cont.

What happened was people took advantage of him and he let it go.

Succumb to Burton

The whole world has taken the shortcut.

No offense to the guy.  It just happened, I know..  People also went crazy..

(See next post for further explanation.)

Gymnastics

Even if just for fun, I think I will try a new school, a dance school.

Generation Gaps

Isn't it funny how they have older younger people like they need to identify so much with all people who are like 30/35+ years older than them.. yet "kids" today as a general population don't *need* to deal with the people of the previous generation I'm explaining?

Blog Description Update

Eurasian

Blog Update

Age|DOB: 29|05-20-1986

Race: ½ Chinese-Indonesian Anglo/Irish French Dutch German (?)
Location: SE + NE FL, New Orleans, Orlando
Heritage: Pennsylvanian, New Yorker

Height: 5'4"
Weight: 145 pounds
Hair: Brunette, Straight/Wavy/Curly
Eyes: Brown/Green, Crystally
Nose: Mostly Upturned, With a Bump
Skin: White/Tanned/Pink

Church (cont.)

It was like an experiment to see how holy I could be staying at home.

I didn't go to any doctor, dentist, etc.  I told my mom to cancel anything that requires me leaving the house and so much my room.  This was okay until I had to see a psychiatrist and my dad brought me to the movies with him.

Church

Just because I found a cool preacher and am a holy person, people are finding an excuse to tell me not to engage as readily and wholeheartedly in the church and coolness of the priest for some reason.  They also found it sin for me to sing in choir cuz they don't sing in choir.  No one else in the world has these rules.

I always went to church.  I even went in college.

I started having to stay home all the time in 2007.  We probably stopped going to church on Sundays sometime in 2006 or 2007 cuza my mom's job.  We could have gone at a different time.  A lotta masses tho are only traditional in music on Sunday mornings, tho.

I want to know why people are so crazy and agitated, in general.

So, I was sick in 2007.  I had to quit ballet, too.  I'm not a dancer, now, and possess less of a yearning for it.

I was big in church music all growing up and in choir.

I was sick like 2007 and stayed in my room not seeing anyone pretty much mostly until 2010 when I was placed in a mental hospital.  The racism had gotten to me online, but my mom was bothering me tho acted like she wasn't.  My mom called my dad and she called 911..  I was mad and threw some things, but my mom still kept trying to make me feel bad.

So, at some point in 2009 or 2010, I had to leave the house sometime, I think for movies, because I was so mad at the racism I threw my pretty much broken anyway laptop against the wall several times.  I was stupid.  I hope this doesn't haunt me, again..  I know I saw movies once or twice a week by 2011.

I was foreign to the bus system and neglected it for some reason.  I started watching Ellen DeGeneres easrly-mid 2012.  I have never seen the show on TV, just ran into her on YouTube and later Twitter.  I was just Tweeting her at 1st and then watched the show every day.  At 1st, I didn't wanna leave my room so much.

I really wanted to get outta my unemployed situation and become an actress.  I found a theater teacher I liked and took class but was kicked out.

I didn't go to church cuz I didn't want my dad to drive me.  A hassle for him, I felt.  He did drive me to ballet every day 4 days a week in 2007-2008.

I got in big trouble for cursing about illegal, hurting noises in my room supposedly by Ellen DeGeneres.  I still am tho I don't and it was supposed to be about the noises....

So, now, I started to get in shape with some things I bought from TV and later found adult gymnastics was available.  Being more sane from the appropriate exercise, I was able to muster the desire and daring to go to church.  I figured as a religious person being as I was in choirs before and respected as an accompanist sometimes that I'd feel at home and welcomed back.  I had not run away.

However, now, I am being beat for this fact, that I didn't go to church for it seems nearly 10 years.  Yes, I've been a few times spread out.  Haven't gone back to ballet since like starting to watch Ellen.

My life is tortured and weird and I'm being experimented on or spied on and talked to in private.

My Future Options for a Career/Job

I'm too old to have fun with people my age in college.

I don't want to bus to school now.  I'm on psychotic pills that make me tired.

I don't want to take only General Studies.

I don't want to study at home.

Blog Update

Age|DOB: 29|05-20-1986
Race: ½ Chinese-Indonesian Anglo/Irish French Dutch German (?)
Location: SE + NE FL, New Orleans, Orlando
Heritage: Pennsylvanian, New Yorker
Height: 5'4"
Weight: 145 pounds

Dance

The supplies are about $200 total.  Might have to wait to start class in March if I do.

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I was thinking dance would be a good outlet for being peppy rather than negatively arousing.

For now, I may stick with 1 gymnastics class a week and have to finish off paying the month.  I like getting dresses for church, too.  Sad to see one more excuse not to take dance class.  The classes are $275/month.  That would leave me with $175/month otherwise.

It would make me more well-rounded to take at least some dance.  Ballet is only once a week.

I am trying to fast to get thin, so dance would make me hungry and I may then beef up.

What I Should Have Done When the Experiment With Me Began

I should not have gone to school, not gone to Key West.  It was a faint idea and a suggestion.

I could live at home and learn music on my own and post here.  I could exercise and have a nice life.

Dance Schedule

I may start in February.  I have to put my room together with new furniture and finish off a month at a gymnastics school.

MONDAY
Hip Hop 1/2 - 6:30-7:30- 1 hr

TUESDAY
Tap 1 - 5:30-6:15 - 45 min

WEDNESDAY
Acro 1 - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - 7-8 - 1 hr

THURSDAY
Ballet 1 - 6-7 - 1 hr
Acro 1 - 7-7:45 - 45 min

SATURDAY
Worship Technique 1 - 10:30-11:15 - 45 min
Leaps & Turns - 11:15-12 - 45 min
Stretch & Conditioning - 12-12:45 - 45 min

$275

Where I've Been

I've been sleeping.

A New Year Resolution

Get furniture for my room now/soon:

•2 5-cased shelves
•cubbyholes for my bags
•coat stand
•shoe rack

My life will be functional somehow when that is done.  I can attend classes and join things.

I'll still be dragging my butt to adult beginning gymnastics, have to stay another month.  I might switch to gymnastics at a dance studio with other dance classes, including ballet.

A Reason for Everything

You know when you do something for a reason and someone thinks it must be for some other reason, but you can safely say that makes no sense?

Blog Update

About Me

Races/Ethnicities: ½ Chinese-Indonesian Anglo/Irish French Dutch German (?)

Where I'm From: SE + NE FL, New Orleans, Orlando

Undeservingness

Does it make people happy when they find I am considered trash and everything I earned is for them, like attention-wise/socially?  That's waking the sleeping dragon.

Blog Update

About Me

½ Chinese-Indonesian Anglo/Irish French Dutch German (?)

Twitter Profile Update

United States
christinaannbarrett1986.blogspot.com
Born on May 20, 1986

Where the World Ends

I notice people think the world has ended and expect you to be in check and not try to be good at being "something you're not."

Noodle Nations

Would the Chinese even have a problem if it weren't for the Italians?

The Italians keep stressing how they're not Asian and that therefore Asians are not as good as anyone else.

You may think that's besides the point, but that just means that Asia never had a shot and is just being messed and ^played^ with.

Happy Aussies

Does anyone realize how much fun Australia is getting away with?

How I Wonder

It's funny anyone would have a problem with me.

"True Colors"

I just came up with my favorite colors as Mardi Gras.

Facebook - Alton Brown

Christina Ann Joanna Barrett My grandma makes buckeyes, and my mom makes butter cookies with homemade frosting. Sometimes, I eat a gingerbread house. Ham. New Year is my favorite, sauerkraut and dumplings and a wish. We leave milk and cookies for Santa and a carrot and water for the reindeer. I like Milano cookies cuz I got them at 16 when I was sick of fasting to get thin and holy. After that year, I started eating lots of meal/healthy food. They had good flatbread for wraps in New Orleans, the spinach wraps too. At college, I got a salad with every dinner without much of dressing if any. Smoothie King, which they don't have in Orlando. It's a tossup between going to more healthy food or a normal appetite. What worked was more healthy food but not too much but addicted to restaurant smoothies. In the end, I started hearing things and other things when I went up north for a semester of college. Holy moly! Didn't know food could help you do that. I followed Health in school very carefully, too. *frog emoji*

Growing Up

Funny how no one notices you until you're an adult and make your own decisions which they consider immoral yet are legal.  That's when you've left the nest and seek out even more of society.

Cane

I overworked my twitchable toes and now am Tiny Tina!

Twitter Profile Update

½ Chinese-Indonesian Anglo/Irish French Dutch German (?)

Twitter Profile Update

Location: The South

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½ Chinese-Indonesian Anglo/Irish French Dutch German

Freedom of Speech

Ellen DeGeneres and Johnny Depp sure got the pedestal.

Can someone please tell me what/if anything is going on?

I never wanted to be the only friend of anyone.

I don't know if this is just Christina is in trouble.

When You're Not Forgiven

You're not forgiven if people have not officially done it and if you haven't asked God.

Toys "R" Us

I got a toy octopus that can hold jewels and a diver with a car.  It's boy toys, Legos.

A Rush to Be Someone Ever

You think the internet is a rush to get onto or it's not.

If it's not, you should not worry.  However, because Johnny Depp and Tim Burton became popular, it's been a rush.

Bless Me!

My toes hurt from all this walking I've been doing.  Sometimes, 1 can twitch.  I was in so much frustration.  I'm better but using my cane for my bad injured foot.

Altering Values, Bored at the Holidays

My room does not feature an entertaining place.

I'm buying furniture to organize it before I do/start anything new.

After that, I can
•start ballet and dance
•start singing lessons
•get professional pictures done to post online
•Ancestry.com's DNA testing

Made It!

In a way, some identified/popular/famous crowd who communicate online are in a virtual reality in their opinion of me.

I'm glad I started taking adult gymnastics and going back to the church.  I apparently woke up now.

I'm in the zone!

What Really Sunk After Titanic

It seems that it's not Titanic and Britney Spears/Celine Dion that ruined life for us in 1999.  We made life easier for those who are popular in step with the babies being born around 1997-1998.  It was racist, too.

I figured it out/fixed it.

It's not that people born earlier can't be as happy.  We can't have younger people in our way getting all the pleasure.

The Only Ones Without a Chance

Pregnant at Fifteen (1998) starring Kirsten Dunst is on.  The 2 girls I see look so supple.  I was even younger than they were then.  They look mad a baby looks so pleasured being born around 1997-1998.  It seems that people Portia DeGeneres's type of generation/situation get "the chance," yet, ultimately, life goes down the drain just for people born around 1997-1998 to enjoy.

You're forgetting people my age, born around 1985 for me.  I have a hard time understanding life for kids born, like, 1986-1996.  They don't give a chance to people my age, born 1986-1996.  We can't seem to live to our utmost.  We'll get old and never mature if we didn't try to fix it.

Sports Fan?

Say, you're in college.  Would you go to football games if your college has that or would you be more of the artsy kind?  A fresh way to start your life is college.  They say high school is where it all starts, tho.  It's just hard to accept that, while you're studying, the teacher's mind is on the ball.  In the end, that's where your future is gonna go.

Like there are lots of sports fans, it being fine, I find there are people in the performing arts with a similar mindset, of different ages, too.  I wonder which people find most arousing.  Who will attain true glory?  Is it just actors and singers and talk show hosts?  People forget about general dancing.  Ellen DeGeneres has featured some awkward dancing.  Did you notice the talk show hosts seem less lazy than actors?  Singers just seem to sustain their talent just above the ripple of the water.  Whatever floats your boat.  Pigs can't fly, but Dumbo can.

You know the peak of football games in high school is the dance team.  I started to get more interested in games by the time I became an adult.

High School Cheerleading

Cheerleading

Do you ever wish you did something differently in high school or college?

If you start cheerleading young, you probably learn patience and poise.  I think some people leave disillusioned.

Dance Team

As for Dance Team, it doesn't look like it's in the business but is a prized activity.  I wanted to do that.  I think what's missing is that it's not necessarily people with a lot of ballet experience and doesn't have a teacher I think.  Did you know even the dance team and flag team I think dance with the band?  Cheerleaders I know cheer thru-out and not just at halftime.  I don't remember what they do at halftime.

Modern Dance

Even dance studios don't seem to be very honest about talent.  They inhibit people and don't let them perform what they want.

Classical Ballet

Ballet can be a disappointment for some as far as trying to make it goes.  The class can be very crass.

Gymnastics

I guess gymnastics is not even in the picture.

Cornering Capable Youth

I saw an ad on Facebook with a picture of a floutist.  It said for professors to recruit students.  That's like the professors are the ones begging for talent.

The 1st thing I liked as a kid was art.  I had a desire to be "good" at it, for the muse to come to my scribblings.  I remember it then.

When I showed an interest in playing piano by ear on a tiny keyboard I got when I was 2 years old, my parents got me in piano lessons and I quit art lessons I had just started when moving.  I played a little around relatives, and I was told I would grow up to be a pianist.  I kept saying, like, "Oh, I just wanna do it for fun."  It was insisted that must be my career.

I know that Bella Thorne was a very modest girl about getting attention in some ways at some points.  It seems people have pulled her out of her hole and she comes on as very competitive.  You know, a lotta people from places like the Northeast have this thing about being competitive for attention.

Why wake the sleeping dragon?  All I can say about what comes up is that you can't bring people in to take away attention someone earned with their hard work.  There's attention for all if you look or happiness in some way.

Today, people are just so rash and hasty.  They are worried about being Italian or what have you, ignored like the Chinese.  They step on those with mixed race problems or whatnot.  They get confused and it gets out of hand.  People like the Spanish can be very interested in the Chinese, but they can also be very racist to the Chinese, treating them like Hitler and the Nazis treated the Jews there.  It's not a secret and it's not a small thing.

The Actor's Day

Johnny Depp's life seems like a journey.  He spent it acting and peaked off his career as Willy Wonka and a bit before Captain Jack Sparrow.

I spent my whole life loving the arts and wanted to be a performer whenever I could.

New Blog

Welcome!

Welcome to my BlogSpot!

Whoops, better run!

I think people are onto me because they fastforwarded their lives early on.

Late Boom Problems

I don't really care if you think I should suffer prejudice from the force of Late Boom type stuff just because other people made a big whoopin' deal of it.

"Sharp Rocks Ahead?"

You do realize there's a lotta poeple who don't believe I'm a bad person.

Reenactment of the Past

I'll just ignore that, then.

I bet it's a hot topic.  You know, the only reason I have short hair is cuz I wanted something better.  The reason it is its natural color is cuza money, preference, skin tone, etc.  However, as a dancer, I need to grow my hair out.  If you all wanna look like yer mama, then be my guest!  Just be it in a younger form, of course, I mean, where it's the age difference.

Not Trying to Attack

Maybe, I should assume that just didn't happen.

Why are you people so sick about the past and pretending what I mean?  Can you think straight all the time, like when you're being talked at or pushed around?  That's how fights start, and countries have believed in war in places like Europe for a long time, sad as it is of course.

I don't think people should pretend I have a problem I don't.  I think if someone has a problem you should help them or be nice to them.  Wake up!  I am not the pin cushion girl tracting problems.  I am not the definition of every problem there is.  Hello.  People are "normal" usually.  There isn't something queer in the air.  I'm not a weirdo.  I just like to be extravagant personality-wise.  It's called a personality, and I might have one.

"Let It Go"

I won't disrespect your accomplishments, but I am not a sick person.

Jumping to Conclusions

People think blondes are okay and brunettes aren't.

I feel mistreated for my appearance.  Get it, mistreated?

Being Allowed to Speak Freely and Think Without "Thought Police"

Well, sometimes you know when something is right or wrong.  I don't really accept being punished.

People keep thinking what if someone doesn't take something the right way.

What is this, anyway?  I don't see anyone else getting punished.  You think me getting attention is a loss to other people, too.  Sometimes, it doesn't work that way.  Some people don't have their personal lives together.  Sometimes, it's different kinds of things.  I know some people get a lotta attention from others.  It's something that should be worked on.  Sometimes, some people are bad and think it's cool.  It's hard to fight that you can't believe in that and you wonder is everyone bad cuza racism among other things?

I never meant to start anything bad, so I don't see why people believe I should be punished and so hardly/much.

I also found out on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, too, today that people will give me a rough time and when it becomes obvious they are wrong they just wonder if you thought you were gonna get away with it socially as a mixed race person.  I mean, they lie to mixed race people saying they did something wrong.  After it becomes obvious you aren't that bad, the person just says you're trying to get away with talking to them and that it's not okay cuza your race.  Like, they just assume it without stating it, it feels.  Like, they'll act like, "Oh, you thought it was okay to talk to me?" while digging into the fact you are mixed race.

Speaking of which, I used to look okay without makeup cuz I never wore it.  I always had a pudgy face in a way.  I gained about 50 pounds for reasons not my fault, like in college.  I am a little taller and bigger.  So, now, I look ugly without makeup and with glasses on.  I only do that at home and when I jog/walk.  Also, my hair is growing out from being shaved after dying it.  So, it looks a bit like a fro.

You want me to also solve the world's problems?

Maybe, if they stopped thinking they were better than other people, they'd make an improvement and become happy.

I hope the end result isn't just to glorify Late Boomers.  It's not time for people like me to back off and not get more "fun" because we have certain other qualities to envy.

Jealousy and Improvement

It seems that if someone in your life is jealous of something about your personality that it will be limited for you to improve yourself in your own life and with others in your mutual lives.

Ellen DeGeneres - Relaxation

It seems she doesn't always go off of the end product.  She sieves thru things.

Things you do can multiply.  Not sure what people go off of, the news, a breath of fresh air.  I read some of a book with that as an example, The Tao of Pooh.  Highlight:  I think it asked Winnie the Pooh how to know what's going on in the world.  He said by going outside.  Right and wrong are not always the same pattern.  You have to just like ground yourself to improve.  Think about what's real and what's big.  Also, keep at something and you probably make a revolutionary discovery or end product of a thought.

Saving It for Later??

I know a lotta people out there aren't really fans of Ellen DeGeneres cuz I've never met one who seemed to click.  For example, there's a certain feel I do get when I encounter long time fans.  The only thing that seems strange is I've met people who watch her a lot.  Nothing seemed to click, like no common reverence for her.  Other things to notice are her past and what she represents for the world, being born around 1960, the way people born around 1950, like Karen Carpenter, who passed away, do.

All else I can say, too, is as I've always felt.. be ready before you watch someone like Ellen or, like, Oprah who I think is off air.

All else is I know people who watch her or maybe they also watch a lotta TV.  It's hard to know where they're coming from.  They seem very ambiguous and jaded.  I am guessing their parents had nothing else to turn on, like how I watched Mary Poppins a lot when I was 2.  It seems hard to think that there would be another Julie Andrews.

Ellen DeGeneres has a lot of fans and is very popular.  It's just hard to reach out to her biggest fans.  You'd expect they'd be found online somehow.

Listening to Older Generations

It seems kids/teens today forget how much younger they are than their parental units.  I thought they were pretty cool.  I probably just made a nest about where I am.  If I'm something to be jealous of, why don't they admit I have an ideal situation that's okay?

Parents and Badness

What parent believes that if they are bad that their own kids have to be considered even more bad no matter how "good" they are?

Your Background

People think I come from a bad family, like ooh my mom is Chinese-Indonesian, my dad is not born after 1950.

Yes to Others, No to Me

Do you know when people get a fit over you saying something like, "I like that person?"  Someone will just stupidly get mad and say it's unfair you looked good saying that? because they think that means something like you have to be just like them?

Well, these people are told everything is okay, but I feel a lotta pressure trying to get by socially.

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Lupita Nyong'o was such a beautiful person!  Very smart, sweet, kind, respectful.  Interesting!

Uzo Aduba seemed like a very sweet person, as well.

They are both black and lovely.

I want!

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The Lion King - Australia

Social Media

Do you know people who are like no don't use your social media on me?

Revised Dance Schedule

Hip Hop 1 - Monday - 6:30-7:30 - 1 hr
Tap 1/2 - Tuesday - 5:30-6:15 - 45 min
Acro 1 - Wednesday - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - Wednesday - 7-8 - 1 hr
Ballet 1 - Thursday - 6-7:30 - 1 1/2 hrs
Leaps & Turns - Saturday - 11:15-12 - 45 min

5 1/4 hours = $215/month

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Who is the one person you are sick and tired of hearing about?

Well, I like Ellen DeGeneres, but I know she has a lotta competition with nonfamous people. 

Only Me in Trouble

It upsets me, but people are getting mad at me for being upset about someone who's actually the one who seems especially feisty.  They also think they're the people's person and I'm not accepted all of a sudden cuza race.  You shouldn't be comparing a nonwhite with a white in some ways.  Just accept they both exist.

Whatcha Doin'?

Do you all wanna think of someone as being better than yourself?

They keep acting like this person is important but better than me.

Not Enough Room or What?

Afraid to admit maybe I am something but not afraid to sat so about others? what about yourself?

It's not just excusable.

So..

Why should I like people if they're on hold about being respectful?

People think people who are worse than others are actually good and good people are bad.

They relay something suggestive about you and say, "That's it!"  That's what they were looking for and then they sew it on like that was the whole problem, what someone mean needed to feel better.

The Lion King

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Idina Menzel was nice and fun!  She is Jewish and her X is black.  She has 1 son, and he looks so cute from the pictures I've seen online.  They played giant Jenga, and it looked cool.  I remember when the colored/African-American Annie played with Ellen DeGeneres and the guy from the show.  She even gave the audience this game as a gift.  What an evening!

The lady who used to be Princess Leia was on and it was so cool.  She seemed so different in real life.  She's a lot older now.  I liked her a lot.  She looked a bit winded from all the fame.  She sold tickets to Star Wars outside with Ellen.  It was pretty neat seeing who stopped to trade in for the tickets.

When the 2 ladies from the audience came down to play the game, it was funny they couldn't play.  They had to "reach for the stars" hanging over a bed blindfolded, but they were too high.

So, she added a bonus day of giveaways today.  When I was on the show in the audience the 1st time was not 12 Days but the 2nd was.  I don't remember if I got anything the 1st time.

Dancewear

I was picking all the high priced items and it amounted to $300-$400.  I got all the cheapest things and it's only $139.

Oh, boy!

The Nutcracker

2015?

What I Don't Require

I don't need people staring at me to see what my reaction was and if it was spot on.  That's generational rejection.

Revised Dance Schedule

Hip Hop 1 - Monday - 6:30-7:30 - 1 hr
Tap 1/2 - Tuesday - 5:30-6:15 - 45 min
Acro 1 - Wednesday - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - Wednesday - 7-8 - 1 hr
Ballet 1 - Thursday - 6-7:30 - 1 1/2 hrs

Aladdin even requires tap!

You know, they use ballet in opera.  It's great.  I just think I'm not as good as I was.  It's competitive.

Andrew Lloyd Webber..

I guess I got to be a CAT after all!

The Lion King Dance Medley

I guess I won't be cutting my hair.

Changed My Mind - Dance

I just want to take dance for now, $180/moth:

Hip Hop 1 - Monday - 6:30-7:30 - 1 hr
Acro 1 - Wednesday - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - Wednesday - 7-8 - 1 hr
Ballet 1 - Thursday - 6-7:30 - 1 1/2 hrs

I hope to start today.  I have to finish off a gymnastics class this month, tho.

I'm excited at the opportunity.  They are having a master class in dancing or something for the Sound of Music tour soon.

..Parades!

Yay!

Baton

I'm looking at baton classes.

"Jumping to Conclusions"

I think people think they have conquered my ancestral family, like yup I liked it but I did it that family is nothing!

Me Singing

The Lion King

What if I make the tour?

Jazz Class Leotard

Looks nice to me!

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And then the jazz pants with the wide bottoms.

Website Update

My Family and Friends

My Younger Cousin, Ashley

Edit

I fixed the links on the Me page.

Twitter

Key Word: Birthday/Older. Not rude at all to me but made to feel insecure. Possibly her loss, not a gain. 😳 😜 🔥 https://t.co/46adwfn1zd

— Christina Barrett (@8ChristinaAnn6) December 13, 2015

@TheEllenShow 😯 If I ever get to meet her, I'm going to put a smile on my face.

— Christina Barrett (@8ChristinaAnn6) December 13, 2015

@taylorswift13 🌻 Happy 26th Birthday! 🌻

— Christina Barrett (@8ChristinaAnn6) December 13, 2015

Question: Taylor Swift

Ellen DeGeneres left her and yelled to her as she was away going, "Don't talk to me!"  So, I was wondering.. Anyway, I'm an adult/we're adults.  I think I can think for myself without others's help.

Ellen vs. Taylor

Happy birthday @TaylorSwift13. I hope you have a wonderful day. Seriously. https://t.co/E76LVoJivt

— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) December 13, 2015

That reminds me people always blame their tacky problems on me.

If someone makes an advance on Ellen DeGeneres, that opens the sea for all the fish to come in, except for the fish that was comfortable.  I also got a queer message about speaking to people as an adult who taught me as a kid, like online.  People know I was quiet and didn't get around but could've.

People's Antics

Most people are "not it."

It's not a race.

People keep pushing people to make snap judgements in what they say and judge them from there.  They can't do something else?

"Good Listeners?"

People don't let me think and don't listen to me.

I find others say the same thing and they are taken seriously.

I see who's trying to impress or get the attention from who.

Weird ^Rules^

Do you ever think people from certain heritages just make up rules to make you feel like there's authority?  And the rules are weird?  It's like they are probing your mind for who and what you are.  Maybe, they are just shining you up so they can see their reflection better over you.

Heritage

I find if I do something wrong, I get pitched to my father's heritage in Pennsylvania rather than what I said where I'm from, the South.

Jazz Class Supplies

Some Cute Stuff

The total is $133 + tax/shipping.

Even tho it is once a week.

College Choirs Not Quite "up to Snuff"

The girls sound old and warbly and there is the thing where you think it's just for the ripe taste.

A Tug

I was thinking of having kids to be a role model.  I felt a tug like there was promise for my life in the performing arts.  A college degree might have been helpful but in what?  Some colleges let you create your own major.  I think good colleges do this, like the ones for "high achievers."  I was thinking along the lines you're Johnny Depp or Lily Rose Depp and still you're not content.  That's the guy who played Willy Wonka in 2005 and his daughter whose separated mom is French.

I have nothing.

I think people who excel in things like acting who get good money think it's all in hiding out and not developing their talents and doing the work.

Messed up People

Do you know people who mess up their lives only to ask for others to sacrifice for them like it's their fault?

With most people, they have to "solve their own problems."

This has to do with Generation, Race, Age, Heritage.. Favoritism..

And it's getting late in time.

Interesting Things

I feel old in ballet.

I think I have to quit gymnastics to pay for classical voice and jazz.

Classical Singing and Jazz Dancing

Doing classical singing is typical cuz that's what they do in college and so is jazz dancing, which is good for classical singing.

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I might be starting singing lessons.

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•$200/month for 1 hour a week
•recitals

I'm also getting in shape in adult gymnastics.
•$70/month
•1 day 1 1/2 hours per week

I still get $50/week.

I am auditioning for America's Got Talent and probably to be a chorister the Lion King and Aladdin tours, coming here for auditions. They have auditions for dancing, too. I wonder if I should take jazz instead of gymnastics. It's quicker than more ballet. I was gonna do church choir but not so sure anymore.

Also, I told them I want to learn classical music, not more musical theater. I even told them my race and asked for a white female. 

Getting Away

Sometimes, you just need to get away from someone to preserve your relationship for later.

TV

Christmas Twister (2012)

"Most People"

They think they have a spot reserved with Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) and stomp off to bed pointing their finger at everyone.

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Re: If the IMDb boards were actual places that people hung out...

I've done Virtual Reality chat in Rocket On!/My Virtual World, I think, and Fresbo. I was Sleecya on Rocket On! and Lola Mola on Fresbo. Fresbo has medium little people, I think, and Rocket On! has either bigger people or at least at some point monsters/aliens, I think. I think this was mostly 2009 for me. Rocket On! has different rooms. Fresbo is on Facebook more, uses your profile, and you dress up and play games. I remember a lotta Chinese/Asians there. 

Just Missed the Boat

I do believe in the success of the generation born up to 2002.  It has nothing to do with anything bad that I know of.

Check out this picture: link.

The redhead is in Christmas Mail (2010.)  She is born in 2000.  The other girl is a little older and seems to have it all, comparably, in a way.

Kids Today

The ones born around 1997 and 1998.

In Christmas Mail (2010) which I am watching, the girl thinks it's right to sound insistent.  She was taught she deserves to do this and others can't.

Something New

If you meet people, they get queasy and melt away and can't even understand why anything exists.  They think others are not in their destiny.  They start saying some people aren't as good as they used to be and never deserved to know a lotta people.

Tricky

Why am I being blamed for who I am by who my parents are?  It's like I had to have done something wrong and not be cool.  My family is so good it wants for nothing.

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Being Brunette

I don't believe in silly superstitions.  I really know the truth.

Blondes

Blondes look more attached to their moms, even sharing qualities in old age.

Wow!

People in 2010 were sure much more careless and naughty in personality.

A Rule

I don't like to turn little, bad things into a big deal.  Like ignoring someone who needs a lesson.

TV

Christmas Mail (2010)

The young redhead girl looked at the Late Boomer looking lady like she was just normal and not something too amazing for her.  She looked at her, shuddered to feel as she was touched, and left as tho it was a normal thing for her to be so special.

The Norm

Do you know when light is too light?  Sometimes, it's all you can do to get by, like pretty Swedes.

Something That Doesn't Make Sense

When someone acts like you aren't as good as a blonde as they are when they are not blonde.

People

Blondes are not always more European, more careful, etc.

Being a Role Model

The reason older adults stand out is because they weren't careless like younger adults today, trashing tradition and taking for granted "what they have?"

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Christmas Mail (2010)

WWYD, would you accept this?

Very famous people saying you're worthless?  Because someone has a problem with something they claim you did?

Something Funny

Do you know people who are so selfish they just smile when they are liked better than you, like "that's it?"  Otherwise, they are probing for what's wrong against someone who has a hard life? like chasing them and hunting them down? or constantly berating them?

Hidden Racism

Do you know people who think other nonwhite races are disposable?

Like, if they are a little fat or did something that doesn't make sense for them they think?

They think it's a game, but it's not.  I have found it hard to live with.  I get in trouble if I think of the N word, too, cuz it tends to sound like I'm calling someone that.  I don't want to, but the message they give me spells that out to me.  A lotta people who are nonwhite believe that so that they will be treated better, but if they meet a mixed person like me they are vicious and racist and attacking like all wild and crazy, like their mood or the picture they get.  So, I don't accept racism like other nonwhites learn to accept.

You may think I am rebellious and it's a problem, but I don't deserve racism anymore than a white.  How I react and improve is my business, not your right to say that's what you hurt me for.  I was the one being attacked.

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Re: What is a racist stereotype you believe?

I tried not to be racist, but that's what the topic calls for. I wasn't really racist, tho. It may not fit the ideal of anti-racism, tho, the part where it's about being racist. 😁

Funny

I've talked about race so much I don't deserve to be accepted.

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Re: What is a racist stereotype you believe?

Some people do it because they think they have to in a popular position.

People in mixed race families do it to one another.

I like Italians. In Italy, they have more tender, light hair. However, I've experienced racism from them in the US. Sometimes, Southern Europeans connect and feel happy about themselves. I don't know about them being jealous of Northern Europeans, but all a Northern European ethnically would say is they don't like Asians any better and instead of bonding races, like they are known for, they are causing fights.

Why can't I just say I'm white? You don't have to know my race, but I'll tell you what it is. Me being called nonwhite is like a white person being called nonwhite. White people are so greedy about racial labels and ethnicity. It's a constant mess and fight. They pretend to believe certain things and get hooked on their being allowed to be racist because they're white. That's where all the supposedly good white people go, addicted to racism, like it's cool and stimulating for them. It's a time when they can be naughty.

Who do you think should be allowed to talk about race, like on an extreme level in their stance and situation? People who experience racism? Everyone else, even scholars at Harvard, don't care. They just use it as a way to be racist.

I just saw a commercial with different races of babies. I know white people like to shout about how good blacks are to Asians. Do you think that makes Asians whiter? I just realized black people have stronger facial features from having ancestry where it's so hot. Like the indents in their face and eyes. I'm excited and may audition to be in The Lion King, an audition coming here, and Aladdin. I will probably be a chorister and may understudy. It's for the musical tour. The last Christine on tour was Cosette in Les Miserables, too.

I dunno, Mary Poppins is on. I never grew up like it's like here in Orlando. I don't feel like I'm a separate race from whites.

It feels like young people today grew up to be Hitler. They think the one thing they get to do is end the lives of nonwhites or Asians or mixed people. Yet, people are on their heels stating that future people will be more mixed than them mostly, mixed ethnically mostly probably.

As for agreeing with racism, I agree that Asians are the most like whites than all other nonwhites I know of. Their skulls match the most.

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TV

Mary Poppins is on.

I noticed she has blue eyes and light hair, and Audrey Hepburn's eyes are brown.

Also, did you know Audrey Hepburn's dad is ethnically Irish?  Julie Andrews is all English, I think.  Audrey Hepburn is older.

Lotta blondes without very outstanding eyes, even in Europe, like they fought tooth and nail in the womb to come out blonde so hard their eyes were not as good to them.  They were "like everyone else" or a lotta other people without blonde hair, in that way.  That must be a hard life.  I tend to be a medium shade of everything.

"I have to be right."

Do you know when people position themselves assuming they have to be right?

The World

Is the world convenient for you or inconvenient?

Has it been different at different blocks of times?

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On TV

Baby care.  Dark people holding any sort of kids.  A Scandinavian-looking young American girl in bare feet, maybe age 19 or 20.  She's having fun shaking instruments, blowing bubbles.  It's all about her.  The kids can tell she's no mom.

I'd like people to treat me like that's my race.

What did she do?

Kids With Southern Parents

I saw this baby on BabyFirst from Alabama, which is between Mississippi and Georgia and has the oldest city in the US.

New Favorite

Dance Time Boys on BabyFirst.  They go into a ballet studio with older girls rehearsing The Nutcracker.  Little kids are sitting around.  They show the face of one girl lying down partly and you see her eye is so clear and blue and pretty.  Her hair is straight and white.  I think we saw her get up.  Has to be Swedish.

I feel a real bond..

..to this little girl dancing on BabyFirst, with Dance Time Boys, who looks part Swedish with medium-long white blonde hair and a young, cute look.  Like, we all love Ellen.  This girl is cut for success.

Parenting Magazine Subscription..

I get the Parenting magazine and it doesn't have a whole lotta/if any psychology.  It had a cute craft.

What I'm here to say tho is they highlighted that the Peanuts movie was out for "winter" break, which is early November.

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I kept peeing in my pants today at beginning adult gymnastics. I had an Ultra tampon in.

...

At least mostly white, I think.

I really liked her a lot. It was a sub who teaches intermediate/advanced gymnastics.

She whipped me into shape.

She is quite a bit taller than me but not too tall, reddish hair cut short, maybe with some volume yet mostly straight/waved. Not sure what color her eyes are. It was me and 2 other girls mostly. She is probably in her early 50s or 40s.

She helped me flip back with my feet up on a square thing.

I often get there early to watch the kids and I see her then.

New Blog

Welcome!

Welcome to my BlogSpot!

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They have recitals.

cont.

I also asked about the race of the teacher and told them what my race was.

Singing

I asked for classical singing.

Gymnastics

1 1/2 hours once a week for $70, helps keep me in shape.

Private Singing Lessons

I'm thinking of taking them for 1 hour a week for $200 a month.

Respect

When I was a kid, people respected me more but not after I was a teenager.  My weight going up must be the cause.

Article

link

The Best Movies That Are Kind Of About Christmas

The Clothes, the Peace, The Comradery

It's so good in the real world, like the New Orleans area of Louisiana.

When I went to Metairie where Ellen DeGeneres is from they were so feeling aroused and such.

Anyway, life is now.  You are free to feel for things.  They are surprised when what should be isn't there, tho.

Gymnastics Freak

I'm the next Abigail Breslin.

Isn't she?

Ellen DeGeneres?  She is so..!

Overrated!  Oh, dear!

Why?

Why do senseless things?  Say, oh you got another Facebook account I can't add this one.  Oh, I know you were talking about me when you were speaking of those other than you anonymously.  You're not my friend.  I can't talk to you.

People

they come up with the darnedest things.

Negative Karma

How does that get you?

Ellen DeGeneres and Her Nature

How did she weasel her way up there?

Or is she really under the radar?

My Life Because of Me

1st, I spend $100 to get a photoshoot to get a good shot of me online.

Then, I buy 2 shelves, cubbies for bags, and a coat stand, and my life is organized.  Wal-Mart.  Shoe rack would be nice sometime and some more light perhaps.

"My Grownup Christmas Wish.."

Would you at some end want just to watch Ellen DeGeneres and not also see others?  It is a great wish of mine that kids today attain the happiness and company that is Ellen DeGeneres.

Age, It's True

Kids born around 1997-1998 provide more assurance to adults than kids born around 1985/1986.  But they're younger!  That's not how it worked at the time!

What I Am

I'm something called an adult.

Old Post

People Leaving Your Life

I wonder if anyone is there for other people when they need them or if it's just the young people today who don't have them for unexpected reasons.  You'd think, with the internet, people'd be a little more mature and "grow up."

Finding Fault in Other People

People find it convenient to find fault in me.

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Does anyone read?

I'm trying to learn to read better. I know most all the normal words. I just can't stand it sometimes or maybe am slow with some things. So, I'm reading A Christmas Carol for the 1st time. I want to write a story like that. However, I may not since I am not an English major and want to be a singer. People today, they read. They e-mail. They go online. They stop at coffee shops. That's like asking if you go to the movies. I'm hoping for a little each day. I have a desire to read The Star Wars Trilogy and Prequel Trilogy. I wonder how much people learned to read as kids, too. I'm not much for more historical type reading, tho it's my favorite subject. I can read stories, maybe. I read Uncle Tom's Cabin in one day and got the only A in a class a year above my grade, I think.

So, how do you read? What, how often?

📗 

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Nick Cannon has a great personality!

The dancers were very stunning!

Letting It Go

Do you know people who don't want others to get attention for work they've done to be amazing and live life innocently and carefreely?

Others's Antics

I know I am putting up with others's antics because of racism.

Depressing

Was the system of America only set up for true Nordics to be able to succeed?  Where does all that work go?

How Things Are

It's like everyone went on a trip because of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton with Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and the Pirates of the Caribbean franchise.  Nothing seems to work.  If you supposedly messed up, you might find yourself very much alone.

My Thoughts

People don't wanna be adults.  They probably disown you like you don't matter pretty much that they have some problems of their own they can't seem to own up to, tho they seem to be respected mostly.

They find the need to be justified, too, probably.

Imperfections

Can you imagine being so well-liked and considered nice that no one could ever get mad at you..

That people find you imperfect later on and they all fled?

The funny thing is most people are probably not considered perfect in some ways, yet they do not have problems like this, maybe.

Song I Like

link

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Samuel L. Jackson was quit deep.

Chris Young was a good singer.

Joshua Jackson was quite stimulating.

Jesus in Heaven

Jesus was not assumed into Heaven.  He already died.

That seems strange.

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Harrison Ford was very cool!

The school library turned into a more imaginary place with trees and stuff was great!

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Usher was very smart and good.

The English group Coldplay were very kind and fun.

A Simple Thing

Hell.  You do something bad to feel good and later you feel bad.

YouTube

I'm staring at the 1st violinists and like the brunette mainly.

Relaxing

Others are taking time to have their needs met.  They have innocence in the bag.  I'm sure this could have been avoided.

Racism Tricks

People think I am sarcastic and sneaky cuza my mixed race.  Couldn't be happier.

Weridos

People are acting like I am "g**."  I'm just a normal person doing something normal, and it makes others get to me in bad ways.

Nobody's Perfect

I am being told to talk to people who are not as good a choice sometimes instead of others I like supposedly cuz they aren't good enough, too, tho a better choice in other ways.

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Re: Why the *beep* are people scared of spiders?

 They have too many moving parts and it's creepy. It's startling. 

Mad

I'm getting really mad at this and wonder how I can cope without the people experimenting on me messing with me.

Colder Climate Races

It's interesting someone of mixed climate ethnicity would be upset at themselves for being mixed ethnically and not realize it.  I've found people like this to be vicious people with a violent aspect of personality.  They never listen to anyone but themselves.

The Organ

at some point in time existed to be scary, at least one aspect.

However, they didn't have scary things a long time ago, like The Phantom of the Opera.  They weren't smart enough.  Who knows, tho?  I was just scanning time.  Monsters are just animals, but the sea is scary, tho that's just nature.  I'm not good with heights anymore.

Ohio

It's not like surrounding states, so why would the north of Ohio by Cleveland have anything to do with where my relatives are from around Pennsylvania and New York state?

The Phantom of the Opera

Did you notice how "serious" they are in the 2004 movie The Phantom of the Opera?  The beginning organ is the interesting part.  Maybe, I have what it takes.

The Soapbox

Re: Me vs Karliah

Sometimes people with other strengths are more odd and it's a stimulating thing.

I can't even tell who's more accepting.  Or if someone likes to be stand-offish.

I just can't! 

WWJD

Think about what would happen if you treated others like I'm treated.

Most Parents in the US..

I notice most parents are more lenient with their kids.  I feel in my house it's the other way around.  It's the attitude and "secret messages."

37 Minute Interview..

I found it interesting to me.. link.

Some of the Extra-Curricular/Activity Teachers I Had

I remember in gymnastics when I was young the young women who taught us.

Later, it was serious older men or adult women.

My 1st music teacher was in kindergarten, not Pre-K.  She was a sweet lady, too, but not much individual attention at all for good kids.

"And I Will Raise You up on the Last Day"

People elevating those I desire to communicate with from my being worthy of an easy process of recepting their reaction to me.

Help!

I always worry my parents will die.

I cracked some case, too..

People think if one person makes it someone else isn't worth it socially. They also knock people out if they wanna talk to someone else?  Why not talk more to one person and others can talk to the other person or you can also some.

Being Responsible for Myself

Why does my dad get mad at me for going the extra mile?  He thinks I'm not good enough and that it's some hoax that people praise me at all.

Taken Advantage Of

I feel like I'm wasting my time hanging around Facebook.

Extended Family/Relatives

I come from a very queer extended family.  Since I am good, the adults take advantage of me and don't pay attention to me much, tho.

Time for Fun

Let's just have fun like nobody is watching!

How People Get By Easily on Others.

People are just going around uncomfortable about who's not famous.

I feel like I'm Jesus putting up with that which is unnecessary and in the way!

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

The girl from Ohio was really neat!

Rachel Platten was very sweet.

Sofia Vergara was very funny!

More Cheating!

Everyone who was iconic to young people stopped cuz they don't have to and just live with attention for what they once were.

The Bare Necessities

Other famous people have just what they need.  Like, the reason they aren't even more exposed is because they don't need it, just their fans need people to occupy their minds.

In My Way

If you weren't going to be a "good" friend, why did you act like you would be before?  Now, I don't have any resources.

I figured it out, too.

Johnny Depp, Tim Burton, even Danny Elfman.  In a way I will explain, "they don't have anything more to offer."  That's just it.  They do have more to offer in their trade but not socially so much (tho they are supposed to and can maybe still,) moreso Johnny Depp and Tim Burton I'm talking about, too.  I just wanted to see your reaction, if you were on the right page.  It's sad.  They seemed to change their personality.  They seem more centered on their personal lives and not so much the excitement the world has reserved for them.  Others have much to offer but are just unfortunate.  They are not using certain parts of their gifts that they can/could.  You have to be thankful for your gifts because they are a blessing.

So, in case you didn't read thru, I don't mean anything bad about their skills in art, just how much they've given to people considering that's what made them famous in the 1st place.  They are still doing stuff, but life seems to have crept away for some of us.  Some of their fans seem to have gone a bit too wild.  Then, they stopped.  I felt a cutoff just by watching them and no other reason/meaning.  I didn't go wild and crazy.  Just the fact I thought I deserved to watch them seemed bad/frowned upon.

It seems anyone reading this is a waste of time because one day they'll want something and take all of our anticipation for granted.  Come on, make movies fun.  Some of us want to have fun in life outside of theater!

I feel they are saintly, as well.  I just feel that they should have been more active and not stopping to reprimand us for being so excited or something.  Who cares if someone is not the one?  Get some vibrant people on the screen.  They are the world's sweethearts.  If you're worried they will be beat, their lives will still be miserable if they make the wrong decisions and don't use their gifts/talents.  It won't make them any better, in some ways.

So, it will be tragic either way but only moreso if you don't chose vibrant people etc.

I feel like a politician.

I feel like I'm growing up and not in the game anymore, merely a commentator.

Please do not take me out on what I wrote that you think must be negative in a bad way cuz clearly that's not my intention.

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On TV

Baby care.  Dark people holding any sort of kids.  A Scandinavian-looking young American girl in bare feet, maybe age 19 or 20.  She's having fun shaking instruments, blowing bubbles.  It's all about her.  The kids can tell she's no mom.

I'd like people to treat me like that's my race.

What did she do?


Kids With Southern Parents

I saw this baby on BabyFirst from Alabama, which is between Mississippi and Georgia and has the oldest city in the US.


New Favorite

Dance Time Boys on BabyFirst.  They go into a ballet studio with older girls rehearsing The Nutcracker.  Little kids are sitting around.  They show the face of one girl lying down partly and you see her eye is so clear and blue and pretty.  Her hair is straight and white.  I think we saw her get up.  Has to be Swedish.


I feel a real bond..

..to this little girl dancing on BabyFirst, with Dance Time Boys, who looks part Swedish with medium-long white blonde hair and a young, cute look.  Like, we all love Ellen.  This girl is cut for success.


Parenting Magazine Subscription..

I get the Parenting magazine and it doesn't have a whole lotta/if any psychology.  It had a cute craft.

What I'm here to say tho is they highlighted that the Peanuts movie was out for "winter" break, which is early November.


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I kept peeing in my pants today at beginning adult gymnastics. I had an Ultra tampon in.

...

At least mostly white, I think.

I really liked her a lot. It was a sub who teaches intermediate/advanced gymnastics.

She whipped me into shape.

She is quite a bit taller than me but not too tall, reddish hair cut short, maybe with some volume yet mostly straight/waved. Not sure what color her eyes are. It was me and 2 other girls mostly. She is probably in her early 50s or 40s.

She helped me flip back with my feet up on a square thing.

I often get there early to watch the kids and I see her then.

Grandeur

The Norse are like as beautiful as unicorns!  What marvelous creatures/beings!

Before

It was meant to be about sweet Norse.  Now, it's about mixed Americans.

Keeping Up

It seems some people just wanna mess with your lives and take, take from your future and possible experiences.

Question

So, how do you make friends?  Are they all from preschool or 2nd grade?  How did you stay together?  Did that give you even more friends?

Breadwinning

I think people live life thinking only their family is important, like it's protocol as they are fueled to prance around every day all dressed up.

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Do you loathe anyone/anything?

I feel people are irresponsible friends to me. I live being entertained by masturbation and my dad's molestation of me. 

Changes in My Life

Most people don't think I'm worth their friendship cuz I'm 1/2 Asian.

It seems I met 2 people from New Orleans that made me more silly.

Thinking to Myself

So, if I am sad, if people flee me for that reason, how will that get me anywhere?

Depressing

No celebrities to keep me up at the wee hours of the mornin'.

Entertain Me

Is being cheap really better?  I think that there are priorities.

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Anna Faris is a sweet, attractive young lady.

Darbie Stanchfield seems like a mature, young woman.

Pick up a Falling Star

Did you notice any pockets of things happening.. you may see people hard at work representing their generation to others and God, but there is a movement going on.  People who are way up there are stepping down when all eyes are on them at greatest of expenses.  They are telling me I am bad, insistingly, and upholding those in their desire of sin against others/me.

Problem

I feel outside family is putting pressure on me and my nuclear family.  Like, they are following our every move to pressure us to mess up and get permanently blamed.  It's like some game.  Sounds out of place, right?

Let me get this straight.

So, I lose relationships for cursing on my blog not in a nasty way about hurtful noises put in my room to hurt me.. and because it's Ellen DeGeneres?

Being Framed

Do you ever feel people are trying to steal your relationships?

You might be thinking the obvious, but I mean making you feel guilty for having relationships.?

If..

If you don't wanna talk to me doesn't make me the N word.

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A Recording I Like

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

Wanda Sykes was very funny and had a pleasant rapport.  She is black and a very smart person.  She seems like a very giving type, a bit shy in my opinion.

Sia and her dancer did a very moving performance.  It was symbolic, and that's what drew me to it.  The rest seemed to occupy them, as well.  I want to be a classical dancer.  I like hip hop but not standard contemporary/modern.  I do like jazz.  The dancer also did some gymnastics, something I could never do.  In gymnastics, it became clear to me when it was time for me to accomplish at something else.  It wasn't scary as a kid in that way.  Slipping on the vault seemed scarier.

Kunal Nayyar was a very nice guy.  What he did seemed interesting.  He drank I think 3 or 4 bottles of beer in a race.  He did it with the tall skinny guy who works for Ellen.  He actually just had a baby, and another one's father passed away this week.  So, some sad news and some happy news.  I kinda don't like the race with the beer bottles, and if someone I cared for did that I'd feel responsible.

12 Days of Giveaways is going good.  Different prizes each day.  I have my Beats headphones from it last year! but I don't know about the rest.  I couldn't bring home the record player.

New Videos of Me Singing

So, "I don't know much, but I don't know nothing."

People think Floridians are s*** because they generally come from New York or Pennsylvania.  The places that are cool are places like New Jersey, Wisconsin, the South, and the Midwest.  I personally don't care for California in ways, mainly because of all the movie stars who move there.  Otherwise, I'd fall for it, maybe.  I also am not that addicted to NYC and haven't been there nor to Miami other than in passing.

So, I also lived in New Orleans, at the South of the country on the Gulf.  Because I am Native Floridian, people trash me.

When I tell people any dirt on me, they act like they have it all and I basically seem to have nothing.

So, I want to know, these people from all around the country, Kentucky, Kansas, Oklahoma, you name it.. people from all the other places, do they just get a blood rush to the brain that makes them catch up with more permission?  Or do they really know what they're talking about?

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Re: Concerned about him

I actually agree with you. I miss the old days when he was younger. I don't have too many problems with Johnny Depp.

That he has slurred speech is a very valid point to bring up. There must be some unknown reason, or maybe it's for the obvious reason/s.. It does seem to counter his acting, tho. It could be a habit from drinking alcohol.

If I had to make an argument with the peanut gallery, I'd say that he seems more like a father figure idol than the same generation as most die hard fans. I don't think Johnny Depp himself cares about that, tho, in a way.. cuz it can only end in disagreement and frivolity.

It's also sad he is, like, not with Lily Rose and Jack as much, if he is as you say he might be. We also read Lily Rose said she is homosexual. She said it in an indirect way. I'm sure Johnny Depp is the busy, loving father from afar, tho, at least, and it's quite a special time when he gets to see his children.

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Why don't you just get out?

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They aren't stopping applying negative pressure to my body I have to fight off.

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Every time I can't post what they do sometimes it seems like I think of odd words that make them mean to me, like only I don't have a freedom of speech in my thoughts.

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I said stop messing with my body!!

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I don't want an issue with Ellen DeGeneres to get in my way in life.  That's crazy.

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I want to look forward to being in my room and going online.

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They are applying pressure to my lips like moles.  I have to sit here and fight off their trash.

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Ellen DeGeneres keeps sending double-sided messages.

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They always have something insulting for me.

I might have to wait..

..to get this stuff another week, next week hopefully.  At least I can get it before Christmas.  I'll have to put all that stuff together and clear space.

See

and he won't stop

About $150

I'm gonna get 2 big shelves, a coat stand, a bag cubby, and a tall shoe rack.

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When my dad comes home or anything, he's like usually in an offensive attitude towards me.  Everyone thinks they can just treat me like I'm bad, like it's all about them and I'm just their trash.

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They are threatening me.

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They're affecting my body and making me sit here and struggle to counter it.

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Stop sending me messages every time I try to load the page!

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I SAID NO

They are threatening my relationships.

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Quit sending me these nonsensical messages from everywhere.  You need to get a life!!

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I JUST SAID NO!

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Quit taking from me!  You can't do whatever you want.

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You can't be all tacky and tell me what to do that I can't vent a little when you make me mad.

I SAID NO

WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM

What do you think I am?

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They are giving excuses.. I don't have to listen to stuff that doesn't really makes sense.

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They keep talking to me like I'm out of it.

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YOU CAN'T GIVE MY REWARD TO SOMEONE ELSE/BELLA THORNE

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They started this experiment and are not allowed to be mean to me all of a sudden for any reason!

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They acted like all these things were my possible future daughter excreting all this stuff.  It was rubbing someone in to her.  They left with satisfaction, fighting me if I get upset physically when they barge in on me watching me and making those sounds.

Look, I said stop!

rubbing in people in my life.

I know what it is.

It's all that jazz, about me being in trouble because of Ellen DeGeneres.

Ay Ay Ay

No, you don't see anyone else feeling guilty having Bella Thorne get attention.  I don't need that kinda "comic relief."

The Way It Should Be

If Ellen DeGeneres is really that good, isn't she supposed to be nice?  She's still mad at me and tossed out the significance I thought of my life.

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They want to make Bella Thorne a permanent resident in my life until I die.

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They are the ones picking at their differences and making them seem like a problem.

Tricky

They won't stop rubbing someone in by pretending to have fun suggesting things that are outlandishly mean, just as a joke as an offense to the other person, like it's to make fun of what they'd do.

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Re: I think i am stuck in a limbo.....

 I see.

18 and out? Marry and have kids! Get more benefits from the government.  

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Ellen DeGeneres is cool with Bella Thorne associating with her but throwing at me things I don't want and relating it with others.

Don't rub her the wrong way.

Not everyone wants to be mistaken for her in her hairstyle like many are.

She's like better than me people think but not the other way around better than themselves!

Why her?

What about everyone else?  Including people who have tried to become famous.

Just saying..  I'm just wondering what about her makes her get such a positive reaction.

Tacky

Everything's all set up for Bella!

While I get threatened to death by some.

Funny

They think Bella Thorne is special but were mean to me and now I leave empty-handed.  They just think I'm bad and don't know anything bad Bella Thorne does.

Issue

Google launched a few animated logos for a redheaded kid's 141st birthday, a girl.  I know it's because of Ellen DeGeneres it's for Bella Thorne to rub in that she thinks I'm just a loser.  I have facts to back up otherwise.  It was legitimate to curse about hurtful noises in my room she supposedly put there for months and now years.  I didn't even wanna watch the show until I was ready, and this is why.  So, I know.  I know all that's going on, in a way, or would understand were it brought up to my attention.  She's the one who doesn't know what to do.  Or is this other people just ^getting the gist of things^ ?

Disclaimer:  No offense to anyone.  I just feel they are rubbing the wrong way.

That's not okay.

They threatened me with death.

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I guess it surprises me when they attack for weird reasons.. about my possible future kids, messing up memories of the future.. How can I ignore this?  I am mad at them doing it, tho, too.  Is it here for me to ignore??

Let's start with the future.

If I do get mad, can I vent a little?

Well

You had your fun.

QUIT IT

bringing up the past and blaming me

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This isn't helping.

No..

..I don't need this trash.

HELP

WHAT ARE THEY GONNA DO NOW

My possible future kids!

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Just for that person, they bring that person up every day.

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What's your problem?  I have to release anger somehow.

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They keep rubbing in someone for someone I like.  They gaped at me for acting upset about something like I was talking to them, basically they say.

WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM

I SAID STOP

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I SAID TO STOP

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See, now they find themselves giving me cancer.

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It's true!

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They keep messing with my possible future kids with someone else.  I'm not here to fight to serve Ellen DeGeneres!!

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I'm not sitting here every day listening to your *beep*.

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I said stop!

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They're playing around with me having people on Facebook message me insulting suggestions in secret.

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Quit poking at me!

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And quit punishing me.  Whatever they do it's way too much in other regards, as well.

Hm, is that the sound of trash?

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They keep getting all in my face.

Quit getting physical! and tapping into me hurtfully.  Telling me I did something all the time.

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I almost don't care about any of you.  You are ruining my relationships.

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My mom threatened I could not "meet" her if I do something with someone I like.  That garbage is waiting there for me.

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I said to stop!

Approval

Ellen DeGeneres thinks you are approved if you have a prestigious mom, like good at music.  She secretly went and cemented these offspring into her digest.  Aha ha!

No reason to find fault in the kids/offspring.

Hands

Do you think Ellen DeGeneres has those big ***y hands to give or to receive, like Mama says she thinks?  So, she is in contradiction to what she thinks her mother wants and it has to be yes or no, no "fudging" in the middle.

It would be to receive because people see her as their puppet, their toy.  If she wants to be nice to others, others stop her and make her the dominant need instead, aha ha!

Circumstance

If you prefer popular people to good people, well it won't change the world to be that way.  I think a little more is going on here, including racism.

My 1st question in what I'm thinking is how someone would feel they deserved what was popular, aha ha!

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