Monday, December 29, 2014
How would you like
to be bothered all the time and have people be stupid about you who experiment on you and won't stop and let you live life?
How I Feel
Suicidal but wouldn't actually think of doing it.
Singing, it's not as exciting. These pills I don't need don't help, side effects.
Also, everyone is always insulting me. I have nothing to live for. People won't leave me alone. It's sorta fun taking walks but can get tiring when 2 hours every day.
Singing, it's not as exciting. These pills I don't need don't help, side effects.
Also, everyone is always insulting me. I have nothing to live for. People won't leave me alone. It's sorta fun taking walks but can get tiring when 2 hours every day.
IMDb - The Soapbox
Middle Eastern / White/Latino / Islanders / Asians / Blacks
Which would you prefer? I think Asians and African Americans are in the same boat. It would be embarrassing and hopeless to be either if you prefer another race. What do you think of Islanders? They are a mixture of Black and Asian, I think, like indians.
IMDb - Politics
What, I don't got no other plans and love college and wanna go after I get famous, too.
College
I would go even if I were a famous Broadway singer as a kid. It's so important to stay in college until you graduate, I feel. I'm not sure if I will go back soon but kinda wanna. I was in voice and am taking from a producer who will help me make a CD.. I already know I can go to a community college without auditioning. You take:
(1) private lessons - 2 credits
(2) music theory - 3 or 4 credits (easy for pianists)
(3) ensemble - 1 credit (choir or for others band..)
(4) piano - 1 credit (group class, even tho I can play they said here..)
______
Total: 8 credits - part time student
I'd have to bus there and back every day for music for a year. I have like 2 semesters left of general studies and qualify for honors here.
All I have left to do is go to iwantmytranscript.com and send it to the school or call and see if they got it I guess.
So, I can finish music in 2 semesters and my general studies in the next 2 or 3. I can graduate spring 2017. I'd be 31 with an AA. I'd do well to transfer to a 4-year-institute, immediately!
(1) private lessons - 2 credits
(2) music theory - 3 or 4 credits (easy for pianists)
(3) ensemble - 1 credit (choir or for others band..)
(4) piano - 1 credit (group class, even tho I can play they said here..)
______
Total: 8 credits - part time student
I'd have to bus there and back every day for music for a year. I have like 2 semesters left of general studies and qualify for honors here.
All I have left to do is go to iwantmytranscript.com and send it to the school or call and see if they got it I guess.
So, I can finish music in 2 semesters and my general studies in the next 2 or 3. I can graduate spring 2017. I'd be 31 with an AA. I'd do well to transfer to a 4-year-institute, immediately!
People bothering me..
just to ruin my blog..
On Facebook, the smilies are partly cut off while I'm posting. What if the experimenters on me did it just for the day?
On Facebook, the smilies are partly cut off while I'm posting. What if the experimenters on me did it just for the day?
Facts
I see I am being picked on. Why can't some people leave people alone in ways they are "happy?"
I didn't get to be with other people until I was in trouble with someone for no reason. I feel like the outcast.
Someone is being vicious to me. All they are/bring is bad news. What they say isn't even reality.
The person should be treated like a person but not like it's (1) them and underneath (2) everyone else in the world. It just doesn't work that way. You don't just make it up and say 1 person is this to everyone and they all have to think that way about themselves. I don't wanna be stuck as only some people being victimized by this thinking. Lots of people go about life and this doesn't happen. I'm not saying a problem I have but a general principle. It seems this is all they wanna talk about. It just irritates me. I'm not really listening. I'm just sure it might mean something else, and I don't know why. It doesn't make sense. I am not gonna be suggested I am not perfect if I don't "put myself down." I grew up being beat up that I put myself down. Now, they want me to do it again, but nope. Not for them, neither. How weird is that, they want me to put myself down! What was it. Yes, this person thinks I should just put myself down. I see a missing thought. I don't think so. Just say one person does this and others are happy. What else do you think from this? No hard feelings, but that's what I got from this. I'm not in trouble. Everyone wants to think that for pleasure cuz I was always so good.
I didn't get to be with other people until I was in trouble with someone for no reason. I feel like the outcast.
Someone is being vicious to me. All they are/bring is bad news. What they say isn't even reality.
The person should be treated like a person but not like it's (1) them and underneath (2) everyone else in the world. It just doesn't work that way. You don't just make it up and say 1 person is this to everyone and they all have to think that way about themselves. I don't wanna be stuck as only some people being victimized by this thinking. Lots of people go about life and this doesn't happen. I'm not saying a problem I have but a general principle. It seems this is all they wanna talk about. It just irritates me. I'm not really listening. I'm just sure it might mean something else, and I don't know why. It doesn't make sense. I am not gonna be suggested I am not perfect if I don't "put myself down." I grew up being beat up that I put myself down. Now, they want me to do it again, but nope. Not for them, neither. How weird is that, they want me to put myself down! What was it. Yes, this person thinks I should just put myself down. I see a missing thought. I don't think so. Just say one person does this and others are happy. What else do you think from this? No hard feelings, but that's what I got from this. I'm not in trouble. Everyone wants to think that for pleasure cuz I was always so good.
Degree/Career
When I came home from music, I was fascinated with the idea of doing micro and molecular biology. Now, I like biotech, like playing with life. I still wanna be a singer, and after that I was into things like crime prevention or the military/government..
It probably
doesn't matter, but I know they are being evil. They just prolonged this screen like I give a f***.
I'm tired of you
being so evil all the time, tho. If you are bad, nothing will go your way. You think so.
How else do I say this?
I don't care about these people. They're so annoying. Get a life.
My blog. I didn't name anyone. I might not mean what you think I mean..
How else do I say this?
I don't care about these people. They're so annoying. Get a life.
My blog. I didn't name anyone. I might not mean what you think I mean..
Thought Out
Yes, sorry I said how dare you. I mean, it was right but wrong.
I went by something not getting mad the 2nd time I thought of it around after awhile.
I need to ignore this stuff and not comment on some of it..
I'll explain the topic under "how dare you." I thought that's what it was. You know, I shouldn't be in trouble. Why do I have to bear the burden of others's feelings and not say anything? I don't think quite what was thought should be so. I mean, things could always happen that are more physical. If I got tired of someone, tho, I thought why would someone else get tired of them, too?
So, sorry, not sure what else I can do about the fact it is known I said that..
I went by something not getting mad the 2nd time I thought of it around after awhile.
I need to ignore this stuff and not comment on some of it..
I'll explain the topic under "how dare you." I thought that's what it was. You know, I shouldn't be in trouble. Why do I have to bear the burden of others's feelings and not say anything? I don't think quite what was thought should be so. I mean, things could always happen that are more physical. If I got tired of someone, tho, I thought why would someone else get tired of them, too?
So, sorry, not sure what else I can do about the fact it is known I said that..
Why should I
listen to someone who doesn't know what they're doing? and who has problems and takes them out on others..
You cannot punish me.
If you are upset, you have to tell me 1st. It is my blog, and I can have fun with it. Grow up.
Are you allowed
to get mad at your kids if they are good students who get tired and do poorly with a heavy college schedule and not give them a break while they are in it?
How dare you
tell someone who to pay attention to.
Don't worry about what you think it is, cuz I'm speaking in general. You should agree with me This should not sound like an attack. I'm just saying. See? It should not be an attack to you because it should not be wrong. What I say should be right. It should be right to you. So, then it's not attacking you. I'm not cursing you out, neither, like others seem to do to me 1st. I'm just saying how dare you. Hm, sounds mean. It should sound a little funny.
I just wanted to say I boiled it all down and found that they did that. How pathetic and unprofessional. Ha ha ha. Oh, I forget, it's up to the person. You should not have anything to do with it, I'd think.
I can't have the whole world just attack me and tell people to ignore me. I don't give a f*** what Tampa says. The person on TV is constantly irritating me, the news/weather. You all are just stupid, listening to Tampa.
Don't worry about what you think it is, cuz I'm speaking in general. You should agree with me This should not sound like an attack. I'm just saying. See? It should not be an attack to you because it should not be wrong. What I say should be right. It should be right to you. So, then it's not attacking you. I'm not cursing you out, neither, like others seem to do to me 1st. I'm just saying how dare you. Hm, sounds mean. It should sound a little funny.
I just wanted to say I boiled it all down and found that they did that. How pathetic and unprofessional. Ha ha ha. Oh, I forget, it's up to the person. You should not have anything to do with it, I'd think.
I can't have the whole world just attack me and tell people to ignore me. I don't give a f*** what Tampa says. The person on TV is constantly irritating me, the news/weather. You all are just stupid, listening to Tampa.
I went to Tampa for AGT auditions. Someone made a weird noise and I think it damaged my hearing, permanently. I was wondering, like everyone else, why now you look different in a certain way. We hope you're doing fine!
What happened this time there was I was doing something with my backpack while someone was speaking. I was at a store, and I went through my bag while waiting for the cashier and he remained upset with me.
When I ate out at Cracker Barrel in Tampa and upon leaving I found myself judged against my dad and for no reason they liked my dad's presentation better because I'm 1/2 Dutch Chinese-Indonesian. They felt sorry for both of us, my dad against me and me against Orlando.
I met some people from places familiar to me in line, and we had a jolly time when we did.
You know, Chris, I'm watching the news, and I have a fondness for the successful of Orlando. I love the black people on the bus, but I just don't know I'd miss something like that in the same way.
I came early to Disney Animal Kingdom and won a stuffed dinosaur. It's very stressful, but I've never personally played with a slot machine and don't really know what all gambling is.. Casinos indeed are the hub of every culture. Underage people go to shows and probably have eaten out there. Best of luck in the land of the luck. I used to have this friend whose mom sang in the choir in Northeastern Florida. We'd come back home to the old city we lived in and we'd eat out at Village In and I'd be dropped off at midnight. This friend was darling.
Thanks, Chris, let me know if you don't like what I posted and I will take it down and not post like that, anymore.
What happened this time there was I was doing something with my backpack while someone was speaking. I was at a store, and I went through my bag while waiting for the cashier and he remained upset with me.
When I ate out at Cracker Barrel in Tampa and upon leaving I found myself judged against my dad and for no reason they liked my dad's presentation better because I'm 1/2 Dutch Chinese-Indonesian. They felt sorry for both of us, my dad against me and me against Orlando.
I met some people from places familiar to me in line, and we had a jolly time when we did.
You know, Chris, I'm watching the news, and I have a fondness for the successful of Orlando. I love the black people on the bus, but I just don't know I'd miss something like that in the same way.
I came early to Disney Animal Kingdom and won a stuffed dinosaur. It's very stressful, but I've never personally played with a slot machine and don't really know what all gambling is.. Casinos indeed are the hub of every culture. Underage people go to shows and probably have eaten out there. Best of luck in the land of the luck. I used to have this friend whose mom sang in the choir in Northeastern Florida. We'd come back home to the old city we lived in and we'd eat out at Village In and I'd be dropped off at midnight. This friend was darling.
Unfortunate Proof
A police was going at a hi speed and killed a 10-year-old crossing the street, to a sleepover. Does he have to serve life sentence? No, I hope not.
You know, I've been thinking, and it didn't take me long to think .. if I/someone had a daughter, she'd be the show about town if allowed anywhere near a casino, and it's how it should be- I actually love casino areas as I used to see shows there, like the Starlight Express which I found about by ALW.
Like I've told 2 other wonderful parents, I'd love to help them babysit their babies/young child. I will be so supportive of your family life, not to be too personal. I've been told I don't say much. LOL, if anyone thinks it's interesting, when I talk I found literally around 1997 when computers came out, a wonderful time, when I do things, the 1st 1/2 is fine and full but after that it's just plain and short and "unintelligent." 1/2 my life seems to be exciting beyond belief, tho, and the other 1/2 is sitting down in introversion not doing much but taking a smoke.
I hope all I said is okay. Let me know, even here, if it isn't, Chris!
Like I've told 2 other wonderful parents, I'd love to help them babysit their babies/young child. I will be so supportive of your family life, not to be too personal. I've been told I don't say much. LOL, if anyone thinks it's interesting, when I talk I found literally around 1997 when computers came out, a wonderful time, when I do things, the 1st 1/2 is fine and full but after that it's just plain and short and "unintelligent." 1/2 my life seems to be exciting beyond belief, tho, and the other 1/2 is sitting down in introversion not doing much but taking a smoke.
I hope all I said is okay. Let me know, even here, if it isn't, Chris!
Glitch/Hack?
My last thing I posted skipped a line at the dash of the word e-mail. This is all rather suggestive. Just need to report it cuz something could come of it. I just feel it. Or it seems like it.
Foolishness
They keep acting like I did something, but you put the noises in my room. I can curse it's my blog. I don't like to curse, so I stopped. You still bother me. None of this used to happen. I didn't get my chance at life. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory 2005 doesn't mean we're no good just cuz we weren't there.
I figured something.
Those who get on top with people want to stay on top of people. And hopefully people are all on top, in reality. I guess not everyone to anyone.. :)
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