I might seem overly sensitive, like I should ignore the mean thoughts I get from others.
I do see other younger people out there living their lives, like I don't deserve one. Then, Baby Boomers and especially/primarily Late Boomers get nourished for their "needs, wants, and desires."
Thursday, September 29, 2016
What's It Worth
I can see the faces of girls born around 1997/1998-ish looking taken aback in the experience of the world, like they're an individual that's worth something. Their dads must be born in the later 1950s.
Families Today?
Why are they saying that people with too young of parents born in Generation XYZ are cooler than some people with Late Boom parents?
This is not a "sensitive" issue. It's a public conspiracy.
This is not a "sensitive" issue. It's a public conspiracy.
Controlling Others's Judgments?
So, they can do what they do, but if they present something to me I'll find something wrong with it.
Something Sad
It seems people at church copied me like they think they shoulda had a chance at life and say, "Howcome our pastor is so attractive and I'm not the one being attractive?"
Can't Trust People
They seem settled to hurt me and say I'm shit cuz I am always being bugged when I try to live my life. My life is trash because of them and partially because of my dad. Who brought my relatives into the picture? They aren't close to me. They're out to get me.
I don't want the sad puppy eyes to waste my time. This seems kinda weird and probably not rewarding to others. I wish people would talk to me in ways that benefit them more. It is nice in my lifetime to experience people who understand my life.
I feel like a Jew being labeled by some shit Germans, I just feel I'm gonna die.
I don't want the sad puppy eyes to waste my time. This seems kinda weird and probably not rewarding to others. I wish people would talk to me in ways that benefit them more. It is nice in my lifetime to experience people who understand my life.
I feel like a Jew being labeled by some shit Germans, I just feel I'm gonna die.
Heh Heh Okay But
They speak to me every time I load the page on my computer and thru people I know and don't know. They are mean at any moment. My life is limited and inhibited.
I know now.
I knew before.
They won't let me talk about anything critically + assertively.
They always throw in some watermelon seeds. "Ooh, I have to do something mean to Christina all the time. This isn't a prize. This is impressive."
Orlando has turned into fluff. Huffle Fluff. You know I was at a high ranked private college today, and I think the kids there are surprised the life of Generation XY/Y was about Pokemon and Harry Potter.
What are these people trying to do to me? Turn me into their trash? I bet they can't take this post.
They won't let me talk about anything critically + assertively.
They always throw in some watermelon seeds. "Ooh, I have to do something mean to Christina all the time. This isn't a prize. This is impressive."
Orlando has turned into fluff. Huffle Fluff. You know I was at a high ranked private college today, and I think the kids there are surprised the life of Generation XY/Y was about Pokemon and Harry Potter.
What are these people trying to do to me? Turn me into their trash? I bet they can't take this post.
Cooing Myself
People are mean to me, and instead of being mean back in all situations if possible.. sometimes on the inside I label them as trash because it comes up with them.
Is this a lie?
that the people watching me secretly with cameras are only a reflection of my environment?
I know for a fact people are mean to me on the outside and it effects me when I'm inside.
I know for a fact people are mean to me on the outside and it effects me when I'm inside.
Messing With My Life
I feel I am being watched meanly when things are fine and being probed into for my private thoughts that aren't addressed to others.
An Obvious Secret
We could all just get along if everyone wasn't (1) getting into fights about not wanting to be older and (2) in some level of thinking trying to raise up younger people over older people.
Actually, they try to raise Early Boomers over Generation X.
Actually, they try to raise Early Boomers over Generation X.
Who's involved?
Do you know what the word "unincluded" means? Like, you praise someone, but it doesn't mean you're shit.
Fairest One of All?
What do you think is more attractive in an adult? Looking old to look like an adult compared to kids or looking like a kid/younger to make younger people feel even younger?
All Fits Together
I will get the AA (General Studies) and for my social health take ballet twice a week for adults and private singing. Maybe, someday I will do violin again, but I dunno.
The Plan
I paid for violin lessons up until late November or early December cuz I had to.
I hope to do the play which is in January. I hope to go to community college online in the Spring, too.
Then, I can do adult ballet and private singing.
I need to learn to keep up with chores, too.
What about violin then? I can do it on my own sometimes maybe. I just really want that AA. After that, I can do whatever I want. 4 classes per semester, I'll be done in 3 semesters.
(1) New Student Experience, English, Math, Science
(2) Math, Social Science, Social Science, Science
(3) Communications, ...
That's Spring 2017, Summer 2017, Fall 2017. If I feel like it, I can take 3 in the summer since summer is short.
I don't read much, but I am excited to read for a degree. I like writing on my blog, tho.
So, it would be too hard to add violin. I'd rather stay fresh in dancing and singing. I could always quit and start violin lessons again and can play on my own then.
I hope to do the play which is in January. I hope to go to community college online in the Spring, too.
Then, I can do adult ballet and private singing.
I need to learn to keep up with chores, too.
What about violin then? I can do it on my own sometimes maybe. I just really want that AA. After that, I can do whatever I want. 4 classes per semester, I'll be done in 3 semesters.
(1) New Student Experience, English, Math, Science
(2) Math, Social Science, Social Science, Science
(3) Communications, ...
That's Spring 2017, Summer 2017, Fall 2017. If I feel like it, I can take 3 in the summer since summer is short.
I don't read much, but I am excited to read for a degree. I like writing on my blog, tho.
So, it would be too hard to add violin. I'd rather stay fresh in dancing and singing. I could always quit and start violin lessons again and can play on my own then.
Feels Like Before
I didn't say I would do violin in my last post! I remember when I was too busy with homework to take private singing lessons in junior high. We couldn't afford all the things I wanted to do later on.
The Idea
I would take ballet classes and the private singing lessons, and eventually I'll be good enough to do something.
I guess one of the problems is I'm starting like this at age 30.
So, get an AA online and take ballet and singing. I'm hoping to take 4 classes a semester to get done more quickly. Last time I was there doing that, online, I took 6 and it was too much by a margin.
I guess one of the problems is I'm starting like this at age 30.
So, get an AA online and take ballet and singing. I'm hoping to take 4 classes a semester to get done more quickly. Last time I was there doing that, online, I took 6 and it was too much by a margin.
Roadblocked
I feel I've hit a roadblock. I am not all that excited about being in community plays for a staple activity. It would be fun to do something in Hollywood, even if it were something small like a commercial or minor supporting position/crowd role.
Already, violin is out of the picture for a daily sustenance. That is because I am only a beginner.
I've considered college, probably online, which would be fun to get a degree. Financial aid only covers the general studies AA now, tho, at least at community colleges or colleges like that.
Already, violin is out of the picture for a daily sustenance. That is because I am only a beginner.
I've considered college, probably online, which would be fun to get a degree. Financial aid only covers the general studies AA now, tho, at least at community colleges or colleges like that.
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