Thursday, September 8, 2016
Schedule
I don't think I can catch Ellen next week. I am not caught up now and am tired. I was out jogging for almost 1 1/2 hours. I sleep a lot and need to learn to cook more. I barely like watching TV sometimes, but if I do it's often cooking shows. I might be able to watch her at a later date if things start looking up for me in fundamental ways. I hope I catch up with today and tomorrow.
What can I do?
At 1st, I was upset. No one said anything. I didn't lose it myself.
My dad is cool born in 1950. Why make up some old wives tale and say my dad is not young enough for me to be cool to even my own mom born in 1959?
I'm sorry if others have failed, but I had not.
My fallibilities may be because of things other than my dad's age becoming unnecessarily prominent. I'm not a bad person, like a monster. Just look around.
No wonder I was a limp baby. No one thought I was cool nor loved me in some certain end. I just didn't feel anything, like all these other people do to tear me apart before anything else. How would you like to be a baby? and with a dad born in 1950? He is cool, but I guess people like what's uncool.
Even if it is the time of my dad's birth did not mean I was to be abused. I can't even see a clear scale between me and my friends where I'm treated fairly considering my dad's age.
I don't want to be in trashy situations cuza my dad or his age or something. I think most families are trashy in their background, if I'm considered how I am.
What of Late Boomers thinking they need even more stimulation but others no? It's not all that drama about Early Boomers tearing me up while Late Boomers reap the fruit of labor.
My dad is cool born in 1950. Why make up some old wives tale and say my dad is not young enough for me to be cool to even my own mom born in 1959?
I'm sorry if others have failed, but I had not.
My fallibilities may be because of things other than my dad's age becoming unnecessarily prominent. I'm not a bad person, like a monster. Just look around.
No wonder I was a limp baby. No one thought I was cool nor loved me in some certain end. I just didn't feel anything, like all these other people do to tear me apart before anything else. How would you like to be a baby? and with a dad born in 1950? He is cool, but I guess people like what's uncool.
Even if it is the time of my dad's birth did not mean I was to be abused. I can't even see a clear scale between me and my friends where I'm treated fairly considering my dad's age.
I don't want to be in trashy situations cuza my dad or his age or something. I think most families are trashy in their background, if I'm considered how I am.
What of Late Boomers thinking they need even more stimulation but others no? It's not all that drama about Early Boomers tearing me up while Late Boomers reap the fruit of labor.
My Honest Feelings
I don't think I need to feel an old person is peeping thru the windowpane telling our family that me being good does not mean I deserve what I have and to instead work out unraveling my little brother.
I know I had a friend who I think her dad decided he needed to prevent from seeing me and trying to affect my family in bad ways, just for fun cuz she had nothing to do sometimes/too much.
More about the social scene, I think someone I know with a teenage mom at birth is the life of the party, following her peers's every move, and dictating the lives of people like me by making statements in secret message I have to adhere to, tho she is younger. Just so you know, I'm not actually jealous of her mom being born around 1970 and mine in 1959. So, if you have special needs and have issues need to take care of them! I guess I don't mesh cuz people think my mom is too young to have me and hate on me but not on someone with a teenage mom. They seem to take to my dad okay. He's born in July 1950 so pretty cool I guess, knowing people with parents born in the 1940s and 1950s.
I know I had a friend who I think her dad decided he needed to prevent from seeing me and trying to affect my family in bad ways, just for fun cuz she had nothing to do sometimes/too much.
More about the social scene, I think someone I know with a teenage mom at birth is the life of the party, following her peers's every move, and dictating the lives of people like me by making statements in secret message I have to adhere to, tho she is younger. Just so you know, I'm not actually jealous of her mom being born around 1970 and mine in 1959. So, if you have special needs and have issues need to take care of them! I guess I don't mesh cuz people think my mom is too young to have me and hate on me but not on someone with a teenage mom. They seem to take to my dad okay. He's born in July 1950 so pretty cool I guess, knowing people with parents born in the 1940s and 1950s.
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