Posts While Out

Is there a reason a lotta cool people aren't famous?

I'm not here to be a behavioral diversion.  Like, you think I have stooped to your level as an announcement all the time.

The person being overrated was already popular and famous kinda in their own way.

What is the better alternative to not know me, to know others?  I heard that everyone who is nice to me dies and goes to Heaven.

How can people more bad than me discipline me in general and readily in a way that is right?

Singing

Singing should not be a part of classical music but something that people should do if they want.

No Choice

in life since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp

Everyone uses this movie as a tool to say that others are cheating in life because they want to be on top so much like they say Tim Burton and Johnny Depp have been.  They don't let us even improve because they're bad.  Things that were already in place, out of place.  I feel like in starting violin 11 years later that I'm considered someone who wants to be something they can't be and that I'm bad.  I might have kept it up 11 years ago if we didn't move after a hurricane to an apartment somewhere else.

Yum

drinking my homemade lemonade

So!

How is your pleasure?

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error

Oh!

I felt anger at me without caring about me having a fair life where I can stimulate myself.

Like, I masturbated because of something to do with someone or others's ideas, and instead of pitying me for how long I've put up with this they just think of the person who was supposedly fine that people did something concerning which made me give to myself masturbation.

I'm sorry I sound mad, but I don't care who said it so much as it's been said somewhere then.  I know they're right, that that's what people think.

Disconnected Socially

People don't care how I feel.  It's always about someone else.

They even blame me for masturbating to others giving me no peace to enjoy life!

Error

Love

People love those in the history of the world who are born as Late Boomers no matter what.

Being Wrong

People lie that they do things but save it for people who are popular for wrong reasons, like being born in 1997/1998.

What's Interesting

I feel people are focusing on extracting what is revolutionary in my life.

Ha

No one thinks people are making my life worse.

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Rip-Off

They think that with the cause of something for someone else that I don't deserve what they stole from me socially for them.

Why are people wanting me to have to "stoop to their level?"

So..

Why do people think this person is not okay and quieter?  It's okay but seems like it's not.

People think I am stealing their attention, when I'm just concerned.

"Garsh!" ("Gosh!")

I have to leave in an hour.

Hm, "Violin Noobie."

on YouTube from Norway.

Has played 2 years.  I think tried to learn guitar at 16.

Liars

I never asked for attention, and, since, people have had conflicts with me, meanwhile they are saying, I deserve to have people I look up to get attention, saying to dis me.  ..not to mention acting silly like the pleasure goes to them in any way they want, like they can do that, and saying it's good to feel silly but instead of caring about me anymore.  I thought we already established it was okay this person feels silly sometimes.  I'm not sure of this opportunity and severity and inappropriateness of the nature of this issue in comparison to other possibilities.

And you know I'm learning to ward off compliments from the people experimenting on me, etc., because when they say it's okay they're mad at me for technically wrong reasons.

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Down by the Bay

"Down by the bay
Where the water *something* grows
Back to my home
I dare not go
For if I do
My mother will say
Did you ever see a *something* doing *something*
Down by the bay!"

Yipee!

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Down by the bank of the hanky pank
Where the bulldogs jump from bank to bank
Singin' E I O U
Your mamma smells and so do you
Ding dong ping pong
Your daddy smells like
KING KONG!!

Baby
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Diversion
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"Just Friends"
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Something Else
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Sandra Deee!

"Get your filthy paws
Off my silky draw's!
Would you pull that crap
With a net?"

Oh, wow!

I can't even masturbate?

"Let's get down to business!"

"To de-feat! the Fun!"
"You're the saddest bunch I ever did see
But you can bet before we're thru
Mister, I'll - make a man - out of you!"

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Let's shed a little light on the subject.

Do you even fuckin' know if this person experienced anything inappropriate?

Fame

is in my name!

What It Seems

It seems that they have taken other people over me.

This must be to settle the testosterone in my dad.

Question

Why have older adults become so mean?

Importance

Maybe, if I became less important, other things will, as well.

If my..

If my dad is so happy, why get so enraged I'm thinner?

If my mom is so happy, why do I suffer from her race?

Guys, I don't think I got it.

I see 2 things, it's normal to have a dad born in the 1930s or 1940s or even 1920s.  It's normal to have a dad born in Generation X.  I am neither.

Just Upset in a Whirl

I am supposed to have reverence for people, and I sure did!  End of story.

I have a private religion where I don't believe being bad makes the world feel foiled.  I saw it take place.  The good became bad and the bad became good.

Now, tho, someone I look up to, actually more than one person, are going around and it's like they're all that and like I'm just thrown away.  My dad was acting so meanly today.  I have problems like those things, so easy to not do.

It started with my life, and now everyone wishes they were me, had my brain and situation.

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I know I am supposed to respect these people, but they are being stimulated in a disturbing way and to an extreme even I supposedly in some way do not feel.

I got it, again!

No offense to her, but I am in trouble with Ellen DeGeneres and can't live my private life and meet people I love who love me when we agree.  The main, worst thing I did was curse on my own blog about hurtful, illegal noises she put for a long time in my room.  Pretty innocent, yes?  She gave the honor I had as who I was to someone else, to care for their lives to go smoothly and act like they are gonna follow me and meet each person I want to meet and maybe not me.  It may not be that way but, like I said.. I get hurt emotionally a lot every day, and the severity is no adventure.

So, after that attempt of describing what happened, I want to know why Ellen DeGeneres can drop down the chimney like Santa Clause and judge and manage your life when she is always finding herself strangely not in the know and seemingly sorry in this in "horrible, hopping hindsite?"  I lived where she did and she thinks the new ways there are like garbage.

Disclaimer:  I'm just meaning to state where I stand with Ellen DeGeneres.  Then, I presented my point in the 2nd paragraph.  I want to know why she can get in your life and change it, in a negative way, like I said me not being able to really relate to others who are of high caliber I look up to like I was said to be.  I thought we had a distance.  What are we going to do about it?  What if life stays this way for me?  The latest I've heard about was that Ellen DeGeneres admits she's not as good as some people so only wants to let me relate to her and for others to relate to the people I wanted to like instead maybe as one idea to think about.

Disclaimer:  I'm sorry if you find this offensive.  I just was stating facts and my point of the question why she can, I guess, negatively change your life in private.  I mean, yea I like when people do that but not when I'm just always gonna be in trouble for not a good enough reason.

Ha Ha Ha

Anyone gets close to me and gets attractive to me, others see the same thing for some reason now and say, "Oh no, you can't get close to her.  We're gonna stimulate you forever, instead."

A Word to Describe Me

as a musician among other things

"resolute"

Violin

I'm ordering a technic/technique book!

People know what they do is wrong.

Sitting there emitting thoughts that a Late Boomer is the right age to be their parents plus that I'm worse, as a person tho.

^Still^

I'm sure I didn't get something I was supposed to, but I'm still here.

Ha Ha

Does it feel good to act like you're ^more well-behaved^ than me?

Who gets to feel stimulated?

They are saying Late Boomers I look up to should not want to stimulate me but people born around 1997/1998.  They say it's all so bad to do me, but then other people can come up.

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I recall my 1st piano.  I was 1 1/2 and it played a song on each little key when I pressed my little finger.  I was so mad it didn't play notes instead.

I remember once I got to press one note on the piano at an event for kids when a lady played a song, when I was about 7 and never played music.

I actually started playing the melody to "Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star" on a small electric keyboard I got for Christmas years ago when I was 7.  For career day at school, I said I wanted to be a singer when I grew up at age 7.  I started knowing I wanted to at 5.  I memorized the hymns at church so I could think about them or sing them at home when I was about 7.  We learned to read music at my school at age 7.

I was so passionate about what wasn't in my past in music, aside from that we were taught to read it at age 7, that I became a Music Education major for Vocal and Instrumental music.

The Eyes in the Tree

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I don't mind if I can't really masturbate all the way.  That's the devil's work.

💪

Life isn't this party.  You don't know what you're missing.

😈

Are we supposed to be..

sillier?

Vibes

I'm getting negative energy.

"Make no mistake!"

So, now I am sitting here listening to people get agitated that I should be gotten into trouble successfully.  I used to listen to love sweet love.  I wonder why things here aren't as they should be, normal.

YouTube

What should I do..

..and not go coocoo?

How can we help out?

HEH HEH HEH

I'm a musician, so I'm like a movie star!  I went to Loyola University.

So..

Why isn't it all, "Oh, that feels so good!" and at some speck on the clock, "I am excited about Christina!"

Plan

Just ignore bad news.

Hm..

Why worry?  Why all this worry?  It's getting to me that people are worried, but who cares?

Good Ole Trump!

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Do you feel like Late Boomers are "coming out?"

You know, do you get upset when other people chose to stimulate them or let them feel stimulated, instead of you all?

Make a joyful noise!

If you want people to know what your underwear looks like.

Wait

I do not like how people have, in some way, reduced someone's place in the world that I look up to but overrated it.  Doesn't change anything, tho.

Getting Down to Business

So, did you really want me to let older people look up to me for sexual gratification?  😁  Sure!

Apology

I thought I said something about Hillary that was incomplete in explanation but could not find it but sorry if I posted it.

Nite to you!

I'm watching Pitch Perfect 2 and waking up early to get a doll!

Long Lost Family

lives here (Cleveland, Ohio, at the bend of the Great Lakes) and I went to school here for music for organ twice for a relatively short time.

It is Anglo-Irish / French / German + real Irish, maybe.

(My other side is I think German / Dutch / French / Swiss / Anglo-Irish / English ...)

It's true.

I am accepted by Generation X to exist.

Question

I am on a battlefield of racists?

Why not talk to me instead of bumping up other Asians with Caucasians?  What the Hell you be doing?