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I was gonna try to go to Sibelius Academy - University of the Arts Helsinki. They said if I did voice I could take folk singing, which I have always liked a lot, tho who wouldn't if they thought about it? I am aiming to learn Finnish and hopefully the other Nordic languages, Norwegian and Swedish.
Monday, November 30, 2015
Problem
Every time I can't post what they do sometimes it seems like I think of odd words that make them mean to me, like only I don't have a freedom of speech in my thoughts.
Problem
They are applying pressure to my lips like moles. I have to sit here and fight off their trash.
I might have to wait..
..to get this stuff another week, next week hopefully. At least I can get it before Christmas. I'll have to put all that stuff together and clear space.
Problem
When my dad comes home or anything, he's like usually in an offensive attitude towards me. Everyone thinks they can just treat me like I'm bad, like it's all about them and I'm just their trash.
Problem
You can't be all tacky and tell me what to do that I can't vent a little when you make me mad.
Problem
They started this experiment and are not allowed to be mean to me all of a sudden for any reason!
Problem
They acted like all these things were my possible future daughter excreting all this stuff. It was rubbing someone in to her. They left with satisfaction, fighting me if I get upset physically when they barge in on me watching me and making those sounds.
Ay Ay Ay
No, you don't see anyone else feeling guilty having Bella Thorne get attention. I don't need that kinda "comic relief."
The Way It Should Be
If Ellen DeGeneres is really that good, isn't she supposed to be nice? She's still mad at me and tossed out the significance I thought of my life.
Tricky
They won't stop rubbing someone in by pretending to have fun suggesting things that are outlandishly mean, just as a joke as an offense to the other person, like it's to make fun of what they'd do.
Problem
Ellen DeGeneres is cool with Bella Thorne associating with her but throwing at me things I don't want and relating it with others.
Don't rub her the wrong way.
Not everyone wants to be mistaken for her in her hairstyle like many are.
She's like better than me people think but not the other way around better than themselves!
She's like better than me people think but not the other way around better than themselves!
Why her?
What about everyone else? Including people who have tried to become famous.
Just saying.. I'm just wondering what about her makes her get such a positive reaction.
Just saying.. I'm just wondering what about her makes her get such a positive reaction.
Funny
They think Bella Thorne is special but were mean to me and now I leave empty-handed. They just think I'm bad and don't know anything bad Bella Thorne does.
Issue
Google launched a few animated logos for a redheaded kid's 141st birthday, a girl. I know it's because of Ellen DeGeneres it's for Bella Thorne to rub in that she thinks I'm just a loser. I have facts to back up otherwise. It was legitimate to curse about hurtful noises in my room she supposedly put there for months and now years. I didn't even wanna watch the show until I was ready, and this is why. So, I know. I know all that's going on, in a way, or would understand were it brought up to my attention. She's the one who doesn't know what to do. Or is this other people just ^getting the gist of things^ ?
Disclaimer: No offense to anyone. I just feel they are rubbing the wrong way.
Disclaimer: No offense to anyone. I just feel they are rubbing the wrong way.
Sunday, November 29, 2015
Problem
I guess it surprises me when they attack for weird reasons.. about my possible future kids, messing up memories of the future.. How can I ignore this? I am mad at them doing it, tho, too. Is it here for me to ignore??
Problem
They keep rubbing in someone for someone I like. They gaped at me for acting upset about something like I was talking to them, basically they say.
Problem
They keep messing with my possible future kids with someone else. I'm not here to fight to serve Ellen DeGeneres!!
Problem
They're playing around with me having people on Facebook message me insulting suggestions in secret.
Problem
And quit punishing me. Whatever they do it's way too much in other regards, as well.
Hm, is that the sound of trash?
Hm, is that the sound of trash?
Problem
They keep getting all in my face.
Quit getting physical! and tapping into me hurtfully. Telling me I did something all the time.
Quit getting physical! and tapping into me hurtfully. Telling me I did something all the time.
Problem
My mom threatened I could not "meet" her if I do something with someone I like. That garbage is waiting there for me.
Approval
Ellen DeGeneres thinks you are approved if you have a prestigious mom, like good at music. She secretly went and cemented these offspring into her digest. Aha ha!
No reason to find fault in the kids/offspring.
No reason to find fault in the kids/offspring.
Hands
Do you think Ellen DeGeneres has those big ***y hands to give or to receive, like Mama says she thinks? So, she is in contradiction to what she thinks her mother wants and it has to be yes or no, no "fudging" in the middle.
It would be to receive because people see her as their puppet, their toy. If she wants to be nice to others, others stop her and make her the dominant need instead, aha ha!
It would be to receive because people see her as their puppet, their toy. If she wants to be nice to others, others stop her and make her the dominant need instead, aha ha!
Circumstance
If you prefer popular people to good people, well it won't change the world to be that way. I think a little more is going on here, including racism.
My 1st question in what I'm thinking is how someone would feel they deserved what was popular, aha ha!
My 1st question in what I'm thinking is how someone would feel they deserved what was popular, aha ha!
about a mask
Is this from Mardi Gras or The Phantom of the Opera?! Only difference is Mardi Gras never gets old. Thanks for sharing! I hope you had fun.
IMDb - Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (2017)
My Topic
Re: How do you feel about younger generations with this franchise?
Problem
They keep condoning me when I'm upset at strangers in public, like they can do anything to me and tell everyone. I'm 18+. All I do is stomp my foot a little or look cross.
Problem
Why do you act like you have something on me?
They're trying to hurt my physically again.
Get a life!
They're trying to hurt my physically again.
Get a life!
Problem
Quite threatening me!
Quit snapping at me without making any sense!
You do this all day every day! for Ellen DeGeneres!
Quit snapping at me without making any sense!
You do this all day every day! for Ellen DeGeneres!
Problems
My dad was able to channel me and affected my fingernails negatively and made my breast feel like it was vibrating/jiggling. In the car.
Just because I like someone, they are making them mean in my life cuz I don't accept a "no" because of my dad and Ellen DeGeneres.
Just because I like someone, they are making them mean in my life cuz I don't accept a "no" because of my dad and Ellen DeGeneres.
Problem
They threatened this person would chase me after my dad dies. I think this is for Ellen DeGeneres.
Problem
I'm getting an influx of negativity from others about myself. People I meet fear speaking to me. They are acting violent rubbing someone in to me to annoy me. "Oh," that was just because I was upset in my room during the weekdays. It's like they're using me to release steam. They won't accept my excuses nosing in to my behavior. They mostly are just upset at me for using curse words. It's annoying this creepy person keeps coming up.
Problems
What is important about acting like I'm essentially bad and need to fix something but also am punished after 18?
I feel upset about increasing negative pressure each time I meet up with someone I like.
This time it's an angry pressure to control myself when I'm vulnerable and unfortunately dug into. How long will it last?? It looks like a trap and won't really amount to accept, anyway. I don't need to keep suffering! In general, not talking to anyone in particular, ..I forget. Oh, I don't accept any of the punishing me post-17. What do you want me to do?? The damage is done. That's just something you did. I'm like Jesus
not accepting punishment cuz it's wrong.
Saturday, November 28, 2015
Problem
They're messing with me. They are pushing someone to me and taking away others. They threatened to r*** me.
Problem
They are letting people I like seem
mean to me and rewarding them with inappropriate pleasure and taking from me. It just seems hard to cope with. It's all because of Ellen DeGeneres being upset because I used curse words about the hurtful noises in my room she supposedly got put there or that someone else/others did for her. Ellen DeGeneres is supposedly living the dream of making Europeans come here for Thanksgiving pretending and having a hick time bouncing around against the likes of me.
Problems
They won't stop.
It's on and off Ellen DeGeneres did this or that.
It seems like she's coming in and attacking and ruining my life.
They are acting like I lost my dignity as an adult and person. They just keep going crazy and complaining about the past. They bother me and it upsets me.
Someone I like people are acting like is prancing around Orlando being annoying. They are making fun of me and playing with what I meant. I can't seem to sustain any relationship for fun.
They keep making fun of me for not being perfect.
Problem
They just keep going out and being mean to me. They said I was bound to someone as my mom 24/7.
They just said something else, too.
They just said something else, too.
Problem
They keep sponging little ticking noises around to stimulate me.
They did some other weird things, too.
They did some other weird things, too.
Problem
They keep bringing up someone cuz they say I was acting like I was mad about someone else to do with them. How pathetic, get a life!
Problem
Every time I wake up, someone has an episode and orders the experimenters to be mean to me supposedly.
Also, they won't stop pretending my possible future son is someone else and a way I don't like.
They stated my mom wasn't my mom, too.
Also, they won't stop pretending my possible future son is someone else and a way I don't like.
They stated my mom wasn't my mom, too.
Problem
So, I am wondering about my lost relationships before it goes into the next round of attacks.
Problem
None of this mean stuff makes sense, it's all just chosing what would annoy me.. thinking my mom is a baby and I'm older than everyone else. Sick?
Problem
This is going too far. My life is lame and out of step because of the problems they are telling me that are from Ellen DeGeneres or because I'm interested in her show. She's not exactly a ball of fire these days. She has her moments. She shouldn't have been mean and let people know if they do something that makes her mad.
Problem
They are downsizing my mom like a baby. Someone they made my friend when I was upset in my room every day for a week after liking someone. I wish this would stop. I'm not interested!
How pathetic, I realized most of this is because of me cursing about the hurtful noises in my room that supposedly Ellen DeGeneres is responsible for. Either that, or someone else did it for her. These people want me to experience bad things for this. Like I mentioned me possibly dying a worthless life like many. Whoever they are it was wrong to be so mean to me when I started watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show.
There are people who have been watching me in private and sending me secret messages via noises like little clicks and people I encounter/know. It's been over 10 years, and it has gotten me nowhere. People test me to make sure I don't think of something bad like a curse word and if they make me think of one everyone I see bothers me for a day, which is every day.
They pretend people I like a lot are sending me insulting messages and threats thru them. They toss out my death as being an unimportant thing that should happen. I don't have any friends nor anyone to really talk to, who doesn't react like I'm repulsive. I don't accept I'm too fat to live socially etc.
I just got up for a bite to eat and to check online and this is what reveals itself.
True, there are a lotta things I don't deserve that happen that make me happy. However, a lot of other bad things happen, like nothing will matter in the end.
What? I live right. Why are the people I know personally so mean to me? I didn't start it. My relationships have all been taken from me, like they can't stand it.
I do pray and hope that other people get to experience the good things I experienced, connections, sense of self-worth, etc.
They pretend people I like a lot are sending me insulting messages and threats thru them. They toss out my death as being an unimportant thing that should happen. I don't have any friends nor anyone to really talk to, who doesn't react like I'm repulsive. I don't accept I'm too fat to live socially etc.
I just got up for a bite to eat and to check online and this is what reveals itself.
True, there are a lotta things I don't deserve that happen that make me happy. However, a lot of other bad things happen, like nothing will matter in the end.
What? I live right. Why are the people I know personally so mean to me? I didn't start it. My relationships have all been taken from me, like they can't stand it.
I do pray and hope that other people get to experience the good things I experienced, connections, sense of self-worth, etc.
Problem
This isn't stopping. I SAID NO! You can't keep being mean and bothering me. No one said you had to do it!
Problems
They are acting like I don't deserve to have any relationships.
I can see them freak out and squeem. The stress of home makes it hard for a good experience to seep in. What kind of a life is this? I can't find anyone who'll talk to me. Other people get talked to even if they are mean.
With or without them, I cannot relax. I feel my life was thrown away.
Orlando can be racist. I've not seen this anywhere else. They think it's okay because there are other good people and things. I just can't seem to get enough relaxation, you know time without being interrupted.
I can see them freak out and squeem. The stress of home makes it hard for a good experience to seep in. What kind of a life is this? I can't find anyone who'll talk to me. Other people get talked to even if they are mean.
With or without them, I cannot relax. I feel my life was thrown away.
Orlando can be racist. I've not seen this anywhere else. They think it's okay because there are other good people and things. I just can't seem to get enough relaxation, you know time without being interrupted.
Problem
I'm not putting up with this merry-go-round of people upset at me all day every day.
I bet my infamy is an ultimate joke for some.
I bet my infamy is an ultimate joke for some.
Problem
I got up to get a snack and check the internet, and they're throwing insults at me and waiting for me to think of a curse word or something so they can get all of Orlando to say "it's not it" for me for a day."
Friday, November 27, 2015
My Moodiness
I guess I'm frustrated about getting in trouble at 29 when I was the one who was made to feel so badly. It's like I'm already in jail.
Strange
I guess I gave up my life for Tim Burton and lost everything.
It is spoiled since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with Johnny Depp and Tim Burton for people to reject others.
Or does my dad just find fault with me? So I can't heal and recooperate at home?
Problem
My dad said something suggestive and is in with my life in the experiment on me.
He stimulates me in ways I don't like.
It was disrespectful and in some ways like it's not his business.
This experiment thing is bad. Too bad, some aspects are still fun, why I don't know what to tell the police.
This experience isn't exactly my dream.. not sure anyone likes it. I told them early like they could stop. 10 years ago.
Problem
They keep making me privately upset and get at me for it like they love me but with nothing to offer.
My dad is afraid my life can be successful.
I live with my parents partly cuz I liked them and I see them when I leave my room and it's too much.
People in public are abusing me and don't care.
Shopping - Fashion
The 1st shirt I wanted sold out. Here's a new one. It's to get a picture taken when I lose weight to post online. I will need some shoots for an casting agency someday, too.. I will continue to pay for gymnastics with allowance and maybe collect some nice clothes with the rest.
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"The Things People Will Do"
I don't need pity. It's hard to understand being more mean to me than just leaving me alone. Why waste your life?
Pity is fine in general, but someone might attack you if you pity me, aha ha ha.. shine on!
Pity is fine in general, but someone might attack you if you pity me, aha ha ha.. shine on!
Thursday, November 26, 2015
Concerned for That Cause
I've been upset and hitting my sofa with my pillow in my room and pounding and saying to stop.
Bad People
So, people who are bad seem to provide the spirit and are more fun and it can be racist, too.
Problem
They're talking to me thru someone on IMDb just because they saw something on TV, in a mean way. Also, the page won't stop loading.
Problem
They won't stop and they're clogging my blog.
These people are like shrieking to dip their toe in the creek. Every little thing and it gets to me.
These people are like shrieking to dip their toe in the creek. Every little thing and it gets to me.
Problem
I'm getting disapproving attacks from my grandma. People are sending them secretly. We were supposed to be on appropriate terms.
Problem
What say in my life does my oldest aunt have? You can't take away people from my life if I take out frustration physically and feel upset.
Wednesday, November 25, 2015
Problem
I can't promise that bad words won't enter my head, but I don't mean to use them.
Especially how I'm being experimented on and the people being very mean to me and threatening people I know.
Especially how I'm being experimented on and the people being very mean to me and threatening people I know.
Problem
They made the view count go down to represent a certain birth year to rub it in to me like that's how old my mom is.
Then, I found myself logged out while doing something..
Then, I found myself logged out while doing something..
Problem
My oldest aunt led me to say something that sticks out that people will remember. She gets upset if I think I had the right to be upset..
Problem
They are tapping in to meaningful things to me about possible future kids and rubbing someone in.
Problem
My dad was able to make me sound like someone by starting to talk a certain way after mentioning someone.
Problem
They shot across like some maniac and disoriented my look! They've been physically abusive and deserve to go to jail.
Problem
My dad acted like I have to be in the style of 1950 after watching Ellen DeGeneres. They just stopped up my typing when editing, too.
Problem
They cut off my internet again and I had to reload the page.
My dad said about Ellen DeGeneres, "Let me get that n***** on rapport."
I forgot to write my summary cuz I have soup to finish making..
My dad said about Ellen DeGeneres, "Let me get that n***** on rapport."
I forgot to write my summary cuz I have soup to finish making..
Problem
No one should be doing what my dad says, in this. Why am I stuck like this?
It sounds like he went a little crazy, probably thinks me talking is making a scene. That's what Ellen DeGeneres believes because I think people act mean to me without saying.
It sounds like he went a little crazy, probably thinks me talking is making a scene. That's what Ellen DeGeneres believes because I think people act mean to me without saying.
Problem
I also was gonna say Ellen DeGeneres thinks she deserves all the respect I earned from other/prestigious people and I don't.
Problem
My dad said we had to move because of someone I liked. Nasty. That's not why. And I still like them.
My dad coughed he was "doing it to H***" with "my littlest one" and they cut off my internet for a few seconds.
My dad coughed he was "doing it to H***" with "my littlest one" and they cut off my internet for a few seconds.
Problem
I'm not sure who is doing these things to my relationships. I guess it's the experimenters and possibly Ellen DeGeneres. She acts like she did it, sometimes.
Also, I don't know why some people are now able to be seen as better than others.
Also, I don't know why some people are now able to be seen as better than others.
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
Problem
They said someone I like threatened me to death about making Bella Thorne privileged as punishment from Ellen DeGeneres.
Problem
I think Ellen DeGeneres is making me bow down to people in a lame way due to my age being older than those born around 1997-1998.
She's only doing it cuz she thinks I'm in trouble.
This is messing up my life.
She's only doing it cuz she thinks I'm in trouble.
This is messing up my life.
What a Waste
Ellen DeGeneres wants my benefits and treats me like I'm a lower race and takes from me. Can she stop?
Problem
They are stealing from my relationships somehow for Ellen DeGeneres to have alone. How pathetic. They leave of on a sour note every day in pleasure for 3 years.
Problem
Who is causing all these mean things to me? Why are you barging in on my privacy like that? You made me lose my friends.
It sounds -like- too much/drinking..
..resting and reveling pretending I have a problem trying to convince me of it.
I dunno, it just sounds like it. I'm not saying anyone did.
I dunno, it just sounds like it. I'm not saying anyone did.
Problem
I've said this already, they keep playing around like my possible future kids are tacky and submissive.
Problem
They control how my computer loads all the time, and it's so bothering, annoying, frustrating..
My aunt is being weird.
She wants to see me later in the day, but she might be playing around with me. I told my dad, and he acted like it's something above me.
See, I don't wanna put up with this for cursing about noises in my room.
I feel very annoyed by my grandma and oldest aunt, who happen to live together.
See, I don't wanna put up with this for cursing about noises in my room.
I feel very annoyed by my grandma and oldest aunt, who happen to live together.
Problem
Whoever's constantly controlling how my computer loads all the time to send me negative messages and startle me in annoying ways.
Problem
They found reason to mess with a part of my body and won't stop and are behaving snottily and repulsively.
Why I'm Upset
Well, it's a battle living with my dad, and there's the relatives who contact/see me.
My life is messed up. There are pictures of me all over online in old accounts I threw away the passwords to, on purpose.. too much I guess. I've had too many Facebook accounts and lost friends..
I'm outta shape.
For 10 years, I've not known what to do. 2004-2006, failed college experience.. 2007-2010, locked in my room bedridden like posting online. 2010-2013 includes trips to the mental hospital. Cursed about Ellen DeGeneres but not at her so much, I think mostly what she supposedly did (put hurtful noises in my room,) online and tho I was already being hated on this did it for good. I have 0 relationships and heartache. I should forget about it, but these "little things" seem to matter to others.. say, relatives, who have a backseat reserved for the roller coaster of my life. Not so bad. What about these 10 wasted years? I was on meds mostly 2010-2015. It's made me tired and sleep more to make up for it. What if I was close to dying??
My life is messed up. There are pictures of me all over online in old accounts I threw away the passwords to, on purpose.. too much I guess. I've had too many Facebook accounts and lost friends..
I'm outta shape.
For 10 years, I've not known what to do. 2004-2006, failed college experience.. 2007-2010, locked in my room bedridden like posting online. 2010-2013 includes trips to the mental hospital. Cursed about Ellen DeGeneres but not at her so much, I think mostly what she supposedly did (put hurtful noises in my room,) online and tho I was already being hated on this did it for good. I have 0 relationships and heartache. I should forget about it, but these "little things" seem to matter to others.. say, relatives, who have a backseat reserved for the roller coaster of my life. Not so bad. What about these 10 wasted years? I was on meds mostly 2010-2015. It's made me tired and sleep more to make up for it. What if I was close to dying??
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
Elizabeth Banks is an attractive lady.. the one dressed up a lot in The Hunger Games, I think.
Kai was so cute performing. He got to meet a soccer player and shot the ball in after the goalie,the famous soccer player, kicked it out.
Ellie Goulding is such a wonderful person and a talented performer, the singer.
Kai was so cute performing. He got to meet a soccer player and shot the ball in after the goalie,the famous soccer player, kicked it out.
Ellie Goulding is such a wonderful person and a talented performer, the singer.
Problem
They're talking about my mom insultingly. Stop it! Ellen DeGeneres can't do this!! This is crazy. Aside from other issues, this is not an invitation.
She's probably nice to whom she choses.
Every day, I sit here and get her incoming insults and annoyances. Like this about my mom, like she has to do it.
She's probably nice to whom she choses.
Every day, I sit here and get her incoming insults and annoyances. Like this about my mom, like she has to do it.
Something Strange
I noticed that people in my family are relating to other people I know.
I noticed they're not being constantly insulted like me.
I noticed they're not being constantly insulted like me.
Problem
Don't tell me what I think. I didn't say I didn't care about someone. I didn't really get mad if others get to talk to them etc.
Problem
If life's okay, why couldn't you just not have done some of what you did? Like making people seem mean to me that I like a lot?
Problem
They are threatening my possible future kids! if I think of something I like about someone. They're just throwing in all sorts of crazy stuff there.
Posted by Leah Kristen Roth on Monday, November 23, 2015
I never lost a close loved one, but I just get mad otherwise. I miss other things.
I'm sorry for your grief, tho.
I know back in Slidell it's 18 and out. I felt more disconnected family-wise. I figured losing a loved one would be pathetic but coped with my fears.
I've somehow seemed to learn to live for today.. I have had moments.
I also feel since moving and other things no one cares for me. 18 and out.
Thanks for sharing this advice.
Looking Back
I have a life and thanks to anyone who did for ruining it. I interact successfully with others.
Age Old Question
What is wrong? Is Ellen DeGeneres constantly implying I'm not all that? I'm just like any other person of any race or mixed race.
You know, people who are very attractive and romantic as elder figures it seems people want to promote, or if you're born around 1997-1998 .
You know, people who are very attractive and romantic as elder figures it seems people want to promote, or if you're born around 1997-1998 .
I'll never get better..
..how will I learn to live in the world?
I do have career goals in performance and arts, but I can't just expect for sure I'll get a free ride. I've tried.
I do have career goals in performance and arts, but I can't just expect for sure I'll get a free ride. I've tried.
You know what I really hate?
Being on tiring psychotic medication for throwing things in the house and calling the police about being kicked out of a class, they sent him over.
Problem
This doesn't happen to anyone else?
What, is Ellen DeGeneres all big and bad and we have to listen, and if we don't we're "just a copy of everyone else?" She said I have to put up with annoying noises in my room.
What, is Ellen DeGeneres all big and bad and we have to listen, and if we don't we're "just a copy of everyone else?" She said I have to put up with annoying noises in my room.
Problem
What, is someone gonna have a hissy fit? Let's focus more on that if you wanna think about anything to do with this.
Problem
If I cursed at or about Ellen DeGeneres, does not mean you can tell people what to do concerning me.
I'm not here to play
little baby games of pretending I'm bad so much and then saying it didn't happen.
No..
I don't agree with you. My mom doesn't, neither. Neither does you all's. Don't tell my mom what to do! Hello? So, what's going on?? She did the right thing, but she shouldn't have had to have done anything.
You people are so wrong. You're racist and feel I'm a burden, and my life can get depressing.
You people are so wrong. You're racist and feel I'm a burden, and my life can get depressing.
Problem
I think this projection of Ellen DeGeneres is wrong, like she thinks my life doesn't matter, outside of watching her show. I feel I could die and my dad wouldn't care..
They keep acting like I did something. It's gotten in the way a lot..
Just my thought. I can see it. Like, once I mattered, now I don't.
They keep acting like I did something. It's gotten in the way a lot..
Just my thought. I can see it. Like, once I mattered, now I don't.
cont.
Noises that sounded like negative secret messages. She just argues it wasn't that bad.. but it was bad. She even uses logic like that. If it's something small or complicated, it's just one big thing that sounds logical.
She thinks it's her mission in life to take things from me. I have a life outside of Ellen DeGeneres.
She thinks it's her mission in life to take things from me. I have a life outside of Ellen DeGeneres.
Problem
So, what did I do exactly that made it wrong? I was the one under attack.
It's just another Ellen DeGeneres attack. She brings light to negativity by mentioning not to think certain things, and for some reason then you think it.
Then, I cursed.. about noises in my room a long time. She didn't act like she was saying to stop, I dunno.
I made an adult joke that was inappropriate, too. I said sorry, was a mistake. Must have been later on in the game..
It's just another Ellen DeGeneres attack. She brings light to negativity by mentioning not to think certain things, and for some reason then you think it.
Then, I cursed.. about noises in my room a long time. She didn't act like she was saying to stop, I dunno.
I made an adult joke that was inappropriate, too. I said sorry, was a mistake. Must have been later on in the game..
Problem
So, I had a good relationship and the good ones are mean to me. This isn't right. No one cares. Why should we care if you say it's like this?
Monday, November 23, 2015
Problem
Ellen DeGeneres needs to stop messing with me and my family. Someone who works for her wants to have my mom and treat her like a baby or she k***s her etc. like she's powerful in Australia.
Problem
They keep acting like I did something in being mad at them and cursing about it for what they did.
Problem
They said no that I said I'm not paying like I've done anything. It's like something has happened.
Problem
I'm not sure if I'm totally cooled off. What should I do? This was so ridiculous! The people here are messed up. How is any place "too good" for anyone? I want to ignore people and feel good. People keep acting like my parents are like domineering over my life. I'm taking a break outside. They keep pressuring me after something good happens and upsetting me then taking away something. I have goals to be something and someone.
Problem
Something bad came to mind cuza that person as I was zipping up my bag. They are gonna bother me for it. Sorry.. It was an accident. I am mad, tho, about other things.
Mad
I don't know who I'm mad at if I would be at anyone. I'm just upset. I know the source of certain problems. I know no one cares about me. I know my dad might be in the way.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
I'm so glad to see the people excited about 12 Days on Ellen. I was there last year.
Sylvester Stallone was very cool. He is such a good actor. I saw 1 or 2 Expendebles movies. It was popular on the IMDb Message Boards.
I hope Andy's father is okay. He's someone who helps with the filming of the show.
Sylvester Stallone was very cool. He is such a good actor. I saw 1 or 2 Expendebles movies. It was popular on the IMDb Message Boards.
I hope Andy's father is okay. He's someone who helps with the filming of the show.
Problem
They went a little overboard and had someone on IMDb say something weird from something odd.. They probably are just socks.
Problem
My dad acted like someone was h*** then said birthday. As I left, he muttered something. He thinks I gave up a boy for someone I like. How ridiculous.
Problem
They tapped into my hips to make them not stimulated, and I couldn't feel my pee like my whole life. I wonder if it will even fix.. So, you're gonna pay. You injured me. You freaked me out. What, we can't fix it? I don't mean it in a threatening way.
Just Woke Up.. and Ate
So, why does Ellen DeGeneres lie about what she does? Sometimes, she says she's nice, but sometimes she's not.
Problem
Ellen DeGeneres should be arrested for threatening people who are nice to me.
No offense, but it's true.
No offense, but it's true.
Problem
Ellen DeGeneres thinks I'm pathetic and deserve nothing. She thinks I want something when I say this.
Problem
I bet Ellen DeGeneres put pressure on my mom to be mean to me most of the time and about every time I see her.
Weird Questions
Why do you ask me questions you already know the answer to? You just wanna ruin my blog.
Problem
I SAID TO STOP.
If I want to release my anger I have the right. It's not like I want to be that way, tho.
If I want to release my anger I have the right. It's not like I want to be that way, tho.
Problem
They weren't supposed to mess with a certain area with me but did it anyway cuz I was upset hitting/kicking my sofa in anger when they did it. How lame.
I know..
..I don't want to hear anymore of weird stuff cuz I have cursed about the hurtful noises etc. they put in my room.
Problem
I can write whatever I want. Why does it bother you? You shouldn't be inappropriate to me like I did something.
Problem
So, then, why did Ellen act like she takes away all my relationships and doesn't understand why I'm upset?
Problem
They are vile and disgusting.
I have a right to be mad about Ellen DeGeneres.. for ruining my future relationships. I didn't post my confused thoughts, tho. I don't know what's these people's problems. She looks "low and dirty" on Twitter today. Talking about tearing up stuff symbolically for other meanings. She won't stop being mean to me!
I have a right to be mad about Ellen DeGeneres.. for ruining my future relationships. I didn't post my confused thoughts, tho. I don't know what's these people's problems. She looks "low and dirty" on Twitter today. Talking about tearing up stuff symbolically for other meanings. She won't stop being mean to me!
Problem
They made some noises that affected inside my hips that took away the tight feeling. I was upset before at them doing something else and this keeps coming up.
What's going on? This shouldn't be happening. You're taking away my freedom.
Hello.. I said to stop.
What's going on? This shouldn't be happening. You're taking away my freedom.
Hello.. I said to stop.
Sunday, November 22, 2015
Problem
I keep not watching Ellen on Fridays. I hope I do, tomorrow is Monday. It's fun to see her chronologically.
Life Before
My life was nice before Ellen DeGeneres. What is she on, seriously? Something like that, I mean no offense in how I use this phrase, "What is she on?" Something isn't right. Something is not there. Obviously, I care and I'm suffering.
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"Bummer"
Ellen DeGeneres is someone who really sees that people have to be mean to me cuz she's sacred and I cursed about her putting hurtful noises in my room.
Problem
I'm the one who's normal. You keep bothering me. I can't seem to relax. My mom is so mean to me all the time because my dad is mad at me. He just doesn't want to get a heart attack. :(
Problem
You all care about your kids and not me, not even my parents. You won't leave me alone to socialize.
Problem
They are always being mean to me. My mom and at least a little that my dad thinks is worth to muster..
Oh, yea.
Ellen DeGeneres seems to have one underlying issue, that everyone isn't a smiley clown with bright hair.
..who goes around being overly perky and reveling to some degree in physical features that oneself possesses.
..who goes around being overly perky and reveling to some degree in physical features that oneself possesses.
Issue
I can't seem to help from keep feeling Ellen DeGeneres has gone off the deep end, but I am concerned about her..
It's hard to remember why, but it's pretty obvious.
Maybe, I'm just mad at the messenger..
It's hard to remember why, but it's pretty obvious.
Maybe, I'm just mad at the messenger..
Problem
It seems I can't live in the world because of Ellen DeGeneres. Everything for me is for Bella Thorne. She says well I pay attention to you, but when I'm not watching the show it's like I can't talk to anyone else.
Not Backing Down
If people don't wanna be around someone and that someone shies away, why do they get to attack me?
Problem
It seems true Ellen DeGeneres has gotten me convincingly alienated from others cuz it doesn't matter. If not, it's my dad or the experiment. I didn't do anything to deserve this kind of treatment.
Problem
Look, I don't know what's going on with people torturing me in my room with the computer and noises.
Issue
I shouldn't just be mad, but I question the suggestion about Ellen DeGeneres supposedly "meddling" in others's lives, mine and people I know. It probably isn't her, and we should give her the benefit of the doubt. However, someone could be out doing something. We don't know. I just know a lot of mean things have been secretly said or symbolized. Why would you insult me just to have me ignore it?
Problem
People keep acting perverted by saying about me, "It's not 'it,'" in a perverted way, like I'm "not some typical girl with blonde curls."
Problem
Ever since I cursed about the noises in my room or whatever, it seems I can't feel good with other people because of Ellen DeGeneres being involved. She didn't have a problem until I was able to stop, at least using curse words. She just can't admit it was wrong. I had a right to be mad, and I guess I just lost it. I don't have to do that, but I guess it seemed okay in circumstances and I wasn't even really cursing right at her mostly and blotted out entire words. They are fighting me and bothering me. They are making life not worth it. They keep overshadowing me with Bella Thorne, too, like all the stuff I deserve is now nothing, relationships, attention, approval. I need to find a way to get my life back since Ellen DeGeneres and this "stuff." I'm very upset. Ellen DeGeneres thinks it's okay and I feel confined by the belief of Tim Burton and her that a non-famous person can only know 1 famous person, too, because Ellen DeGeneres thinks I'm bad. They are watching and talking to me in my room with clicks. They are taking away all my happiness. My parents are always mean in attitude towards me, too.
Successful People
Did you notice most successful people aren't as mean as Ellen DeGeneres?
Disclaimer: Mean - she's rough and tough and it comes off that way to many people. I find it mean to me.. not sure what else to say about that. Don't feel like writing a long thing about it.. I mean, it's overly obvious.
Disclaimer: Mean - she's rough and tough and it comes off that way to many people. I find it mean to me.. not sure what else to say about that. Don't feel like writing a long thing about it.. I mean, it's overly obvious.
Saturday, November 21, 2015
Facebookers
People who go on Facebook just a little are not to be trusted. They are wallowing in self-pride.
Pattern
People like to make the lives of those who are low uplifted and don't wish to better the upper crust socially.
Youthfullness
People forget they are nicer to younger people and tell others older that it doesn't work that way.
Problem
I don't know, but I think this is coming from the experiment, but Ellen DeGeneres thinks I no longer deserve people to be nice to me and make me feel good.
Younger People
I'm not listening to this nonsense of how younger kids with younger parents are in some program where we feel how they deserve more.
Deserving or Undeserving
How do people gain the status of deserving everything while different kinds of people don't?
How Silly
People think if they make you feel upset on the inside that you did something mean on purpose. And if they won't stop bothering you..
Problem
They keep bringing up Bella Thorne and say I don't deserve anything. Ellen DeGeneres did this, supposedly. Everyone does it for her.
Mistreatment
People encourage other people to be happy but not me. They think being an experiment is enough for me.
I see other people are upset and no one gets upset back.
They act servile/submissive. Like, they think they are good to.. want to punish or be mean to others like they deserve it. It's taken as a sign of interest, and they are encouraged in their wishes.
Problem
They keep acting like my possible future daughter is being hurt/made fun of. I was upset and they brought it up, which made me more upset. I think my grandma and oldest aunt are behind this.
People Being Better Than Others
Are kids really more appropriate than young adults today that they deserve better?
I don't understand..
..what do people expect to accomplish in life if all they do is sit around like a baby, in that aspect?
Evil Racism
What do you think when people think Asians are evil? Like no one should be nice to them?
Problem
My mom tried to imprint ugliness on my face. She was acting like I was the bad one and tapping me out. I keep having to fight off some feeling.
Problem
So, this making my possible future kids dead thing seems to be true, they say. They did it. Like k***ing the comforts.
Problem
There are more suggestions of my being called not white on IMDb that might have lasted a long time to say and make the statement.
Problem
An account online just said someone said something about me not being white, but I think it's the people experimenting on me.
Problem
It feels like they're k***ing my possible future kids. I feel like I can fight and have to do that to not let it happen/
Racial Assumptions
If you downgrade another race, like by having a 1/2 Indian (India) boy and wondering if they want to be raised as not white.. because it's obvious other races always want to be white.. then why not racially downgrade people from the white race where possible?
Problem
They keep acting like my possible future kids have problems. I used to suck it up, and now an old teacher in the city/Orlando has a problem cuz I felt upset and also quit.
Problem
Why is Ellen DeGeneres acting like she's withheld being the dainty one with me as a monster and sucking it in about me being supposedly bad and her effortlessly perfect? It's like a ruler or something, and a new measurement comes in regulated time/space.
Friday, November 20, 2015
Problem
My mom keeps having problems with me. (It might be because of Ellen DeGeneres, like many things.)
She doesn't tell me unless it's obvious, tho, that I am frustrated.
She doesn't tell me unless it's obvious, tho, that I am frustrated.
Problem
I hate my life.
I'm always with mean parents trapping me and the mean people experimenting on me.
I'm always with mean parents trapping me and the mean people experimenting on me.
Problem
They keep teasing me that I can't relate to others for my oldest aunt and say, "Well, what about someone else you seemed to like?"
Problem
They make noises interrupting me when I think of people and happy thoughts. They also did other things.
Supposedly my oldest aunt and grandma did it. Ellen supposedly feels she needs to support it.
Problem
They are telling me I am bad and don't deserve things I get. It's about relationships again. Not sure where this is coming from. No one talks to me. No one can tell me what to do.
IMDb - The Soapbox
I kept peeing in my pants today at beginning adult gymnastics. I had an Ultra tampon in.
...
At least mostly white, I think.
I really liked her a lot. It was a sub who teaches intermediate/advanced gymnastics.
She whipped me into shape.
She is quite a bit taller than me but not too tall, reddish hair cut short, maybe with some volume yet mostly straight/waved. Not sure what color her eyes are. It was me and 2 other girls mostly. She is probably in her early 50s or 40s.
She helped me flip back with my feet up on a square thing.
I often get there early to watch the kids and I see her then.
...
At least mostly white, I think.
I really liked her a lot. It was a sub who teaches intermediate/advanced gymnastics.
She whipped me into shape.
She is quite a bit taller than me but not too tall, reddish hair cut short, maybe with some volume yet mostly straight/waved. Not sure what color her eyes are. It was me and 2 other girls mostly. She is probably in her early 50s or 40s.
She helped me flip back with my feet up on a square thing.
I often get there early to watch the kids and I see her then.
Help?
I don't want anything bad to happen, but when I watched my dad take his insulin shots he had upset me and just kept upsetting me. I know I was very mad and stomped softly telling him to stop. He brought it up at supper, tho he didn't seem to notice before.
What if something else like this happens somehow?
Oh, and I watch him for support. I always asked him like if it was okay and counted for him.
It seems others no but pay no mind to that he was being mean. I didn't know what to think so wanted him to stop. Why would he be able to be so mean at a time like that?
I told him about my beliefs about diabetes. I said you can have something from the vitamin extracting blender I got. The other pills most likely cause it. You might need to be more fit. People have gotten off diabetes medicine with vitamin extracting shakes. He just doesn't care, he takes his shots.
I have diabetes, but I've had like 3 pills added cuz I don't wanna start shots. I'm trying to figure out how to be healthy. We all have at least slightly different preferences and taste with food, but we can at least all take vitamin extracting blender shakes/juices if we have a health problem. It seems to solve anything to some degree. I have not heard from cancer cases.. I happened to read cholesterol pills double up certain nutrients and so maybe you have to ask your doctor.
I think the biggest danger in Type 2 Diabetes is however you could get Type 1.. it seems incurable and you're born that way.
I don't think he likes a lotta gyms. Some are more expensive than others. I used to have fun working out with him.
I dunno what could have caused this terrible experience. Well, he was talking when I was using the toilet. It seemed to affect me somewhat negatively, like I know it was to annoy me. I didn't know, was due to watch him. They do annoying stuff to me all the time. I tried a little maybe to feel better but didn't work. I just felt I needed it to stop. You know, these weird things did not happen before.
So, dunno.. would be nice to motivate people.
What if something else like this happens somehow?
Oh, and I watch him for support. I always asked him like if it was okay and counted for him.
It seems others no but pay no mind to that he was being mean. I didn't know what to think so wanted him to stop. Why would he be able to be so mean at a time like that?
I told him about my beliefs about diabetes. I said you can have something from the vitamin extracting blender I got. The other pills most likely cause it. You might need to be more fit. People have gotten off diabetes medicine with vitamin extracting shakes. He just doesn't care, he takes his shots.
I have diabetes, but I've had like 3 pills added cuz I don't wanna start shots. I'm trying to figure out how to be healthy. We all have at least slightly different preferences and taste with food, but we can at least all take vitamin extracting blender shakes/juices if we have a health problem. It seems to solve anything to some degree. I have not heard from cancer cases.. I happened to read cholesterol pills double up certain nutrients and so maybe you have to ask your doctor.
I think the biggest danger in Type 2 Diabetes is however you could get Type 1.. it seems incurable and you're born that way.
I don't think he likes a lotta gyms. Some are more expensive than others. I used to have fun working out with him.
I dunno what could have caused this terrible experience. Well, he was talking when I was using the toilet. It seemed to affect me somewhat negatively, like I know it was to annoy me. I didn't know, was due to watch him. They do annoying stuff to me all the time. I tried a little maybe to feel better but didn't work. I just felt I needed it to stop. You know, these weird things did not happen before.
So, dunno.. would be nice to motivate people.
Weightloss Race
People who get thin by not eating enough/enough of the right things seem to be very catty and defensive of who they are meant to be.
Problem
I don't like constantly being insulted by Ellen DeGeneres with Bella Thorne and other people I like.
Problem
Ellen DeGeneres seems to have a problem with my mom supporting me and thinks she was mean to others like she wants to be marketable but is too nice to me. I am an adult and don't need anyone to start "telling me what to do."
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
Epic of Fail was interesting.
Bryan Cranston, a middle aged actor, seemed very astute.
Sophia Grace and Rosie were on. The blonde has a toddler little brother, and the brunette has a toddler baby sister.
I feel Ellen DeGeneres wants to act bad emotionally because I act good and I cursed about noises in my room.. so that there is no way I can enjoy life, like I did something and deserve to be punished forever. I think my dad backs up this. I wish I would get help figuring this out so I don't have to be clueless here. I told you some people in Orlando are so foolish to believe it's okay to see me driving a dump truck. My dad and Ellen DeGeneres want me to know I don't matter and so wish to dispose of me ..because they are Baby Boomers and think only they rule the world. They've gone insane thinking it's time for chance. Maybe, there's things I can do without.
Also, I felt like Ellen made my chest feel like an African-American.. like I'm not white. So what if I told you? You'd never guess. You give others a chance cuz they don't really beat you.
I just want to say here that there is no reason to discriminate against me as a person for racial lies. I don't want to stop the party and the dancing and celebrating.
Don't you think Ellen really was mean to hurt my breast? It was when the English girls were on. Nuff said.
No one has the right to tell me what to do racially. I don't get it. She's just mad at me now. Not much to say there.
I just know I'm right and it's wrong for people to get back at me by calling me the N word. I am the one who was nice to begin with and didn't even attack when others did to me, so meanly like they did.
I didn't live with this before and won't stop now. Who am I, Martin Luther King, Jr.?
I look white. My life matters as much as others. Other people are lazy but get jealous at people who are active racially. They think it just comes to them on a silver platter, and it does. They probably notice in some ways I seem better at some things. I've seen adults.. when I realize there's room for everyone, they believe I am right and take back all the racism and say like they're stupid.
Why doesn't anyone wanna talk to me and tell me why they're racist? I have to wait? I didn't have this problem before.
Why didn't anyone help me out with Ellen? I didn't want to hurt her feelings when she was mean to me, supposedly. Whoever done it.
I don't want to feel like my chest is not how I want it racially.
So? Anyone have any advice out there? Guessing not or not to contact me. I can display your message on my blog or talk in my forum.
You know, people think I'm a sin. Like I don't have anything worth it to others. I didn't do anything. So what if your dad is Elvis and your mom is Marilyn Monroe? Doesn't make me rotting cheese. You know, it doesn't matter what you say, think, or express. I'm obviously not talking to Ellen. Ha, I mean racially it doesn't matter. I can say that. You wanna fight that, tho? Can you even think on that level anti-racistly? Obviously in a bad way you can. What point are you trying to prove? If Africans were white, you'd accept them. You're not the one being discriminated against. You're lazy and have problems, like anyone of any race or species!
So, think, you're just extra mean to me cuz I think I'm white and you know I can get attention over you and you just freak out. I have this problem with thousands or millions of people I see.
Technically, you think I have something wrong racially that I don't see, like some fine details. I am not racist against Asians, but I don't. You even get very jealous of Asians. That's why kids act out unknowingly.
I do get alone with people disinterested in me cuz they know my race already. Aha! That's all you wanted to know, and you wanted to create a fight so I can't get ahead.
So..
Bryan Cranston, a middle aged actor, seemed very astute.
Sophia Grace and Rosie were on. The blonde has a toddler little brother, and the brunette has a toddler baby sister.
I feel Ellen DeGeneres wants to act bad emotionally because I act good and I cursed about noises in my room.. so that there is no way I can enjoy life, like I did something and deserve to be punished forever. I think my dad backs up this. I wish I would get help figuring this out so I don't have to be clueless here. I told you some people in Orlando are so foolish to believe it's okay to see me driving a dump truck. My dad and Ellen DeGeneres want me to know I don't matter and so wish to dispose of me ..because they are Baby Boomers and think only they rule the world. They've gone insane thinking it's time for chance. Maybe, there's things I can do without.
Also, I felt like Ellen made my chest feel like an African-American.. like I'm not white. So what if I told you? You'd never guess. You give others a chance cuz they don't really beat you.
I just want to say here that there is no reason to discriminate against me as a person for racial lies. I don't want to stop the party and the dancing and celebrating.
Don't you think Ellen really was mean to hurt my breast? It was when the English girls were on. Nuff said.
No one has the right to tell me what to do racially. I don't get it. She's just mad at me now. Not much to say there.
I just know I'm right and it's wrong for people to get back at me by calling me the N word. I am the one who was nice to begin with and didn't even attack when others did to me, so meanly like they did.
I didn't live with this before and won't stop now. Who am I, Martin Luther King, Jr.?
I look white. My life matters as much as others. Other people are lazy but get jealous at people who are active racially. They think it just comes to them on a silver platter, and it does. They probably notice in some ways I seem better at some things. I've seen adults.. when I realize there's room for everyone, they believe I am right and take back all the racism and say like they're stupid.
Why doesn't anyone wanna talk to me and tell me why they're racist? I have to wait? I didn't have this problem before.
Why didn't anyone help me out with Ellen? I didn't want to hurt her feelings when she was mean to me, supposedly. Whoever done it.
I don't want to feel like my chest is not how I want it racially.
So? Anyone have any advice out there? Guessing not or not to contact me. I can display your message on my blog or talk in my forum.
You know, people think I'm a sin. Like I don't have anything worth it to others. I didn't do anything. So what if your dad is Elvis and your mom is Marilyn Monroe? Doesn't make me rotting cheese. You know, it doesn't matter what you say, think, or express. I'm obviously not talking to Ellen. Ha, I mean racially it doesn't matter. I can say that. You wanna fight that, tho? Can you even think on that level anti-racistly? Obviously in a bad way you can. What point are you trying to prove? If Africans were white, you'd accept them. You're not the one being discriminated against. You're lazy and have problems, like anyone of any race or species!
So, think, you're just extra mean to me cuz I think I'm white and you know I can get attention over you and you just freak out. I have this problem with thousands or millions of people I see.
Technically, you think I have something wrong racially that I don't see, like some fine details. I am not racist against Asians, but I don't. You even get very jealous of Asians. That's why kids act out unknowingly.
I do get alone with people disinterested in me cuz they know my race already. Aha! That's all you wanted to know, and you wanted to create a fight so I can't get ahead.
So..
Thursday, November 19, 2015
Question
Why do people get mad if someone else is not exactly like me?
They think it's my job suggestively not to be who I want, like a disobedient princess.
It's an all-around inappropriate thing, suggested as a punishment for some assumed reason.
Being Bad?
Ellen DeGeneres think's I'm bad. She thinks I should be punished. It's racist cuz she doesn't do this to others. She judges people for if they are perfect.
I'm not trying to be insulting, but it sounds like an issue.
I'm good myself to people, yet digs up things from the past with her opinion, constantly. So, that would only worry me. Sometimes, I feel limited in my scope of life or like it's becoming that way. I often tell the people experimenting on me to be quiet in my thoughts. I'm not ready to be insulted, apparently. I don't live as the only one dragging guilt from the past.
I'm not trying to be insulting, but it sounds like an issue.
I'm good myself to people, yet digs up things from the past with her opinion, constantly. So, that would only worry me. Sometimes, I feel limited in my scope of life or like it's becoming that way. I often tell the people experimenting on me to be quiet in my thoughts. I'm not ready to be insulted, apparently. I don't live as the only one dragging guilt from the past.
Problem
I was saying, "No," in my room being bothered and then the people on TV were racist and I said, "No," angrily a few times. They just kept on feeling drawn to being that way and feeling accepted. Now, I'm the one who people think I can't have my racial freedom.
Unwelcome
Funny, I think some people hang welcomed and casually, yet I'm considered it's my bad to have spoken.
Problem
They're bugging me a lot to show off and I'm sick of having to flood my blog with their tomfoolery. Here, you wanna sit here and do this but with no one caring?
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
Problem
They are getting sick pretending to torture my possible future kids and maim and disfigure them figuratively.
Spoiled Punishers
Every time I get upset, people change a feature of a major social networking site.
Looks
It's funny that if I looked symmetrical and extra-bulbous or glowing or something that I'd be called the N word.
Problems
I don't know who's doing this, I guess, but connected to Ellen DeGeneres I see Twitch got a tattoo that has something in common with my name.
...Once, Ellen DeGeneres was upset and plaqued 2 seats in her audience. She seems 1/2 asleep.. "Oh, I must punish sometimes, be nice sometimes." Actually, if you don't bother anyone/do anything illegal, nothing bad should happen, and if it's a mistake nothing is supposed to happen, neither. Clearly, I don't do anything...
I did get upset in private and acted like everyone else gets to judging what Ellen DeGeneres is to us. I made the decision definitive, like 2nd nature, that I knew it was something weird and a mistake.
I don't think I need anyone to do these things to me. I got the vibe that my dad was bad to me, but something bad was done to him that hurt me.
I really have no problems. I'm clearly a normal person who appreciates weird things. I don't know what's up. Over-perfectionism combined with "passing judgement." I know all this writing and stuff isn't important over people being happy, living an honest life.
Something else I wanted to talk about, but I forgot now.
All I can think is poor Twitch. Maybe, he has a king chess piece and his wife the queen as tattoos because they are on top of the world. Who knows?
I don't like how this is a game that I'm atypical if I get mad when Ellen DeGeneres seems condescending.
Anyway, so why did Twitch get a tattoo?
I was upset I guess, but I didn't mean any harm. Hard to write this. I just feel uncomfortable or wonder about it as something inappropriate how it could possibly connect.
F.Y.I. something special is Johnny Depp gets an Ellen tattoo every time he is on Ellen. You know, when I was younger these things opened up to me, I wasn't scum under the crease of the underside of Ellen DeGeneres's shoe, aha ha. I feel it's unfair I have been wanting to act but got bothered. 21. Now 29. I feel I'm nothing cuz I'm not famous.
I'm applying to agencies, but I feel dumb cuz it's so hard to get in shape. I know I have to wait for January to get a shelf to organize my room more but have a plan for the meantime. It just helps so much.
Look what I get for watching Ellen. It's not "in part for viewers like you." It's work. She pretends to be big and bad like things we think are right are wrong. Maybe, people have a soft spot or vulnerability. She already says she doesn't have to live under her own scrutiny.
It's funny people without kids think they don't sacrifice.. I don't have kids as of now tho sorry I am not in m******** just saying. It's like everything is for your own kids, but kids and not me freely roam around socializing without racism.
I'm sorry if this sound sarcastic. I am not writing this to Ellen DeGeneres but to "seek help." Why should she read underdeveloped thoughts like this, anyway? Practice! If someone on her caliber read it, I'd say they were good readers.
So, this post seems kinda pointless.. Does anyone know tho about the issue of Twitch getting a tattoo? Does he really want it?
I am not some object to be played with. I don't need any discipline! I'm already nice. I know life. I'm an adult. What about other adults? Here I am! Here I am! Tell me why I'm not worth anything. I'm ready to discuss it before its stench reaches someone who's of a high social caliber.
So, you probably inferred thoughts that seemed to touch my thinking, but I'm just saying it's kinda weird and doesn't make sense for Twitch. I realize you can piece it out, but in the end it sounds like people's punishments. I did find a reason, as I said. He didn't say why he got it, which may or may not seem funny.
I feel kinda bad for talking about it and getting upset to myself, losing control of my thoughts. It seems harder being an experiment. What am I gonna do about things like this, tho? This one was really weird. It's hard to know why it seems weird, but it seems a bad outcome would result if Twitch doesn't really like it.
About it seeming like I'm in trouble, it seems like a delayed move. I really only get upset when people are mean to me. I don't go attacking people. I know how to avoid and ignore people, too. I don't want to be bad. Why get in trouble for other people hurting you? and you feel the appropriate way to feel, upset.
I'm thinking of all the people out there and wonder about people with benefits and it just seems we need to take a deep breath and be nice. I don't mean this in a bad way, like "trying to be smart." I just can't get why one person is worth it and one person is not. I know I struggle with my diet and exercise, but I do some of it. I think I've lodged 2 forms on cancer somewhere orbing within my skull. It seems small, maybe like a (flat) mole/s instead of lots of freckles.
I'm worried this is gonna be "taken the wrong way.." It's funny the things I'm drawn to write about. I can't seem to find closure to this, like saying why I said it. It was because it bothered me, but that's not what I wrote about specifically.
Do you think Ellen DeGeneres is "just sitting there" dishing out things that significantly affect me in a negative way? I'm not being sarcastic. Should I think I'm in trouble? Shouldn't I feel sorry for Twitch? So it's because I deserve to be punished? No one just feels sorry for me feeling bad in Orlando with no one I can get close to other than my parents, which is one reason I live with them but at age 29, tho it's cuz I wanna act actually too. I dunno, the people here I feel for. I've grown to be attracted to them.
So, it's about me being in trouble because I get upset when people are mean to me. Any ideas? Before something bad happens? Why doesn't anyone tell me these things? I'm already good like my parents said. I know my parents sometimes want me to shut away.
Well, Twitch, enjoy your tattoo! Oh, also, it looks like a key. If you don't like it, well. It seems he does, for now..
I wonder why my dad thinks I should be punished innocent. I disagree with this. He's always seemed to feel this way. It seems life was too hard for me, too, but I was a nice person.
Closing: I don't mean this in a sarcastic way. I'm just concerned about others + expressing something that seemed it needed to be dealt with. I also mentioned I think all this writing isn't worth it if not for the good of others 1st.
...Once, Ellen DeGeneres was upset and plaqued 2 seats in her audience. She seems 1/2 asleep.. "Oh, I must punish sometimes, be nice sometimes." Actually, if you don't bother anyone/do anything illegal, nothing bad should happen, and if it's a mistake nothing is supposed to happen, neither. Clearly, I don't do anything...
I did get upset in private and acted like everyone else gets to judging what Ellen DeGeneres is to us. I made the decision definitive, like 2nd nature, that I knew it was something weird and a mistake.
I don't think I need anyone to do these things to me. I got the vibe that my dad was bad to me, but something bad was done to him that hurt me.
I really have no problems. I'm clearly a normal person who appreciates weird things. I don't know what's up. Over-perfectionism combined with "passing judgement." I know all this writing and stuff isn't important over people being happy, living an honest life.
Something else I wanted to talk about, but I forgot now.
All I can think is poor Twitch. Maybe, he has a king chess piece and his wife the queen as tattoos because they are on top of the world. Who knows?
I don't like how this is a game that I'm atypical if I get mad when Ellen DeGeneres seems condescending.
Anyway, so why did Twitch get a tattoo?
I was upset I guess, but I didn't mean any harm. Hard to write this. I just feel uncomfortable or wonder about it as something inappropriate how it could possibly connect.
F.Y.I. something special is Johnny Depp gets an Ellen tattoo every time he is on Ellen. You know, when I was younger these things opened up to me, I wasn't scum under the crease of the underside of Ellen DeGeneres's shoe, aha ha. I feel it's unfair I have been wanting to act but got bothered. 21. Now 29. I feel I'm nothing cuz I'm not famous.
I'm applying to agencies, but I feel dumb cuz it's so hard to get in shape. I know I have to wait for January to get a shelf to organize my room more but have a plan for the meantime. It just helps so much.
Look what I get for watching Ellen. It's not "in part for viewers like you." It's work. She pretends to be big and bad like things we think are right are wrong. Maybe, people have a soft spot or vulnerability. She already says she doesn't have to live under her own scrutiny.
It's funny people without kids think they don't sacrifice.. I don't have kids as of now tho sorry I am not in m******** just saying. It's like everything is for your own kids, but kids and not me freely roam around socializing without racism.
I'm sorry if this sound sarcastic. I am not writing this to Ellen DeGeneres but to "seek help." Why should she read underdeveloped thoughts like this, anyway? Practice! If someone on her caliber read it, I'd say they were good readers.
So, this post seems kinda pointless.. Does anyone know tho about the issue of Twitch getting a tattoo? Does he really want it?
I am not some object to be played with. I don't need any discipline! I'm already nice. I know life. I'm an adult. What about other adults? Here I am! Here I am! Tell me why I'm not worth anything. I'm ready to discuss it before its stench reaches someone who's of a high social caliber.
So, you probably inferred thoughts that seemed to touch my thinking, but I'm just saying it's kinda weird and doesn't make sense for Twitch. I realize you can piece it out, but in the end it sounds like people's punishments. I did find a reason, as I said. He didn't say why he got it, which may or may not seem funny.
I feel kinda bad for talking about it and getting upset to myself, losing control of my thoughts. It seems harder being an experiment. What am I gonna do about things like this, tho? This one was really weird. It's hard to know why it seems weird, but it seems a bad outcome would result if Twitch doesn't really like it.
About it seeming like I'm in trouble, it seems like a delayed move. I really only get upset when people are mean to me. I don't go attacking people. I know how to avoid and ignore people, too. I don't want to be bad. Why get in trouble for other people hurting you? and you feel the appropriate way to feel, upset.
I'm thinking of all the people out there and wonder about people with benefits and it just seems we need to take a deep breath and be nice. I don't mean this in a bad way, like "trying to be smart." I just can't get why one person is worth it and one person is not. I know I struggle with my diet and exercise, but I do some of it. I think I've lodged 2 forms on cancer somewhere orbing within my skull. It seems small, maybe like a (flat) mole/s instead of lots of freckles.
I'm worried this is gonna be "taken the wrong way.." It's funny the things I'm drawn to write about. I can't seem to find closure to this, like saying why I said it. It was because it bothered me, but that's not what I wrote about specifically.
Do you think Ellen DeGeneres is "just sitting there" dishing out things that significantly affect me in a negative way? I'm not being sarcastic. Should I think I'm in trouble? Shouldn't I feel sorry for Twitch? So it's because I deserve to be punished? No one just feels sorry for me feeling bad in Orlando with no one I can get close to other than my parents, which is one reason I live with them but at age 29, tho it's cuz I wanna act actually too. I dunno, the people here I feel for. I've grown to be attracted to them.
So, it's about me being in trouble because I get upset when people are mean to me. Any ideas? Before something bad happens? Why doesn't anyone tell me these things? I'm already good like my parents said. I know my parents sometimes want me to shut away.
Well, Twitch, enjoy your tattoo! Oh, also, it looks like a key. If you don't like it, well. It seems he does, for now..
I wonder why my dad thinks I should be punished innocent. I disagree with this. He's always seemed to feel this way. It seems life was too hard for me, too, but I was a nice person.
Closing: I don't mean this in a sarcastic way. I'm just concerned about others + expressing something that seemed it needed to be dealt with. I also mentioned I think all this writing isn't worth it if not for the good of others 1st.
Issue
People are nice to white/racist people, but with me I get treated badly racially and it's so important to others. They don't get in trouble for things they didn't do.
Wondering
I feel cool popular famous people bargain with me that I have to accept being mistreated or I'm off the fan list. I am not talking in extreme, just something I'm wondering. I guess other people won't go thru this.. and if they do will get more sympathy/feel less pain possibly, unless they want to show me off. I am happy like before. I like to watch others. Why look for ways to make me feel in trouble, tho? I mean, is there some way we can just get to the goal so I can live my once successful life? The problem is I like lots of things and it takes too much time to be sharp. I might still be developing as a person "what" I am. What's the good in minoring in an art and majoring in thinking major?
There are celebrities I am jealous of. Why not go full out and try to be a famous performing artist?
There are celebrities I am jealous of. Why not go full out and try to be a famous performing artist?
Problem
My dad runs into me in a way to annoy me and makes gestures of messing with certain parts. You know, if I feel upset and he thinks I need to be punished outright.
I know this for a fact. I come in and am positive initially the 1st time, but there's always some problem for me like it doesn't matter and I have no life.
You know what my teachers encouraged?
That you're not supposed to enjoy if you should interact with them.
Correlations
My dad made a simple mistake. He noticed I had a problem and assumed my mom could have it, too, without thinking.
Change of Times
They are going back and saying my generation didn't deserve to supposedly have it all.
They just have nothing to do and are too embarrassed at what they did.
I notice some people fight or fight others together about if you should look more or less detailed with fine points or be more one big force of energy.
They just have nothing to do and are too embarrassed at what they did.
I notice some people fight or fight others together about if you should look more or less detailed with fine points or be more one big force of energy.
Problems
They are acting triumphant when my thoughts unravel so I can't figure anything without them cutting me off.
They are also suggesting weird ideas.
They are also suggesting weird ideas.
Someone/Some people secretly say I'm Viet, Filipino, not Caucasian, etc. Also, Ellen DeGeneres is in on it and has fueled some of it.
I don't care about any excuses that develop.
I don't care about any excuses that develop.
Problem
My dad is ruining the family. He keeps being so mean to me and won't accept it. He lets off acting like he's white and I'm not and I can't prove he just acted that way, like making sounds at the table.
Problem
They're all saying I don't matter and taking possible relationships from me. They're pounding it in like I "need to be punished."
Problem
Supposedly, Ellen DeGeneres is getting people to try to make me accept I'm another/bad race. I thought it was funny to socialize with other multiracials, and I can see her finding humor in my seeing it in that light. I keep getting pounded on by her "messengers."
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