There are people who have been watching me in private and sending me secret messages via noises like little clicks and people I encounter/know. It's been over 10 years, and it has gotten me nowhere. People test me to make sure I don't think of something bad like a curse word and if they make me think of one everyone I see bothers me for a day, which is every day.
They pretend people I like a lot are sending me insulting messages and threats thru them. They toss out my death as being an unimportant thing that should happen. I don't have any friends nor anyone to really talk to, who doesn't react like I'm repulsive. I don't accept I'm too fat to live socially etc.
I just got up for a bite to eat and to check online and this is what reveals itself.
True, there are a lotta things I don't deserve that happen that make me happy. However, a lot of other bad things happen, like nothing will matter in the end.
What? I live right. Why are the people I know personally so mean to me? I didn't start it. My relationships have all been taken from me, like they can't stand it.
I do pray and hope that other people get to experience the good things I experienced, connections, sense of self-worth, etc.