Saturday, November 28, 2015
Problem
They are letting people I like seem
mean to me and rewarding them with inappropriate pleasure and taking from me. It just seems hard to cope with. It's all because of Ellen DeGeneres being upset because I used curse words about the hurtful noises in my room she supposedly got put there or that someone else/others did for her. Ellen DeGeneres is supposedly living the dream of making Europeans come here for Thanksgiving pretending and having a hick time bouncing around against the likes of me.
Problems
They won't stop.
It's on and off Ellen DeGeneres did this or that.
It seems like she's coming in and attacking and ruining my life.
They are acting like I lost my dignity as an adult and person. They just keep going crazy and complaining about the past. They bother me and it upsets me.
Someone I like people are acting like is prancing around Orlando being annoying. They are making fun of me and playing with what I meant. I can't seem to sustain any relationship for fun.
They keep making fun of me for not being perfect.
Problem
This is going too far. My life is lame and out of step because of the problems they are telling me that are from Ellen DeGeneres or because I'm interested in her show. She's not exactly a ball of fire these days. She has her moments. She shouldn't have been mean and let people know if they do something that makes her mad.
How pathetic, I realized most of this is because of me cursing about the hurtful noises in my room that supposedly Ellen DeGeneres is responsible for. Either that, or someone else did it for her. These people want me to experience bad things for this. Like I mentioned me possibly dying a worthless life like many. Whoever they are it was wrong to be so mean to me when I started watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show.
There are people who have been watching me in private and sending me secret messages via noises like little clicks and people I encounter/know. It's been over 10 years, and it has gotten me nowhere. People test me to make sure I don't think of something bad like a curse word and if they make me think of one everyone I see bothers me for a day, which is every day.
They pretend people I like a lot are sending me insulting messages and threats thru them. They toss out my death as being an unimportant thing that should happen. I don't have any friends nor anyone to really talk to, who doesn't react like I'm repulsive. I don't accept I'm too fat to live socially etc.
I just got up for a bite to eat and to check online and this is what reveals itself.
True, there are a lotta things I don't deserve that happen that make me happy. However, a lot of other bad things happen, like nothing will matter in the end.
What? I live right. Why are the people I know personally so mean to me? I didn't start it. My relationships have all been taken from me, like they can't stand it.
I do pray and hope that other people get to experience the good things I experienced, connections, sense of self-worth, etc.
They pretend people I like a lot are sending me insulting messages and threats thru them. They toss out my death as being an unimportant thing that should happen. I don't have any friends nor anyone to really talk to, who doesn't react like I'm repulsive. I don't accept I'm too fat to live socially etc.
I just got up for a bite to eat and to check online and this is what reveals itself.
True, there are a lotta things I don't deserve that happen that make me happy. However, a lot of other bad things happen, like nothing will matter in the end.
What? I live right. Why are the people I know personally so mean to me? I didn't start it. My relationships have all been taken from me, like they can't stand it.
I do pray and hope that other people get to experience the good things I experienced, connections, sense of self-worth, etc.
Problems
They are acting like I don't deserve to have any relationships.
I can see them freak out and squeem. The stress of home makes it hard for a good experience to seep in. What kind of a life is this? I can't find anyone who'll talk to me. Other people get talked to even if they are mean.
With or without them, I cannot relax. I feel my life was thrown away.
Orlando can be racist. I've not seen this anywhere else. They think it's okay because there are other good people and things. I just can't seem to get enough relaxation, you know time without being interrupted.
I can see them freak out and squeem. The stress of home makes it hard for a good experience to seep in. What kind of a life is this? I can't find anyone who'll talk to me. Other people get talked to even if they are mean.
With or without them, I cannot relax. I feel my life was thrown away.
Orlando can be racist. I've not seen this anywhere else. They think it's okay because there are other good people and things. I just can't seem to get enough relaxation, you know time without being interrupted.
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