I feel cool popular famous people bargain with me that I have to accept being mistreated or I'm off the fan list. I am not talking in extreme, just something I'm wondering. I guess other people won't go thru this.. and if they do will get more sympathy/feel less pain possibly, unless they want to show me off. I am happy like before. I like to watch others. Why look for ways to make me feel in trouble, tho? I mean, is there some way we can just get to the goal so I can live my once successful life? The problem is I like lots of things and it takes too much time to be sharp. I might still be developing as a person "what" I am. What's the good in minoring in an art and majoring in thinking major?
There are celebrities I am jealous of. Why not go full out and try to be a famous performing artist?