Sorry

So, now what, why am I so stupid?  I cannot be trusted, thanks to Tim Burton and Johnny Depp.

It's like watching TV, all the tiny particles..

Another Trick?

I swear, I feel the presence of Karen Carpenter because I recognize it.  I awoke yesterday to a green light on the tip of the door I swear but I know someone put it there.

Excuse me..

..but I couldn't figure out if I should just keep quiet but is Sharon Osbourne attacking my mom?  Fine, don't play with me.

So..

..if my mom were mad at Tim Burton for me you'd hurt her?  Bo  I can talk.

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Interesting Article

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They are "barbaric" with "barriers."  I guess they like to be light but are fine as is.

I wonder if..

..any one of the people who killed Karen Carpenter realized they could go to Hell.

GO AWAY

I am me and special you can't say I'm just like everyone else.  Don't make me into shit by shitting at me all the time.

STOP

making fun of me for my emotional life

Problem

If you did it Ellen kidding around with me emotionally and messing with me in private like this then why should I have to respect you??

Problem

Now Blogger doesn't tell me if I posted with Captchas on this browser, too.  It happened on an odd day in relation to things and what I just had the right to say.

So

ELLEN ELLEN HOW CAN I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH MY DAD

HE THINKS YOU GUYS THINK I'M A NIGGER CUZ YOU'RE GERMAN *BEEP*

HOW CAN I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP I DIDN'T DO SHIT YOU WEIRDOS THAT'S WHERE YOU'RE WRONG.. YOU ALL DON'T LET ME LIVE LIKE I SHOULD I AM PERFECT HOW I AM AND I CAN THINK THAT WITHOUT BEING HHUURRTT

I have a big tossup.  I'm too weak at the moment on pills to do a lot of ballet but can work my way up.  I can't imagine doing "The Nutcracker" into January.  Acting itself doesn't hold much allure.  Singing does, but people in the business are getting older now and it's too late!  I was ready!

Something Bothering Me, AGAIN

They made the last post load slowly, but please don't miss it for a message such as this 1.

This 1 snapped up.  I think they are doing it to please the evil side.

Bad Bad Bad

Central Florida is bad.  They're just a bunch of devils in the night.  They all just complain and let it flow out.  They tell us we did something to them or the same thing they just did.  They're just babies with nothing but evil and greed under their skin.  They take out the supposed evil from other dads onto yourpow

You Weirdos

STOP IT STOP HURTING PEOPLE YOU ARE THE MEAN 1 HOW DUM CAN YOU BE NOT TO NOTICE

You know..

..if Helena Bonham Carter's thing with Nell didn't happen my dad would be fine.  '}:|  What, Helena, are you a muddled thing, person like your hubby buddy now?

In fact..

..a lot of people didn't do that.

Problem

People are all being nasty to me.  GET TIM BURTON HE DID IT.

Are you stupid enough to think that boy from England did it?  Cuz he didn't.

STOP

I don't give a damn @ Ginny nor Ellen and their superego.  See if Karen Carpenter even has that.  Maybe, everyone is just shit.

Problem

You clumsy fools can just *beep* you got my future daughter called l******.  Quit ruining my day with this crap.

These criminals won't shut up!  This is not even allowed in the U.S.  AND YOU'RE JUST SITTIN' THERE WAITIN' FOR ME TO SAY THAT

Stop bringing Ginny into my life.  She was rude to me.  She also sent me away.  She didn't say I needed a break, just found bad reasons.

My future daughter has nothing to do with any of this *beep*  Stop listening to something my Gramma like let out, that "if something comes up it must have something to do with it."  That's just there to stimulate you.  I am just saying.  There is nothing tabboo about it.  My dad also suggested this friend who won't write me and is disgusting and rude is Ellen's daughter, but she's not like her, backs away.  I can't believe she's like that, has such a nice family.  You'd have seen her on my Facebook or MySpace, but I guess you found out by me talking @ her.

I can see you just party on and GETTING WORSE AFTER YOU WERE MEAN TO ME AND I DECIDED TO WRITE ABOUT IT.  AND GUESS WHAT MY DAD LOOKED AT ME LIKE MY ONLINE STUFF WAS NOTHING, and he doesn't really care.

You think I'm mad Karen Carpenter died.  No, I talked about it, and I didn't get mad.  I just "had to accept" 1 more thing.  What's with these messages from Ginny?  Now, she's below me.  She keeps coming up with nonsense it seems.  I can hear the cars roar by and stuff, hear my family, and I know @ her.  + maybe even messages in my room.

ARGH.  You probably gonna have to call everyone else's baby a l******.  If you did for mine, why?  You clumsy!  Who "uncoded" the message?!  YOU ALL NEED TO STOP TALKING TO ME.  Everything I do people are mean to me in public.  Even if I'm not trying to talk to them.

You can't control my life if I use a curse word on my blog, and I can use it, too.

They tried talking to me, again!

If I say a curse word, they are mean to me!  If they feel like it.  I didn't even react badly @ my future daughter with Ginny.  WHO CARES IF I DO.  It's too hard to be uptight.  I don't do stuff like that.  Go losen up and mole your hole elsewhere.  I don't mean just any 1 person in general if you care.  This just isn't working out.  HEY SHUT UP I SAID WHAT I SAID YOU WEIRDO.  I DIDN'T "DO IT."  Stop the Hell talking to me.

Stop acting like I did something and fucking up my night, too.

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Ny dad won't stop bothering me. You all are mean. STOP.

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My head

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Why are people slicing my head in the part where I have dreams?

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I don't need to talk to you.

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My dad is being mean.

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I am leaving and getting more messages and lies. Leave me alone.

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Problem

They changed something in my life just for cursing.  Get outt amy life!

The CAPTCHAS.. now I have to see if it posted when it pauses on this browser.

Mobile Soon

may or may not post

Ah, yes, if no one cursed the world would be boring.  I was surprised I said something against Ellen.  She wants to be included.

Allowed

I don't think Ellen is allowed in the South.

Problem

I got the image of my dad putting his hand on certain part.  I SAID LEAVE ME ALONE YOU *BEEPS*  What don't you get when I say something?  Quit all watching me.

Ugh!

It's so DAMN violent here.

bleh bleh blehbleh bleh

Problem

The Captcha wasn't working.

So what big guy

you gonna wait for this 1 to time out?

STOP IT

I see you're ruining my relationship with my dad.  We don't seem to have 1 and don't want a bad 1.  :|  How dumb can you be?

2 sensitive

Hm..

Just a liar who's just mean as an excuse in private.

LOOK

WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM WITH ME YOU DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER QUICKLY

You need to stop being picky because I'm always ^right^  You're gonna hurt people just living life.

Since I have nothing else to do..

..I just made a really good recording of me talking.

STOP

SOMEONE ON TWITTER IS ACTING LIKE I'M NOT WHITE, WELL I AM!  SHUT THE FUCK UP.  What else can I say?  He's like oh such and such is such.  Stop wasting my life, you know I'm whiter.

SO

You never said what you thought @ cursing when not at someone.  You can even do it to someone.  Like, Bella I thought controlled me and was racist, so I said Bella goes to Hell cuz she was acting like Ellen and still is just a kid, a *beep* kid.  Has to have a mean streak to win.

Problem is I don't wanna curse, neither.

Bad

Ellen wants us to think we're bad.

Well

Sorry, wasn't even cursing @ anyone.

Sorry to the lovely humble experimenters.

Sorry to Ellen, who I want to come in peace to.

WHY DON'T YOU CARE @ ME

YOU ACT LIKE YOU KNOW NOTHING

When Upset

I mean I just think no curse words aren't always bad.  You just say that.  I really believe that, but I don't want to curse..  I feel fed up and like this is stupid.  O MY GOOD YOU *BEEP* I WAS SO BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU YOU *BEEP* CAN'T YOU TELL THAT

STOP BEING SUGGESTIVE YOU CAN'T HOLD YOUR OWN BARF

More Jokes

I don't joke around and say something matched so I really said it and I really mean it but you have to get it.  Wow, Ellen, look at you, mad over nothing for no one.

This is stupid.

I'm remembering numbers on clocks.

I do have another problem..

..if anyone finds this funny and wants to fix this, my brother just got home.  Haven't even seen him.

O NO

My tacky mom might be home.  STOP GAPING AT ME YOU *BEEP*  What something wrong with curse words??

So

Why is Ellen thinking my dad made her do something.  Stop it before you hurt him DODO.

Well

I didn't blow up.  I just like cursing.  You know what, this whole thing is just a waste of my life.  I'm just gonna get famous however I can.  I can leave if I want.  I already have that as my goal, performing..

Wow

Look @ that Ellen thinking of me like some kind of indian being mad. NO I AM NOT MAD I AM GODDAMN PISSED AND I WASN'T CURSING BEFORE YOU CAME

Problem

Stop looking at me.  I feel like I'm being watched..  I feel I have to think @ stuff I don't want to.

I'm not in this dumb contest!  I was better off WITHOUT YOU

Problem

I don't want Ellen to do something shitty or just sorta do something that's nothing @ my future daughter.. just because of mean ole Bella.  I am not an invalid!!!! WHAT DON'T YOU FRIKKIN GET

You all

attacked me knowing I'd be a star 1 day

Why??

Because this isn't funny.. it's what she is, you can't just make it disappear.

Delinquent

:p

Problem

Treating me meanly when something important is at stake, Karen Carpenter's soul.  I just like to curse sometimes.  I didn't hurt you, you hurt me!  You really did.  And I can say what I need to say.  I just said a little.

Problem

You're making me suffer at the expense of time and wasting my life.

What Else Happened

They irritated me and I could have sat there and been tortured if I didn't do some quick thinking.  Even wild animals are overly protective @ young 1s.

Also

I don't really want to talk to them..

What It Is

These noises sound like talking.  Why don't you just go look for them if you can't stand what I write?  I thought I had a special situation, but they're just being shitty at me.. isn't that not allowed?

I feel like a fat blob while people insert shit in me all the time and I can't do anything and they watch my face like I'm CHINESE

Problem

I'm not gonna be nice to Ellen and let her toot her horn at me like that.  That really hurt my future.  I'm not going through shit with that *BEEP* *BEEP*

I know what you're doing..

..you really said something @ my future daughter.  *BEEP* ELLEN

I feel too distraught.

I don't need you for a temper.  You're the goofball.

Why is anyone so fakely fearful?  You can't save me by annoying me.  I can say what I want @ you.  You're like a kitten in a cage who won't shut up.

SHUT UP!

STOP

MORE PROBLEMS WHERE THE HELL DID THIS SHIT COME FROM

THEY SAID SOMETHING IRRITATING - STOP YOU BAD GUY @ GINNY

STOP TELLING ME I AM BAD TO SAVE YOUR SORRY ASS

Problem

STOP TALKING

They think they can torture my future daughter now.  Stop being so GODDAMN annoying.  LOL?

And no I don't give a care @ the fact I got mad when I was coincidentally talking @ if I have a future daughter.

Wale! (Well)

Looks as though I could sell my own CD.  I think I got a call.

More Shit

Why did Ellen tell you to put Ginny in my life?  She needs to open up her own academy of theater.  What did they do?  They are bothering me about a supposed daughter I have or that they want to foresee.  How?  Like pretending they are torturing her in some fantastical way.

Will you just shut up with your racism?

Stop bugging me for using words you think shouldn't be used.  It doesn't mean anything.

It might sound rude, but you're just staring at the supposed curse words..

Well..

Why don't you just bother Tim Burton in his privates? Isn't this his belief? Wasn't mine.

Problem

They keep acting show offy.

Problem

I'm being teased with noises in my room.  They made it so sound would jiggle a certain reason, so I am trying to avoid it.  I didn't do anything that bad.  I'm being poked at all the time.  My dad didn't say to do that, and I don't want him to watch me..

Ooh! Ooh! I know what it is! I know what it is!

Only Generation Z have parents who aren't born before 1940.

Aw

Ellen I wish I could sing on your show but I can't.

Why do bad people keep tagging me like I'm just bad?

New Videos of Me Singing

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What if..

..Ellen picked up a 15-year-old?  16 soon..

Problem

My mom keeps pushing insults on me, and it pushes me to the limit.  I can't seem to get her to stop watching me.

So

If Ellen is uncomfortable so has to be mean, what if there are other people in the world with the same problem?  I'd like to be famous, but I am kinda unhealthy for some reason still, maybe the pills.

What can I eat?

NO WINE

Serious Predicament

I wanted a relationship with my parents.  I feel I'm shitting for them by not moving away to Miami and they shit at me.

Caughtcha

Stop crapping on me while I'm not watching Ellen for her.  No one cares.

What was I gonna say .. oh yes, you wanna exercise bringing up the threat to the boy in England later.  I don't wanna think @ that shit!

Annoyed

They are bothering me too much again about Frozen.  They also made their 1st move as a threat against a boy in England.  Hm, might not matter but doesn't hurt to tell @ it.

They just are being overly picky to me all the time.  Stop sliding me off as a Frozen fan!  They think I "did something" when I watched it.  Well, *beep* go away.

Woo Hoo

I just called @ singing copyright music and getting accompaniment.

Now, I have to call the pet place for fish to see if they'll take my bubbling blue beta boy.  A bit worried they'll say no.  My dad said he'd want it, but I dunno.  I was gonna let it go somewhere, but it might not be happy there.  Oh no!  I missed the Wal-Mart return deadline.  I was also getting a hamster I returned.

I know..

..people are mad at privileged people in Florida who are no good to them.

Inappropriate Topics

What do you think of people who participate in talking about inappropriate things while putting you on the spot?  I think lots of things exist.  You have to have some goal in mind.  I don't like being in trouble as the only 1.  That isn't going to work.  I know what you're really saying.

Someone came up with the idea I'm talking on a blog, but this is something people chose to read and it's the opposite of what I just said.

Problem

Some people are being extremely racist.  They think that I'm a bad person, when everyone's always said I was a good person, until lately.

Good Idea

Sure, say Ellen did something for you, but if the end result is something like a type of physical-emotional pain, a new medication, and whatnot, .. then what do you do?  Say, you don't really have anyone to turn to.  And all you have is this show and your dreams, a computer, and things like that.

1 Thing's Gonna Have 2 Go

Ellen can't say that everything only come in big blocks where she wins in the end.  The answer to problems are often enough specific.  You can't just say neither yes nor no to some big, usual, concrete answer.  She may be under pressure, but we can't go along with it. I can hear her in the silence of the night as I post online and try to forget @ that.  Why does she want to be so nice but isn't in a certain way?  It kinda is harming me and my future.  Things like this always seem to work out this way.  I just kinda feel like spilling the beans.  Yes, I've been trying to find ways to lead a more active life.  I have blocks in my Disney pass during the heavy visiting.  Other things happened.  I'm stuck with being stuck.  I have to lose weight and had some troubles with recent recipes.  Our house is not packed with the tray station @ Subway with Dip'n'Dots on the side even.  I just cleaned my room and seem to get physical activity each day.  It's just not enough!  As to Ellen, I mean things can happen like that.  Hm, let me see if I've done this before, yes, but specifically.. well, what do you think @ going to choir twice a week?  I just rejoined @ the college mass.  I just feel like no one will talk to me about anything interesting.  I like the show, but it seems to get me in trouble.  I went to Lakeside and am on another pill my mom got me on.

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So..

..do you think it's safe to watch Ellen DeGeneres? She does good things technically, but her emotional messages tend to be more on the suggestive side. I have found myself nowhere since watching her show.

Dissect what I actually wrote. I said I have found myself nowhere. She has put me in fits of hate by lying emotionally. What is the point in watching her like she asks, trying to prevent me from having a life or just being nice and cares only for Portia and technically maybe her biological families?

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