to confess all the m********ing I've done. It was never that much, but it would be considered an inappropriate thing to have happen to oneself.
When I didn't live in Florida, I used to be able to just think it and experience a waterfall/splurge of physical feelings.
I like to do it cuz it's fun, but I never "really do it."
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
Ellen
The 1st lady who came on was really sweet. She was an obese African American woman. She was self-conscious and funny.
Usher was so smart and with it in his decisions of what statement to make in what he did on Ellen.
The 2 twin singers with curly partly white blonde hair from Canada with guitars were so cool! Their voices were so excited, and they've got their work cut out for them.
Ellen seemed rather with it and together, maybe frustrated maybe not! I did get a bit uncomfortable, but Ellen is Ellen and she choses what she does. It's too bad people ruin it for others in things. Some people want nothing but what's best, but people will come in and start preaching about torturing work and such.
Usher was so smart and with it in his decisions of what statement to make in what he did on Ellen.
The 2 twin singers with curly partly white blonde hair from Canada with guitars were so cool! Their voices were so excited, and they've got their work cut out for them.
Ellen seemed rather with it and together, maybe frustrated maybe not! I did get a bit uncomfortable, but Ellen is Ellen and she choses what she does. It's too bad people ruin it for others in things. Some people want nothing but what's best, but people will come in and start preaching about torturing work and such.
Gramma
I see she's behind a lot of the plot of the drama in my life. How wretched. All this punishment back and forth. Saying everyone's life is on edge and then not knowing what she just said/did.
I did make a post before, but my internet stopped. I saved it and forgot about it and deleted it.
I like my Gramma, but I don't like what she did. I didn't agree with her, and she almost killed my mom with cancer by bothering her.
I did make a post before, but my internet stopped. I saved it and forgot about it and deleted it.
I like my Gramma, but I don't like what she did. I didn't agree with her, and she almost killed my mom with cancer by bothering her.
Dr. Phil - Twitter
"Today’s Show: Is there ever a reason to defend someone who is physically violent toward you? #DrPhil #DefendingAbuse"
Yes. It's against the law to hurt them.
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Someone could track you down, at least that's how it is with me. I guess you just gotta do something. If someone isn't locked up..
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(call in abusive relationship)
What if it's just their attitude?
Yes. It's against the law to hurt them.
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Someone could track you down, at least that's how it is with me. I guess you just gotta do something. If someone isn't locked up..
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(call in abusive relationship)
What if it's just their attitude?
Dr. Phil - Facebook
@Tiffany Helean - Yes, people go on here for a moment of fame rather than stari their own sho'.
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Yea, she was just in bunches of trouble. A nice girl tho. Glad to see her on the sho'.
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Just think of all the people who freak out when they leave on the stove. I was taking a walk far away once when I did that.
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I do keep an online journal of my problems so people can sort out the emotional abuse I suffer. Some people just flip me off about that. You never know who it will reach and people you know online to tap you in the right direction.
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Everyone feels partially abused. My mom is sick recovering from cancer and cannot hold her own, "at this time." I wish the hurricane didn't affect where we were to live when my family was gonna make a split, but instead it was "a smash." I feel beat up. The way they do it is subtle. I need to practice more caring for myself at home. The only way I get off unnecessary meds is to leave home, but I'll never be ready stuck on the meds. I am starting to be awake in the morning for more time alone, so that might work. My parents even said stay tho sometimes they wanna throw me to the streets just for asking why they are mean politely like. They want me to learn to care for myself 1st, but on meds anyway I will lose a lot of energy. They can't say they wanna throw me out while they didn't let me leave when I asked. I'm 28, too. I almost got a job in Miami.
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People here misinterpret my history. I did one thing slightly disobedient and it's enough to diagnose you with schizphrenia..
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It's very hard to break a habit totally that you love that isn't simply wrong, like drugs.
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Yea, she was just in bunches of trouble. A nice girl tho. Glad to see her on the sho'.
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Just think of all the people who freak out when they leave on the stove. I was taking a walk far away once when I did that.
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I do keep an online journal of my problems so people can sort out the emotional abuse I suffer. Some people just flip me off about that. You never know who it will reach and people you know online to tap you in the right direction.
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Everyone feels partially abused. My mom is sick recovering from cancer and cannot hold her own, "at this time." I wish the hurricane didn't affect where we were to live when my family was gonna make a split, but instead it was "a smash." I feel beat up. The way they do it is subtle. I need to practice more caring for myself at home. The only way I get off unnecessary meds is to leave home, but I'll never be ready stuck on the meds. I am starting to be awake in the morning for more time alone, so that might work. My parents even said stay tho sometimes they wanna throw me to the streets just for asking why they are mean politely like. They want me to learn to care for myself 1st, but on meds anyway I will lose a lot of energy. They can't say they wanna throw me out while they didn't let me leave when I asked. I'm 28, too. I almost got a job in Miami.
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People here misinterpret my history. I did one thing slightly disobedient and it's enough to diagnose you with schizphrenia..
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It's very hard to break a habit totally that you love that isn't simply wrong, like drugs.
Dr. Phil
The 1st girl was very attractive. So, what was it she was there for? Oh yes, going to jail for a year for the police insisting she lit the house on fire. Her mom seems to trust her, so it seems unlikely.
The 2nd girl came for getting a video over 5 million views saying to accept a boy punishing you who like beats you up. She said a lot of things about it I quite didn't get. Robin said she was wrong, that her relationship was indeed wrong and abusive. The girl walked off when Phil said she wa merely an attention-getter, whatever that means. Maybe, that's why she said what she said, but I didn't find them saying that.
The 2nd girl came for getting a video over 5 million views saying to accept a boy punishing you who like beats you up. She said a lot of things about it I quite didn't get. Robin said she was wrong, that her relationship was indeed wrong and abusive. The girl walked off when Phil said she wa merely an attention-getter, whatever that means. Maybe, that's why she said what she said, but I didn't find them saying that.
Why Music Ed DMA
Singing - I will do it in that major, anyway. I don't wanna be an opera singer. What else is there to do? My old college even says, "Everyone sings." The singing major is a certain more outgoing personality of like loud, sloppy people..
Dance - I wanna just focus on ballet, but I don't have the money for private lessons. It's a nightmare. I can't keep up in class cuz I can't remember the steps cuz I did gymnastics.
Performance in general.. I want to be famous for performing, my singing and if I can get private ballet from money like acting or selling something. I want college on the side. Lotta dancers go into graphic design, others get cancer and die. (?) I did ballet to age 21. I "have it." I love to dance. I just can't afford it. I don't wanna do dance and nothing else, maybe. I also really wanna sing.
I'll get the DME by turning 37.
Dance - I wanna just focus on ballet, but I don't have the money for private lessons. It's a nightmare. I can't keep up in class cuz I can't remember the steps cuz I did gymnastics.
Performance in general.. I want to be famous for performing, my singing and if I can get private ballet from money like acting or selling something. I want college on the side. Lotta dancers go into graphic design, others get cancer and die. (?) I did ballet to age 21. I "have it." I love to dance. I just can't afford it. I don't wanna do dance and nothing else, maybe. I also really wanna sing.
I'll get the DME by turning 37.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
50 Shades? I am a big fan of fantasy, but I am no longer the age of a college student, which is why I don't know anything else about it.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
But Dr. Phil they'll just take me instead I'm over 18 and kicked outta the house!
Well, I've lost it.
I was supposed to be more careful in referencing people secretly. What did I think? I think people are scardy cats. They don't have to pay attention to me.
Schedule
I wonder if it's good I think I'll try to go to bed early and wake up early rather than the other way around. I don't have time alone in the house. I need to cook, do laundry, do the dishes. :) I'm a homebody now. I wonder how community college will go. In the summer, I think the TV shows take off.
Upsset
I wonder why I was denied to be on the Dr. Phil show. I made it to 2 submissions. I did ask if my topic was appropriate for the show when they asked for questions, and I submitted right away but was not accepted. I made a new submission I will keep resubmitting. I wonder if I should make a summary available sometime. 1 lady wrote 12 times to get on the show. See, it' about if someone beats you, not that your case was not good. So, you can keep resubmitting.
More to Talk About
Sometimes, I feel so violated that the bumps on the side of my arm prickle. On the side my dad is driving.
Trying Hard
not to be rude? I don't feel grudges ATM (at the moment.) When someone does something wrong, sometimes it matters. What I said wasn't addressed to anyone and may not make anyone feel better. It was all safe within the insult from the opposing parties.
Threats
See, I am not even reporting to the police and already 2 people on board "don't have it together."
Well, I figured it out. That person/those 2 people are the only ones with the big problem. It's the rest of the world okay. No one get close to them, tho.. too bad they are involved in me.
Well, I figured it out. That person/those 2 people are the only ones with the big problem. It's the rest of the world okay. No one get close to them, tho.. too bad they are involved in me.
Dr. Phil - Facebook - Response to Fan
Well, if there were no rules, the people in life worse off wouldn't care about mean people.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
She is playing a flimsy game. She says someone else can do things she actually did. She gets a response, that it's okay, but then she does things much worse.
More
Another big thing was the internet. I kept e-mailing friends and family tho they stopped e-mailing me and now I lost all my relationships. It was tips and things and saying I was finishing the last thought and apologizing for the spam. I finally got on other sites more and eventually the IMDb message boards and blogging. I got really mad at someone who likes me and now he doesn't talk to me but seems to wanna. Lotta people said I wasn't white racially, and I'd hit my wall if something happened, like a trigger response. I just kept punching holes in the walls thinking it would get them back. That's insane. That does nothing. I feel bad cuz my dad had to plaster it up while I was at the mental hospital. This went on a long time, maybe about a year. Lotta people when I was online wold act like I spammed in being detailed and kick me out of Johnny Depp message boards. I was even banned from IMDb a few times for no reason. This went on a long time. I was called an idiot. My name was Miss-Fastidious, and they said I was Fastidiot. I was trapped in my room, kicked outta school on a break to catch up on much needed rest, and this is my only outlet, not even seeing my family, and I experienced constant hatred like this online for years. Now, I just can't get anyone to comment on my blog in my forum. It seems like the years wasted away from when I got on at 21, all mesmerized by Tim Burton and Johnny Depp thinking I'd be discovered or find my way starring in a movie. I even lost my singing voice, how good it was. I thought that'd help with the acting. Now, I'm 28. I was kicked outta my college majors when I was 19 and left at 20. The medicine used to put me to sleep more. Since I started getting out more, I can stay awake longer and have a better attention span. Things might have turned out okay if I didn't curse on my blog, about the noises and when my dad made me mad. Lotta times I'd bleep out the bad words, but you'd know they were there. I'm sure I've slipped, at least with my dad, and said something.. but I don't think it was ever at him directly and openly. I skirted around those situations. I was mad, in general. I bet more people made me mad, as I have said. I feel the magic of what was promised to me is gone, too. This happened way, long before the cursing for like a year or a year and a half. I was cursing about the noises in my room that sent secret messages somehow in how they sounded that bothered me and hurt me and still do, tho I stopped cursing about it. I made it a point not to curse anyone out specifically.
Letter to Dr. Phil show
(I will keep resubmitting the same thing to see if I get tallied a spot, again, to some level in the game. I will probably edit.)
Hello, Dr. Phil show, my name is Christina Barrett, and I am a 28-year-old female who lives with my parents. I am Irish, Dutch, French, German, and 1/2 Dutch Chinese-Indonesian. I'm straight and single. My height is 5'3", and I have black hair and dark brown eyes. I look mostly Caucasian, but a lotta people seem to sense I am Asian.
So, I am from an interracial marriage. I felt even very young my life was just a contest where I couldn't feel anything but had to get things down so I could function emotionally and socially in my future. My parents just made sure I always had a good attitude and were suggestive to me in the silence if they sensed I did not like the things they did to me, treating me with a cold shoulder like I wasn't as good as my dad racially cuz I was darker supposedly and that I wasn't as attractive as my young-looking mother. This made it so I was rather dysfunctional. I always sensed those around me "knew the whole rap about me" from birth, like I have 2 parents with perfect manners. I feel them rolling their eyes at me that that didn't matter but that I would never be as social as most people, on top of the racial and differences issues. I suppose a lotta more obese women make me feel good about myself for being a more substantial person. However, there are so many ultra-skinny, spoiled brats of youth today. They get skinny, but they don't seem more holistic. I wake up each morning feeling I don't matter because of them, with their younger sexy mothers and youthful dads. People, I feel, do snap at me inconveniently for wanting to be thought of in the world as part of the youth socially. I feel no one wants me cuz I was told to leave college and get rest at home, but it's been 10 years and I think I'm going back to my old major now.
It seems that no matter what I do, my dad will try to secretly manipulate my life to hurt me cuz it came out when my dad came home just for fun, I said, "O, no," but he didn't say, "Don't say that, Christina." So, I kept doing it, probably assuming he knew it was a joke that I was just sad my homework was still not done after working - all - after - noon. I did stop when my mom told me. Eventually, 6th grade, I could no longer focus on studies and kept slowing down but did not want to think of why. I was tall off the charts but stayed short the rest of my life therein. I blame this sin for this. Perhaps, it's not in my dad to bring it up nor forgive me. I feel it's killing my life. I wonder about a lot of things, like why my dad's bank was gonna close, or, rather, merge, and we had to leave Florida. We'd been moving back and forth between the key areas of Florida.
In school, people would pick on me, probably for my race.
Another big thing on my conscious was when I was a younger kid, like 8, my cousins from Indonesia wrote to us. I forgot to write back, like I could not think of it around my mom. They had such nice stationary, and I didn't.
In my junior year of high school, I was called to the counselor, like I didn't look as good. I had a teacher for American History Advanced Placement/Gifted who said not to take the course simply if we didn't wanna take the AP test. I had a D in the 1st test, and I would lose my 4.0. I fell behind because of going to the counselor during class. I was in Physics, Advanced Math, and English IV. That New Year's Eve, I was taken to the mental hospital. I said not to make me take medicine, and they lied. I was told I had nothing wrong. They just called it schizophrenia. I threw some things mad in the house more recently and got sent to the mental hospital again, 2010. They said since it said I had schizophrenia before that I had it, along with bipolar and Autism - Aspergers. I was set on pills again. I got off. I went to college with a theater teacher I liked, and she and the class I felt picking at me and got sent away for overreacting, like hitting my folder with a pen or kicking chairs when mad. People in Orlando are extremely ridiculous in how mean they are in how they act to you. Things do change here, tho. I ended up in the hospital again, and now I have no freedom to get off medicine according to my mom. I think she's doing it to please my dad, who said if I went back after 2 times here, that he wouldn't come get me to come home. He acted like I got a big break by pleaing to come home, like maybe the psychiatrist isn't right. It was an out of place judgement.
I flunked out of 8 semesters of college. I kept being annoyed ever since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) came out. No one knew the world would end up like it is today. There were noises that bothered me, and the classes were harder than high school. I had nothing near that hard. I do have 1 successful year of Music Education, Ballet, and Honors. They said I was too shy to sing and do Music Ed and to leave. This put my whole future on the line. I am now 28 with no college degree and wasn't working since high school. I am allowed to go back to a community college here, now, and take Music Education and singing again. Ever since we moved here to Orlando, people acted like they called me the N word, like I'd see them bend their arm or knee like an "N." The way they talked around me also suggested they could tell I was a failure and not even a member of the white race, tho I am not black.
The main reason I called to come here was cuz my whole life is messed up. These mistakes I mentioned. People all used to say I was perfect, nice, shy, sweet, and smart. Now, everyone I know for like 10 years it seems has been acting like I'm bad. It catches on so that it travels with me in public to people I don't know. Like all of them would act meanly around me, make noises that really bothered me. I think this drove me insane. I used to e-mail friends and family about helpful topics like spam but explaining myself and saying sorry for spamming. I have no real life friends. So, constantly, people act like I'm bad all around me, the general public. The people in my family and extended family act like they made some group decision to be mean with an attitude around me. I'm always surrounded by this. They do what the other people say they want done to me that's mean in attitude. They act like I did something but also that I'm not racially white. So, all around, people have attitudes towards me and bother me with like the sounds they make and have been for like 10 years. I know cuz it happened after I flunked out of college. It's not my fault it was too hard. I just was too irresponsible to to withdraw on time. Even people I meet can sense I did something bad somehow. I can tell. Every time I go out of my room and see someone, this happens. I can't even concentrate in private.
I have other issues. I'm not here to let you say you force me to get closer to my dad nor mom. I am not from LA and am from New Orleans and I know I am a grown-up who passed the test into adult independency. I like my parents, but I want to get closer to other people. No one knows how. I am on social media, such as Facebook, and I don't have much luck with it, these days. I've had so many acocunts. I've lost friends. I am here to get to know people, not crawl into a hole with my own parents, like they are strangers to me I need to meet. I don't feel sexually close to them as I do with others, and I am guessing my parents are just like that. I don't get to talk to others much, but I am more attracted to them than I am to my parents, tho I also love my parents, of course. I'm here to settle the score with why I don't know many people and not at all to learn to bond with my parents. If my parents treat me one way, so do people in public. It's people in public I wanna know who have problems with me. I can tell by some of what I've seen of the more typical people. I will say I think my parents are mad at me and treat me with an attitude because of the things I did I mentioned. I really don't like a fractured family. They can't seem to act like I don't have a problem, too.
Also, there are speakers and cameras planted around my room. They can make noises and affect how the page loads. This has been bothering me that they are mad at me. They used to be "secret lovers" and I want that back, instead. They don't have to do anything, tho, especially if they don't really like me. They act like my dad decided the bad things for me, but it seems also that even my Gramma and others have. Even before this happened, I could not concentrate because I could see my dad no longer accepted me. I had to look out for being called the N word in secret message by others since another event. I thought someone online saying I wasn't white with different IMDb Message Boards accounts wanted me to call them the N word so I did. Now I am in trouble and it was the last straw. It seems like the whole world found out and no one will be as nice to me as before nor praise me about all that I am, just because of this. I suppose the worst dagger was when the noises started. I cursed about them and sometimes about my dad's being mean. I was careful and didn't try to scar them, just curse about my anger and not so much about people totally. That's the straw that then broke the camel's back. No one will forgive me. I guess it was wrong, but lotta popular people curse.. It was a way to express myself. I thought the curse words were funny, but they call such a reaction. I grew up never cursing, see. So, this meant something was wrong, not me being possessed all of a sudden.
Here is a list of problems up on my website:
http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/official#!trouble/c1ym6
http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/official#!life-problems/cia0
http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/official#!complaints/c19hh
http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/official#!my-sins/c1xmw
http://www.christinabarrett.com/search/label/Problems
Thank you, Dr. Phil show.
Sincerely,
Christina Barrett
Hello, Dr. Phil show, my name is Christina Barrett, and I am a 28-year-old female who lives with my parents. I am Irish, Dutch, French, German, and 1/2 Dutch Chinese-Indonesian. I'm straight and single. My height is 5'3", and I have black hair and dark brown eyes. I look mostly Caucasian, but a lotta people seem to sense I am Asian.
So, I am from an interracial marriage. I felt even very young my life was just a contest where I couldn't feel anything but had to get things down so I could function emotionally and socially in my future. My parents just made sure I always had a good attitude and were suggestive to me in the silence if they sensed I did not like the things they did to me, treating me with a cold shoulder like I wasn't as good as my dad racially cuz I was darker supposedly and that I wasn't as attractive as my young-looking mother. This made it so I was rather dysfunctional. I always sensed those around me "knew the whole rap about me" from birth, like I have 2 parents with perfect manners. I feel them rolling their eyes at me that that didn't matter but that I would never be as social as most people, on top of the racial and differences issues. I suppose a lotta more obese women make me feel good about myself for being a more substantial person. However, there are so many ultra-skinny, spoiled brats of youth today. They get skinny, but they don't seem more holistic. I wake up each morning feeling I don't matter because of them, with their younger sexy mothers and youthful dads. People, I feel, do snap at me inconveniently for wanting to be thought of in the world as part of the youth socially. I feel no one wants me cuz I was told to leave college and get rest at home, but it's been 10 years and I think I'm going back to my old major now.
It seems that no matter what I do, my dad will try to secretly manipulate my life to hurt me cuz it came out when my dad came home just for fun, I said, "O, no," but he didn't say, "Don't say that, Christina." So, I kept doing it, probably assuming he knew it was a joke that I was just sad my homework was still not done after working - all - after - noon. I did stop when my mom told me. Eventually, 6th grade, I could no longer focus on studies and kept slowing down but did not want to think of why. I was tall off the charts but stayed short the rest of my life therein. I blame this sin for this. Perhaps, it's not in my dad to bring it up nor forgive me. I feel it's killing my life. I wonder about a lot of things, like why my dad's bank was gonna close, or, rather, merge, and we had to leave Florida. We'd been moving back and forth between the key areas of Florida.
In school, people would pick on me, probably for my race.
Another big thing on my conscious was when I was a younger kid, like 8, my cousins from Indonesia wrote to us. I forgot to write back, like I could not think of it around my mom. They had such nice stationary, and I didn't.
In my junior year of high school, I was called to the counselor, like I didn't look as good. I had a teacher for American History Advanced Placement/Gifted who said not to take the course simply if we didn't wanna take the AP test. I had a D in the 1st test, and I would lose my 4.0. I fell behind because of going to the counselor during class. I was in Physics, Advanced Math, and English IV. That New Year's Eve, I was taken to the mental hospital. I said not to make me take medicine, and they lied. I was told I had nothing wrong. They just called it schizophrenia. I threw some things mad in the house more recently and got sent to the mental hospital again, 2010. They said since it said I had schizophrenia before that I had it, along with bipolar and Autism - Aspergers. I was set on pills again. I got off. I went to college with a theater teacher I liked, and she and the class I felt picking at me and got sent away for overreacting, like hitting my folder with a pen or kicking chairs when mad. People in Orlando are extremely ridiculous in how mean they are in how they act to you. Things do change here, tho. I ended up in the hospital again, and now I have no freedom to get off medicine according to my mom. I think she's doing it to please my dad, who said if I went back after 2 times here, that he wouldn't come get me to come home. He acted like I got a big break by pleaing to come home, like maybe the psychiatrist isn't right. It was an out of place judgement.
I flunked out of 8 semesters of college. I kept being annoyed ever since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) came out. No one knew the world would end up like it is today. There were noises that bothered me, and the classes were harder than high school. I had nothing near that hard. I do have 1 successful year of Music Education, Ballet, and Honors. They said I was too shy to sing and do Music Ed and to leave. This put my whole future on the line. I am now 28 with no college degree and wasn't working since high school. I am allowed to go back to a community college here, now, and take Music Education and singing again. Ever since we moved here to Orlando, people acted like they called me the N word, like I'd see them bend their arm or knee like an "N." The way they talked around me also suggested they could tell I was a failure and not even a member of the white race, tho I am not black.
The main reason I called to come here was cuz my whole life is messed up. These mistakes I mentioned. People all used to say I was perfect, nice, shy, sweet, and smart. Now, everyone I know for like 10 years it seems has been acting like I'm bad. It catches on so that it travels with me in public to people I don't know. Like all of them would act meanly around me, make noises that really bothered me. I think this drove me insane. I used to e-mail friends and family about helpful topics like spam but explaining myself and saying sorry for spamming. I have no real life friends. So, constantly, people act like I'm bad all around me, the general public. The people in my family and extended family act like they made some group decision to be mean with an attitude around me. I'm always surrounded by this. They do what the other people say they want done to me that's mean in attitude. They act like I did something but also that I'm not racially white. So, all around, people have attitudes towards me and bother me with like the sounds they make and have been for like 10 years. I know cuz it happened after I flunked out of college. It's not my fault it was too hard. I just was too irresponsible to to withdraw on time. Even people I meet can sense I did something bad somehow. I can tell. Every time I go out of my room and see someone, this happens. I can't even concentrate in private.
I have other issues. I'm not here to let you say you force me to get closer to my dad nor mom. I am not from LA and am from New Orleans and I know I am a grown-up who passed the test into adult independency. I like my parents, but I want to get closer to other people. No one knows how. I am on social media, such as Facebook, and I don't have much luck with it, these days. I've had so many acocunts. I've lost friends. I am here to get to know people, not crawl into a hole with my own parents, like they are strangers to me I need to meet. I don't feel sexually close to them as I do with others, and I am guessing my parents are just like that. I don't get to talk to others much, but I am more attracted to them than I am to my parents, tho I also love my parents, of course. I'm here to settle the score with why I don't know many people and not at all to learn to bond with my parents. If my parents treat me one way, so do people in public. It's people in public I wanna know who have problems with me. I can tell by some of what I've seen of the more typical people. I will say I think my parents are mad at me and treat me with an attitude because of the things I did I mentioned. I really don't like a fractured family. They can't seem to act like I don't have a problem, too.
Also, there are speakers and cameras planted around my room. They can make noises and affect how the page loads. This has been bothering me that they are mad at me. They used to be "secret lovers" and I want that back, instead. They don't have to do anything, tho, especially if they don't really like me. They act like my dad decided the bad things for me, but it seems also that even my Gramma and others have. Even before this happened, I could not concentrate because I could see my dad no longer accepted me. I had to look out for being called the N word in secret message by others since another event. I thought someone online saying I wasn't white with different IMDb Message Boards accounts wanted me to call them the N word so I did. Now I am in trouble and it was the last straw. It seems like the whole world found out and no one will be as nice to me as before nor praise me about all that I am, just because of this. I suppose the worst dagger was when the noises started. I cursed about them and sometimes about my dad's being mean. I was careful and didn't try to scar them, just curse about my anger and not so much about people totally. That's the straw that then broke the camel's back. No one will forgive me. I guess it was wrong, but lotta popular people curse.. It was a way to express myself. I thought the curse words were funny, but they call such a reaction. I grew up never cursing, see. So, this meant something was wrong, not me being possessed all of a sudden.
Here is a list of problems up on my website:
http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/official#!trouble/c1ym6
http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/official#!life-problems/cia0
http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/official#!complaints/c19hh
http://christinabarrett4.wix.com/official#!my-sins/c1xmw
http://www.christinabarrett.com/search/label/Problems
Thank you, Dr. Phil show.
Sincerely,
Christina Barrett
Curious
I encouraged Chloe Grace Moretz to eat bacon, and I noticed she gained some meat. I know my meds make me even fatter and I tried some'a my bacon, which is not cooked much.
I asked Jackie Evancho if she got to use gym equipment prematurely cuz she looked "pumped up." It seemed a bit dangerous. Now, her neck is kinda big as in long. I hope I didn't do that. I told her I did gymnastics and dance, in hopes she'd reconsider. Didn't know she'd just stop, didn't know itd make her neck so long. She musta done it, tho. Like, I seen people who want a long neck. I tried to shrink my neck when I started to see it looking long.
I asked Jackie Evancho if she got to use gym equipment prematurely cuz she looked "pumped up." It seemed a bit dangerous. Now, her neck is kinda big as in long. I hope I didn't do that. I told her I did gymnastics and dance, in hopes she'd reconsider. Didn't know she'd just stop, didn't know itd make her neck so long. She musta done it, tho. Like, I seen people who want a long neck. I tried to shrink my neck when I started to see it looking long.
Is it worth it that I hardly know anyone and teens are made to feel pleasurably dizzy in an outwardly comfortable way about how they fit in a generation??
Family Guy, Wonka is on. The Oompa Loompas just collected a bad egg, so-to-speak. You know, there are problems and they just come in and exterminate?
Family Guy, Wonka is on. The Oompa Loompas just collected a bad egg, so-to-speak. You know, there are problems and they just come in and exterminate?
Other Choices
I could get a note from my psychiatrist to go back to my old community college. They have dance. I want to do music, too.. and I love art. Their dance style may not be suited to my needs. I want to earn money to get a private ballet instructor. I am now like jogging every day with weights. I probably lost a lotta ballet skill at this point. I just can't see myself okaying the current option. Music Education, basically involves your major instrument or singing, and I chose General Music Ed with singing as my "instrument." It is a nice twist on something I like. I like the science of music, like soaking it in like that. I love the idea of presenting myself for children. In the summer, I can do courses that require 15 hours of teaching. With the DME, I can train other teachers, research as they do at the doctorate level, etc. I also love science labs. College will always give me something to do. I guess I should stick with one thing. I can take other courses for fun if I wanted, but what you do is get good at one thing with related things. I guess science would help with music, physics. I am guessing scientists do some of that work. I just wanna fit in with my age, too. There will be people older than me coming back to get their Masterns and Doctorates, I assume. I didn't know what I wanted, at 1st. I am glad I am doing 1/2 my degree at a community college. I plan to go to UCF maybe for the BME. They have a program in General Studies. It is considered a prestigious university and more "clean cut." I might get into the private school, might be a good environment.
IMDb - The Soapbox
Should I pursue a DME or Performing Arts?
DME - Doctorate of Music Educaiton
Performing Arts
All I can say is I wanna have gone to college even if I were a famous actress.
So, in the summer, I'm starting. Education. In the fall Music. Then General Studies, so that's about 2 years.
Performing Arts
All I can say is I wanna have gone to college even if I were a famous actress.
So, in the summer, I'm starting. Education. In the fall Music. Then General Studies, so that's about 2 years.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
Response to Fan
I had a hard time in college cuz I wasn't used to lecturing and such. I think I will get an AA 1st before continuing on in Music Ed to the DME level (doctorate of Music Ed. Yes, you could ge ta PhD, instead, which seems more like a BA than a BME or BM, fyi.) It's sad to see on'e future jeapordized for silly little resaons in college, cuz we need life to go smoothly so bad things don't hapen.
I had a hard time in college cuz I wasn't used to lecturing and such. I think I will get an AA 1st before continuing on in Music Ed to the DME level (doctorate of Music Ed. Yes, you could ge ta PhD, instead, which seems more like a BA than a BME or BM, fyi.) It's sad to see on'e future jeapordized for silly little resaons in college, cuz we need life to go smoothly so bad things don't hapen.
Ellen
She's having a nice birthday week, in a way.
The guy who came on from Black and White was nice. I might go see it. I wanted to catch Mortdecai.
I don't remember anyone else on it.
So, the guy said the movie was about a multiracial child. She does look all African American. I think African Americans should learn more about themselves. I think cavemen came 1st and they went and got dark skin. So, we're all related like that. I'm not sure why Asians are so weird, some. They can be strict and mad and possessive. If they read this, I'd be in some trouble. I just don't like that they really are no better than anyone else cuz I know they'd like all white people and Native American indians themselves over me.
So, nice show. Hope Ellen has a good birthday week! The people in the audience look so happy. I hope her fans are having a good time. I wonder if they knew her since before internet. I'm glad she's catching onto different famous people, at least. I wish her fans would talk to me on my forum. I could post it or send it to her and she could read your writing.
The guy who came on from Black and White was nice. I might go see it. I wanted to catch Mortdecai.
I don't remember anyone else on it.
So, the guy said the movie was about a multiracial child. She does look all African American. I think African Americans should learn more about themselves. I think cavemen came 1st and they went and got dark skin. So, we're all related like that. I'm not sure why Asians are so weird, some. They can be strict and mad and possessive. If they read this, I'd be in some trouble. I just don't like that they really are no better than anyone else cuz I know they'd like all white people and Native American indians themselves over me.
So, nice show. Hope Ellen has a good birthday week! The people in the audience look so happy. I hope her fans are having a good time. I wonder if they knew her since before internet. I'm glad she's catching onto different famous people, at least. I wish her fans would talk to me on my forum. I could post it or send it to her and she could read your writing.
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