Well, sometimes you know when something is right or wrong. I don't really accept being punished.
People keep thinking what if someone doesn't take something the right way.
What is this, anyway? I don't see anyone else getting punished. You think me getting attention is a loss to other people, too. Sometimes, it doesn't work that way. Some people don't have their personal lives together. Sometimes, it's different kinds of things. I know some people get a lotta attention from others. It's something that should be worked on. Sometimes, some people are bad and think it's cool. It's hard to fight that you can't believe in that and you wonder is everyone bad cuza racism among other things?
I never meant to start anything bad, so I don't see why people believe I should be punished and so hardly/much.
I also found out on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, too, today that people will give me a rough time and when it becomes obvious they are wrong they just wonder if you thought you were gonna get away with it socially as a mixed race person. I mean, they lie to mixed race people saying they did something wrong. After it becomes obvious you aren't that bad, the person just says you're trying to get away with talking to them and that it's not okay cuza your race. Like, they just assume it without stating it, it feels. Like, they'll act like, "Oh, you thought it was okay to talk to me?" while digging into the fact you are mixed race.
Speaking of which, I used to look okay without makeup cuz I never wore it. I always had a pudgy face in a way. I gained about 50 pounds for reasons not my fault, like in college. I am a little taller and bigger. So, now, I look ugly without makeup and with glasses on. I only do that at home and when I jog/walk. Also, my hair is growing out from being shaved after dying it. So, it looks a bit like a fro.