Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Why I'm Upset

Well, it's a battle living with my dad, and there's the relatives who contact/see me.

My life is messed up.  There are pictures of me all over online in old accounts I threw away the passwords to, on purpose.. too much I guess.  I've had too many Facebook accounts and lost friends..

I'm outta shape.

For 10 years, I've not known what to do.  2004-2006, failed college experience..  2007-2010, locked in my room bedridden like posting online.  2010-2013 includes trips to the mental hospital.  Cursed about Ellen DeGeneres but not at her so much, I think mostly what she supposedly did (put hurtful noises in my room,) online and tho I was already being hated on this did it for good.  I have 0 relationships and heartache.  I should forget about it, but these "little things" seem to matter to others.. say, relatives, who have a backseat reserved for the roller coaster of my life.  Not so bad.  What about these 10 wasted years?  I was on meds mostly 2010-2015.  It's made me tired and sleep more to make up for it.  What if I was close to dying??