Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Telling People What to Do
It seems my dad told people they had to be mean to me that I find online and like a lot who are famous. He even relays secret messages from them. Well, or what they regurgitated from him.
Let Them Be
If someone constantly comes up with a problem, may as well let them lay. Good advice, here? You don't expect me to write a boring essay, now, do you?
You think I don't notice any of this?
I thought this was a passing fancy. I don't wanna be the "scum of the Earth!"
Trashed
Do you feel trashed by most people? while others continue a happy, stable regiment? do you find yourself wondering literally what was I in this relationship for? while you're just stomped on like a piece of trash? Don't go and take it the wrong way! I didn't say any names. I almost did in a previous post.
Do you find your freedom of thought stifled? Your thought process "suffocated?" It's too bad it happens all too readily. It should not be happening.
People suggest I am so bad I should be in some sorta prison. That's a joke. Would you care if it was someone else?? I'm not someone who does bad things.
Do you find your freedom of thought stifled? Your thought process "suffocated?" It's too bad it happens all too readily. It should not be happening.
People suggest I am so bad I should be in some sorta prison. That's a joke. Would you care if it was someone else?? I'm not someone who does bad things.
Ha Ha
You know what's funny that I think? I'm actually really disgusted. I'm so mad I could blow down a house, but we'll skip that, ha ha.
Ha ha.
I'm sure you wanna be, too.
Ha ha.
I'm sure you wanna be, too.
So..
..What's going on? What are you contributions on ideas on how to stimulate someone, unless all you can think of is the inappropriate things?
Once and for All
Why should I trust you if you say opposing things about whether or not I can trust you and you care about me and don't lead me down the wrong path cuz I'm a good person?
Right and Wrong
So, do you find inappropriate to stimulate someone into submission from someone? Isn't that just the thing we all fear? I don't know if people are really doing this to make me feel bad.
"Unprofessional"
People are being real "unprofessional" these days. They could have made things work a long time ago.. but they didn't. Things like how to care for hair, even, were cheated out on us in this our life. In the most vulnerable time, as an infant, we judge a baby on what they think their hair color has to be. Then, you find it was not their favorite. Sneaky, huh? Anything's possible?
How to Be Popular and Live a Meaningful Life
Showing up won't get you what you want.. but it'll get you something short-lived. It is even possible you never get anything, at all.
The old idea of being extra generous is that you express concern for underdogs.
Sometimes, popularity can be questionable, "no doubt about it."
I don't really have the answers. I'm struggling with remorse about how old I am. I do wanna be a film actress, but I haven't gotten in. I was thinking of going back to college and getting a Bachelor's degree at my original college, from which I am on medical leave. I'm only worried about a few personal things, leaving my parents cuz we moved away from there and the difficulty of living in a dorm being lazy on meds, tho it was do-able when I was younger.
What'll happen is I might take 3 general studies college courses each in 2 separate semesters at a community college, which my psychiatrist said to do here. I'll have 4 left at my original college to take, which aren't even offered at the community college. I'll have my major and built in minor of choice, which will be Classical Singing and Ballet.
No one has the answers. Therefore, my idea is a better one than doing nothing, sad to leave my parents, tho. I feel like a giant parasite to them with no change of end in site. The sad fact is I'm getting older and it's hard to manage my energy level, especially in the onset of a psychotic diagnosis.
The old idea of being extra generous is that you express concern for underdogs.
Sometimes, popularity can be questionable, "no doubt about it."
I don't really have the answers. I'm struggling with remorse about how old I am. I do wanna be a film actress, but I haven't gotten in. I was thinking of going back to college and getting a Bachelor's degree at my original college, from which I am on medical leave. I'm only worried about a few personal things, leaving my parents cuz we moved away from there and the difficulty of living in a dorm being lazy on meds, tho it was do-able when I was younger.
What'll happen is I might take 3 general studies college courses each in 2 separate semesters at a community college, which my psychiatrist said to do here. I'll have 4 left at my original college to take, which aren't even offered at the community college. I'll have my major and built in minor of choice, which will be Classical Singing and Ballet.
No one has the answers. Therefore, my idea is a better one than doing nothing, sad to leave my parents, tho. I feel like a giant parasite to them with no change of end in site. The sad fact is I'm getting older and it's hard to manage my energy level, especially in the onset of a psychotic diagnosis.
Even Less Attention as an Adult
People can't judge me because they never acted like they even noticed me.
Public Support
People say they do social services to others, but what really happens is the public has to support them.
Standing Out and Being Extroverted
Most people who are Extroverted Perfectionists, who seem to make people *feel good*, seem to get treated with an overwhelming amount of attention, like if famous especially, but I don't feel that because of my race. I feel people mistreating me "just in case" someone else did it 1st, which could hurt more.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005)
People really turned on me when that came out. I could see it in the public. I was becoming less accepted and perhaps for no real reason. Even in Louisiana, they changed. I'm in Orlando, and even my family is crazy and I live with them by some necessity. I could see a bitterness and signals of complaints, and these people supposedly didn't have to deal with anything like I did, tho I was nice.
Stereotypes
It seems that people want to be helpful for the power and support they feel.
I want to resist the people I confront/meet who boss me around. I live not to be bossed around! not to be silenced! not to be framed and manipulated like that's just life!
I didn't say I was a god. Then, who the *beep* am I looking up to?
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