..it's really lonely and frustrating, having a sick mom and only going out alone once a week to Disney.
I did realize there was nothing special about how I looked and maybe getting more physically fit again would help. So would doing something, but I'm too old for all that's provided to kids by high school and if they aren't "kicked out of their major" and uncounseled about things and forced to get help, like your plans they want to know to match what you do and when you do what or whatever.