, in a certain way, like opportunity in the afterlife.
I was looking at how Ellen DeGeneres's size changed through the years. I've seen so many different representations of her I can't really believe it. It looks like they got a lot of good shots.
Would you call her when she's older, like a lot of other girls I knew, a tomboy? I never truly fit the definition but tried. Sometimes, I'd be easily stimulated, though. Actually, I was sorta over and above. It's just I didn't look very European then. That's when I was 8 and in a way 7 and in some ways 6. I wanted to look like the girls with white hair and bangs. I've seen really pretty girls with fluffy light blonde hair in media, like Ramsy and the girl in Cry Baby with Johnny Depp. However, that girl looked the opposite when she got older. She still appeared very stimulated, in a way. I feel that girls who are born around 1985 and 1970 are stimulated because people born in wait I mean 1980 and 1975 because people born around 1960 are like not mature to be the parents of kids that age. I'm not really sure the nature of that. I grew up thinking that they were adults to me but that in general at that age they were not old enough to have kids but looked like adults today who are 50 or 45. I don't even know if I look like a teenager yet and assume neither does anyone who knew me. For me, *beep* was a big topic.
I just got a really disturbing idea. 8' Ellen DeGeneres relates highly to Jewish heritage. ^99^ ^66^ I know I was just thinking I like being old, traditional European. I just look kinda stimulated up in a modern way but have all the traits of an old European.
Race & Color
Did you ever stop and think black hair is unpopular because of Asians and tan skin is popular because of Pakis?
My Whole Problem
Whenever I try to change my life, something happens.
I'll also add that it was really bad when I thought my life was an experiment, I was taken out of my major at a prestigious school and my grades were altered, and I was withdrawn from college. To be more specific, I went up to Washington, D.C., feeling like killed by the assistant dean at the school treating me racistly. Well, he wasn't white. They kept telling me to look up since I went to see people at 16. I was tired by the experiment and couldn't do the assignment. It was a 3 credit week long graduate course for working students. The teacher said I was doing very good, especially for my age, to my mom.
Then, I went up north during a hurricane. I could not succeed easily in any of the courses. I had problems with the 2 separate theory courses. I had been good at it, but I thought it was easy. The big problem was maybe theory, though the one teacher in private said I was really good. Anyway, the history teacher was nice, but I couldn't get myself to read and even if I was feeling good couldn't. When I went back to my other school, nothing in the religion was in the test. Also, in religion honors the year before, it was lecture and I took too many notes. That tells me I couldn't have succeeded in a lecture course I took in high school. I skimmed the chapter, and nothing was on the test, though I got a D. Of course, I was able to read some of this. I mean, I was a straight A student. I didn't get in Gifted right away but did in kindergarten, though I was called "retarded" then, my dad said. This was Northeastern Florida, a major city.
So, the 1st semester after the hurricane, there were workers outside of my dorm. I could not study! I was only in my dorm a few hours during the day. I took ballet at night and then came back..
The 2nd semester, I heard noises that made me want to kill myself. It never seemed to stop. I felt stuck in my dorm, kinda sick and dead.
We moved, and the 3rd semester was time to pick a new major. I did well in the lab courses but could not succeed with the Asian biology teacher. Chemistry was too complicated, too, you might say.. There is no Physics-Chemistry major. Chemistry is based more on Biology. There is even Physics in Biology. Biology is and was a big thing. I decided to go home, right away.
I know, in high school, I refused to get out of a certain course. I should have been forced but switched 2 other courses.
I couldn't get it to occur to me up north to Withdraw because I thought it would ruin my chances to have a W. I figured I'd get Medical Withdrawals and did. I just have a semester in Orlando where I could get Grade Forgiveness. It was just that I had to admit I wasn't good enough, after always technically getting the grades. I mean, what in the world does that mean? I thought just going along would not tell me there was a problem, and there was nothing I could do. I mean, I could have postponed the Withdrawals and lived in college, which I liked better but in ways didn't. I wasn't succeeding in any of my General Studies courses. They were more laborious than Honors. I couldn't keep up in non-Honors history. I wanted better education in high school and junior high, as well as in elementary school and preschool. I just figured it didn't make a difference. I had a nice dorm my 3rd semester. I guess the interesting thing to me was I thought it so happened I was at the top and the elevator broke.
I spent a lot of time walking around and buying food, so that was an issue. See, why am I not rich? That's been bored into my head. I could have been given more money for food, but why not? Now, I'm at home and still have a hard time. I can't get just anything I want. We are struggling to make ends meet, and the apartment had noise 24|7. I didn't even think to wear ear plugs and was lucky to have a loud fan. I didn't think to wear ear plugs that I remember much until I was 26. I felt so bad I just felt I should spend more time walking around and that college should fit. I was supposedly in an experiment and I was so mad it did not end. I think I grew tired. So, I was not encouraged to focus. So, it was hard, so I just took care of my body. Really. It wasn't my fault the school was so bad. I just hoped for the best, like my whole life thinking I'd finish my homework before midnight or 3 the next day, each day. If it ever happened, it was not many times, I think. This was since I was 12 or almost 12. I should have learned. I had such a hard time the 2nd semester of my 1st year but was glad to be out of some of the 1st year courses. It just feels my life was stolen from me, like I was bribed and made fun of for being bribed to. I feel people are hurting me for walking around campus for fun. I actually did it longer than I thought I could. I just needed it. I could not focus in my alotted study time nor in class.
I'll also add that it was really bad when I thought my life was an experiment, I was taken out of my major at a prestigious school and my grades were altered, and I was withdrawn from college. To be more specific, I went up to Washington, D.C., feeling like killed by the assistant dean at the school treating me racistly. Well, he wasn't white. They kept telling me to look up since I went to see people at 16. I was tired by the experiment and couldn't do the assignment. It was a 3 credit week long graduate course for working students. The teacher said I was doing very good, especially for my age, to my mom.
Then, I went up north during a hurricane. I could not succeed easily in any of the courses. I had problems with the 2 separate theory courses. I had been good at it, but I thought it was easy. The big problem was maybe theory, though the one teacher in private said I was really good. Anyway, the history teacher was nice, but I couldn't get myself to read and even if I was feeling good couldn't. When I went back to my other school, nothing in the religion was in the test. Also, in religion honors the year before, it was lecture and I took too many notes. That tells me I couldn't have succeeded in a lecture course I took in high school. I skimmed the chapter, and nothing was on the test, though I got a D. Of course, I was able to read some of this. I mean, I was a straight A student. I didn't get in Gifted right away but did in kindergarten, though I was called "retarded" then, my dad said. This was Northeastern Florida, a major city.
So, the 1st semester after the hurricane, there were workers outside of my dorm. I could not study! I was only in my dorm a few hours during the day. I took ballet at night and then came back..
The 2nd semester, I heard noises that made me want to kill myself. It never seemed to stop. I felt stuck in my dorm, kinda sick and dead.
We moved, and the 3rd semester was time to pick a new major. I did well in the lab courses but could not succeed with the Asian biology teacher. Chemistry was too complicated, too, you might say.. There is no Physics-Chemistry major. Chemistry is based more on Biology. There is even Physics in Biology. Biology is and was a big thing. I decided to go home, right away.
I know, in high school, I refused to get out of a certain course. I should have been forced but switched 2 other courses.
I couldn't get it to occur to me up north to Withdraw because I thought it would ruin my chances to have a W. I figured I'd get Medical Withdrawals and did. I just have a semester in Orlando where I could get Grade Forgiveness. It was just that I had to admit I wasn't good enough, after always technically getting the grades. I mean, what in the world does that mean? I thought just going along would not tell me there was a problem, and there was nothing I could do. I mean, I could have postponed the Withdrawals and lived in college, which I liked better but in ways didn't. I wasn't succeeding in any of my General Studies courses. They were more laborious than Honors. I couldn't keep up in non-Honors history. I wanted better education in high school and junior high, as well as in elementary school and preschool. I just figured it didn't make a difference. I had a nice dorm my 3rd semester. I guess the interesting thing to me was I thought it so happened I was at the top and the elevator broke.
I spent a lot of time walking around and buying food, so that was an issue. See, why am I not rich? That's been bored into my head. I could have been given more money for food, but why not? Now, I'm at home and still have a hard time. I can't get just anything I want. We are struggling to make ends meet, and the apartment had noise 24|7. I didn't even think to wear ear plugs and was lucky to have a loud fan. I didn't think to wear ear plugs that I remember much until I was 26. I felt so bad I just felt I should spend more time walking around and that college should fit. I was supposedly in an experiment and I was so mad it did not end. I think I grew tired. So, I was not encouraged to focus. So, it was hard, so I just took care of my body. Really. It wasn't my fault the school was so bad. I just hoped for the best, like my whole life thinking I'd finish my homework before midnight or 3 the next day, each day. If it ever happened, it was not many times, I think. This was since I was 12 or almost 12. I should have learned. I had such a hard time the 2nd semester of my 1st year but was glad to be out of some of the 1st year courses. It just feels my life was stolen from me, like I was bribed and made fun of for being bribed to. I feel people are hurting me for walking around campus for fun. I actually did it longer than I thought I could. I just needed it. I could not focus in my alotted study time nor in class.
Africans and Asians
Is it okay that Africans connect with you more than Asians? They claim they are inherently Asian...
Slight Aversion
You know how once in awhile it's okay to have something slightly adverse occur to you.
Poked At
Look, people won't stop kidding with me to be impressive. They keep overreacting to every little thing I do online and anything that passes my mind, somehow.
Something else basic you might want to know is people made me so mad with racism that I got so mad I didn't know what to do. I broke my laptop.
I'm mad. My dad keeps kidding with his messages. He was very threatening around me since the n word thing. I'm tired of Ellen DeGeneres also overreacting to little things but wouldn't care otherwise. Maybe, she's just like a disease or whatever you call those dangerous organisms. Virus. He's following the logic he thinks others really have and saying that if something bad happens it happens to others. When I ate at a restaurant, he made my stomach turn on in a bad way at a waitress. Later, after watching Ellen DeGeneres, it turned on and pumped a lot and I had an intense dream. Then, I felt like my stomach was filled with that. He was eyeing me like he "knew" how I felt, really in an evil way. Can you believe it? LISTEN TO ME! It's still like that. Also, I'm getting an influx of messages. Supposedly, my life is messed up, but I don't believe that. Since Tim Burton, I don't believe it. He thinks that at any moment someone will do something really suggestive to you and that if you're constantly in check this will have warded them off.
I don't care about Ellen DeGeneres following logic of others claiming she is great in the way she is. Oh no, I feel bad and just forgot what I was thinking. Well, why am I put up to watch her show, which I like, and then have to put up with experiencing her, as though "I 'don't deserve 'it.''" That's not "what" makes her "prestigious" and well-respected. The world is ruined since Johnny Depp. Especially Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
I'm being treated like I need help in ways I don't. I'm being fun of for being poor.
Something else basic you might want to know is people made me so mad with racism that I got so mad I didn't know what to do. I broke my laptop.
I'm mad. My dad keeps kidding with his messages. He was very threatening around me since the n word thing. I'm tired of Ellen DeGeneres also overreacting to little things but wouldn't care otherwise. Maybe, she's just like a disease or whatever you call those dangerous organisms. Virus. He's following the logic he thinks others really have and saying that if something bad happens it happens to others. When I ate at a restaurant, he made my stomach turn on in a bad way at a waitress. Later, after watching Ellen DeGeneres, it turned on and pumped a lot and I had an intense dream. Then, I felt like my stomach was filled with that. He was eyeing me like he "knew" how I felt, really in an evil way. Can you believe it? LISTEN TO ME! It's still like that. Also, I'm getting an influx of messages. Supposedly, my life is messed up, but I don't believe that. Since Tim Burton, I don't believe it. He thinks that at any moment someone will do something really suggestive to you and that if you're constantly in check this will have warded them off.
I don't care about Ellen DeGeneres following logic of others claiming she is great in the way she is. Oh no, I feel bad and just forgot what I was thinking. Well, why am I put up to watch her show, which I like, and then have to put up with experiencing her, as though "I 'don't deserve 'it.''" That's not "what" makes her "prestigious" and well-respected. The world is ruined since Johnny Depp. Especially Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
I'm being treated like I need help in ways I don't. I'm being fun of for being poor.
Dream
I dreamed I was in gymnastics class and I was hovering over a bar. Ellen DeGeneres was the teacher. Well, I was sorta sitting on it. It just gave me a nice fuzzy feeling like I wanted more.
Monitoring Your Attitude
So, I had an idea recently that you can't just be strict on others and not yourself.
So, I'm getting constant messages at the moment in retrospect to Ellen DeGeneres. She seems to sorta go by herself as a kid. I find it hard to connect because I found like only 2 cute pictures of me and 1 of them I can't find. I mean, I was never very ugly but never very cute. My features were more rounded. You could tell I wanted to look like blonde kids, with hair a little lighter than hers.
So, she acts so positive, but I don't think she really is, if these messages I'm getting are things she believes.
Well, it all started, I was sleeping and I got the message, like my mom closed the laundry door ... and it made me think my dad wanted to go to the gym after work. I feel I'm just being tested for "wanting" others to do things. I don't find my dad particularly sexy in many ways, though I can disclaim what you think this means. I feel instilled in me was hatred, like maybe I "just don't care about my dad really." I feel my life is being matched with his, and it's making me very mad. I'm the one who's being good and different, too. I put a message on Twitter for fun that if these people talked to my dad, they couldn't talk to me. I don't even remember which Twitter. I could definitely dig that up. I mean, Twitter is not necessarily something where I will change accounts in a timely manner. The other problem is he used to come home always at 6 or 6:30. I was really hungry.
I realized something else about Ellen DeGeneres. With the messages I'm getting, I realized she hurts you and acts like she didn't do it.
So, about my dad, I grew up kinda tired and malnutritioned but fed as a baby. It wasn't fun. I liked having a little Chic-Fil-A and Pina Colada. Why does everyone know about that? It feels like the whole world has known that for a long, long time. It was night, and we came home on a bus. However, I felt like I was just an ugly person with dull skin and hair. I wasn't much of a doer for some reason. I am so mad with how my mom equates me with my dad. I posted something online about her because I was feeling it, and it stopped the feeling. She's taking out anger on me, like people like my dad. Why did she do the laundry so late? I know I had mine there. I WILL NOT BE ASSOCIATED WITH MY DAD. He's been acting so gay since the n word thing. He's never got on with me when I tried, and people are "blaming" me, when you don't have to have such a relation with your dad. WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY MOM? She's always been protective of me to my dad. She was being mean to me because of the n word thing. I could just **** apart anyone who does this even a little bit. I felt stimulated in my crotch in a way I do not like. I don't know why people get stimulated in certain areas. I just feel that's what everyone's doing. I know that certain areas are more stimulated.
So, I'm getting constant messages at the moment in retrospect to Ellen DeGeneres. She seems to sorta go by herself as a kid. I find it hard to connect because I found like only 2 cute pictures of me and 1 of them I can't find. I mean, I was never very ugly but never very cute. My features were more rounded. You could tell I wanted to look like blonde kids, with hair a little lighter than hers.
So, she acts so positive, but I don't think she really is, if these messages I'm getting are things she believes.
Well, it all started, I was sleeping and I got the message, like my mom closed the laundry door ... and it made me think my dad wanted to go to the gym after work. I feel I'm just being tested for "wanting" others to do things. I don't find my dad particularly sexy in many ways, though I can disclaim what you think this means. I feel instilled in me was hatred, like maybe I "just don't care about my dad really." I feel my life is being matched with his, and it's making me very mad. I'm the one who's being good and different, too. I put a message on Twitter for fun that if these people talked to my dad, they couldn't talk to me. I don't even remember which Twitter. I could definitely dig that up. I mean, Twitter is not necessarily something where I will change accounts in a timely manner. The other problem is he used to come home always at 6 or 6:30. I was really hungry.
I realized something else about Ellen DeGeneres. With the messages I'm getting, I realized she hurts you and acts like she didn't do it.
So, about my dad, I grew up kinda tired and malnutritioned but fed as a baby. It wasn't fun. I liked having a little Chic-Fil-A and Pina Colada. Why does everyone know about that? It feels like the whole world has known that for a long, long time. It was night, and we came home on a bus. However, I felt like I was just an ugly person with dull skin and hair. I wasn't much of a doer for some reason. I am so mad with how my mom equates me with my dad. I posted something online about her because I was feeling it, and it stopped the feeling. She's taking out anger on me, like people like my dad. Why did she do the laundry so late? I know I had mine there. I WILL NOT BE ASSOCIATED WITH MY DAD. He's been acting so gay since the n word thing. He's never got on with me when I tried, and people are "blaming" me, when you don't have to have such a relation with your dad. WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY MOM? She's always been protective of me to my dad. She was being mean to me because of the n word thing. I could just **** apart anyone who does this even a little bit. I felt stimulated in my crotch in a way I do not like. I don't know why people get stimulated in certain areas. I just feel that's what everyone's doing. I know that certain areas are more stimulated.
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