I got that I was in big trouble and they would stimulate someone I look up to with some perverted pleasure.
Why is my life so bad?
How can I have a relationship if it's raped and ruined?
I just typed up my feelings, and something from them flared up and I look bad now. There, you can read what I said if you want to say what happened like it's not even there.
I don't mean to call anyone's glory with supposed bad things, but I thought things worked out and were connected. I should not be in trouble, anyway! So, someone gets in trouble, someone gets it? I know usually the person who caused the issue gets it.
What's wrong with what I say? I'm being offended. I never got much outta this except things only a stupid person would not know about, like me in the past. I can't even relax about my home.
I will not take any of this, me in trouble, sending bad stimulation to someone I look up to. That person does not deserve the treatment they are getting. This is not what it was about.
Disclaimer: I'm sorry if I've offended anyone. I just wanted to journal about something bad keeping me up, but now they think something happened. I think people think I don't deserve anything. I didn't say anyone had to do anything. I don't need other people to steal it from me, tho.