Friday, July 31, 2015
Exercise
2 big things out there I know:
-21 Day Fix - more like a dance fitness
-Body Beast - from Beach Body
I'm getting the later which is more weightlifting. I jog like twice a day. My leg muscles are huge.
-21 Day Fix - more like a dance fitness
-Body Beast - from Beach Body
I'm getting the later which is more weightlifting. I jog like twice a day. My leg muscles are huge.
Facebook - Post by Me on My Wall
Facebook is a stressful place. You have all these eyes like watching you. I can sense an attitude in others's posts. No one has much to say. They come in turns, like different flocks of sheep.
How It Worked..
I have been having NutriBullet smoothies and eating snacks between meals to keep myself going and my system. TryFoodLovers the diet is still coming in to help lose fat, too, as well as getting Body Beast - Beach Body which gives you pumped up muscles that are huge on guys.
Disney Sing Along
Beauty and the Beast on the IMDb Message Board for it.
I almost put a bell if they had one. I wonder if Bella sometimes thinks about bells. I dunno I don't much name matches. I think of part of my family when I see a Barber poll.
I almost put a bell if they had one. I wonder if Bella sometimes thinks about bells. I dunno I don't much name matches. I think of part of my family when I see a Barber poll.
Stalked and Pursued
Ellen is like a stalker trying to punish me.
Dr. Phil is pursuing me but not others, messing with the truth in the world. It's quite a spectacle. You'd have to pin me down to get me to accept it. Ah ha ha! Which looks like what he's trying to. Pathetic.
Dr. Phil is pursuing me but not others, messing with the truth in the world. It's quite a spectacle. You'd have to pin me down to get me to accept it. Ah ha ha! Which looks like what he's trying to. Pathetic.
Fallon
I discovered Bella Thorne has a problem.. she thinks because of Mama that she's better than everyone who's older and the only "baby" or youth. She has a nice mom, but I noticed people from Southeastern Florida go into fits for their kids, so maybe.. I know her mom supports her overtaking me cuz she has to.
So, she'll probably go into a catfight and have a fit if someone older wants attention. She really goes around thinking everything is supposed to be about her. It's one thing to want a lot of friends or fame, but you can't tell someone else to stop getting attention. I think I pay attention to her. Anyone would enjoy being the best in the world. Like in Shake It Up, she settles and then comes back and I get the vibe that I'm in trouble and a bad person as the excuse, like she wants all the relationships I earned. Who does that? I'm also affected by people experimenting on me, and unfortunately she's involved. She doesn't have to be so nice to me.
Okay, she has a problem, I have problems, too. I am not being sarcastic. I just am saying something that could be a word for different things but this is like the base definition. The problem tho is other people are upset because they are jealous, but she's really a good person.
LOL, I do know she is upset when like I get attention sometimes, but I mean that in particular is not a big deal.
I know people like Ellen want her to fight me. Well, how do she feel, me, fighting her? That's inappropriate and not good for anyone. I guess she's behind in thinking for fun. Then, in the end, she just says, "Oh, well, I didn't mean that stupid thought!" I think she does things of different interests or thinks I am bad. It's no use being quiet. :|
So, she'll probably go into a catfight and have a fit if someone older wants attention. She really goes around thinking everything is supposed to be about her. It's one thing to want a lot of friends or fame, but you can't tell someone else to stop getting attention. I think I pay attention to her. Anyone would enjoy being the best in the world. Like in Shake It Up, she settles and then comes back and I get the vibe that I'm in trouble and a bad person as the excuse, like she wants all the relationships I earned. Who does that? I'm also affected by people experimenting on me, and unfortunately she's involved. She doesn't have to be so nice to me.
Okay, she has a problem, I have problems, too. I am not being sarcastic. I just am saying something that could be a word for different things but this is like the base definition. The problem tho is other people are upset because they are jealous, but she's really a good person.
LOL, I do know she is upset when like I get attention sometimes, but I mean that in particular is not a big deal.
I know people like Ellen want her to fight me. Well, how do she feel, me, fighting her? That's inappropriate and not good for anyone. I guess she's behind in thinking for fun. Then, in the end, she just says, "Oh, well, I didn't mean that stupid thought!" I think she does things of different interests or thinks I am bad. It's no use being quiet. :|
The Game of Life
If one person has a problem, I should still be in the game of life.
When it comes to wanting to be a friend. I shouldn't be outed by one mistake.. LOL!
When it comes to wanting to be a friend. I shouldn't be outed by one mistake.. LOL!
Bella on Fallon!
I just watched. Something was on their mind. I wonder why? *Looks around etc.*
They seem really smart and popular. They are there to stay.
I wonder what kinds of people Bella knows now. Something seems sad for her.
I'm glad she's close to someone cuz she really is a good girl, I know. I don't really know, if she's really with that person but I know I'm not and in trouble. I know this person, too, kinda. But I wonder like what surrounds her. She's in films. I guess she's a star. When there aren't many, they tend not to integrate cuz no one is their type nor the diamond in the rough in that regard.
She was definitely great looking. She deserves a lot. She has been a good actor since she was an infant. Too much to take in. I know her hair is milky. She is lovely. I do tell everyone the same thing, you're good but it doesn't mean I'm not good compared to some people, too. They usually get it and listen and think it's funny. There's something special about Bella. I follow her so am learning thru these processes.
They seem really smart and popular. They are there to stay.
I wonder what kinds of people Bella knows now. Something seems sad for her.
I'm glad she's close to someone cuz she really is a good girl, I know. I don't really know, if she's really with that person but I know I'm not and in trouble. I know this person, too, kinda. But I wonder like what surrounds her. She's in films. I guess she's a star. When there aren't many, they tend not to integrate cuz no one is their type nor the diamond in the rough in that regard.
She was definitely great looking. She deserves a lot. She has been a good actor since she was an infant. Too much to take in. I know her hair is milky. She is lovely. I do tell everyone the same thing, you're good but it doesn't mean I'm not good compared to some people, too. They usually get it and listen and think it's funny. There's something special about Bella. I follow her so am learning thru these processes.
Interesting
Bella Thorne should be #1 just to knock me out of whatever my stance was, but when you compare her to the world she probably is all submissive and respectful.. and the problems take precedence, whereas with me you found out I wasn't all white and went in and trashed me. I could have been one of the best people in the world, too. I dunno, why not just like everyone?
Poor People
That really is hard. I know a factory working lady owned a hot tub. I think it's serious. I know I was able to afford:
•NutriBullet - $30/mo for 6 months + a few extra things but free shipping
•Try Food Lovers - $20/mo for 6 months + $20 shipping
•Body Beast - Beach Body - $20/mo for 2 months + $10 shipping
•NutriBullet - $30/mo for 6 months + a few extra things but free shipping
•Try Food Lovers - $20/mo for 6 months + $20 shipping
•Body Beast - Beach Body - $20/mo for 2 months + $10 shipping
Thursday, July 30, 2015
Strange
It looks like anyone will listen to the people experimenting on me. I found big coincidences, like they were suggesting I'm in trouble, just for not having my life together, nothing mean/bad. I don't need people to diss things and mess them up to make weird coincidences rather then like picking people for who they are.
*Coolness*
I noticed that Ellen is cool with Bella. She is presently waiting for her episode to air with Jimmy Fallon, *no worries*. Why am I still in trouble with Ellen? I want to ignore it. I didn't say she did anything or was like something bad. I just know I'm *not cool*. So, mess up with Ellen, she doesn't change if she thinks there's something wrong with you. Most people on the show are half asleep. They just avoid confronting her properly nor at all.
Anyway, just saying something I thought of now.
Anyway, just saying something I thought of now.
Doing Whatchoo Want
Why do you act like you can do whatever you want? I don't care what Johnny Depp thinks/does. It's stupid! Isn't everything for him that seems wrong to him something he says "death" to? Not saying anyone really is stupid. Just what it is, of course. I mean people think they can ruin my life.
People
It seems Bella is open for communication yet admittedly seems to be playing around being inhibited, like she's holding out for something that needs me to be in trouble.
*beep*
You all aren't disciplinarians. You're *beep*. You're just using an opportunity to be mean to me and protect people like an old best friend I had.
TV
They hated someone from Pennsylvania cuza Ellen and I have ancestry there mostly. Well, it's..cuza Ellen? What she represented against me for no reason!
A Bad Person Would Do This
Suggesting I'm "too old" to have had a mom and that they should be "unappealing" if I ever looked up to anyone, messing around with my relationship with different people on the age of my mom, etc. I am not saying I know Ellen did it, but I think she blew it when I cursed at her or about what she did, rather, online, putting annoying noises in my room, etc.
New Twitter Bio
Aspiring Actress ~ age 29 ~ 5'3 ~ brown hair ~ brown/green eyes
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Exercise Program
I can see on TV.. if they performed like Victoria Jackson with that squeaky nasally voice they could be the next Ellen DeGeneres! :)
Ellen
I never thought of violent things until her. I do like her, but I wonder if she's schizo like me and if she made my mom say to take the pills.
Jews?
Why do you act like I'm so weird like I shouldn't touch anyone, treating me like a Jew! I'm in this fight, too! For the Jew! To save the Jews!
aHA!
I saw a white girl on Barney get mad at a black girl when she suggested people like me need something, too, from people for nurturance, like their ***y parental generation, not sure what went wrong tho.
What.. would Ellen be happy the girl got mad at me cuz it's funky? A ha ha that's so funny!
What.. would Ellen be happy the girl got mad at me cuz it's funky? A ha ha that's so funny!
Mean
People keep acting like I'm suddenly not all that. Just ignoring me, acting like I'm *beep*. You all just ruin my life! I don't need this meanness and hurt.
Race
It's not a *given* that if I want something I'm a n***** to you and can't have it.
I can talk how I want to! How dare you *beep* at me!
If you are wondering, I am watching TV.
I can talk how I want to! How dare you *beep* at me!
If you are wondering, I am watching TV.
Kids! What's the matter with kids! To-day!
Everything is for these underdeveloped families with kids.
An Unsafe Time
Even hearing someone supposedly very good and attractive coming into play, people already can sense trouble.
My Rights
Ellen is off her rocker is something I can say to a fan is how it feels when Ellen turns people like Bella or like anyone on me. I don't want the *sacred* jittery feelings like Ellen can trap me and have me and get back at me.
What do I do? I still follow her.. People send me messages from her in private like via the noises in my room. I do want to follow her. People are just overtaking my life like I'm just some robot that doesn't matter but everyone else does!
What do I do? I still follow her.. People send me messages from her in private like via the noises in my room. I do want to follow her. People are just overtaking my life like I'm just some robot that doesn't matter but everyone else does!
A No
that jittery feeling Ellen wants me to get about Bella Thorne getting better attention than me
No one did anything to her. She was still in the game like the rest of the world.
No one did anything to her. She was still in the game like the rest of the world.
Annoyed
Bella Thorne is more special? I already explained she's famous and honestly every dummy knows that they said the nonfamous/middle class people are fat supporting the skinniness of movie stars.. like how downtrodden life gets for people who don't circulate around Hollywood. They gain weight. They gain weight supporting. Anyone who's famous has no excuse to not be how they want cuz they have money and time to decide to spend.
For the other nonfamous folks, did you see Bella act like only she deserves attention? They even tried to claim she doesn't do that. It's obvious she does in Shake It Up. She's just pretending to be nice and then steals away what you earned plus I dunno if Ellen said so. She acts like all the time needing to get attention, you can tell in Shake It Up. She can turn that on secretly against me now. It never turns off when she does it. Well, I'm just trying to say what I see. My opinion is that it's cool but when used wrongly sad.
She looked so nostalgic and romantic, like she has to have it all and those who were like that already can't. She posted online her telling people what to do to her, like to touch her, and that's too funny! Now, I'm just saying what she does and that others deserve, too. I would have said like I said on here that simply in general famous people aren't meeting their fans. I didn't say give me everything. I feel that everything is tapering towards her. So, I am judging the quality and quantity of what I get and moreover even why. I don't really tell people what to do, but I kinda notice when people are keeping others from me. What a dull existence this lives.
I think Ellen likes Bella the baby, and her nostalgia can also make me moody not just her and I find the prejudice depressing, see, younger kids aren't necessarily considered cuter than her, tho kids today are extra cute or extra not quite that word.
You all might as well not even try to do anything like that to me as you know it's done without reason and I find out.
So, basically, Bella is no excuse from me if I see that the experiment tells her to do something that makes no sense and doesn't seem nice. What, you think I don't deserve anything when I'm the one being wronged? I can still watch her online. If you want me to be as close to her, tho, we need to see why there are all these jokes about Bella getting things and not me, and even if Ellen said so she'd be wrong. I'm not gonna feel belittled cuza Ms. Millionaire. That's all, not being sarcastic. I'm just.. "not gonna feel belittled." I realize she brings a smile to people's faces and she's not all mean to me but yet others are. Now, how can that be? It's all stuff from random people for the sake of her.
So, I'll end it on a positive note. I'm happy for Bella, but what happened to me? Why do I put up with this - the experiment, my parents, my relatives, acquaintances. Little Miss Millionaire has such a clean cut life and stares nonfamous people out like. She gets hurt if something good happens to me like she has all her marbles, like it's just something that doesn't mean anything, results in no feeling. She's not exactly outgoing but not much of an introvert, which is a compliment in most senses of the word which apply accordingly. "She really is a funny girl that Belle!" You know, this person is all made for this other person, Bella and someone. Her name even is similar if you look at the whole name, many correlations, in that she has genius parents. Her dad passed away in a car accident. She seems to have an energetic, extra friendly mom. So, what I'm saying is they both even had maybe the same hair color, red. What else? They don't have freckles. They just look normal. It might be because of a good mother. The other person is like the age of her mom. I think usually she'd just overlook her, but since I'm like that interested she has gotten really feisty about this, like she wants to know she is in an experiment now if she is. So, the question is, "Do I need to back off?" I have a lot in common with many people. I know it's not really a problem if we both like her cuz it's a productive choice. So, I don't see who making all this fuss is then about.
For the other nonfamous folks, did you see Bella act like only she deserves attention? They even tried to claim she doesn't do that. It's obvious she does in Shake It Up. She's just pretending to be nice and then steals away what you earned plus I dunno if Ellen said so. She acts like all the time needing to get attention, you can tell in Shake It Up. She can turn that on secretly against me now. It never turns off when she does it. Well, I'm just trying to say what I see. My opinion is that it's cool but when used wrongly sad.
She looked so nostalgic and romantic, like she has to have it all and those who were like that already can't. She posted online her telling people what to do to her, like to touch her, and that's too funny! Now, I'm just saying what she does and that others deserve, too. I would have said like I said on here that simply in general famous people aren't meeting their fans. I didn't say give me everything. I feel that everything is tapering towards her. So, I am judging the quality and quantity of what I get and moreover even why. I don't really tell people what to do, but I kinda notice when people are keeping others from me. What a dull existence this lives.
I think Ellen likes Bella the baby, and her nostalgia can also make me moody not just her and I find the prejudice depressing, see, younger kids aren't necessarily considered cuter than her, tho kids today are extra cute or extra not quite that word.
You all might as well not even try to do anything like that to me as you know it's done without reason and I find out.
So, basically, Bella is no excuse from me if I see that the experiment tells her to do something that makes no sense and doesn't seem nice. What, you think I don't deserve anything when I'm the one being wronged? I can still watch her online. If you want me to be as close to her, tho, we need to see why there are all these jokes about Bella getting things and not me, and even if Ellen said so she'd be wrong. I'm not gonna feel belittled cuza Ms. Millionaire. That's all, not being sarcastic. I'm just.. "not gonna feel belittled." I realize she brings a smile to people's faces and she's not all mean to me but yet others are. Now, how can that be? It's all stuff from random people for the sake of her.
So, I'll end it on a positive note. I'm happy for Bella, but what happened to me? Why do I put up with this - the experiment, my parents, my relatives, acquaintances. Little Miss Millionaire has such a clean cut life and stares nonfamous people out like. She gets hurt if something good happens to me like she has all her marbles, like it's just something that doesn't mean anything, results in no feeling. She's not exactly outgoing but not much of an introvert, which is a compliment in most senses of the word which apply accordingly. "She really is a funny girl that Belle!" You know, this person is all made for this other person, Bella and someone. Her name even is similar if you look at the whole name, many correlations, in that she has genius parents. Her dad passed away in a car accident. She seems to have an energetic, extra friendly mom. So, what I'm saying is they both even had maybe the same hair color, red. What else? They don't have freckles. They just look normal. It might be because of a good mother. The other person is like the age of her mom. I think usually she'd just overlook her, but since I'm like that interested she has gotten really feisty about this, like she wants to know she is in an experiment now if she is. So, the question is, "Do I need to back off?" I have a lot in common with many people. I know it's not really a problem if we both like her cuz it's a productive choice. So, I don't see who making all this fuss is then about.
Stinted From Birth
Who is born and gets told by their mother they are flawed from their dad and nothing you do can change that? I don't even know if it's a little true. I just know my Chinese mom is attractive, too.
I figured it out.. Ellen.
I was just hurting from the noises. You think what she did for me means it's okay. Or maybe because she is famous?
I mean to say even though I had to get mean messages all the time via noises in private in my room, ticks, etc.. that it's okay Ellen did it if she did because she is Ellen, is famous, and still could do something that was for me. I didn't say she had to do that or anything. I've tried to find other fans to do it with, sometimes, but no such luck.
I mean to say even though I had to get mean messages all the time via noises in private in my room, ticks, etc.. that it's okay Ellen did it if she did because she is Ellen, is famous, and still could do something that was for me. I didn't say she had to do that or anything. I've tried to find other fans to do it with, sometimes, but no such luck.
Wednesday, July 29, 2015
Mm..
So, anyone else out there interested in Ellen? If you made a blog, some hot dude or her could read it. I had a tag for posts for Ellen, too! :)
I also made a public forum from 2013.
Vote for me! :)
I also made a public forum from 2013.
Vote for me! :)
Are you all just here to tell me
I'm too fat and ugly? Cuz I don't see some of the underlying principle. I get "no" for the weird things.
And they've gone crazy with me that I've done something to Ellen. I disagree. I think it's not so. I think she was bad to me, sorry to burst your bubble. It's the person who starts. I was talking about my feelings against what was done. I wasn't mean to Ellen! She was to me cuza my dad. What I said about being tortured and trapped is my right. I don't have to listen to you. You get mad at me for stupid little *beep* every day. Why isn't this just a peaceful time?
And they've gone crazy with me that I've done something to Ellen. I disagree. I think it's not so. I think she was bad to me, sorry to burst your bubble. It's the person who starts. I was talking about my feelings against what was done. I wasn't mean to Ellen! She was to me cuza my dad. What I said about being tortured and trapped is my right. I don't have to listen to you. You get mad at me for stupid little *beep* every day. Why isn't this just a peaceful time?
Goals and Owning Up
So, what's the goal? How many goals can you have? You can't keep me from being upset if you are mean to me for no reason. I thought it was to be appropriate in public. I have it together.
Those visions of Ellen, they're real. She didn't own up to this one. She's involved in an experiment on me, and it's not fun a lot of times because of unfortunate things like this keep happening.
Maybe, I can try and ignore it for now. I disagree with the nasty messages from her on how she views behavior and fun. Own up.
If you can't answer this civilized, maybe this isn't gonna work. I don't wanna be on a bad side, but I also wanna say this is pretty simple. It's what you're supposed to do, sort things out.
Ugh, why am I even dealing with this? There are better things in life to do, like everyone has a different job or skill. It's because they tapped in.
Those visions of Ellen, they're real. She didn't own up to this one. She's involved in an experiment on me, and it's not fun a lot of times because of unfortunate things like this keep happening.
Maybe, I can try and ignore it for now. I disagree with the nasty messages from her on how she views behavior and fun. Own up.
If you can't answer this civilized, maybe this isn't gonna work. I don't wanna be on a bad side, but I also wanna say this is pretty simple. It's what you're supposed to do, sort things out.
Ugh, why am I even dealing with this? There are better things in life to do, like everyone has a different job or skill. It's because they tapped in.
I know what you do.
I know what you do. You put down people who are too big in some way, either fat or tall and fat it seems, and then you shove them into me like that's appropriate behavior, but it's like a r***. The adults listen to you and try to attack me cuz you told them I didn't accept them but am nicer to them than you. They think it's only fair. Looks like they're just worhtless now and gonna "rot in 'Hell.'" Unless, you don't believe in Jesus. Yea, what would Jesus do? Ask Bella Thorne or Ellen DeGeneres about Bella Thorne. No hard feelings on Bella, tho. Just ask, tho. Or ask other teens like her, upstanding people unlike some others. You ask me about Jesus and Hell and Purgatory.
Lost in a Setting
Ever have your parents tell you to do something that makes you not even *beep* to others? Do you ever despise their worth as a parent biologically? Like, you can feel both sides, and there's something wrong with 1? It makes my life simple, worthless, and used. Just look!
Yea, right, Tim!
Tim Burton
I don't need to be called an invalid personality because of you!
Don't get me wrong. I still like him for what he's worth, his kindness and hard working talent. I just know that he thinks I should be mistreated for my race. I don't really believe it's a good idea to destroy the flow of life.
I bet he did it to **** up to my dad. That makes me even more mad cuz I know that even Johnny Depp does that!
See, Tim and Johnny can't seem to click, anymore. *It's not for them, it's for the kids* They are selfish aha ha ha! Just joking @. Don't know what else to say.
Isn't it really Johnny Depp's fault? His fans are so rude, stuck up.
I don't need to be called an invalid personality because of you!
Don't get me wrong. I still like him for what he's worth, his kindness and hard working talent. I just know that he thinks I should be mistreated for my race. I don't really believe it's a good idea to destroy the flow of life.
I bet he did it to **** up to my dad. That makes me even more mad cuz I know that even Johnny Depp does that!
See, Tim and Johnny can't seem to click, anymore. *It's not for them, it's for the kids* They are selfish aha ha ha! Just joking @. Don't know what else to say.
Isn't it really Johnny Depp's fault? His fans are so rude, stuck up.
Undeserving in Public
What of the statement against me that I took the whole world and didn't deserve it or am a thing of the past when I didn't ask to be a thing? Ellen? So what?
Violent
I can't believe I have the TV star Bella Thorne in my life cuz she's so intimidating. In "Shake It Up" on TV she was either told to be mean or is just more forward. She is weird acting like the only thing for her is to show off and acting condescending about if people give her attention. It seems like with me it's a phobia of hers. That's okay. She just needs a mommy sometimes and not someone like me cuz I'm 10 years older. I like women 10 years or so older than me, tho, like mommies. I wonder if there's more to come. I just don't like feeling like I'm in trouble.
Just don't want me in the picture sometimes..
..well, that makes sense for Bella. It makes sense in general.
Ellen + Bella
Ellen acts like for Bella, "There, that wasn't so bad," against me and it's bad and *beep* for me.
Pretty Serious
It's pretty serious to Bella Thorne this whole relationship thing. I forget what I was gonna say.
I see 3 people on Tweeter..
Bella Thorne
Chloe Grace Moretz
Jackie Evancho
all talking in low, "deep" chosen voices to act like they're there for you but they just want all the attention after you give them your trust on whatever they just proposed
Chloe Grace Moretz
Jackie Evancho
all talking in low, "deep" chosen voices to act like they're there for you but they just want all the attention after you give them your trust on whatever they just proposed
Ellen
I wish I never watched her! I wouldn't be in trouble. I'd been harassed by my dad and talking to my Gramma every night before watching her. I stopped calling my Gramma on my birthday cuz I was tired of it.
1 reason I stayed away from her was not to get in trouble. Now, look! My life certainly is not trouble-proof. So, hey, what's the big deal?
She never said she'd hurt people if I don't stop. She didn't clearly say anything else at all. I mean, it was my blog. It was actually marked for mature readers. I was just mad. I see not only can you not trust me, but I can't trust anyone else.
No one *beep* gave me any advice to lighten the blow of Ellen! I was trapped in the dark, felt the cold shoulder, some things people go by for weird reasons that don't make sense rather than just because. Most people have a support system where they are. No one even reads my blog that I know.. but they would if I got it before! Perhaps, if more people talked to me or read my blog online this wouldn't have ever happened. I can get mad if someone attacks me!
1 reason I stayed away from her was not to get in trouble. Now, look! My life certainly is not trouble-proof. So, hey, what's the big deal?
She never said she'd hurt people if I don't stop. She didn't clearly say anything else at all. I mean, it was my blog. It was actually marked for mature readers. I was just mad. I see not only can you not trust me, but I can't trust anyone else.
No one *beep* gave me any advice to lighten the blow of Ellen! I was trapped in the dark, felt the cold shoulder, some things people go by for weird reasons that don't make sense rather than just because. Most people have a support system where they are. No one even reads my blog that I know.. but they would if I got it before! Perhaps, if more people talked to me or read my blog online this wouldn't have ever happened. I can get mad if someone attacks me!
Ellen
Doesn't she seem to look hollow? Also, do you find her a settling person? I like when she smiles at her audience. However, like, right now, I shouldn't feel like I'm in trouble cuza her.
Don't Mind
If whiter Asians ignore me because I'm mostly Southeast Asian.
That does not mean I want Ellen DeGeneres to ensure that that's unnaturally so. She does stuff sometimes via people experimenting on me, see.
I hope the more Indochinese are okay.
That does not mean I want Ellen DeGeneres to ensure that that's unnaturally so. She does stuff sometimes via people experimenting on me, see.
I hope the more Indochinese are okay.
Carelessness
I also found they are careless, like if I mean something specific, they think of something big that's related. And, yes, these are raw thoughts.
I figured it out.
Ellen will keep trying to punish just me and not others, but she won't admit it. I found watching Bella Thorne on Shake It Up on TV that she knows Ellen won't punish her for anything she punishes me for partially using the excuse she is younger and therefore cuter.
No!
People are mean to me now and are acting like I did something and Bella gets it all and doesn't get in made up trouble.
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
Question
Why do you want Bella to bump me outta this life? ..I forget. I just know that no one else is getting bumped out. I'm not bad.
Unaware
Ellen does not seem to know what she's doing to people by making Bella seem like she's more important. It apparently isn't just .. I forget! She just does that to annoy me and acts like she has to do it. No, I do not accept it. This is ridiculous. I didn't do anything wrong, neither, just cursed at something that was appropriate to curse at. She thinks she's the best person in the world cuza what her Mama does. Ah ha ha. I don't mean to attack her, but this is true and funny. I didn't dis her.
Problem
My new obsession. But you already know that if you have been tuning into my snapchats @nexboard https://t.co/UhHoqlIeLq— bella thorne (@bellathorne) July 29, 2015 She keeps *beep*ing just me off.She thinks her weight means she's better, but honestly every dummy knows that it was a big thing that came out admitted as true that Hollywood people get it easy to get thin, while we support their energy and we get fat.
Then she complains to "icons" I like that are appropriate for me and acts like "this is the situation, do it to me. But whoever you do it to, don't let it be Christina." I don't care what's going on with Ellen. She sure is acting up for saying every action from a person counts. For someone who sponsors you, you sure don't go thru what I had to. Don't compare yourself to the world and say you need more than everyone else. She's just racially/ethnically insecure because she's "biracial" or multiethnic or colored. We don't need to put up with this. I did say it was cool with me that she gets some attention over me.
She's just sad they wired in I did not respond to/bow to her Tweet of someone. She wants to say I can only like one person. That's a flawed belief of Ellen. Notice she only does it to Portia?
I am the kind of person to be into some of these things. Ellen overrid it for Bella. She did it with an evil heart. Life is not in fact about only talking to one person. She's all innocent and special and her only punishment is when she does what everyone else does. I wanted to be special, and instead it went to her! Stealing my ideas, are we? I mean, that's fine if she's special, but what's this attitude? I don't care if Ellen said it was all for you. I don't think she did, tho. Bella is so funny acting all forlorn with her millions as a child star thinking that no one else deserves anything cuz they couldn't get as skinny. She probably does not eat enough, but I hope she eats right.
I am not 100% sure what's going on with Ellen ruining my life, but if she didn't I'm sorry I misrepresented you, tho I believe I am factually correct. You can pay attention of course to whoever you want. I see you all tho think it part of your life to hate on me and think you can punish me.
I am not mad at Bella, really, and as for others I think they're just messed up, honestly, and people blame it on me or doing things for me.. tho they don't do that when it's for Bella.
This is one of those "bottled up" groups of feelings. They just come out. They seem perfect but are not right.
Also, Bella is being too nice but can do it in positive ways.. I just find the public opinion and that of those who mess with me to be funny.
I did just say last night I am so happy someone as talented as Bella gets good things. I'm just mad at all the people who dis me at the expense of her.
I admit I don't do much for her and am glad someone does. I do know outside of just Bella that people .. I forget.
It's just so funny. I am not saying this to be mean but more to be funny.
Bella is able to be too nice, but I'm poor and can't seem to be much. Sometimes, we find controversies and it's cuza Ellen. I just feel so many people are mad at me for no reason, like when bad words come up. I don't want them to. They are all hypnotized under the belief they are okay to be wrong to me and replace me with Bella, all that I worked up towards in my life, sadly isn't it with Bella, neither. I want to know more about this. You can't wish just 1 person away for no reason. She doesn't do it to everyone else.
Why?
Why is Ellen in my business like this? Why is all the things I deserve for Bella Thorne cuza her?
She put noises in my room and I cursed about it. So what? Lotta people do that to other things, and they matter, too, and you can't say who matters and who doesn't just like that. She did something to me. I didn't start anything with her. I can do whatever I want. I didn't break the law. I didn't want to curse at her, tho. I know Ellen is a game for you "losers" who are so mean. Like, ooh, what did you do when you watched or were on the show? I wonder.. she's not mean like that to anyone else, keep telling them they are wrong. What's the point if you can get in trouble when you are right?
She put noises in my room and I cursed about it. So what? Lotta people do that to other things, and they matter, too, and you can't say who matters and who doesn't just like that. She did something to me. I didn't start anything with her. I can do whatever I want. I didn't break the law. I didn't want to curse at her, tho. I know Ellen is a game for you "losers" who are so mean. Like, ooh, what did you do when you watched or were on the show? I wonder.. she's not mean like that to anyone else, keep telling them they are wrong. What's the point if you can get in trouble when you are right?
The South
Why do you look up to and accept what Ellen does but not me concerning the South? I mean accomplishments.
Bella Thorne
If Bella Thorne is supposed to have what I earned, that's wrong.
If she can be bad cuz she doesn't have what I have, that's wrong because no one else does.
If she can be bad cuz she doesn't have what I have, that's wrong because no one else does.
A Laughing Stock
Ellen and her *** ways. Can you guess what that is? She seems like she's wallowing in a low dirty grumble turning people on in tacky ways. Ring a bell? There are just some things, even in good people, we care to avoid.
An Influence
Ellen or her mom to her.. something Ellen does wants to be stimulated and she seems to be so in "inappropriate" and questionable ways. She is acting jealous and ruining other people if they don't do it already. A ha ha ha.
I hope this is not offensive. I'm just dishing out the facts, not being sarcastic.
I can see the shine in her eyes when she meets someone younger and wants to feel them up and m***** them cuz she's ***. I know people worked with Drew Barrymore, 2 younger girls, Chloe Grace Moretz and Bella Thorne.. and they came out in trouble with how they were acting or something. They were "changed."
It did get a bit crazy when I started committing myself to Ellen. It was perverted with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, too, the way we spread our legs and h*** for them or think about how they feel about their fame.
I hope this is not offensive. I'm just dishing out the facts, not being sarcastic.
I can see the shine in her eyes when she meets someone younger and wants to feel them up and m***** them cuz she's ***. I know people worked with Drew Barrymore, 2 younger girls, Chloe Grace Moretz and Bella Thorne.. and they came out in trouble with how they were acting or something. They were "changed."
It did get a bit crazy when I started committing myself to Ellen. It was perverted with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, too, the way we spread our legs and h*** for them or think about how they feel about their fame.
Plan
taking film acting now + going to Disney
while applying to college, hoping to make it in a film otherwise - college for singing and ballet
while applying to college, hoping to make it in a film otherwise - college for singing and ballet
In the Wrong
What do you think about acting like a loon towards me day in and day out when I'm trying to live my personal life.. that someone prestigious is telling them what to say and it's mean. No one cares, and I know it was for Ellen that people do it. I don't exactly "Let It Go."
Clearly, some people weren't thinking in my shoes. So what about curse/"bad" words? They just came up in my head. Other things do with others, as well. I think something sparked a recent onset of anger. I can't relax in my own home.
Why do I have to give in to anything, like my weight, just because of something I did that mustn't be that bad. Sneaking around, offsetting my lifestyle.
Is it the Ellen thing to do to say I'm in trouble without proper explanation and denying that of yourself cuz I haven't exactly blasted some of you thru the roof.
Look, no hard feelings from me to anyone, yet I feel in some battle with others and others who did things radically I wouldn't expect before. I'm not bad. People are mean to me. I don't mean anything bad.
Come on, aren't you genuinely down-to-earth? I didn't pose as the danger. It's like everyone went crazy since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.)
Again, sorry if this comes thru as something bad.
Clearly, some people weren't thinking in my shoes. So what about curse/"bad" words? They just came up in my head. Other things do with others, as well. I think something sparked a recent onset of anger. I can't relax in my own home.
Why do I have to give in to anything, like my weight, just because of something I did that mustn't be that bad. Sneaking around, offsetting my lifestyle.
Is it the Ellen thing to do to say I'm in trouble without proper explanation and denying that of yourself cuz I haven't exactly blasted some of you thru the roof.
Look, no hard feelings from me to anyone, yet I feel in some battle with others and others who did things radically I wouldn't expect before. I'm not bad. People are mean to me. I don't mean anything bad.
Come on, aren't you genuinely down-to-earth? I didn't pose as the danger. It's like everyone went crazy since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005.)
Again, sorry if this comes thru as something bad.
Look, I don't care for these people being mean I know cuz
I don't agree with the part of my dad's opinion as a wish for me to be in trouble with "all the cool people."
Pathetic
I don't know about anyone else, but I don't need my dad telling me like I'm some puny little thing, "Y-yer punished." Also, why does Ellen think this is some big thing where she do the wrong thing and mess with my extended family and make it all the drama? Ellen? It was so tacky. What? I never said she should meet members of me extended family if no one wanted to, but I mean why wouldn't they? My dad just has a grudge on me cuz I said, "Oh no," when he came home from work cuz I was still doing my homework tho he did not even care to ask why.. yet he looks up to his bitchy parents.
Bella in an Experiment Connecting to Others.. Which Entails with Me
Can you believe they told Bella Thorne to be mean to me in the experiment. When she thought I was okay, they were so inappropriate and bad they said, "I guess Bella doesn't/didn't get it." There's no excuse. She's not "gonna be mean to me," anyway. If she were, it doesn't sound like it'd be bad for anyone but her. I didn't used to live like this. Are you trying to belittle me talking?
Let's be honest and talk.
I'm watching Shake It Up with Bella Thorne. This other actress is from the South and was nice, but Bella was upset that someone else get attention. The other actress was being considerate to others or the viewer. Bella seemed very upset. I wonder if she's in an experiment, too. She didn't wanna be friends with this other cool actress because they were nice to others.
Other Plan
Go to Hollywood ASAP, take film acting classes, possibly after my Disney pass runs out.
College sounds best, don't really wanna leave home, tho.
College sounds best, don't really wanna leave home, tho.
Plans
I wonder if I should try college + Disney this semester and college + ballet the next.
It seems busy, but I'd like to enter Loyola at a higher level of ballet. Should I finish off the 2nd half of my Disney pass? It's fun to hang around and take the bus.
The college is to prove I can do it away from home for a note from my psychiatrist, and financial aid says you have to take 2 general studies courses.
It seems busy, but I'd like to enter Loyola at a higher level of ballet. Should I finish off the 2nd half of my Disney pass? It's fun to hang around and take the bus.
The college is to prove I can do it away from home for a note from my psychiatrist, and financial aid says you have to take 2 general studies courses.
Monday, July 27, 2015
I can only be happy..
..such a talented girl accepted in the world.
What about me? Other people are accepted, even my old best friends who were sometimes mean to me. Well, they aren't worse than anybody else! I'm not necessarily much of an attention getter, but I am hyper at home. I'm a hopper!
What about me? Other people are accepted, even my old best friends who were sometimes mean to me. Well, they aren't worse than anybody else! I'm not necessarily much of an attention getter, but I am hyper at home. I'm a hopper!
I need to make a decision.
I'm 30.
That's why I haven't gotten anywhere and don't got much. I took time to develop.
College? Film acting school in Orlando?
College = Singing + Ballet - Away from family but where we used to live
I thought I could graduate in 2 or 3 years. I just need to go to college here before and take ballet at home again 1st.
That's why I haven't gotten anywhere and don't got much. I took time to develop.
College? Film acting school in Orlando?
College = Singing + Ballet - Away from family but where we used to live
I thought I could graduate in 2 or 3 years. I just need to go to college here before and take ballet at home again 1st.
Owe
You would already owe me. I am pretty nice. I don't deserve to be stopped. Do you need me to go back to disinfecting random toilet seats I use?
I see..
..people identify Bella Thorne's dominant personalities. It's a bit silly if someone is supposedly happier.. I'm forgetting cuz I'm agitated like that but not trembling like a dude.. a bit silly.. and I guess act like they need to be happier when the original idea is that they deserve attention because of the point of it being good to already be self-happy. It's just interesting and probably helpful to understand.
LOL
It's interesting and funny that Bella Thorne thinks something is up, like we're all cool and she comes up like, "Okay, people." Yeesh.
Ellen is just as silly to be like encompassing of others's personalities. She'll say she's cool, but she's not. Just "watch" her and not "listen."
Ellen is just as silly to be like encompassing of others's personalities. She'll say she's cool, but she's not. Just "watch" her and not "listen."
Guilty!
I noticed people stop their thoughts and like m********* after they think I "did something." I didn't!
Does anyone want to explain what happened in this picture?
There's no "if."
These people are sad following me around with my thoughts to insult and hurt me.
Hi. My name is Bella and I am a FOODIE. https://t.co/yIVORQJvjh— bella thorne (@bellathorne) July 27, 2015 Okay, I'll say it. She has publicly posted online that she wants to be the only person to enjoy these pleasures. She's still a baby that needs to be nursed, but we don't know what's going on.These people are sad following me around with my thoughts to insult and hurt me.
Funny
So, Ellen thinks everyone is anticipating her every move, but since that move can mean I'm in trouble.. no one with that in store has something I'm anticipating. Whoops! Now what? They were depending on the public interest. I hope I'm not in some kinda trouble for this. I just said Ellen thinks people are anticipating her next move, but if anyone has it in for me I'm in trouble I'm not interested.. not necessarily that I said her that Ellen would think that. Why would you want me in trouble? Maybe, I had too much Ellen and not enough time with many real people. So, either I watch her or I don't do much. You know, being experimented on, it makes me less productive. So, I mentioned Ellen cuz I have some weird fantasy that she likes me in trouble. I already figured that the facts don't figure.. like that she can be more aggressive and no one else in the world can. I know I uncovered a rare find something like that things we can't do she does anyway, like how we act. I wanted to get away from the torturous noises. That's one reason to get out, not just that I shouldn't just be sitting here depending on watching Ellen. I mean, I like it in my room, too.
So, it's funny when people anticipate some popular or famous person's every move, but suddenly it's too much not helping but making someone seem in trouble.. and suddenly that person doesn't anticipate anything with people.
So, it's funny when people anticipate some popular or famous person's every move, but suddenly it's too much not helping but making someone seem in trouble.. and suddenly that person doesn't anticipate anything with people.
Lazy White People
It's funny people who are all white are lazy and condone hard working socializers.
My College's Ballet
Loyola Ballet Spring Concert from Loyola University on Vimeo.
The Loyola Ballet's spring concert included excerpts from classical ballets, including The Sleeping Beauty and Swan Lake as well as contemporary works showcasing Loyola alumni and faculty. The Loyola Ballet is directed by Laura Zambrano.
When Mean People Judge You
I am so good all the time, if something happens once I see the *beep* in others saying their frank disapproval of me.
Well
I found the perfect dance school opportunity for me. It is contemporary for people in their 20s and 30s.
Sunday, July 26, 2015
E-lim-i-na - tion!
I don't like how suddenly I am eliminated from life and any active competition. It's like I made some mistake, and people are racist. However, everyone else's good spirit is still winning as ever.
Bella Thorne
I like her a lot, but I feel a turn off to me from others every time I encounter a certain sensation with her, not saying anything offensive. It's my race and that I didn't dance enough.
Winning for the Greater Good
Not sure why there's a #1. But is it done.. I forget.. for a reason? Like, why can't everyone who likes someone really likable be involved? I think I'm off the hook for Ellen DeGeneres has also resembled Bella Thorne.. which I like them both. It's enough to confuse anyone! I mean, if you're only in for part of this for whatever reason, Bella earned a lot on her plate!
If I made a face like this would I get more attention?
link
If so, I would say nah I don't want [those] woman lips. I guess I wouldn't need attention.
It worries me cuz once I felt affected on my lips after my oldest aunt posted something. I was upset and thought something. I hope it couldn't catch on but see it could.
link
If so, I would say nah I don't want [those] woman lips. I guess I wouldn't need attention.
It worries me cuz once I felt affected on my lips after my oldest aunt posted something. I was upset and thought something. I hope it couldn't catch on but see it could.
Isn't Ellen funny?
She thinks Entourage was the most exciting thing this summer, at the beginning of the summer. It's for people to jump on the band wagon I heard. Her thoughts are obvious, I guess, and she has to go in and find something else to surprise us. It's funny someone says something and it usually seems cloaked in some mystery, but not really. I wonder if they knew what they were thinking.
Mean Statements
You people just wanna make a statement but have nothing good to say.. saying I'm ugly and an infraction to others. How do you think that is true? Where are your pictures? Don't you know that some people are fed positive energy and others aren't? I'm on pills I didn't need and it makes me tired to get dressed up multiple times a day if at all. I'm more concerned about my health, like getting tired. I can't sleep in contacts. I wanna dress up, but I don't so much. Why the pills? Is that there to "stimulate" me? It looks like it's harder to function like this. I used not to use makeup. F.Y.I. my mom stopped doing/helping me with laundry when I thought someone online wanted me to call them the N word. I used to spend a lotta time on homework so didn't do my laundry. I wanted to but not sure when I did any of what.
Are movies a good idea?
It seemed to wear out the old guy in Harry Potter, but what about younger people?
Is this right?
It seems like they use good ideas from me to say forget me and use the good ideas on Bella Thorne?
Ugly
Why do people think Bella Thorne is so pretty yet say I'm "ugly without makeup?" It wasn't like that before!!
How We're Treated
So, I just get watched but treated badly, even all the time by my parents? and Bella doesn't know if she's watched in private as she goes about each day but gets treated with respect?
About "getting" "relationships." It seems no one gets those things.
Anyway, I might get as much as Bella, but the message also says that.. I forget.. pretty much I'm quarantined, that's a big thing. I keep hearing that I've done something wrong when I haven't. If Ellen read my blog and got the annoying noises in my room.. she should have done something if she really cared, like if she wanted me to stop. She just waited until I stopped to make it clear they were out to get me. I should have known? What they did ruined my life and was a physical, illegal thing to do. I don't mind if someone has seen me in my room in private completely if they weren't mean to me, depending on what it was. It did happen before without as much negativity, but it was like a trap of distraction. They led me off track so they could have something to use as blame for me.
Ellen sometimes films people without knowing. I don't know if they like it. Most people can't afford to stay in shape or get nice clothes.
I am watching TV, and it's all positive. Most people in Orlando seem overly set, but my dad seems concerned about negative things.
About "getting" "relationships." It seems no one gets those things.
Anyway, I might get as much as Bella, but the message also says that.. I forget.. pretty much I'm quarantined, that's a big thing. I keep hearing that I've done something wrong when I haven't. If Ellen read my blog and got the annoying noises in my room.. she should have done something if she really cared, like if she wanted me to stop. She just waited until I stopped to make it clear they were out to get me. I should have known? What they did ruined my life and was a physical, illegal thing to do. I don't mind if someone has seen me in my room in private completely if they weren't mean to me, depending on what it was. It did happen before without as much negativity, but it was like a trap of distraction. They led me off track so they could have something to use as blame for me.
Ellen sometimes films people without knowing. I don't know if they like it. Most people can't afford to stay in shape or get nice clothes.
I am watching TV, and it's all positive. Most people in Orlando seem overly set, but my dad seems concerned about negative things.
Being That Good
Why when I'm considered good someone else good comes up and suddenly I'm not that good.
Not Using the Restroom
• You don't wanna use it in public.
• You're busy and don't feel like it.
• You're too tired to do it again or are about to fall asleep.
• You're busy and don't feel like it.
• You're too tired to do it again or are about to fall asleep.
Really Rebellious
When Emma Watson thought I'd like something and others, they were mad like this isn't for them.
Competition
If you wanna be fit, you gotta dance.
Why do people hate me now?
You have to dance right away to be ahead in the contest of life!
Why do people hate me now?
You have to dance right away to be ahead in the contest of life!
Edit
A post I edited last night I used 3 words, by themselves more okay, otherwise together for some reason not.
You think you got something on me?
I had a hard life moving to Orlando. This is not your chance to prove whatever you do wrong is okay because "I did something wrong." I didn't! It was an accident or something!
Ellen
likes the Hermione Granger in the Harry Potter movie. She is as said "an insufferable know-it-all." They are both snide saying they hold an attractive place in society over others, with a snoot of their nose. No hard feelings. I am noticing what Ellen sees in this.
Coincidential
that the guy playing in Harry Potter as Albus Dumbledore died. It must mean fame takes its toll, along with its assets.
Ellen in Love
She identifies with Emma Watson, who played Hermione Granger in Harry Potter. I know they are both part French and English. Emma is a nice Brit to talk to, but she has that attitude, not to be mean. I'll say it's kinda cute. Still. It's funny when you think about it. Ellen always looks for weird things that other people don't get rather than just taking "the road less taken."
Argumentative
You keep saying me arguing about the product of my life is being defiant and "saying something." You're not supposed to do that.
Harry Potter
One of them are on.
I always grew up submissing that you have to listen to authority. I know the law is there for the greater good sometimes, tho, like when it comes to not hurting people. That also exists in religion.
I always grew up submissing that you have to listen to authority. I know the law is there for the greater good sometimes, tho, like when it comes to not hurting people. That also exists in religion.
Ruining It
Why are you all ruining it for me? No one is brave enough to not dislike me. Why are you twisting "what" happens away from my advantage and to yours?
You can't run away.
You can't be mean to me just to be safe. That's pathetic. Who is doing this? I'm not pointing fingers. I don't want one of my favorite people to be the one against me all the time! NO I don't want anyone to be that I know of, in general.. So, is the "reign" of Ellen DeGeneres producing results like this? I am nice to Ellen, tho she acted like she put annoying noises up in my room which were hurting me and made me curse. What kind of a trap is that? I am a good person. You can't throw me away cuza my race, too! I don't wanna end up warded off life.
Disclaimer: What did I say wrong?! That's not something you're supposed to be doing.
I didn't do anything wrong? What's everyone's problem?
Disclaimer: What did I say wrong?! That's not something you're supposed to be doing.
I didn't do anything wrong? What's everyone's problem?
Prison Show
I am watching TV showing the inside of a prison.
They are very polite, whereas the people on Dr. Phil seem extremely uppity and stubborn. It stands out, like they're meaner.
They are very polite, whereas the people on Dr. Phil seem extremely uppity and stubborn. It stands out, like they're meaner.
Friends of Friends
Why are people looking over my shoulder to discover someone who treats me like *beep*? I'm not saying that's entirely true for everyone in every way. Ehehehehehehahahahaha! I don't know if anyone takes my claim as insulting. I don't mean for that. In funny ways, people go thru the motions but may not think they're doing it? For some, it's more serious in certain ways.
Not Sure What Went Wrong Here
I had to edit a post: link. The combination of the words I expressed were wrong.
Saturday, July 25, 2015
"Ticked Off"
When the hell did people start getting ticked? Now, they do it and say they didn't mean it and do it more.
1 word. early-mid-2005.
They knew Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was coming up. If they're the ostrich, they need to pick their head out of the sand. Come on, that's not the sort of thing you ever supported in anyone.
1 word. early-mid-2005.
They knew Charlie and the Chocolate Factory was coming up. If they're the ostrich, they need to pick their head out of the sand. Come on, that's not the sort of thing you ever supported in anyone.
People think..
..well, my dad.. that I should feel like I'm stupid and Bella is amazing. Not sure what has gotten into the beast sometimes.
I know for a fact
Ellen is upset if I don't like Bella being bossily reprimanding of what I like to do. That's too bad.. It's too much for me to handle thinking at once now, but I don't wanna upset her.
Did you get someone..
..to abandon me directly? Not only that but to jeopardize their own future? Online is important and so is a working career.
Well, whoever did it or if it's the person themselves, too bad.
Well, whoever did it or if it's the person themselves, too bad.
I thought you said you were cool..
What's not to like? Someone gone off their rocker with a lost cause? No understanding, and all that rearing? For what? To dis others?
A Suggestion That Went thru My Brain
I thought, oh wow, I wonder if people can be special ones to others, like marriage or brotherhood.
I got this *beep* = hilarious answer. I don't know how it came about. It was probably just some leftover thought, really, but sorry if this was something special to anyone, tho it's sly and uncool.. it is funny, tho. Listen to this..
"Oh, Christina. Good idea. (You think Bella should be considered the special one and not you at all.)"
Why *beep* not?
Disclaimer: I am not telling someone I know about that it's stupid or anything if they actually thought it and not someone else. It seems like a sole thought that came about, even if someone thought it maybe. If it were someone esteemed/famous/cool, then so be it.. I forget what I was gonna say and don't know how to say what I think because I don't know. If you have a problem, you'll have to invite me to IM or chat on my forum or e-mail.
(Edited)
I got this *beep* = hilarious answer. I don't know how it came about. It was probably just some leftover thought, really, but sorry if this was something special to anyone, tho it's sly and uncool.. it is funny, tho. Listen to this..
"Oh, Christina. Good idea. (You think Bella should be considered the special one and not you at all.)"
Why *beep* not?
Disclaimer: I am not telling someone I know about that it's stupid or anything if they actually thought it and not someone else. It seems like a sole thought that came about, even if someone thought it maybe. If it were someone esteemed/famous/cool, then so be it.. I forget what I was gonna say and don't know how to say what I think because I don't know. If you have a problem, you'll have to invite me to IM or chat on my forum or e-mail.
(Edited)
What the *beep* is going on?
I never went out and said nor flat out thought if I liked someone to fight others off.
Is your dream to be the only one for them? I don't think that's really want you were thinking.
Is your dream to be the only one for them? I don't think that's really want you were thinking.
You're not allowed to practice racism.
Be *** and practice the *** life.
I'm not actually going out and telling anyone what to do, and I want some peace while I sort or write this out.
Well, one thing I know is that people tell show-off's no who aren't interested in others..sometimes. Maybe, they like more mature people. "Popular" people. A show off is not always popular.
I'm not actually going out and telling anyone what to do, and I want some peace while I sort or write this out.
Well, one thing I know is that people tell show-off's no who aren't interested in others..sometimes. Maybe, they like more mature people. "Popular" people. A show off is not always popular.
You're Not Just a Failure
You may not wash your face at night, but most people seem not to have.
Bella seems to say everyone else is responsible for her problems, but no one else can feel that comfortable that their problems are not just their fault. People only want Bella to, some people, maybe people who are living from a remote control.
Bella Thorne flat out was shaking her head and raising her eyebrows making me feel like *beep*! but no offense to Bella for whatever happened.
Bella seems to say everyone else is responsible for her problems, but no one else can feel that comfortable that their problems are not just their fault. People only want Bella to, some people, maybe people who are living from a remote control.
Bella Thorne flat out was shaking her head and raising her eyebrows making me feel like *beep*! but no offense to Bella for whatever happened.
Young Females Ecstatic Over..
The Phantom of the Opera (the *popular* one..) is like a little scrawny boy fondling over his "age old" discovery over the existence of soup over other things.. You know how little kids today are. I feel like a bad guy. It's what kids do, but that's not exactly the manner of things in how my discovery of soup went. I just don't think that the accumulation of my knowledge rests on things of that particular nature..
"Honesty"
Why is "honesty" all about only being sane in public if you are mostly/all racially white and therefore got "stuff" to offer?
More Consistent Jealousy
I don't know what changed from before, but I'm jealous that someone may not like me because someone else matches them better in certain ways. I am not mad at the lucky person, tho. I don't really think like you only meet one person and that's it.. that's stupid, unless you're gonna figure out what you're thinking.
Also, that other lucky person doesn't get teased all the time about being bad, and I am not bad, neither. How stupid can you get? (People always said I was good and not to change. If you had a *beep* problem you had your chance to tell me what I *have to fix* for you. ..They don't play like that. If I do something I don't like, they just are mean to me, even if I wasn't really wrong. They don't tell me what to do so I can avoid their wrath. They're crazy.)
Edit: I don't mean anyone in particular is stupid.
Also, that other lucky person doesn't get teased all the time about being bad, and I am not bad, neither. How stupid can you get? (People always said I was good and not to change. If you had a *beep* problem you had your chance to tell me what I *have to fix* for you. ..They don't play like that. If I do something I don't like, they just are mean to me, even if I wasn't really wrong. They don't tell me what to do so I can avoid their wrath. They're crazy.)
Edit: I don't mean anyone in particular is stupid.
Evidence
Howcome you find out if people are "hurt" and "hurt" them more, but others you want them to cry to you, somehow?
I don't personally go around and enjoy most people I meet to do things like pick me up nor "see me cry."
I must add that I am a bit jealous that others are considered on the good list. It's almost as simple as that.
I don't personally go around and enjoy most people I meet to do things like pick me up nor "see me cry."
I must add that I am a bit jealous that others are considered on the good list. It's almost as simple as that.
Hey, guess what I noticed!
I noticed when someone with a parent from Europe their parent acts European, their kid does, too, but when my Asian mom acts like she's from out-of-the-US no one on that point cares about me.
Joke
My Gramma is obsessed with short hair and mine is short, but I thought she'd say, "Christina, your hair is just too short! That is not a girl's hair!" She said that to my aunt about her job.
Friday, July 24, 2015
I should try college a bit..
..I can take a break and come back home every other year.
Should I try Finland or fly to my old college in the US, Loyola University New Orleans?? I want to do ballet at my old school, too, as my built in minor program.
Should I try Finland or fly to my old college in the US, Loyola University New Orleans?? I want to do ballet at my old school, too, as my built in minor program.
To Be or Not to Be
If I moved to Orlando right after also living again in East Coast Florida.. would I have a pile up a mile of good memories? They don't all seem to understand plebeian things.
How quite..
How did I wind up depressed in trouble initially when it boiled down to forgiving only those who have done wrong? In a way, tho, I really did something at some point, flunked outta college etc. etc.
I don't have a problem!
People think if you're born a certain year, you have an issue. They only like people born around 1960 and their young Generation Z kids born 1997-1998. So, if you're not born then, they simply say you have an issue or that you're a problem.
I want to sort out my thoughts, cons AND PROs.
Some of this is a secret.
So, I got upset that Bella Thorne is openly loved by all cuz the world hates me. Even people I meet bring her up. I have no problems with her especially. I just feel she got popular by bargaining she would be reserved to others's needs as a promise but once in power was used as a tool by Ellen DeGeneres to punish me for a trick/harming me annoyingly and me getting mad etc., cursing.
I flat out found someone I simply like a lot, and it's not private but public. I was upset it became all for Bella, like I'm chopped liver. They have 2 ways to go from here, that Bella has the same hair color and compared to others it's just for Bella to "get it out" and NOT to "get serious." I mean, who does this person even know? Probably no youth. Why see just Bella sees her cuz they have the same hair color? Red hair? You'd go to Ireland and find that a lot, except I notice they have freckles. What else do they have in common physically? Is it love or just an excuse to annoy people? You had your turn! I'm not particularly mad at Bella, I'm just speaking in general in English. If you have so many people in a situation or group, would you pair every fair non-freckled person together? I see it's special, tho. It's just that I would not mind other people sharing one person. Why don't I get to have more fun?! Bella has the support of the world and an okay with the attractive "adults" in it.
What else? I did kinda realize I should not think badly of anyone. I was simply upset or simply am at least now thinking back that the public approves of Bella Thorne getting the respect I earned and not and "instead of" me. That's something Ellen did. Johnny did something, too. They're all racist, supposedly wanna be in their way.
I think further and realize that someone else is putting Bella Thorne in front of me.
Okay, I'm distracted. Bella is pretty, obviously, and part of the reason might go along with why she's rich. Planes every month, free food, hotels, living it large, like we wanted to but didn't get. In fact, my family got poorer. You must know what that would mean. If you compare me to other poor people, I'm doing good. I'm well-kempt. I trim my nails every other day and paint them sometimes every night. I shower once or twice a day. I'd been brushing my teeth more than twice a day. My clothes aren't trashy. I went on sabbatical, a bit longer than I'd like, to care for my health possible restoration. I comb and wash my hair. I practice a hobby or so. I calculate my future life tho it passed me by. I don't waste myself away being a hosed out goof and appear intently intellectual.
It wouldn't had taken much for me to fluff up when I was skinny and prettier or nicer-looking if possible. I gained that weight, tho! It looks like my life was thrown out by accident.
Disclaimer: I don't mean anything against anyone. After all, with people in general even, these things do happen.
I just don't have this all down in my head. I have something else bothering me. Maybe, I can find something else to take up brain space that isn't being shoved a "no" for something.
Oh, I didn't say what I meant about Bella being in front of me. I don't need someone like her telling me that I'm too nervous to stand for myself. Does she need me to foil her cuz I'm kinda cool and it would make her feel elated? I mean if someone cool were put down standing by her, saying she is better in all these ways.
What I mean is, I realized that.. and I mean that's not up to me. No one really calls me ugly, you know, just some silly people online. I can't quite put my finger on what is wrong besides me being in trouble for no reason.
Let me also say that my hair is not always dark and being 1/2 Chinese sure makes being a lighter brunette a lot harder. I think I don't wanna mirror myself to all white people who have dark hair. So, I hope it's not something like my hair that's the issue for disliking me.
You know, I may be stupid, but I think Bella Thorne is likeable to me. Even if she listens to Ellen DeGeneres and the world to be harsh on people like me, she also confuses me as to why she bothers with someone such as me. I don't like being put down. People used to always say I put myself down too much. So, I'd like to think tho on Twitter the people I follow that my responses are nice or smart. I should be talking to people who are like me, possibly not famous yet but attractive and conscientious about looks and well-being.
So, in the end, I'm still left wondering why people use any excuse to get at me but not for themselves. I guess I must have pushed a button, but how was I supposed to know? Why am I considered so badly? I didn't tell anyone they had to do anything. You're supposed to figure things out, not just give simple orders. I know I have enjoyed, but that doesn't make me someone to bark at and be put down by many a lot. I can't get back my identity from someone I'm seeing. I get something that isn't me, another reason to want to go back off to college if possible.
If pressing a button, to whomever involved, is so bad.. well.. I guess that was bad, but it's funny when you don't know you did something differently that was bad. Can anyone uninvolved/interested explain that to me? Do I have to go around thinking something I don't know about?? It doesn't matter, right? I wasn't supposed to be doing this, anyway.. but wait, other people seem more welcome from the start. Because of that, I still have more feelings about maybe what else is going on, things other than this of which I am thinking.
I simply have had ideas hit me. I did not mean I support them.
Why do I have to feel apologetic about who I am, tho? Do I not get a place in the game of life with any race of people or species of animal? Please don't make fun of my dad if you don't have to. I realize he's heavier than me. I do feel that people are using me as a toy, saying I have the flaws of my parents, but I don't. Immature kids try to pose as being like their parents. Honestly, I had 1 friend who acted like I was wrong because of "who her parents are." I wasn't wrong. Are you just gonna dig into my private life and say that person know I've had some bumps along the road I didn't even talk about to them?
Okay, I don't mean anything bad against anyone. If you have a problem, get to IM me or post online about it. See if we can fix the problem.
I just noticed, I seemed to be making fun of parents, after my dad was made vulnerable in my talking. Something to have on the back burner of this post. I like people and want what's best for them, like anyone would. I was trying to explain a topic.
So, I got upset that Bella Thorne is openly loved by all cuz the world hates me. Even people I meet bring her up. I have no problems with her especially. I just feel she got popular by bargaining she would be reserved to others's needs as a promise but once in power was used as a tool by Ellen DeGeneres to punish me for a trick/harming me annoyingly and me getting mad etc., cursing.
I flat out found someone I simply like a lot, and it's not private but public. I was upset it became all for Bella, like I'm chopped liver. They have 2 ways to go from here, that Bella has the same hair color and compared to others it's just for Bella to "get it out" and NOT to "get serious." I mean, who does this person even know? Probably no youth. Why see just Bella sees her cuz they have the same hair color? Red hair? You'd go to Ireland and find that a lot, except I notice they have freckles. What else do they have in common physically? Is it love or just an excuse to annoy people? You had your turn! I'm not particularly mad at Bella, I'm just speaking in general in English. If you have so many people in a situation or group, would you pair every fair non-freckled person together? I see it's special, tho. It's just that I would not mind other people sharing one person. Why don't I get to have more fun?! Bella has the support of the world and an okay with the attractive "adults" in it.
What else? I did kinda realize I should not think badly of anyone. I was simply upset or simply am at least now thinking back that the public approves of Bella Thorne getting the respect I earned and not and "instead of" me. That's something Ellen did. Johnny did something, too. They're all racist, supposedly wanna be in their way.
I think further and realize that someone else is putting Bella Thorne in front of me.
Okay, I'm distracted. Bella is pretty, obviously, and part of the reason might go along with why she's rich. Planes every month, free food, hotels, living it large, like we wanted to but didn't get. In fact, my family got poorer. You must know what that would mean. If you compare me to other poor people, I'm doing good. I'm well-kempt. I trim my nails every other day and paint them sometimes every night. I shower once or twice a day. I'd been brushing my teeth more than twice a day. My clothes aren't trashy. I went on sabbatical, a bit longer than I'd like, to care for my health possible restoration. I comb and wash my hair. I practice a hobby or so. I calculate my future life tho it passed me by. I don't waste myself away being a hosed out goof and appear intently intellectual.
It wouldn't had taken much for me to fluff up when I was skinny and prettier or nicer-looking if possible. I gained that weight, tho! It looks like my life was thrown out by accident.
Disclaimer: I don't mean anything against anyone. After all, with people in general even, these things do happen.
I just don't have this all down in my head. I have something else bothering me. Maybe, I can find something else to take up brain space that isn't being shoved a "no" for something.
Oh, I didn't say what I meant about Bella being in front of me. I don't need someone like her telling me that I'm too nervous to stand for myself. Does she need me to foil her cuz I'm kinda cool and it would make her feel elated? I mean if someone cool were put down standing by her, saying she is better in all these ways.
What I mean is, I realized that.. and I mean that's not up to me. No one really calls me ugly, you know, just some silly people online. I can't quite put my finger on what is wrong besides me being in trouble for no reason.
Let me also say that my hair is not always dark and being 1/2 Chinese sure makes being a lighter brunette a lot harder. I think I don't wanna mirror myself to all white people who have dark hair. So, I hope it's not something like my hair that's the issue for disliking me.
You know, I may be stupid, but I think Bella Thorne is likeable to me. Even if she listens to Ellen DeGeneres and the world to be harsh on people like me, she also confuses me as to why she bothers with someone such as me. I don't like being put down. People used to always say I put myself down too much. So, I'd like to think tho on Twitter the people I follow that my responses are nice or smart. I should be talking to people who are like me, possibly not famous yet but attractive and conscientious about looks and well-being.
So, in the end, I'm still left wondering why people use any excuse to get at me but not for themselves. I guess I must have pushed a button, but how was I supposed to know? Why am I considered so badly? I didn't tell anyone they had to do anything. You're supposed to figure things out, not just give simple orders. I know I have enjoyed, but that doesn't make me someone to bark at and be put down by many a lot. I can't get back my identity from someone I'm seeing. I get something that isn't me, another reason to want to go back off to college if possible.
If pressing a button, to whomever involved, is so bad.. well.. I guess that was bad, but it's funny when you don't know you did something differently that was bad. Can anyone uninvolved/interested explain that to me? Do I have to go around thinking something I don't know about?? It doesn't matter, right? I wasn't supposed to be doing this, anyway.. but wait, other people seem more welcome from the start. Because of that, I still have more feelings about maybe what else is going on, things other than this of which I am thinking.
I simply have had ideas hit me. I did not mean I support them.
Why do I have to feel apologetic about who I am, tho? Do I not get a place in the game of life with any race of people or species of animal? Please don't make fun of my dad if you don't have to. I realize he's heavier than me. I do feel that people are using me as a toy, saying I have the flaws of my parents, but I don't. Immature kids try to pose as being like their parents. Honestly, I had 1 friend who acted like I was wrong because of "who her parents are." I wasn't wrong. Are you just gonna dig into my private life and say that person know I've had some bumps along the road I didn't even talk about to them?
Okay, I don't mean anything bad against anyone. If you have a problem, get to IM me or post online about it. See if we can fix the problem.
I just noticed, I seemed to be making fun of parents, after my dad was made vulnerable in my talking. Something to have on the back burner of this post. I like people and want what's best for them, like anyone would. I was trying to explain a topic.
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