I never asked for attention, and, since, people have had conflicts with me, meanwhile they are saying, I deserve to have people I look up to get attention, saying to dis me. ..not to mention acting silly like the pleasure goes to them in any way they want, like they can do that, and saying it's good to feel silly but instead of caring about me anymore. I thought we already established it was okay this person feels silly sometimes. I'm not sure of this opportunity and severity and inappropriateness of the nature of this issue in comparison to other possibilities.
And you know I'm learning to ward off compliments from the people experimenting on me, etc., because when they say it's okay they're mad at me for technically wrong reasons.