Just because I found a cool preacher and am a holy person, people are finding an excuse to tell me not to engage as readily and wholeheartedly in the church and coolness of the priest for some reason. They also found it sin for me to sing in choir cuz they don't sing in choir. No one else in the world has these rules.
I always went to church. I even went in college.
I started having to stay home all the time in 2007. We probably stopped going to church on Sundays sometime in 2006 or 2007 cuza my mom's job. We could have gone at a different time. A lotta masses tho are only traditional in music on Sunday mornings, tho.
I want to know why people are so crazy and agitated, in general.
So, I was sick in 2007. I had to quit ballet, too. I'm not a dancer, now, and possess less of a yearning for it.
I was big in church music all growing up and in choir.
I was sick like 2007 and stayed in my room not seeing anyone pretty much mostly until 2010 when I was placed in a mental hospital. The racism had gotten to me online, but my mom was bothering me tho acted like she wasn't. My mom called my dad and she called 911.. I was mad and threw some things, but my mom still kept trying to make me feel bad.
So, at some point in 2009 or 2010, I had to leave the house sometime, I think for movies, because I was so mad at the racism I threw my pretty much broken anyway laptop against the wall several times. I was stupid. I hope this doesn't haunt me, again.. I know I saw movies once or twice a week by 2011.
I was foreign to the bus system and neglected it for some reason. I started watching Ellen DeGeneres easrly-mid 2012. I have never seen the show on TV, just ran into her on YouTube and later Twitter. I was just Tweeting her at 1st and then watched the show every day. At 1st, I didn't wanna leave my room so much.
I really wanted to get outta my unemployed situation and become an actress. I found a theater teacher I liked and took class but was kicked out.
I didn't go to church cuz I didn't want my dad to drive me. A hassle for him, I felt. He did drive me to ballet every day 4 days a week in 2007-2008.
I got in big trouble for cursing about illegal, hurting noises in my room supposedly by Ellen DeGeneres. I still am tho I don't and it was supposed to be about the noises....
So, now, I started to get in shape with some things I bought from TV and later found adult gymnastics was available. Being more sane from the appropriate exercise, I was able to muster the desire and daring to go to church. I figured as a religious person being as I was in choirs before and respected as an accompanist sometimes that I'd feel at home and welcomed back. I had not run away.
However, now, I am being beat for this fact, that I didn't go to church for it seems nearly 10 years. Yes, I've been a few times spread out. Haven't gone back to ballet since like starting to watch Ellen.
My life is tortured and weird and I'm being experimented on or spied on and talked to in private.