Monday, October 27, 2014

Why I'm No Good (to Some)

I think that Ellen is really mad now that I said she gave my mom cancer.  I was in a freak state but now realize it's not good to just go (all) out and say that.

I'm not as cute as a few of my cousins, if not most of the girls, I see.  So what?  It's not my fault.  I know their parents rushed them into it.

What about comparing me to most people?  They accept me because I am nice.

I missed the deadline for school.  I didn't know I needed my transcripts in by October until October.  1 school didn't send it in when I asked and this time I was too late.  I forgot about the FAFSA (sp? lol) financial aid, anyway.

I don't think that Seminole State has film, but I could go to the supposedly costly Full Sail.  My dad suggested acting, too.  I keep sending myself in, but I gotta be harder on myself.  I'm getting my hair redyed, as well.  It didn't turn out right at Dillards and too much money.  Last month, I spent a total of like $185 and it's still yellow.  I need to buy extreme hair repair shampoo.  I heard any hair could be repaired, which is a fact for me at least or as a rule of this thing that it means something to know it's in the back of your head and you have to use that you know this..

So, I feel sorry for Ellen because she things she's obliged to me sometimes, but I know that these people who know me know other cousins and "friends" or people I follow who are cuter.  You know Lauren Lee Smith felt safe being like Ellen around her, and so are other people to me, but she was not comfortable in the light of day.

I think Ellen is very interesting and deserves the best.  What about some of my old friends?  I bet they'd be her type.  They tend to walk about and trash this trash that I'm so cool I'm blonde and my eyes they blue!  I think I did it, wanted to be a brunette in life if my parents were in it.  They thought they were better.  I came out fair and full of color or sometimes white pigment.  It's sad.  Our life is ending.  The more I blame, the worse it gets, but I don't blame to blame.  Some people just hate people for their race mostly, and I can't have that.  I think my family stay out of harm's way pretty clearly!

So, like round em up!  Look for people who Ellen would like.  There are cute people going around with benefits.  That's all she can take.  Nice people with benefits.  What about multiracials?  I'm gonna get them as fans and put them online.

I feel all I am is my blog, and I think she would agree.  People seem to gloss through and ignore the opportunity to talk.

Edit

I added a tag to my last post.

TV

Taylor on Ellen

I have so many feelings for this girl all about the same thing, her pride in her heritage she carried with her to Tennessee.  I feel more open about different cultures, honestly.

I liked her performance so much.  I think I know 5 some form of blonde haired blue eyed people from Pennsylvania who are singers, the only oldest one being non-white blonde maybe.

She's such a pioneer.  I admire her so much for just doing that.

She looks good.  I feel she is still developing, but she is so tall and her heels were so tall, too.  I liked to see Ellen hugging her.  I feel she's broken some barriers by sitting in a chair with a fan and hugging her.  Taylor.

I fell in love with the Tennessee bear at Country Bear Jamboree.  I didn't do Pirates of the Caribbean nor the Haunted Mansion today, but I did see this mainly for the Tennessee bear's what sparked an interest.

It is interesting to see how Taylor cares so much, maybe made to care too much, and she turns off.  I don't think I turned off up north.  I think she's just like that.  I don't think it's a good Pennsylvanian trait, no offense.  It's probably confusing to her.  Maybe, it was inflicted via fame.

I think that she needs to recognize there are other people out there.  She seems like she's from the country big time, though.  I wonder if she wants to live somewhere else.  She is a singer, after all.  LA she probably already is there.  You know, she reminds me of Britney Spears being proud of where she's lived and what she can do.

She seemed annoyed at things people from Pennsylvania get annoyed at.  Like, if someone wants attention, they just get so mad.  They don't know how to get attention.

She's too to sweet.  I just really connect.  I'd be honored to get to like talk to her about my experiences being Pennsylvanian and not living there.  I also sing.  It would be cool if she hired me to do something with her.  I don't know about touring a year, though, I have other goals and aspirations, now.  Film.  It's pretty serious.  I need to start.  I was thinking of Full Sail, the big nationwide film school.

So, good job!  I love this!  It was a good warmup/icebreaker together.

I found out why I get violent.

In New Orleans, I was threatened with suicidal noises that only I could hear, and when I was bothered I screamed and the police took me.

Contact

The Walt Disney Company

I want to sell myself singing the song "Let It Go" from "Frozen" unlimitedly on iTunes. Can you help me find out how to get the rights to do that and let me know how much it would cost? Thank you, so much!

I can't believe

at the last minute you get jealous.  It seems I've been hurt and am no longer worth it, a similar type of thing that happened to Steven Hawkins (sp?)

What?

How can you do this?  Why is "it" about people in my life you think I've suddenly wronged easily?

Math

People may sacrifice for you, but maybe it's just 1 + 1 = 2.

New Yet Offensive

What do you think of someone older than a generation of kids who thinks every time they do something cool it's bad because it's offensive to them in their opinion?
Pictures of Me

Waste From Race

All my accomplishments are gone to waste because of race!

Sleep

I'm having a hard time and might go somewhere tomorrow, at least I want to be ready to.  I have to wake up at 4.  I can wait and go Wednesday.  I have somewhere else to go Tuesday, which is lame.  The bus can seem to take so long.  I really don't know what to do, now.  I've slept a lot this week and don't feel too tired.  I woke up at 5PM.  If I'm so not tired now, I'd better go, might get a little sleep if I get tired.  I could get ready now and then sleep.  I just feel torn in half by what happened today, which is on my Problems blog.  I don't know how to feel well.  Disney is crazy.

What do you think of

people who have a say in the world?  Like without extra suggestive behavior being made by others towards them?  I feel my family and I have reached a dead end where it all stops.  Maybe, kids are the only people who have a say/maybe not?

Chloe

Sevigny

Website Update

About Me

I was born with dark blue eyes, and I've had solid non-black hair bleached from the sun more at the bottom.  It was a bright color, sorta brown, red, and gold, typical.  As of now, it is dyed to be like the Ellen DeGeneres look-alikes.

What if

Chloe Sevigny and Chloe Moretz were in Ouija?

Actress

Chloe Sevigny

link

It looks like her heyday was that she looked like Ellen filming Those Who Kill.

I kinda am hoping she will know if she can have a quiet life with kids or if she's in sync with the world in wanting to make it "different" and possibly more social for the people who can't seem to find anyone outside of "home."  Just passerby.

I know

the old dad thing is a lie because a baby with an older dad is still the age it is from when it was born, and when you compare it to a baby with a younger dad they are both still pretty young at least.

I know

why Ellen is so sensitive.  She built herself up to be attractive and wants no one to beat her.  Nor change her.