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Friday, September 30, 2016
on the toilet
taking the bus to get home!
I hope everyone is having a good day!
You know, what did I do to start a fight anywhere in my life? Who gets problems as pathetic as I have?.. Sometimes, I cut corners, and sometimes I get in awkward situations. Nothing made very real/clear. People just want to go with the flow! How will I remember this when vital? Just accept that people are all confusing it seems sometimes. You just gotta play by the rules you've learned. I find some of the rules illogical or haphazard. Like, people want you to listen and know you can't do it.
Movie
I just saw Miss Pereguine. 10/10. Excellent cast. I was already looking forward to Eva Green. She is 1/2 Swedish and 1/2 French.
Thursday, September 29, 2016
What's Going On
I might seem overly sensitive, like I should ignore the mean thoughts I get from others.
I do see other younger people out there living their lives, like I don't deserve one. Then, Baby Boomers and especially/primarily Late Boomers get nourished for their "needs, wants, and desires."
I do see other younger people out there living their lives, like I don't deserve one. Then, Baby Boomers and especially/primarily Late Boomers get nourished for their "needs, wants, and desires."
What's It Worth
I can see the faces of girls born around 1997/1998-ish looking taken aback in the experience of the world, like they're an individual that's worth something. Their dads must be born in the later 1950s.
Families Today?
Why are they saying that people with too young of parents born in Generation XYZ are cooler than some people with Late Boom parents?
This is not a "sensitive" issue. It's a public conspiracy.
This is not a "sensitive" issue. It's a public conspiracy.
Controlling Others's Judgments?
So, they can do what they do, but if they present something to me I'll find something wrong with it.
Something Sad
It seems people at church copied me like they think they shoulda had a chance at life and say, "Howcome our pastor is so attractive and I'm not the one being attractive?"
Issue
People blame my mom for their not liking me. They also messed up my life and a lot, it seems, if it has anything to do with this shit.
Can't Trust People
They seem settled to hurt me and say I'm shit cuz I am always being bugged when I try to live my life. My life is trash because of them and partially because of my dad. Who brought my relatives into the picture? They aren't close to me. They're out to get me.
I don't want the sad puppy eyes to waste my time. This seems kinda weird and probably not rewarding to others. I wish people would talk to me in ways that benefit them more. It is nice in my lifetime to experience people who understand my life.
I feel like a Jew being labeled by some shit Germans, I just feel I'm gonna die.
I don't want the sad puppy eyes to waste my time. This seems kinda weird and probably not rewarding to others. I wish people would talk to me in ways that benefit them more. It is nice in my lifetime to experience people who understand my life.
I feel like a Jew being labeled by some shit Germans, I just feel I'm gonna die.
Heh Heh Okay But
They speak to me every time I load the page on my computer and thru people I know and don't know. They are mean at any moment. My life is limited and inhibited.
I know now.
I knew before.
They won't let me talk about anything critically + assertively.
They always throw in some watermelon seeds. "Ooh, I have to do something mean to Christina all the time. This isn't a prize. This is impressive."
Orlando has turned into fluff. Huffle Fluff. You know I was at a high ranked private college today, and I think the kids there are surprised the life of Generation XY/Y was about Pokemon and Harry Potter.
What are these people trying to do to me? Turn me into their trash? I bet they can't take this post.
They won't let me talk about anything critically + assertively.
They always throw in some watermelon seeds. "Ooh, I have to do something mean to Christina all the time. This isn't a prize. This is impressive."
Orlando has turned into fluff. Huffle Fluff. You know I was at a high ranked private college today, and I think the kids there are surprised the life of Generation XY/Y was about Pokemon and Harry Potter.
What are these people trying to do to me? Turn me into their trash? I bet they can't take this post.
Cooing Myself
People are mean to me, and instead of being mean back in all situations if possible.. sometimes on the inside I label them as trash because it comes up with them.
Is this a lie?
that the people watching me secretly with cameras are only a reflection of my environment?
I know for a fact people are mean to me on the outside and it effects me when I'm inside.
I know for a fact people are mean to me on the outside and it effects me when I'm inside.
Messing With My Life
I feel I am being watched meanly when things are fine and being probed into for my private thoughts that aren't addressed to others.
An Obvious Secret
We could all just get along if everyone wasn't (1) getting into fights about not wanting to be older and (2) in some level of thinking trying to raise up younger people over older people.
Actually, they try to raise Early Boomers over Generation X.
Actually, they try to raise Early Boomers over Generation X.
Who's involved?
Do you know what the word "unincluded" means? Like, you praise someone, but it doesn't mean you're shit.
Fairest One of All?
What do you think is more attractive in an adult? Looking old to look like an adult compared to kids or looking like a kid/younger to make younger people feel even younger?
All Fits Together
I will get the AA (General Studies) and for my social health take ballet twice a week for adults and private singing. Maybe, someday I will do violin again, but I dunno.
The Plan
I paid for violin lessons up until late November or early December cuz I had to.
I hope to do the play which is in January. I hope to go to community college online in the Spring, too.
Then, I can do adult ballet and private singing.
I need to learn to keep up with chores, too.
What about violin then? I can do it on my own sometimes maybe. I just really want that AA. After that, I can do whatever I want. 4 classes per semester, I'll be done in 3 semesters.
(1) New Student Experience, English, Math, Science
(2) Math, Social Science, Social Science, Science
(3) Communications, ...
That's Spring 2017, Summer 2017, Fall 2017. If I feel like it, I can take 3 in the summer since summer is short.
I don't read much, but I am excited to read for a degree. I like writing on my blog, tho.
So, it would be too hard to add violin. I'd rather stay fresh in dancing and singing. I could always quit and start violin lessons again and can play on my own then.
I hope to do the play which is in January. I hope to go to community college online in the Spring, too.
Then, I can do adult ballet and private singing.
I need to learn to keep up with chores, too.
What about violin then? I can do it on my own sometimes maybe. I just really want that AA. After that, I can do whatever I want. 4 classes per semester, I'll be done in 3 semesters.
(1) New Student Experience, English, Math, Science
(2) Math, Social Science, Social Science, Science
(3) Communications, ...
That's Spring 2017, Summer 2017, Fall 2017. If I feel like it, I can take 3 in the summer since summer is short.
I don't read much, but I am excited to read for a degree. I like writing on my blog, tho.
So, it would be too hard to add violin. I'd rather stay fresh in dancing and singing. I could always quit and start violin lessons again and can play on my own then.
Feels Like Before
I didn't say I would do violin in my last post! I remember when I was too busy with homework to take private singing lessons in junior high. We couldn't afford all the things I wanted to do later on.
The Idea
I would take ballet classes and the private singing lessons, and eventually I'll be good enough to do something.
I guess one of the problems is I'm starting like this at age 30.
So, get an AA online and take ballet and singing. I'm hoping to take 4 classes a semester to get done more quickly. Last time I was there doing that, online, I took 6 and it was too much by a margin.
I guess one of the problems is I'm starting like this at age 30.
So, get an AA online and take ballet and singing. I'm hoping to take 4 classes a semester to get done more quickly. Last time I was there doing that, online, I took 6 and it was too much by a margin.
Roadblocked
I feel I've hit a roadblock. I am not all that excited about being in community plays for a staple activity. It would be fun to do something in Hollywood, even if it were something small like a commercial or minor supporting position/crowd role.
Already, violin is out of the picture for a daily sustenance. That is because I am only a beginner.
I've considered college, probably online, which would be fun to get a degree. Financial aid only covers the general studies AA now, tho, at least at community colleges or colleges like that.
Already, violin is out of the picture for a daily sustenance. That is because I am only a beginner.
I've considered college, probably online, which would be fun to get a degree. Financial aid only covers the general studies AA now, tho, at least at community colleges or colleges like that.
Wednesday, September 28, 2016
New Plan
I guess I will take ballet, hard to come by good jazz classes for adults, anyway.
Ballet + Opera/Classical Singing
Violin on the side.
I hope I can be involved in plays, too, but how will I take dance class at the same time? Guess I will take it when I can.
Ballet + Opera/Classical Singing
Violin on the side.
I hope I can be involved in plays, too, but how will I take dance class at the same time? Guess I will take it when I can.
Violin Only on the Side :(
I am a beginner.
I want to take jazz dance and classical + other singing.
I don't want to act without these skills, neither.
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
My Artistic Goals
I wonder if I need to seriously weigh my options on following either of these.
•Violin
•Singing and Dancing
I'm taking violin lessons. I think I can add ballet class next year.
•Violin
•Singing and Dancing
I'm taking violin lessons. I think I can add ballet class next year.
"Very Important Medical Research"
I was looking at BN online and I felt I was related to like all these other fields or a large scope of them in my interest in biotechnological laboratory sciences with animals, as I browsed thru.
College Major Programs
•UCF - BS - Biotechnology
•High Ranking Private School - does not have it + generally hosts BAs
•Community College - AS - Biotechnology Laboratory Sciences
•Community College - AA - Biotechnology
•High Ranking Private School - does not have it + generally hosts BAs
•Community College - AS - Biotechnology Laboratory Sciences
•Community College - AA - Biotechnology
"If I had a.."
If I had a job in healthcare, it'd be with animals in biotechnology.
If I had a job in science, it'd be physics.
If I had a job involving more reading, it'd be modern world history, with an interest in the Baby Boom era.
If I had a minimum wage job, it'd be working in the crew backstage of a theater.
My "greatest interest of these is" animals in biotechnology.. "animal biotechnology" veterinarian. I'd rather work with the physical part with the animals. A "biotechnological veterinarian." It's more of a research job than a normal surgical job.
I am trying to focus on violin and being active in my community, tho.
link
If I had a job in science, it'd be physics.
If I had a job involving more reading, it'd be modern world history, with an interest in the Baby Boom era.
If I had a minimum wage job, it'd be working in the crew backstage of a theater.
My "greatest interest of these is" animals in biotechnology.. "animal biotechnology" veterinarian. I'd rather work with the physical part with the animals. A "biotechnological veterinarian." It's more of a research job than a normal surgical job.
I am trying to focus on violin and being active in my community, tho.
link
Bad White Culture Types
I wonder if I know anyone my type.
Most people in Europe want to be like the bad Americans. Then, many attractive people even in America itself are like that, too.
Most people in Europe want to be like the bad Americans. Then, many attractive people even in America itself are like that, too.
"Do you want someone to care about you?"
You can't tell someone from Late Generation X that someone in Earlier/Mid Generation X are their surrogate parents. They grew up with Mommy and Daddy. Some people from Late Generation X are so good they are like knighted parents, but in general the parental unit of Late Generation X is Baby Boomers.
Kids today are treated very caringly by younger Generation X, but people like me are not treated like their baby mostly. So, in the end people like me lose out on what's given to them.
Moreover, some people, like me, in a way are not in a position where they want to get married nor feel like having kids. I like talking to friends.
"People who need people .. are the luckiest people .. in the world."
Also, what of the movement of trashing anyone who is not a Late Boomer? It's catching on, and it's a sin, wrong, and untrue. I'm a bit worried people are saying Late Boomers need each other and their Later Millennial children, who are the youngest of their generation of offspring. So, they forget about their Generation XY kids. Early Boomers don't have parents just like that, but they are older. In essence, my generation is not getting what they need.
Kids today are treated very caringly by younger Generation X, but people like me are not treated like their baby mostly. So, in the end people like me lose out on what's given to them.
Moreover, some people, like me, in a way are not in a position where they want to get married nor feel like having kids. I like talking to friends.
"People who need people .. are the luckiest people .. in the world."
Also, what of the movement of trashing anyone who is not a Late Boomer? It's catching on, and it's a sin, wrong, and untrue. I'm a bit worried people are saying Late Boomers need each other and their Later Millennial children, who are the youngest of their generation of offspring. So, they forget about their Generation XY kids. Early Boomers don't have parents just like that, but they are older. In essence, my generation is not getting what they need.
Little Theater
I might audition for something soon. It's a play. It looks promising, cold readings for auditions. My family would have to give me a ride, so I'm finding out the schedule.
Monday, September 26, 2016
Schedule
I'm not keeping up with anything on TV right now that I know of. I don't follow many people on Twitter, mainly following public organizations or places.
Seeing Into It
It seems when you see like a person from Europe that when people are on the job it's really about race and not much is happening.
Sorting Sheep
People used to say that people who are more rash and naughty were the ones who were careless letting their skin tan and would probably rather be where it's hot all the time. (Say, has anyone seen a tanning bed, of late?) I don't mean anything racistly. The funny thing is I keep feeling beat for my interest in things like Germany for music. (Music is important!) Also conducive to a fairer look, people eye me suspiciously when they see my application of sunblock, every 2 hours. Remember the sendoff song about always remembering to wear sunblock, too?
..Hm. Are Asians sometimes considered not people, no exceptions for anyone? I know I feel pressure that I could look worse than other people. Sometimes, because of that kind of pressure, my good looks drop a notch. I recently found that Asians know white people "have it all." They just happen to look how they look and it might be a dying culture among some of the riff raff, however meaning hinting at something like the French Revolution. I found people in general, at least here in Central Florida moreso, if they are impressed by you they just want to take that aspect of you somehow and not let you have it, being mean to the people who seem racially impure.
I wonder why my being good a lot is thrown out the window, whereas others who are all Caucasian move up and up without question.
Something else funny in the weather. It seems like there is less to enjoy and too much stress. You can't get better and better and be happy physically. There is always a bitter element. I mean about things like if your job is performing music. It seems more stressful where I'm at. I can't just enjoy even that. It was my college major, my sole field of study with extra courses in it, for 1 year. When other people mess up their life, people say their sin is their punishment, but it's not. When I do something that is none of their business by some point, my life is turned around.
It's funny when you see someone from Europe get jealous of an American feeling pleasure. They think if Americans feel it they are spoiled. They also end up siding with the bad ones. They recognized them as interesting and like a band of pirates.
Why do I see people smile at me after I deny their belief I am shit? They don't know what they're thinking and don't wanna tell you and think only others than myself can get away with throwing me out. I don't care how old they are because I know people younger than my parental generation think they can be unauthentic and overly stark in dealing with me.
People think I am out of place, but I fight for what's right. I know media is all plagued by people visiting California. They think it doesn't count and doesn't matter. So many people in Florida are crazy, too. They don't all look so happy.
Would you say that even if I did something out of place, it shouldn't mean I am bad, whereas other people are up to something? They have been up to something since like 1998. I guess the Baby Boom and slightly older generation can't keep them under control. These younger people are bitter to their parental generation.
You know what else I decided? Maybe, it would be mean even to get a sperm donor to have a kid because it would make people uncomfortable. I am not networking enough with other Eurasians/Mixed Asians cuz I don't know how. EurasianNation.proboards.com is so slow now and not may people. I feel I am lacking socially. Race is my main concern. Stormfront is so strict, seemingly. It's a white supremacist board. It's okay, but it's mostly bringing up topics just to have something to talk about. They don't like talking about other races so we can all be at peace and live the life we want.
It's hard to believe people resent my existence. That's not okay because taking your life is not right. I actually would have a hard time enlisting in the military, and I would be paid a lot. I think people think my parents are innately cool but racially dislike us or me. I do have a younger brother. I feel my parents didn't give us a fair chance. He's thin with straight hair, and I'm buff with course hair. I look more like my dad than anything. He's just his own person.
I wonder why some white people think they can make up things about me and think I have to listen to what they say all of a sudden. Ha! Some of ya'll gettin' a little old there?
You know, I think other people find Asians interesting, interesting to watch and preserve, and to say WHOOPS to Eurasians as they cut them off. "It's a small world, after all."
..Hm. Are Asians sometimes considered not people, no exceptions for anyone? I know I feel pressure that I could look worse than other people. Sometimes, because of that kind of pressure, my good looks drop a notch. I recently found that Asians know white people "have it all." They just happen to look how they look and it might be a dying culture among some of the riff raff, however meaning hinting at something like the French Revolution. I found people in general, at least here in Central Florida moreso, if they are impressed by you they just want to take that aspect of you somehow and not let you have it, being mean to the people who seem racially impure.
I wonder why my being good a lot is thrown out the window, whereas others who are all Caucasian move up and up without question.
Something else funny in the weather. It seems like there is less to enjoy and too much stress. You can't get better and better and be happy physically. There is always a bitter element. I mean about things like if your job is performing music. It seems more stressful where I'm at. I can't just enjoy even that. It was my college major, my sole field of study with extra courses in it, for 1 year. When other people mess up their life, people say their sin is their punishment, but it's not. When I do something that is none of their business by some point, my life is turned around.
It's funny when you see someone from Europe get jealous of an American feeling pleasure. They think if Americans feel it they are spoiled. They also end up siding with the bad ones. They recognized them as interesting and like a band of pirates.
Why do I see people smile at me after I deny their belief I am shit? They don't know what they're thinking and don't wanna tell you and think only others than myself can get away with throwing me out. I don't care how old they are because I know people younger than my parental generation think they can be unauthentic and overly stark in dealing with me.
People think I am out of place, but I fight for what's right. I know media is all plagued by people visiting California. They think it doesn't count and doesn't matter. So many people in Florida are crazy, too. They don't all look so happy.
Would you say that even if I did something out of place, it shouldn't mean I am bad, whereas other people are up to something? They have been up to something since like 1998. I guess the Baby Boom and slightly older generation can't keep them under control. These younger people are bitter to their parental generation.
You know what else I decided? Maybe, it would be mean even to get a sperm donor to have a kid because it would make people uncomfortable. I am not networking enough with other Eurasians/Mixed Asians cuz I don't know how. EurasianNation.proboards.com is so slow now and not may people. I feel I am lacking socially. Race is my main concern. Stormfront is so strict, seemingly. It's a white supremacist board. It's okay, but it's mostly bringing up topics just to have something to talk about. They don't like talking about other races so we can all be at peace and live the life we want.
It's hard to believe people resent my existence. That's not okay because taking your life is not right. I actually would have a hard time enlisting in the military, and I would be paid a lot. I think people think my parents are innately cool but racially dislike us or me. I do have a younger brother. I feel my parents didn't give us a fair chance. He's thin with straight hair, and I'm buff with course hair. I look more like my dad than anything. He's just his own person.
I wonder why some white people think they can make up things about me and think I have to listen to what they say all of a sudden. Ha! Some of ya'll gettin' a little old there?
You know, I think other people find Asians interesting, interesting to watch and preserve, and to say WHOOPS to Eurasians as they cut them off. "It's a small world, after all."
People, After All
Even though I am 1/2 Asian (12% real/Chinese,) I feel I have traits that are much more comfortable and appealing than many people who are all Caucasian. I would rather be me than them. I'm not as interested in some of what they think they have to offer. I'm just like that. I'm not racist. I'm just another White person. I share similarities with other White people, too, which I like to connect with. I don't necessarily want to connect with mistakes of people I'm related to, as well. I just hope for the best for everyone. I share the same interests as minority ethnicities, as well, but I don't "lose it."
Sunday, September 25, 2016
"Instant Gratification"
Not all that long ago, people used to interact and know that some things in life are about you and some aren't. To be nice to someone, you don't need to manually say that it is also a signal for you to feel some form of sinful pleasure thinking that or else no one would ever be able to do anything. These things are not connected. People don't figure out the truth. They just say this because it's easy to give as a defense mechanism for their sly interests and dishonesty in life. Why they do it must be a complicated issue.
If you are wondering how someone who does things emotionally for others gets by, that's a wonder or inquiry/question, not a time to wet yourself / emergency nor criminal justice. It's like "the boy who cried wolf."
Do you wanna wonder why I'm over here? I'm not going to be in the wrong in the future. I'm collecting $200 and passing go, going straight for the Gate. Yes, something bad will happen if I don't listen to the truth.
Saturday, September 24, 2016
College Choir at Church
I'm going to be in choir at church at college tomorrow night where I take community violin.
I just got outta the Saturday mass and going to 2 masses there tomorrow morning, one with choir. They have 2 contemporary masses, one for the youth in the evening. I played keyboard for the evening youth mass at my old church. My favorite mass would be a traditional Sunday night mass, sometimes/likely with guitars and tambourines and piano.
I've sung in this college mass before and at my old college in a chapel, the university ministry mass.
Friday, September 23, 2016
Turned Away
People turn me down as a thief culturally because they are jealous but worship others like me.
Thursday, September 22, 2016
The Hard Life
Being Chinese from your mom and having an older dad. I'm also American. I don't feel really cute. I can't handle emotions. Better to be young and European.
Prejudices
Why would white people tell other races minding their own business in civilization what they want them to be compared to them?
It's like a free for all in Central Florida. Other places aren't full blown Nazi regimes today. Why should I care about anyone white if they don't care about me. Central Floridians are like monsters let from a cave. Other Southerners are just like Europeans in Europe trying to flirt all the time with bad people respectively from Florida and the US.
Also, people don't want me to feel self-pity. I feel threatened at knifepoint for "what I done."
I'm all white just not all Caucasian.
Using Other Races
Why would white people use other races to say they are better, like pretending bring American does not make them any different from Europe even outside of blood? Do they need other people to look bad to make them look good? It's like nonwhites are racial slaves.
What kind of a
What kind of a righteous person goes around tearing down others rather than building themselves up?
Voting for President of the US
Even supporters of Hillary Clinton do not want me to support and vote for her because she's an attractive woman.
Wednesday, September 21, 2016
Contest
People today seem to think that if they are good they can take from others emotionally and socially.
Parents versus Peers
Did you know people are mean to their kids and then blame their peers for it who did nothing wrong?
The Peanut Gallery
Authority is just being slow and people are challenging reasonable people to explain shit.
Who doesn't matter?
Apparently, I was dropped out.
In college after my 1st year, I was told I was nothing or wasn't worth much or something by a professor or as hinted by several professionals. They meant physically and psychologically due to brain damage from all the schooling I took on that last semester. So, what, just leave me, allow me to be poor? I was not allowed to keep my major in Music Education and was told I was also too shy to take singing, which seems important to well-rounded musicians maybe who have many interests in emotions and things in life. I know famous people who did arts and science must have been stimulated from different fields to excel in them all. Ideas come up. At easy one is artistic periods in visual art and classical music.
In college after my 1st year, I was told I was nothing or wasn't worth much or something by a professor or as hinted by several professionals. They meant physically and psychologically due to brain damage from all the schooling I took on that last semester. So, what, just leave me, allow me to be poor? I was not allowed to keep my major in Music Education and was told I was also too shy to take singing, which seems important to well-rounded musicians maybe who have many interests in emotions and things in life. I know famous people who did arts and science must have been stimulated from different fields to excel in them all. Ideas come up. At easy one is artistic periods in visual art and classical music.
The Things People Do for Amazing Individuals
They say people are beyond things etc. They only do it to some people, tho.
I wonder..
..would it be cuter on a kid?
Like, you want us older "kids" or young adults to appreciate shit like it's cute, but that doesn't make us cuter.
Like, you want us older "kids" or young adults to appreciate shit like it's cute, but that doesn't make us cuter.
I am not following Bella Thorne right now, but I might follow her later. Surprise!
I am focusing more on venues.
I am focusing more on venues.
Why me?
People see I have chemistry with people about how one's life should be and then descend in on me from out of the blue and say to break it up, relationship's only for them or not me. It happens for one and all.
"A .. ten .. tion!"
So, people are born sorting out who's gonna give them attention and knows what they're going to do?
The Bad Guys
doctors and lawyers
Did you know that's what the smartest people are supposed to study?
Edit: No offense.
Did you know that's what the smartest people are supposed to study?
Edit: No offense.
Doctors are the killers.
The pills make you need more pills.
They say don't drink juice, but soda is bad and juice prevents cancer. You're not gonna stop drinking soda altogether, man, even if you are on pills!
They say don't drink juice, but soda is bad and juice prevents cancer. You're not gonna stop drinking soda altogether, man, even if you are on pills!
The Way the World Works
It seems people born in the mid/late 1960s to Generation X can get people to do things for them when they won't for younger people, like they are trash.
Other People in the World
Some people think they can tell me to grovel over others and make it a world affair. I wonder what happened to my peers.
Wanting to Be Someone Else
Why do some people actually think they embody someone else? They are cool, but we are all different and we look different for reasons that are not the same.
TV
I am gonna watch that 1 or 2 episodes of Cutthroat Camp. I don't know that I'll watch much else now necessarily by what's on in the way of food.
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
White Baby Boomers
Baby Boomers have it all. They tell future generations like mine, XY, not to copy them. Like, if we get stimulated by hippie things, it's considered you're a nigger.
It's probably a rule for people who are selfish to benefit, who acted out too much. Also, it's to make sure other races can't do what they did.
It's probably a rule for people who are selfish to benefit, who acted out too much. Also, it's to make sure other races can't do what they did.
Note to Virginie Buscail
I love your violin playing! I hope all is well with you! I saw you played in La Valse by Ravel, also very good! I was a piano major in college for a year but just switched to beginning violin. I like Romantic Contemporary symphonic music a lot. I also connect a lot to the French culture living in the New Orleans area as a teenager. I used to wanna study organ in France! I studied music in New Orleans for a year at Loyola University. Well, thanks so much for your wonderful playing!
Contact her here: link. It came up in Google Search near the top.
Contact her here: link. It came up in Google Search near the top.
Monday, September 19, 2016
I am the accused.
It seems funny people tell me I earned all this honor, but then they just say I did something and have too much attention and start out being bad when they are just getting at me for disagreeable situations in the past.
I do not want to be told I'm getting an extra surplus of concentrated effort to communicate and never have a good time.
I do not want to be told I'm getting an extra surplus of concentrated effort to communicate and never have a good time.
Late Boomers in an Isolated *Reverie
Why do Late Boomers keep acting like they feel some perverted, pleasurable thing that no one else gets to? Why does it seem like it's because someone said to? No one should be able to say that.
*reverie - a state of being pleasantly lost in one's thoughts; a daydream. (link)
*reverie - a state of being pleasantly lost in one's thoughts; a daydream. (link)
Sunday, September 18, 2016
"Beggars can't be chosers."
Everything is for brat kids born around 1997 and 1998 who don't respect real life and are all over the tech age. My life spirals out of control into an abyss of depression
Planning It All in the End
Did you notice people, like born around 1997, secretly saying, "No, I'm good." Then, they turn around and take what's most important to you from you having it, like some wild monster. I mean, who else does that, but celebrities "in" with Ellen DeGeneres?
They act like they're all fixed up and content, when you are ready to set things straight with all.
I don't know how I feel about me finding people who are either popular or who I have a relationship with that I like and then someone famous just taking it every time. They might not do this like this with other people. These people might not even be interested when many others are, which yes I also am on this annoying constant lookout for and am sorta retracted from.
They act like they're all fixed up and content, when you are ready to set things straight with all.
I don't know how I feel about me finding people who are either popular or who I have a relationship with that I like and then someone famous just taking it every time. They might not do this like this with other people. These people might not even be interested when many others are, which yes I also am on this annoying constant lookout for and am sorta retracted from.
Giving to the Lowest of the Low
Why do people say there are people out there who simply did not do what they need to do to deserve something good?
Then, they take things from others and give it to the lowest common denominator as afore mentioned, philosophizing that it means more people will get what they want if someone gets something over others for no reason and over others who deserve it.
They think giving more to bad people means that everyone will get it because the worst could even get it, without giving it to others or not letting them have it or seeing this take place.
Disclaimer: No offense to real individuals.
Then, they take things from others and give it to the lowest common denominator as afore mentioned, philosophizing that it means more people will get what they want if someone gets something over others for no reason and over others who deserve it.
They think giving more to bad people means that everyone will get it because the worst could even get it, without giving it to others or not letting them have it or seeing this take place.
Disclaimer: No offense to real individuals.
What if..
..What if the default is telling people to experience that which is unpleasant, bad, and uncool?
Trying to Be Something You're Not
Late Boomers and probably their children appreciate life for its utmost beauty. How can someone who was not a kid at their times know that? I can understand it, I know, at least in some ways. I just feel it's something for someone else and feel tricked into giving up on living the right kind of life, like this; what they do is also "the right thing." If there's a contest for everyone else, I feel I must be being held back in some way for some reason. I feel numbed out of living life trusting anyone of my own race or the white race, the way I thought I would. I guess it's just a problem.
My dad knows no boundaries and neither does his former nuclear family. Life for me sometimes or often is just his secret painfilled ranting or that of his kin somehow affecting me. He really did proclaim in secret message affirmatively that I'm here to show him the way, meaning he wants to know how to change who he is this way and throwing me out as evidence or so I don't give evidence of his "using" his own kids. Sure, I already made clear I feel for people who are born earlier and wish they were born later. I don't believe in that it's so bad they have to hurt someone innocent like me. I'm not at the best of the best nor the worst of the worst. So, he blended me with someone else to assimilate their features to him without giving to someone who is also competition racially so he can be the only one. I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, just telling it like it is.
Late Boomers can see life slipping away, but we still make it.
What of all these annoying kids trying to dupe the environment?
All I know is I am nice and open and accepting to others, but I don't ruin my life for others. Ruining your life for others generally won't get you anywhere. It is thought it can get others somewhere but not you still.
So, I'm still at it, trying to be something I'm not. We're something called human. We come into the world to in the end waste away, like the living things we know. We can be happy and glorious when we die with hopes of better things afterlife. Otherwise, we can just give up and waste away that way.
My dad knows no boundaries and neither does his former nuclear family. Life for me sometimes or often is just his secret painfilled ranting or that of his kin somehow affecting me. He really did proclaim in secret message affirmatively that I'm here to show him the way, meaning he wants to know how to change who he is this way and throwing me out as evidence or so I don't give evidence of his "using" his own kids. Sure, I already made clear I feel for people who are born earlier and wish they were born later. I don't believe in that it's so bad they have to hurt someone innocent like me. I'm not at the best of the best nor the worst of the worst. So, he blended me with someone else to assimilate their features to him without giving to someone who is also competition racially so he can be the only one. I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, just telling it like it is.
Late Boomers can see life slipping away, but we still make it.
What of all these annoying kids trying to dupe the environment?
All I know is I am nice and open and accepting to others, but I don't ruin my life for others. Ruining your life for others generally won't get you anywhere. It is thought it can get others somewhere but not you still.
So, I'm still at it, trying to be something I'm not. We're something called human. We come into the world to in the end waste away, like the living things we know. We can be happy and glorious when we die with hopes of better things afterlife. Otherwise, we can just give up and waste away that way.
Saturday, September 17, 2016
Friday, September 16, 2016
All About Late Boomers
Something's become overly obvious.
People think that only Late Boomers and people born around 1997 and 1998 are worth anything.
It goes that Late Boomers are older than my generation and deserve to be felt up for all the effort they put into parenting my generation. In the end, my generation doesn't get the satisfaction they wish they could get in this world, possibly.
The funny thing is that they think Late Boomers should not be copied by my generation. It's the same as kids born later around 1997 and 1998 who are allowed. In fact, they are allowed to feel even better with Late Boomers as their parental generation.
Even if some people born around 1997 and 1998 held out and helped hold everyone up, they still have the opportunity in the near future over others in my generation.
People think that only Late Boomers and people born around 1997 and 1998 are worth anything.
It goes that Late Boomers are older than my generation and deserve to be felt up for all the effort they put into parenting my generation. In the end, my generation doesn't get the satisfaction they wish they could get in this world, possibly.
The funny thing is that they think Late Boomers should not be copied by my generation. It's the same as kids born later around 1997 and 1998 who are allowed. In fact, they are allowed to feel even better with Late Boomers as their parental generation.
Even if some people born around 1997 and 1998 held out and helped hold everyone up, they still have the opportunity in the near future over others in my generation.
Wednesday, September 14, 2016
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Story
There was a girl who was 20 years old. She had black and brown hair.
There was another girl who was 15 and she had light blonde hair.
The 1st girl was Bridget Olson, and the 2nd girl was Diamond Brite.
The 2 girls were the best friends as friends could get.
They had a big room and 2 little rooms connected. It had gray carpeting and spots to sit. They kept a bowl of cream for a little gray kitty with beautiful blue-violet eyes.
They were upstairs and downstairs there were many witches dressed up in ballgowns living life socializing there and about.
The men were outside practicing games.
There were more children about, some outside in bare feet who were about 30.
They all were going on a trip in a caravan.
Diamond Brite trotted along, while Bridget Olson rid in a vehicle.
They went to bed and set up fire all about. The youngest, Diamnod Brite, woke up and saw a wolf staring at them. A girl who was about 25 saw her and comforted her. A man woke up and shoo'd the wolf away.
They finally reached the festival. Bridget Olson went down the tunnel of love. Diamond Brite went on a ferriswheel.
Finally, it was time to return home.
Next, Bridget Olson sat on the bank with the younger girls around 15. She was in a yellow dress and boots. She sighed.
That night, they all waited on the bay for a ship. Some of the girls in their 30s were playing Ring Around the Rosie. Bridget Olson sighed. One of the ladies went over and comforted her. So, she picked her up.
Finally came the boat. The girls went to another country with 3 story cottages and merry food in the kitchen.
Finally, after months, they left. Bridget Olson went away and helped as a maid and nanny. Finally she went away to Africa and lived her own life.
There was another girl who was 15 and she had light blonde hair.
The 1st girl was Bridget Olson, and the 2nd girl was Diamond Brite.
The 2 girls were the best friends as friends could get.
They had a big room and 2 little rooms connected. It had gray carpeting and spots to sit. They kept a bowl of cream for a little gray kitty with beautiful blue-violet eyes.
They were upstairs and downstairs there were many witches dressed up in ballgowns living life socializing there and about.
The men were outside practicing games.
There were more children about, some outside in bare feet who were about 30.
They all were going on a trip in a caravan.
Diamond Brite trotted along, while Bridget Olson rid in a vehicle.
They went to bed and set up fire all about. The youngest, Diamnod Brite, woke up and saw a wolf staring at them. A girl who was about 25 saw her and comforted her. A man woke up and shoo'd the wolf away.
They finally reached the festival. Bridget Olson went down the tunnel of love. Diamond Brite went on a ferriswheel.
Finally, it was time to return home.
Next, Bridget Olson sat on the bank with the younger girls around 15. She was in a yellow dress and boots. She sighed.
That night, they all waited on the bay for a ship. Some of the girls in their 30s were playing Ring Around the Rosie. Bridget Olson sighed. One of the ladies went over and comforted her. So, she picked her up.
Finally came the boat. The girls went to another country with 3 story cottages and merry food in the kitchen.
Finally, after months, they left. Bridget Olson went away and helped as a maid and nanny. Finally she went away to Africa and lived her own life.
Monday, September 12, 2016
Sunday, September 11, 2016
YouTube
I know 02:14-02:48 is especially good. I enjoy listening to the whole thing, and it's even more fun watching.
This helped inspire me to want to pursue orchestral music in lieu of chamber music.
This is Orchestre Philharmonique de Radio France.
This helped inspire me to want to pursue orchestral music in lieu of chamber music.
This is Orchestre Philharmonique de Radio France.
The "On Ignore" Race
I just thought of a great topic that doesn't get addressed.
I was watching some religious music on YouTube for children, and I remembered maybe one of the most important things to the Catholic/Christian/Jewish church.
It is true that some people's problems are not addressed and are ignored in the world.
I am pretty certain we are hurting our brothers and sisters interested in the Catholic faith who are Asian, our beautiful, lovely Asians. Catholics think Asian ways are sinful, I'm guessing because it seems cunning, sly, and socially handicapped scientifically speaking. As a tradition, it comes up as everyone classifying it as on ignore and ^sinful^ like they can handle anything but that.
We need to reach out and pray for not just what people expect these days but what they needed all along.
I think Asians are comfortable with how they are, but it is a problem for some people of mixed race. I feel people are going in and overly promoting people of all Asian and putting down people who are mixed Asians/Chinese.
Friday, September 9, 2016
Thursday, September 8, 2016
Schedule
I don't think I can catch Ellen next week. I am not caught up now and am tired. I was out jogging for almost 1 1/2 hours. I sleep a lot and need to learn to cook more. I barely like watching TV sometimes, but if I do it's often cooking shows. I might be able to watch her at a later date if things start looking up for me in fundamental ways. I hope I catch up with today and tomorrow.
What can I do?
At 1st, I was upset. No one said anything. I didn't lose it myself.
My dad is cool born in 1950. Why make up some old wives tale and say my dad is not young enough for me to be cool to even my own mom born in 1959?
I'm sorry if others have failed, but I had not.
My fallibilities may be because of things other than my dad's age becoming unnecessarily prominent. I'm not a bad person, like a monster. Just look around.
No wonder I was a limp baby. No one thought I was cool nor loved me in some certain end. I just didn't feel anything, like all these other people do to tear me apart before anything else. How would you like to be a baby? and with a dad born in 1950? He is cool, but I guess people like what's uncool.
Even if it is the time of my dad's birth did not mean I was to be abused. I can't even see a clear scale between me and my friends where I'm treated fairly considering my dad's age.
I don't want to be in trashy situations cuza my dad or his age or something. I think most families are trashy in their background, if I'm considered how I am.
What of Late Boomers thinking they need even more stimulation but others no? It's not all that drama about Early Boomers tearing me up while Late Boomers reap the fruit of labor.
My dad is cool born in 1950. Why make up some old wives tale and say my dad is not young enough for me to be cool to even my own mom born in 1959?
I'm sorry if others have failed, but I had not.
My fallibilities may be because of things other than my dad's age becoming unnecessarily prominent. I'm not a bad person, like a monster. Just look around.
No wonder I was a limp baby. No one thought I was cool nor loved me in some certain end. I just didn't feel anything, like all these other people do to tear me apart before anything else. How would you like to be a baby? and with a dad born in 1950? He is cool, but I guess people like what's uncool.
Even if it is the time of my dad's birth did not mean I was to be abused. I can't even see a clear scale between me and my friends where I'm treated fairly considering my dad's age.
I don't want to be in trashy situations cuza my dad or his age or something. I think most families are trashy in their background, if I'm considered how I am.
What of Late Boomers thinking they need even more stimulation but others no? It's not all that drama about Early Boomers tearing me up while Late Boomers reap the fruit of labor.
My Honest Feelings
I don't think I need to feel an old person is peeping thru the windowpane telling our family that me being good does not mean I deserve what I have and to instead work out unraveling my little brother.
I know I had a friend who I think her dad decided he needed to prevent from seeing me and trying to affect my family in bad ways, just for fun cuz she had nothing to do sometimes/too much.
More about the social scene, I think someone I know with a teenage mom at birth is the life of the party, following her peers's every move, and dictating the lives of people like me by making statements in secret message I have to adhere to, tho she is younger. Just so you know, I'm not actually jealous of her mom being born around 1970 and mine in 1959. So, if you have special needs and have issues need to take care of them! I guess I don't mesh cuz people think my mom is too young to have me and hate on me but not on someone with a teenage mom. They seem to take to my dad okay. He's born in July 1950 so pretty cool I guess, knowing people with parents born in the 1940s and 1950s.
I know I had a friend who I think her dad decided he needed to prevent from seeing me and trying to affect my family in bad ways, just for fun cuz she had nothing to do sometimes/too much.
More about the social scene, I think someone I know with a teenage mom at birth is the life of the party, following her peers's every move, and dictating the lives of people like me by making statements in secret message I have to adhere to, tho she is younger. Just so you know, I'm not actually jealous of her mom being born around 1970 and mine in 1959. So, if you have special needs and have issues need to take care of them! I guess I don't mesh cuz people think my mom is too young to have me and hate on me but not on someone with a teenage mom. They seem to take to my dad okay. He's born in July 1950 so pretty cool I guess, knowing people with parents born in the 1940s and 1950s.
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
"My son!"
I've revived my little brother before, after he was in something like intensive care as a baby. I played with him and brought back the meaning in my mother's life.
Bad Gospel Reading
I missed church this Sunday due to my back being terrible, but I heard it was about leaving your family behind to follow Jesus, which means not to let them lead you to sin nor detract from your training to be a disciple, even if it requires sacrifices of other people.
No, we need to learn about modern problems!
No, we need to learn about modern problems!
Young Adults Group
I went to my 1st Young Adults group at church. I found that they were too shy around me to be polite socially, especially considering how uptight they intended to be.
I tried to connect with the leader in front of everyone, naturally, who is weeks younger than me, and I said we connected well both being from the beach and other people from different places, like Orlando. I couldn't get a response from anyone. She's from California, and my parents moved to Florida when I was born.
To be honest, I am suspecting someone told people in the parish to be mean to me. I detected an outcome, which is that I'm not coming back to the Young Adults group meetings cuz ballet is at a convenient time then. They lost a little respect.
Something else that flared up was I said the pastor might be getting back surgery, and someone acted like I was a problem and said he was better. I said, oh, I heard it a few weeks ago..
Much more drama than that, tho, that went down this night.
I tried to connect with the leader in front of everyone, naturally, who is weeks younger than me, and I said we connected well both being from the beach and other people from different places, like Orlando. I couldn't get a response from anyone. She's from California, and my parents moved to Florida when I was born.
To be honest, I am suspecting someone told people in the parish to be mean to me. I detected an outcome, which is that I'm not coming back to the Young Adults group meetings cuz ballet is at a convenient time then. They lost a little respect.
Something else that flared up was I said the pastor might be getting back surgery, and someone acted like I was a problem and said he was better. I said, oh, I heard it a few weeks ago..
Much more drama than that, tho, that went down this night.
Prayer Request
My little brother was sending me secret messages supposedly from someone I like and look up to that were mean and I thought for him to stop it too much and it affected him but not sexually. Dx
Yay
Ellen is a good bud, like a favorite toy. Is that appropriate to say? I am watching again! Hopefully nothing will come up and I can watch every day. I so hope I run into cool fans online! I have stabilized an active social life outside of the show, "so help me God!"
Paranormal Cativity
I was walking down a road and felt like headlights were coming at me tho lights weren't moving. I turned around and it was a cat. I felt its heat. It was like 20 or so feet away from me. I crouched down and it came to me and rubbed me.
Monday, September 5, 2016
Puzzle Solved
It seems to round off that Ellen DeGeneres is "snappy" and sometimes overly concerned concerning herself. She seems as tho she knows she provides for all others worthy emotionally etc. or brings about a certain sensation to viewers. However, I wonder if she actually goes by what she was like as a kid, rather than the idea she grew up.
The Greatest Wish
I know life revolves around people who happen to be born around 1960 or the late 1950s. I see the crappy ads with thinly sliced beef in a whopper of a bun. I know they had a proper childhood, life is just a party, etc. They are even convinced they are the ones who did the work and did everything right while others didn't, just going by generation. No wonder kids today are so shitty.
Exercise
I think I need to stop jogging. I have other exercises. I'll need rest for the ballet classes. xp
Boing Boing Boing Boing
I was thinking of doing hip hop, ballroom.. but I found some ballet that might be good. I also didn't want to partner up in ballroom. Line dancing is fun if you can find a class. I used to go in Louisiana.
Sometimes, I wondered if this composer and teacher at a music school did jazz or something before she came to work.
Boing Boing Boing Boing
I was thinking of doing hip hop, ballroom.. but I found some ballet that might be good. I also didn't want to partner up in ballroom. Line dancing is fun if you can find a class. I used to go in Louisiana.
Sometimes, I wondered if this composer and teacher at a music school did jazz or something before she came to work.
Edit
I can see it. Late Boomers know they are popular [deleted] but someone like me with a dad born in 1950 is not interesting, tho my dad still is. I become the butt of no joke.
I do not trust in some people.
They don't want you to have what's best. They disapprove of you cuz your parents aren't Late Boomers and the kid/you are not born in 1997/1998. They think it's okay to mess with your life and put you in drastic situations and lie about you.
Hard to Get By and on Tiring Psychotic Pills
What do you think about people praising those with more money who are famous for being healthier and then dropping everyone else?
How I'm Doing
I just watched Kindergarten Cop on TV.
I've been on painkillers for the lower side of my back by my hips. It hadn't been getting better and I keep taking the pills. I feel weak and tired, perhaps from not sleeping thru long enough.
I think it is happening because I overate. My pills slow down my digestion. There is hope; I just have to move out and my parents won't make me take the psychotic pills, which is probably reason for having diabetes and high cholesterol. I need to get healthier, maybe learn to cook something. Right now, I like when I have frozen chicken pot pies. I also like juice and fruit cups. It's better than a possible addiction to soda.
I've been on painkillers for the lower side of my back by my hips. It hadn't been getting better and I keep taking the pills. I feel weak and tired, perhaps from not sleeping thru long enough.
I think it is happening because I overate. My pills slow down my digestion. There is hope; I just have to move out and my parents won't make me take the psychotic pills, which is probably reason for having diabetes and high cholesterol. I need to get healthier, maybe learn to cook something. Right now, I like when I have frozen chicken pot pies. I also like juice and fruit cups. It's better than a possible addiction to soda.
Who You Are
I am in trouble if I feel I am my mom's child with benefits from my dad's race, but my dad keeps secretly informing me I am shit because of who he is. I am also a mix of both and my own person. Some people probably don't take to either parent.
Another thing that people go by is their whole race and ethnicities. Like, they may not have vulnerabilities from either parent, but they say both parents are very white or something. They're either a happy medium or some sorta twin.
Another thing that people go by is their whole race and ethnicities. Like, they may not have vulnerabilities from either parent, but they say both parents are very white or something. They're either a happy medium or some sorta twin.
Sunday, September 4, 2016
"I want more...."
It's interesting how someone can say someone is wrong, but like people around me keep testing me that they have "more" than me in some perverted way because they are not part Asian/Chinese.
Mixing Race
It's interesting a country like Africa could welcome a Norwegian, but a country like Germany supposedly could not welcome a Chinese/Asian.
A Good One?
The Muppets are on, and there is a number on that they are doing a sequel. They think they just said people were not supposed to complain about bad sequels online all the time, but at least they got me and they go around pretending things about me that I am bad and outspoken in the world.
Feel the Hate
If people do all this for younger kids with a Late Boom mom, why won't people stop hating on me for it and not others?
People With Light Hair and Eyes
What if that's the only reason they are attractive and seem to glow? It's a tough world out there.
Trying Spying Out
What do you think of those people hiding out there with dark/black hair who are attractive? Imagine them growing up and becoming adults. They have a lot in it socially.
YouTube
I played this my 1st semester of college and got an A!
It went on my piano favorites playlist.
It went on my piano favorites playlist.
Saturday, September 3, 2016
Racial Transformations
If Italian people can look black, then Asian people can form some of their look to white.
Like, All the Movies
Why are movies about accepting men born in the early 1950s and people who are like in the middle between good and bad?
It's out.
If you're about to say something someone doesn't want to hear, realize you're out already.
Oxymoron
People are so finished when they are served and are different that they don't want nor need you to talk to them anymore. Like, you know when I say my life is hard, people say it's not.
Where are the movies?
Attractive people are making it by being like social toys with their families, and in the end they admit they aren't all that. That's how you live without making a spectacle of yourself in a movie.
Let's make a movie.
Attractive young people who wanna have more interpersonal experiences do not appear in random, overrated films.
Irish and Polish Americans
Irish and Polish people remind me of our roots in Africa, like they don't wanna have a fuzzy emotional time.
Well would you look at that, The Cat in the Hat
I feel like I'm still respected when I watch movies this old. True, they were mean to the actors and shouldn't have been too, tho. They got carried away with the truth but are not truthful in that way.
"Kids! What's the matter with kids?"
I feel I have to look around every corner. Before, I could feel good even if I wasn't perfect in my thinking or was ignorant of how to react when I process something.
Violence on TV
A white guy who travels across the globe to see monkeys in the islands thinks if I think I'm white I will and/or should be dead. It's like minority/non-white people are taught to treat white people like some future dream. That's just silly. Some minor races can look white if they could figure out what they wanted to do with their life.
I should be President in November.
Trump wants to employ people out of the US to more menial work and canceling factory jobs in America.
Hilary wants America to win over Germany and China.
Hilary wants America to win over Germany and China.
Good Morning America
There is a white blonde lady and a dark brunette lady. The dark brunette lady didn't try to make the white blonde lady less white. The white lady was so insecure about herself that she acted like people like me weren't white despite what we do.
More European
The way being 1/2 Asian makes you more European is that different parts of European genes can feed off the Asian genes in ways different European genes simply clash.
Haphazardly
Do you know people who either do or do not do act good and say, "I did what I did, I'm some person, and I deserve all the attention and affection because I exist and no one else does nor can."
Where's the part that says they can tell others what to do? They're just biting off more than they can chew.
I like Helena Bonham Carter, but she was with Tim Burton during his prime and now has left him. It seemed like everyone was upset Tim Burton was not single. He doesn't seem to go as public now, like online and with things of the nature of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory going over.
Where's the part that says they can tell others what to do? They're just biting off more than they can chew.
I like Helena Bonham Carter, but she was with Tim Burton during his prime and now has left him. It seemed like everyone was upset Tim Burton was not single. He doesn't seem to go as public now, like online and with things of the nature of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory going over.
The Cold Shoulder
I guess I'm not talking to people who think if you bring up a topic it means something simple and there's no story.
Update
New Page - About Me
Maternal Race:
•Chinese/Asian
Paternal Race:
•Up North in the US
•all around Pennsylvania, New York
•Norman-Irish, Dutch, German, French, Swiss, English (Anglo-Saxon,) Irish
•Amish Culture - German, French/Huguenot, Swiss..
•Chinese/Asian
Paternal Race:
•Up North in the US
•all around Pennsylvania, New York
•Norman-Irish, Dutch, German, French, Swiss, English (Anglo-Saxon,) Irish
•Amish Culture - German, French/Huguenot, Swiss..
The South
Did you know people turn on to people from the South without parents from the South but in a negative, excluding way?
Typical
I saw Indian statues, and they looked like ladies who are like jazzy like from New Orleans. I think that's Italian cuz I know a lady who seems like that. I've also seen someone who looked colored who was French, too.
Same Story
It seems people glaze by saying they are affected by something for later just because they are seeing that I "dig it."
It's funny the lengths people go thru
to not be racist and to be in the moment, and then see what everyone else does instead.
Keeping Their Blood Pure or Personal
Why do Germans think they have something more than other cultures and believe we are all divided by our races? I just looked up ethnicities and I think Germany has it in for it the most.
I got the impression the English go by our last names and now that the Germans go by the mother's most maternal line.
I got the impression the English go by our last names and now that the Germans go by the mother's most maternal line.
Friday, September 2, 2016
Something Personal
Do you think you wanna be not too skinny in certain ways? I wonder if that's possible. Apparently, it is.
To Be Worked to Death, Beaten Like a Horse
So, you have to be famous and skinny to get attention from people who aren't necessarily?
Being Authentic
You say, "What's wrong with me?" It's that you're not born in 1997/1998 or your dad/mom is born around 1950.
Setting the Scene
I can see it. Late Boomers know they are popular, but someone like me with a dad born in 1950 is not interesting, tho my dad still is. I become the butt of no joke.
My Own Relations
I can't seem to relate to my family. I don't know why I am tossed out because of things about them that do not apply to me.
The Return to Innocence
I've seen other innocent people do it. If I acted submissive just to give in to a situation, it wouldn't win me back my life.
Question
Is Anne Hathaway, despite whatever her ethnicity is, to England as Bella Thorne is to like every other country? Your majesty! Queen Anne! And Princess Bella! Like Bella said, #FamousInLove.
The Time?
A Princess Diary sequel is on. I saw the best friend, who looked a bit quirky. It seems like the time when things were big.
Key Factors
A normal person is in high school, easily 5'6"+. Brown hair, who cares. It comes time, and they can make it after all.
What My Life Revolves Around
I'm not going to make my life about the mistakes of others.
Like, because I wasn't awake at some point to answer others's out-of-place complaints of matters to do with others or not with me.
It seems like it's all over for me.
Like, because I wasn't awake at some point to answer others's out-of-place complaints of matters to do with others or not with me.
It seems like it's all over for me.
Issue
If I did Kung Fu, I'd probably feel white.
White people feel white all the time.
Did you know they are actually whiter, in some way, so it'd be more like comradery?
White people feel white all the time.
Did you know they are actually whiter, in some way, so it'd be more like comradery?
IMDb - The Soapbox
Should I do kung fu?
Instead of something like ballroom dancing?
It's fast and they can do summersaults and use weapons.
Instead of something like ballroom dancing?
It's fast and they can do summersaults and use weapons.
Thursday, September 1, 2016
Referee/Umpire
People my age born in the 1980s act like it's all good that people don't live out their dreams, like to play bouncy classical music, because it's always available. Kids today born in the 2000s are even worse because in the end no one gets an opportunity.
*referee - I think someone who calls out
*umpire - someone who watches the game closely to keep rules enforced
*referee - I think someone who calls out
*umpire - someone who watches the game closely to keep rules enforced
Bella Thorne on Twitter
😂@KarlousM calls out @bellathorne during 'Talkin' Spit'. Can she hold her water? #WildNOut tonight at 10/9c on @MTV! pic.twitter.com/LUCSQGpqlE— Wild 'N Out (@WildNOut) September 1, 2016
Did you notice the crowd was feeling for her because she's white whereas I've been beaten to death?
Resentment and Loathing
Do people get mad just if I perform or is it that way with everyone who does?
The whole world got together..
As a group, the whole world got together and said, "We tell Christina she is perfect, but we have the secret that we really are and she can't be. We're stand-off-ish and we won't talk to her. Computers are for babies. That's what Mom and Pop wanted."
Danger Caution Warning
Should people make an exception and not learn from me because I'll get in trouble if something goes wrong?
My Little Asian Princess
As a baby..
If my existence is harder as a Eurasian with whatever kind of parents I have, why am I not like a gem rather than treated like I'm also not really that good, not worth it?
If my existence is harder as a Eurasian with whatever kind of parents I have, why am I not like a gem rather than treated like I'm also not really that good, not worth it?
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