Thursday, June 18, 2015

Age

MySpace and Facebook.  It's still there, but I changed accounts.  People act like it's a 1 shot deal.  Nothing happens now.  Like, it's not really an appropriate service, tho quite complex and neat.

Also, why am I dumped over to semi-old ladies because I am more studious.  I feel ambushed by Tim Burton about my wanting to do a makeover.  I did since before I knew about him.

New Audio of Me Singing

Picking Where to Live

Fort Lauderdale is a family city so I was thinking Miami.  It seems bigger.  I've been to Lauderdale by the Sea.  Miami must be busy with tourism.  I wanna go to different places.  I am a bit homesick for Fort Lauderdale.  I also wanna re-visit Key West and New Orleans.  This is my scoop of the South.  I can't believe I've been in L.A.

D & D

Do you get depressed to the point you're physically dysfunctional?

Urgent

Life is not "all about others's mistakes."

Bad Talking Me

I see you all lied about me and made everyone hate me and I can't seem to fight it.

Being a Threat

Why is all my glory stripped of me?  Who ****ing cares if I used store cards, spent my "allowance" when I needed it or getting things for my family, hanging up pictures in certain areas in the house.. what else?  You just look really ****ing bad.

Shake It Up

Bella Thorne is the most fun and attractive, but the European blonde with the older brother is completely nice playing a bad guy.  Bella Thorne seems like a threat.

"Trash Talking"

Am I being trash talked by everyone/lotta people/people I know or am I JUST being trash talked overall?

IMDb - The Soapbox - Previous Post

Who You Really Are And Wanna Be

Hair: Strawberry Blonde (Light Red/Reddish Blonde) + White
Name: Ainsley
Eyes: Greenish Blue/Aqua
Skin: White + Pink
Height: 5'6"
Race: Finnish/Norwegian/Swedish 

IMDb - The Soapbox

Any Contributions About My Messed Up Life?

So what if I cursed about Ellen acting like she put hurtful noises in my room? You all curse people out. I stopped, figuring it's just not for me. Ellen doesn't seem like the type to be in such a situation.

Ugh!!

You all think every little move is superstition.

You should not push..

..for negative thinking.

Do I Need Emotional or Social Braces/A Muzzle?

I'll just know it's a silly rule that's not because of me.

This does not feel good.  It feels very bad.  Time is of the essence.

My situation is unique.  There are people insulting me in my room all the time.  They are along the lines of suicidal, meaningless noises, which I've heard before.  So what if I was mad about what mattered?  What does that "prove?"  The noises disrupt my thinking, like my psychotic meds!!

I refuse to be added to the collection of people who should not have turned on the TV to see Ellen.  That's why I don't watch TV, as of long before, other than old things.  You have no right to set me up to get into trouble.

What about people lying to me, like I have eternal/lifelong punishment waiting, but I only find out about this later?  Of course, I don't deserve that.  I wasn't trying to start something.

You all just wanted me to look bad and get into trouble.  You set me up.  I had no help.  You just stole the peace of my privacy, but I always feel that way when I'm finally alone still.

Maybe, this is the answer, but I know it is not my "fault" I did anything wrong.  It seems I have to let people push me around and when I say something I get a negative reaction and like nothing matters all of a sudden.

What You Do

Me doing something you think is bad does not make you good.

I could have used that.

South Carolinians understand people who have lived in the Deep South..

Racism in News

Live

America at least say nonwhites "have" something.  In London, etc., they bow down only to the whites but aren't as involved.

Also, she's from South Carolina and says she's the South, a "minority" woman.  Yet, in Florida, if our families more recently moved here supposedly welcome by courtesy are not as good as the "true" South, not from up North, not from Down South, not from the Middle.

Any Good News?

Why can't people stop basing everything on others being bad?  Just ignore it and talk about something generally good.

Facebook

Suden Aika - Finnish Choir

So

Some of you don't do really bad things.  Neither do I.  What's so hard to understand and stop thinking you can mess up my life?

What about races who feel safe?  I feel unsafe for being both good and bad.  Jealousy and being told down.  I never did anything to deserve this.  I'm just suffering for the mistakes or carelessness of others.  Just accept other races come from somewhere else and have different problems.  They don't seem to be the ones bothering you!

Something Funny

It's not safe to think in some crowd you're the only authentic Floridian.  I can't see why.  We are all unique and uniquely "from" unique "places."

I don't want you to shake me up.

I don't like the fake people from California who think it's all about practicing taking out anger on other people.

I just saw something on TV from the early 2000s I think where someone understood some idea and then said it was a joke right after.  Like just to practice.  That means nothing!

And I don't need to be insulted cuz I don't-

The most pathetic thing happened after.  Lizzie McGuire was complaining about her friends messing up the floor and table as a waitress and then complained to innocent people and was tackily "gladly" fired.

I'm watching a commercial, and the kids are all just waiting for their parents to shake them up.  They are being molded into human beings who don't deserve to be the only ones to do what they enjoy.

Spoof

Who in this here earth is telling me acting is a fine art you start going to school for when you're 1 year old?

Food

I just cooked 2 things tonight!  Pasta and lemon cake.

Garbage on TV

There's something for you to complain about.

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